Where's my feels thread at?

Where's my feels thread at?

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I'd love some good feels right now

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im feeling feelsy tonight fellas. jsut might feel ya up if you give me a chance.

this ones my new favorite. im on a sort of 'positive' feels trend atm

two yeras ago i started working for a psychic and hes kinda helped me reframe the way i see life.

his approach to everything is spiritual, and about personal growth

dont get me wrong there's been some sad moments, some tough moments.

i had brain damage earlier this year. lost a lot of friends. now i kinda see which ones are the real friends.

but because I lost them I got to focus on making new friends, and that's been a lot of fun too.

with these new friends I'm able to have real conversations about life. my last friends were great for fun, but it was hard to get past the surface. it really showed when the brain damage hit and they just never checked in on me for over a month.

i had a relapse in july, and it was scary, but since then my brain seems to be better than ever. i went to a nude hot springs last week, and there was a slack line, and i managed to go father than anyone there

memory was shit, but since recovering i feel it coming back. its not perfect but things dont just escape the orbit of my brain anymore .still have trouble connecting some dots from before the brai ndamage though.

the hardest part has been writing. I fancy myself a writer, usually scripts that i then film and edit

Had a TBI years ago. Quickest way to find out who you can rely on, even if it's not that bad.

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i filmed a mini series last year. five episodes. its all gone now. had three episodes edited. every single shot was greenscreened so it was a lot of hard work down the drain.

when i first starte writing again, it was bad. i still understood story structure and was even more on point with that then before.

but when it came to writing out the scripts, it was a nightmare, my worst stuff since middle school

there was one script i wrote, about 50% before the brain damage. started again after i had 'healed. you could tell. the second half just made no sense. it was a mess.

one of my friends sent a scripst i wrote for fun (a joker fan film, dont judge) to one of his producer friends though, and he really liked it.

he offered to fund it, and asked that i expand it to a trilogy of short films

he loved aprt 2 and said if part 3 holds up, he'll fund all three. I just finished the first draft yesterday adn im really nervous.

the first two parts were written pre brain damage, and though I've written one 'okay' script since recovering, part 3 is the first really big cohesive hting im tackling

its also reallllly out of my element. its one giant 20 page scene. Usually I can fit an entire episode of content in that.

but i finished the first draft of it, and it feels like the ifrst time im REALLY writing since getting better.

its nice bcause honestly without these projects, I have nothing. I mean i have friends, family, an AMAZING job

but hwen i come home, and im alone, there's nothing for me to do. i dont enjoy tv or movies or video games or anything like that. for the last 10 years all I did when i got home was work on one of my projects

it scares me that i was so bored with nothing to do in recovery. i simply existed. id be excited to finally leave work, then id come home and do nothing.... i didnt even have anyhting to post about

People only think of me as a school shooter/ columbine type character. No one cares about what I have to say, and it doesn't matter how I say it. This is the first impression any one has of me before I say a word. There is nothing I can do to avoid it.

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writing this script has re ignited the fire in my brain, and i need to follow it through. I got notes from the friend who gave it to the produver and am ready to redraft.

but its time i dedicated myself to another series. im meant to tell over arching stories (even if they're not the best ones). so im reviving my failed project and starting over again.

he looks like the type of kids that bullied me in high school

its a bit scary. but im excited to see what i come up with. i just wish i could get someone to commit to spitballing ideas with right fucking now

but all my friends have the notes and by next week im sure we'll be talking ideas.

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in the meantime i have enough of episode 1 and 2 to get started writing. i just wish it was a team work process like my first project

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but i can start tonight, and thats all that matters. I just can't wait to tell a complete story again. I miss that.

That's all i got. thank you to anyone who read. if anyone else wants to post to keep thread alive, that'd be lovely.

>she isn't coming back

mine wasnt traumatic technically, just my brain stem being all out of place indefinitely, but yeah. it really does help you figure it out.

my supposed best friend didnt even text me for a month. and when he did all he said was 'wanna play board games this weekend?'
>cant

didnt hear from him for another two months.

but if its not actually you, then you can change it. i get that a lot too though. mostly from 4cha ntrolls when i post pictures of my face, but i get it.

i think you're being too hard on yourself. it sounds alittle like you enjoy it.

hes the guy from 1 direction

my favorite scene from buffy
>no friends
>no family
>no weapons
>take that away, and whats left
>-swipes at buffy with the sword-
>-she catches it by the fuckign blade-
>-opens eyes-
>me

Jesus these types of pictures always get me

hes smiling with a big old cake that someone spent a lot of time on.

how many birthdays you spend forcibly alone though? and i mean forcibly, not 'OH I TELL PEOPLE I DONT LIKE BIRTHDAYS AND THEN GET MAD WHEN THEY BELIEVE ME'.

Story time.

For a while, at the start of this year I began to find sex sad. Wasn't anything sad about having sex or watching pornography but there was a longing.

I started to feel guilt because of the people I was sleeping with. I felt like I owed them some kind of emotional investment when I didn't feel anything. It's been months since I've last been remotely intimate with someone and I have my reasons...

At the start of the year I had just lost everything. My house, my girlfriend who had just passed away and my job. Every day felt like a regret because I knew I could have stopped it all from happening. Even today I still hold a deep regret.

From time to time I revisit my memories of being with my deceased girlfriend and remember how she was the only one who believed in me. Genuinely. She wouldn't be quick to point out my flaws, she'd always love me for who I was. She'd always leave love notes and little letters which made me so happy.

A few months ago, I'd finally gotten an apartment and stopped living with what few friends I had left. One night I came home and everything hit me. After reading through her letters, realizing how happy she made me and how my life is not even worth living, I realized something else...

Melancholy is the most beautiful. It's bitter-sweet yet the sadness hitting you, realizing how wonderful and beautiful a thing, person or memory is and never being able to have them again... It's a world I live in. I'm happy but there's a sadness so deep inside me that I don't think I can ever be happy again.

When you're with someone so perfect... It's like a standard. Nobody will ever be them.

Bullshit. That smile is contrived and you know it. I mean look how uncomfortable ge looks.

sounds like hindsight bias.

in the moment you didnt care for them at all. then you read letters that guilted you into thinking you were happy.


you can and will be happy again. humans were not designs to fixate on a single romantic partner their entire life.

looks bittersweet to me, but who am i to say? but then again, who are you to say? it looks to me like he just had a long day, got home and everyones singing the happy birthday song so hes a little embarrassed waiting for it to end with a half smile cuz of the awkward.

then the flash catches his eye in just a way that makes it look watery instead of just reflective.

Perhaps... It was a very intense and very intimate relationship. I know my fears and self-doubt got the better of me.

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it happens. im not saying you werent happy iwth her, i think you like to exaggerate your feelings on every end of the perspective. most people do. they want every moment to be intense, every episode to be their 'season finale'.

you loved her. you enjoyed her. but either something wasnt right with her or something wasn't right with you.

now you're alone, and not used to it and nostalgic.

theres feels in there without building them up to be the biggest moments.

Whaddup my sad Bros.
I'll bump with my story.

Just fuck falling in love guys.
This summer was shit. In may me and my girlfriend went on break. It was a mutual decision because I was convinced that it would make us a better couple.
I wasn't always the best boyfriend. I mean I love her unconditionally and did everything I could to show her that. I was the nicest person to her and was there in the best and worst of times. but I was still a lazy, unmotivated piece of shit. And I think the days before we went on break that's when it started to hit me. How much of a let down I was and how accomplished she is I started getting worried that she wanted to replace me and became overbearingly jealous to the point where we got into an big fight. I have been sslowly getting my shit together using my alone time to get into school, get a drivers liscense and make some new friends. Seeing her here and there but when we see eachother I feel the spark is gone. What we had just isn't there and I know she feels it to. She's probably found someone else or at least wants to. We're both young and fell in love as teenagers so I can see overtime why she'd get sick of me. Everyone else in my life has so it's nothing new.

We were supposed to meet up last fridge and talk. I was going to call her out on some shit and break up with her just cause there's so much better for her and it's best for us.
She sure as hell seems to be getting along without me
She hasn't replied to me at all since last fuckinf Thursday when we made plans.
I'm just a mix of emotions. I'm sad and angry and idk what hurts more keeping her around or letting her go.
I've been just focusing on myself lately getting college together and even finally got a gym membership but I still csnt shake this.
Should I just wait for her to text me or should I go in for the kill?

Ugh fuck. Pic someone related.

From the looks of it through the reflection, It seems that "everyone" is limited to a very small group. Judging by the size of that cake, it seems like he was expecting more people to show.

That's a very compelling answer... Perhaps you're right. Definitely a side I've not heard before.

Sorry for the long read. And my shitty typing. Btw

I have a major crush on someone, have for the last 9 months. The thought of him can motivate me, calm my anger, lower my anxiety, etc. All positive changes I've made in the last 9 months, I owe at least partially to him.

I told him I admire him, which I do, several months ago. Last night, I texted him telling him that I had feelings for him, and if he didn't feel the same that was fine, I just wanted him to know. He didn't answer.

I feel so lost. I haven't heard from him in a while. I didn't expect him to answer last night, but I miss him. We've never flirted or anything. He's just so amazing to me. He was my light.

I'm not mad at him, I probably never will be. I don't know what hurts more, losing someone who I looked up to so greatly and who made me feel... sane, or knowing that I don't mean as much to him as he does to me.

>group
>small

are you kidding me mate? if thats the case then hes just being a whiny faggot. it only takes two to have a good birthday (assuming you didnt want to spend it alone).

i think thats the issue with people like you. its the actual definition of a pessimist. a 'small group' isnt enough to be happy about.

half full man. half full.

were all just here to roll around in our feels. i certainly am. sorry if i distracted from that.

it does feel nice to wallow, especially when its bittersweet.

its okay, we stopped reading after
>fuck falling in love

Fair point. But fuck what I said about small group, through some meticulous reverse image searching, apparently no one (besides the one who took the picture) came to his 16th birthday party. But hey at least he got his picture taken. Better than just having google wishing you happy birthday.

sure, but was this really about what he was experiencing, or what you were projectin?

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Maybe a bit of both. Just feelsbadman to see people who want better get nothing. But fuck all that because our birthday boy here is Liam Payne, some singer. So now he can get all the birthday wishes he wants.
Also chek'd.

just got dumped
he told me that he just wanted to be friends with benefits.
its really obvious that it was my fault he stopped likeing me. Im going to his house today till sunday anyway cause Im to much of a beta bitch too tell him to go do one.

I thought I found the perfect girl. Someone who truly understood me. It turned out she was just leading me to a dead end road. I didn't know how hurtful a person can truly be before her. Is this really what life is all about? Brief moments of happiness and long pauses of loneliness and depression?

Tldr: I wanted the feels now I hate the feels

i think a lot of people claim they want better but prefer to feel like the victim.

a lot of people say 'birhtdays dont really matter, i dont like birthdays' then get mad when no one throws them a surprise party for the fifth year in a row.

How do you know when enough is enough? More to the point, how do you stop something you've been doing for so long, seeing less and less value in it but still being emotionally tied to it? Something you've worked at for years with little results?

Just let her go.

let water flow

let it embrace you
let it envelop you

let water flow

let it drown your pain
let it rinse away regret

let water flow

let every drop be a window, light within light without
let every stream be a door, open to new

let water flow

let water be time, continuous and eternal
let water be time, changing and fleeting

let water flow

the native americans had a spirit totem for the bobcat that taught those under its guidance how to be 'alone without being lonely'.

this isn't to say that they were meant to be forever alone, hermits, permavirgins or anything like that. just that they needed to be able to appreciate time on their own more.

if you can be happy on your own, than a break up is just another bump in a road.

regardless you should stop investing so much in relationships and more in you. romance is the most fragile of all the human relationships, yet people act all surprised when they end. people honestly manage to convince themselves that this ones going to be different each and every time, and are shocked when it turns out to be like every other relationship: temporary.

but if you are lonely and depressed anyitme you're single, you need to reevaluate what makes you happy.

been single four years, and i seem to be the only guy in this thread not whining.

depends on what it was.

if he had the audacity to say he just wants to be fwb after legitimately dating you, then hes either massively retarded or you guys werent dating that long and he never actually liked you.

Let's say....studying Japanese with the hopes of living and working there, but seeing/realizing that your decision to do so negatively affected your life in a number of subtle (but still viable) ways.

you think about what you actually DO in life.

and use japan as a vacation spot.

About two years ago I met a girl that I near instantly fell in love with. She was amazing in every way. I worked up the courage to talk to her, and we got to be sort of kind of friends I guess. About 3 months ago she gave me her number- I had been talking to her through other apps earlier. Talking with her calms me down and makes me feel a lot better about myself. I don't talk to he about the REAL shit, but we just talk and have these great simple conversations that were, at least for me, super memorable.

I'm now at a crossroads and don't know what to do. I want to ask her out, I really do, but I also don't want to take the risk and possibly ruin a good sort of friendship or make things awkward in the group we're in. I feel like I'm now condemned to either hold my mouth forever and never say what I have wanted to for a while, or I risk losing her from my whole life. I have a feeling that something is going to happen withing the next few months, so I'm scared.

What if all you *can* do 'is' Japanese, and that's the result of having done nothing but study it constantly (as well as an internship)? Do you keep going, or stop and do/start something else?

not sure what you're getting at man. its not all you CAN do. you can do whatever you want. explore new things hwile studying japanese. then go vacation there when the time comes.

also, its really telling that the chart of life only breaks up 'play' and 'school' with love as opposed to any other meaningful development.

I just want to love someone and care about someone. I want someone to care about me. Deep down I know that I have to just learn to love myself. It's easier to say that I will do it than actually doing it. I always end but up in these failed temporary relationships to distract myself from my true problems.

God damn I need to motivate myself

It's funny; I did just that last year (go on a vacation), but I can't this year because I'm...broke. Only went to Japan on the way back; was in an airport for 1 and a half hours.

Well, it is just hormonal after all. "Love," I mean.

Where is this from? I don't get it.

>someone

thats kind of the problem here. you don't actualyl want someone. you want anyone. anyone who fits the basic requirements that you can drop these feelings on and take feelings from. you (and a lot of people) have managed to reduce relationships to an itch. something you need to scratch. and its hard not to with the way our culture is currently built.

>its easier said than done

so is literally everything. never say this again. ever. its like saying 'yeah, but doing something requires effort'. its life. if you want to start the journey, start now. its definitely easier said than done, but like everything else in life, there is no reason not to do it anyway.

>failed temporary relationships

heres another problem. its like i said in the last post, all relationships are temporary. they cant be failed simply for being temporary. they are jsut relationships, wiht varying lifespans but like all they have to end.

so stop thinking of them in 'fail' simply because they end. think of what you gained and learned and enjoyed for them. just cuz ur mom dies doesn't mean all thsoe childhood memories are pointless. just cuz you break up doesn't mean you have to forget those good times.

not to the person who made that or the people who respost it. they've decided love is the most important thing, the only noteable thing that happens outside of work and play.

A Silent Voice. Girl was bullied for being deaf in elementary school, and her main bully is trying to make it up to her in high school. It's a good read at only seven volumes. Lots of sads, though

Thanks user, this actually made me feel a lot better. Sincerely, Thank you.

"Water"? What a funny way to spell "cheap booze"

Saucerino please?

once you start breaking down these things and understanding what they are, it becomes easier to move on. the whole bobcat thing was how i started my journey.

the whole conversation reminds me of this particular image i think:

a silent voice

I'm retarded, am I not?

just a weeeeeee bit man.

but i had brain damage so...

Next time you're alone with her check the way she acts around you and then compare it to how she is around other people. Women generally give little hints if they are into you

Talking these thing out instead of just thinking about it over and over again makes everything more "manageable." It's stupid now to think that I actually had a real long hard thought of offing myself and just giving up on life.

we all get them as passing ideas. I'm the happiest guy i know and the idea pops in all the time. usually moments of weirdness, and like you said, when im thinking about it over and over. i like posting in these threads cuz it inevitably just makes me talk about what is good in my life. after the brain damage, its all been uphill, kinda re exploring parts that were already there, but making them work again. im lucky in that sense.

Not always true mang. Sometimes they're just as scared to make the first move.

or just ask her fucking out. worst case scenario, its out of your system and you can move on. best case scenario, >tfw gf

Are you homosexual?