I come to you, Sup Forums, in a time of need, with a greentext story as my story

I come to you, Sup Forums, in a time of need, with a greentext story as my story.

>be depressedfag
>be such a fag I go to mental hospital
>be such a fag I quit and just stay in the padded room because I won't do anything except take meds, talk to psychologist, and occasionally eat
>come out one day to eat
>cute grill, let's call her J (she'll be very important) says hi and tells me to come out of the room more often
>decide to quit being depressedfag for other reasons, but that probably helped
>if I want to get out of here I have to do this gay shit and talk to people
>well, I'll have to do it at some point
>start coming out into the "day area" and talking to people one night after a dinner of staring at a clcok
>sit at a table with J and a couple of other grills

>start talking to them, introduce myself, they ask me basic questions and give me some shit about being an emo and having to stay in the padded room
>eat with this group, participate in shit with the sole intention of getting out
>learn more about all of them
>realize that J is basically my optimal girl, but recognize that I'm crazy if I think I have a chance in hell
>try to just treat J like the others
>eventually comes the day I get out, which turns out to be the day most of the other people I've talked to get out
>think that we're all real close (maybe I should've stayed there considering how stupid I was to think this) so we all give each other numbers
>J doesn't give her number to anybody, I just give her hers and instead of giving me her number, she writes her name on my hand and a smiley face
>leave, J and another girl hug me and I hope to continue the life that I lived prior to being quite so much of a depressed emo faggot

>take a couple days to adjust to life again
>text the people who's numbers I had
>we all talk and realize we have nothing to talk about when we're not stuck in an insane asylum together
>we just kind of akwardly try to have a conversation
>this whole time J has texted nobody
>eventually I get a text from J
>before I respond I ask the others if she'd talked to them
>she hasn't talked to them

>why the fuck is a grill talking to me

>don't tell the others that she texted me, just act like I was asking out of curiousity
>text J (I no longer have these conversation for reasons I'll mention later, so all of our conversations are from memory, but they'll be close enough for you) and say hi
>ask her if she has talked to the others
>she says she doesn't have their numbers and that's why she hasn't
>know this is bullshit, but give her their numbers and she says she'll talk to them
>do that small talk shit, see how she's been since she got out, ask her some stuff about herself
>be next day
>ask a couple of the others the next day if J talked to them
>she basically said hi and ignored them
>J texts me

>talk to her, know that she isn't talking to the others
>suspect that crazy bitch likes me for crazy bitch reasons
>continue to talk to her for a couple of weeks
>one day she asks me if I want to go to her place sometime (she lives about 2 hours away)
>say I will
>at this point, being the autistic virgin faggot I am, I figure she has to like me
>go to her place
>we watch a movie (Se7en)
>eat a meal at her house
>bullshit for a little bit
>super akward
>eventually leave
>no hugs, just goodbye

>go a couple of days without texting her so that maybe we could act like we forgot the akwardness
>text her
>no answer
>text her a couple more days later
>she gave her parents the phone because she went back to where I met her
>FUCK FUCK FUCK
>it's my fault, when she talked to me she was fine, it's all my damn fault
>give it a week
>text her again
>parents say she moved and got a new phone, they were going to turn hers off soon
>they say she has my contact info if she wants to talk to me

>doesn't talk to me
>doesn't tell others to talk to me
>none of her friends can tell me anything about her contact info
>accept defeat, decide that knowing everything I do about her and the akwardness that there was being with her, it's probably better for both of us
>she stays in my head for a couple more weeks, decide this is normal, it takes time to forget people, after all, I was talking to her for a couple hours a day, every day, for weeks
>she is still in my head a couple months later
>decide this is an issue, I should try to get closure
>internet stalk her
>find her facebook as well as her sisters
>friend them both
>check a couple days later
>neither friended me back, but they both have had activity
>well, may as well try what I can
>see if I can message J
>won't let me
>message her sister

>tell her sister I want to talk to J
>check messages the next day, realize how akward it would be to talk to J
>just tell J's sister to tell J I said goodbye and thanks for everything
>I sign off facebook for probably a month
>didn't use it much anyway, but just trying to distance myself from J in hopes of forgetting her
>kind of do for a little while
>be two weeks ago
>don't know why, but can't get J off of my fucking mind, check facebook, she still hasn't friended me and her sister never told me she'd deliver the message
>I can sort of not conciously think of J
>but you can't escape your dreams
>literally dream about J
>have remembered dreams probably twice in my life prior to this
>remember every. fucking. dream.
>every. fucking. night.
>every. fucking. time. about. J.

so now I turn to you, Sup Forums, in my time of need, I can't move on and haven't been able to think about other girls normally since I met J

I have no idea what to do, do I try to talk to her and confirm she never liked me?
Do I continue to ignore her?
Do I do some third thing?

this is seriously impacting my quality of life, and I imagine a couple of you faggots have gone through something similar and could help me out, so please, if you can, do

>tl;dr: OP is a faggot, met a girl, girl quit talking to him, he can't quit thinking about girl months later

nobody can help you, only you have the answer. there is no magical right or wrong way to proceed.

this
basically don't kill yourself and don't kill her, her family or friends and everything will be A-OK

I didn't plan on murder, I'm not that kind of crazy, but I can't contact her and I can't forget her
I guess I don't know what I want you guys to say, I just want this to end

you can forget, you just need patience fam

I've always been told half the length of the relationship, but that would be for a romantic relationship, which was closer than we were, but even if it was that long, it's already 10x how long it should be, and it hasn't really gotten better. How will I know that it is getting better?

when you find yourself thinking about her, take your mind off it. go hang out with friends, draw, pick a waifu and shit talk all others in the waifu threads. as long as you keep your mind busy you can get over everything

OP, do you have a discord or steam I can talk to you at so this thread doesn't get deleted

I guess that's true, but I just feel like it crossed some line with my dreams. I may attach more meaning to that than it deserves though.

I have some legitimate advice and a story to tell if you provide one of these

I think my discord is zackwebs

I need your four digit tag too or else I can't do it

bumping to check if
and
got my discord

#4259

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