I'm not talking about minor depression. I'm talking about crippling loneliness and anxiety and don't-want-to-wake-up-in-the-morning depression.
I recently quit my job that I hated and although I've suffered from depression for quite a while I'm now at the point where I can't even handle the most mundane things like getting up in the morning or taking a shower or anything, really. I feel dead inside. I spend my days thinking of all the fuck ups of my past, people I was mean to, people that were mean to me, things I missed out on, loneliness, etc etc
I've never been this down in my life.
I just quit smoking both cigs and weed but still, shit, I just can't even deal with normal day to day tasks. I'm back living at home and feel like such a pathetic loser. I can't find a job that I like. I have no gf. No friends. And yet everyone expects me to suck it up and act like it's all right.
I know there are a lot of trolls and stupid as fuck people on Sup Forums so i'll ignore them.
However I know there's also a lot of highly intelligent people here who have been where I am right now and have most likely beaten it.
Any advice, tips, anything really would be nice.
I spend my days drinking until I find any semblance of happiness. I can't do this anymore.
Jason Hall
1. Quit drinking 2. You probaly listen to sad music when down, stop that 3. Try your hardest to help someone in the family, doing the dishes 1 time is enough for a week. 4. Ask your parents to encurage you if you socialize with them/help them with dishes 5. Try to write down your thoughts when they are as suicidal/saddest 6. Sorry for my grammar
Cooper Reed
understand depression is caused by the holder of the illness and not caused by your external environment. Only way to get over it is to live a more positive and fulfilling life. Find confidence in the things you do everyday and learn how to become addicted to self improvement. Find something you are really passionate about and just work at it, set goals and give back as much as possible. We don't live for ourselves so why not make someone else happy if you can't make yourself. One thing that helped me was the art of creation, humans are born to do two things and that is create and care. You have so much to give to the environment around you, being born human is a gift and responsibility.
Robert Reed
That happy part is what i meant with helping with a simple task as dishes, it can improve ones mental state alot when you see someone smiling at you for helping them. It is a huge confidence boost
Lincoln Lee
Yeah. I bought 5000 IU vitamin D pills from the grocery store. Felt better after the first pill. Went and got a blood test and found I had low Vitamin D from being a basement dweller. Replenished my levels taking 1 capsule a day for a month. Stopped being depressed.
Thomas Turner
Maybe you're the type of person who is better off a lone wolf. I can't help but feel a need to have friends and company yet when I did have friends I never found myself happy to be with them. I avoid contact with other people and quite often would look for my own peace and tranquillity. It's not weird if you like being alone and you should be happy that you aren't like others, I know I certainly am. So maybe it's not so bad being alone, so long as you have a few close friends to keep your sanity.
Sebastian Flores
I quit my job due to depression. I fucking hated it and the thought of going into the building was making me suicidal.
But quitting was a mistake. I know that now.
I should've changed jobs. Not just quit. It's coming up to a year now since I quit and I am worse now than I was back then.
Seriously, man, get another job now. No matter what it is. Otherwise you'll spiral into a worse funk than you're already in, and find it harder to get out.
Thomas Bailey
To add to this, set goals for yourself to achieve every day. Start small though and take pride in just accomplishing the small things. Pretty soon you'll find yourself trying bigger things
Ryan Morgan
Thank you all for your responses.
Do any of you just get too far inside your own head and can't stop thinking of the past or things you could have done differently?
It's absolutely maddening and it is really causing me to have low self esteem and even far more anxiety and depression. I just can't take it anymore.
I never understood why people are suicidal until I recently started getting so damn down on myself lately....I could never do it myself but I definitely understand why some people take their own life, it gets to the point where you just can't stop thinking of your regrets in life.
I have it a lot better off than most. However I'm still extremely depressed and down. It's nuts.
I'm lurking and will post from time to time but thank you to those who posted already. I appreciate the responses and will keep lurking.
Thanks guys..
Nathan Moore
It's really all dependant on what kind of depression you mean. Major, long-term, situational depression, being aware of the tragedy of man being trapped in a body and mind that longs for what it can never have and would never satisfy the longing should it be attained, whatever.
A lot of normie retards who "beat" some sort of episode of depression will pound down on you with some "just will yourself to do the things that hurt you and if it doesn't work then it's your fault" sort of garbage. I don't think their sort of depression is in any way similar to what you describe since theirs is just "having a problem and being upset about it" where yours is brain-based or some shit. Basically, if someones' advice sounds like they're just bragging and belittling you, they are. There can be a lot of motivations for this and not all of them are good, though the person giving the advice may think it is.
I don't know if you're poor or in a bad living situation, but drugs are cool if you can get them easy. DXM is a cheap and legal dissociative that helped me at least experience some sort of relief and perspective. Learning to be alone is cool. Reading philosophy (if you're interested and not out of obligation) is cool. Sup Forums can be cool too even. Here's a book that's cool if you're the neurotic pessimist-type. I don't think there was an ultimate point to this post.
Luis Nelson
All right. Tomorrow I have to go to a psychologist for depression sucks because my girlfriend broke up with me. She left me for another man.
I have lost 10 kilograms, I can not sleep and I have anxiety ... So the answer to your question, YES.
Bentley Barnes
Depression for 15 years Major depression for the first 10. It never goes away you just learn to cope. at this point the only reason i go on living is to see what happens next.
Cooper Ross
Going through this right now. I pick myself apart even about times where i was happy because I dont feel like i deserve to be happy
I have myself convinced im fucking retarded and socially unaware, when im so anxious half the time i just whisper so no one fucking hears ne
Chase Cox
I know exactly what you're talking about, I feel as if i'm going completely insane or something because I just can't stop thinking. Alone time is great, but often you lose touch with reality an begin living in your own echo chamber, your own thoughts begin driving you insane. I've felt like this since my early teen years and now i've reached the point where i doubt i can get out of it.
This video helped me (Doesn't necessarily have to be about relationships)
I was suicidal until I started exercising. It really changed my life. Although I still go through therapy to take on the underlying issues, exercise has helped give me the energy to pull through it all. I can't recommend it enough.
It's not about losing weight or hitting a dream goal, it's about waiting for life to figure itself out... And sometimes that's all it takes.
Owen Smith
Only look back to the past if you wanna get back there.. you don't I'm sure..The past is the best teacher, but def. not the best place to live in!
Carson Carter
the best time to plant a tree was 15 years ago. the second best is now.
Wyatt Mitchell
>beat depression Buddy, it's not something you "beat" Get on some antidepressants. Get a job and get back into it. That may take less time than you think. Stop giving a fuck about the things in life that you don't have, none of that shit (besides a job) matters in the end. 420 blaze it once in a while if you want to. Why t f would you quit smoking knowing that you have depression? Just don't start drinking or result to doing opiates, those will fuck your tender ass up. Above all else, get some pro help user.
Xavier Ortiz
what a load of destructive crap
Nolan Jackson
Oh and for fuck sake man get off Sup Forums.. I mean it's not as bad as it used to be but holy shit user
Jacob Bennett
As loneliness/depression/suffering is there, learn about it, not according to someone else nor to your own conclusions about it but look at it afresh. Through the conlcusions or concepts about it we run away from it and never look at the actual thing. In the end we become callous and cynical. The same thoughts run through our head over and over again mechanically so we lose touch with the living reality of it. For example just sit for a while and just be still and look, feel the feeling as much as you can,watch the thoughts passing by without commenting them, it won't hurt you whereas suicidal thought if taken seriously may.