New feels thread

New feels thread

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I wish it would snow. But that's not going to happen because I live in Texas.

I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder the other day

I'm sorry. I've had it since I was little 13. Was only diagnosed at 15 after my parents finally noticed the cuts/scabs on my arms.

I work a dead end job. I'm supporting myself and my disabled fiance. We were forced to move back in with my mom because I just can't afford to support us both. I've phased out most of my friends. I want to leave and feel good about life again. I hate going in and working 13 hour days 6 days a week only to give it all away to keep us in the green. I'm trying to hard not to resent her inability to work but it gets hard. I used to be an alcoholic so I'm trying not to drink but that's also hard. Life kind of sucks.

Tell me more. How is she disabled? I work a dead end job as well, but I'm single. I'm a little jealous of you, regardless of everything else. Wish I had someone in my life that cared about me in that way.

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Physically, we're not sure. Something up with her back. She can't stand or walk for extended periods of time. MRI and doctors still havne't turned up anything so we're kind of at a loss as to where to go.

She was also born 9 weeks premature and had a learning disability growing up so doing on the fly math and counting up coins for shit like running a register is really hard for her. she has trouble doing any sort of customer service work because of crippling anxiety and depression.

She's so incredibly creative and artistic, but she can't realistically live off that. There's a million artists out there and very few are lucky to get recognized.

That's really hard. I don't have any advice for you. I just want you to know that I think you're doing the right thing. Take care of your future wife. I would kill for someone as dedicated as you are to her.

Anyone else out there?

Bro, thanks for that. You have absolutely no idea how hard I needed to have someone tell me that. Sometimes it's easy to lose sight of why I'm doing what I'm doing.

I am really glad to have been able to help you.

I just get a camping permit for up in the mountains in Colorado, throw a gun, tent, sleeping bag, spare set of clothes, and other camping gear into the car, buy a bunch of weed once I get up there, and spend the weekend.

Same, but I'm not a cutfag. The only thing going for me wast that I looked good, and I didn't want to ruin that.

how is that music for feels?

fucking christ you really should just die like your parents say

Really m8. It's not supposed to be sad. It's like drinking with weed. Not the same thing, but they compliment each other.

Trying to hard, m8

not
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>implying I have parents
0/10 tryharder

That's my other fav track from that movie.

Any recommendations for something similar? There's a lot of vaporwave that's like Vangelis, but not quite the same.

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Bump

i want to die

I've never found anything quite like them
I think they're just a product of the time
maybe "Jean Michel Jarre"

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Go on.....why do ya want to an hero?

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have you seen if its transverse myelitis

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yep. how goes it? Haven't been to Sup Forums in forever. Came looking for a fells thread.

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Just don't be an ass and ruin the movie for everybody else on your way out.

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This is such a load of horse shit.

>the loneliest people are the kindest
I've met tons of lonely people who were complete, bitter assholes with no regard for anybody's feelings but their own.

>the saddest people smile the brightest
I've known many sad people who were so caught up in their own problems they didn't care who they dragged down with them.

>the most damaged people are the wisest
If they're so wise, why don't they fix themselves?
Nobody has to be anything they don't want to be, you just have to put the fucking work in to be something else. It requires effort and persistence.

You want to turn your fucking life around?
Stop fetishizing your mental illness.

People can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness. It isn't just a song lyric, it's the truth.

If you are kind, smile brightly, have wisdom, and try to help people... you're just an old fashioned good person.
Kudos to you for being a good person, but you'd be the same person without your pain. It is holding you back from being even more than you are now. It is not the source of your goodness... you are good in spite of it.
You are strong in spite of it.

Realizing this strips your illness of power and helps you fight it.
You can get mad and ignore this advice and continue your pity party but it never gets easier.
Start tonight. Take a baby step. Let go of one little thing and begin your fight.

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I don't think I've ever head that played so well

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iif dubs then so be it

How is life for everyone today?
Same old days just a new day another time to alter my mind off of this day through self harm.

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Yup. Wish I had a smoke.

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This music is beautiful, thank you so much for it. hearing 'memories of green'.

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Still here. Listening to everything.

Oi, how many others are just listening to the music?

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Mozart makes all other classical look like trash in comparison. I'm deeply in love.

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Johnny Cash feels me good

Just said goodbye to my bf at the train station
He thinks we will see eachother over cristmas
I kinda wish i could hold on just a little longer to make that a reality
But i cant, this is the last time i will ever see him
Im sorry Leo

Today I'm just caught up over the fact that I struggle with changing my bad habits. I can picture myself improving, making changes, putting in effort and then reaping the rewards. Instead, I lay alone on the couch all day jerking off and drinking. I should be sleeping right now but seeing as I'm hooked on Sup Forums I'd rather be here scoping out naked pictures of people I don't know. When I wake up I'll barely make it to work on time and then say to myself "Tonight I'm going straight to sleep. No procrastinating this time." Ha. See you guys tomorrow night.

>i've come to cope with the fact that it never really goes good
>decide killing myself is selfish, family and some friends + too much of a pussy
>"maybe when i grow up i'll probably fade out, then i'll be aight to do it"
>glimpses of hope here and there, but they eventually fade
>decided to spend my time helping others, being extremely kind, complimenting
>Random 1 "Ahaha user, you're so funny."
>Random 2 "No user, don't say that I'm so ugly aha."
>basically just am trying to make other people happy with who they are
>Random 3 "Thanks for helping me through this and that user, remember, if you need anyone to talk to I'm here for you too."
>"Nah, I'm good, but thanks."
>give advice but can't take any
>Spent hours with a girl on Skype, eventually bringing up relationships and shit
>She hides the fact that she likes one of my closets friends, he's into her as well
>being a GREAT GUY I AM I'm telling them shit about each other
>talking about this makes me feel kinda sick, especially to her.
>My closet friend knows I helped him out "Oh yeah, keep telling her things about me."
>"o-ok..."
>I spend way more time with her then this guy, and it's not like he's a bad person because he even asked me in-advance if I had a thing for anyone, clearly hinting at her
>"Nah, ahaha."
>whydoidothistomyself.webm
>my life revolves around others interactions
>all my self-worth comes from other people
>I have nothing to offer to myself
>don't even have the energy to play vidya games anymore, and this was before i met her
>i'm miserable and going to feels threads have started being routine

I could go into detail about the girl if you guys want, 'cause there's a lot more to it - but no promises. Also, the greentext was more of a summary, never really do 'em but I find they're more "fun" to read.

Almost had a tear, there. Fuck you sir.

>>I spend way more time with her then this guy, and it's not like he's a bad person because he even asked me in-advance if I had a thing for anyone, clearly hinting at her
>>"Nah, ahaha."
>>whydoidothistomyself.webm
Ouch dude.

guys...

what do if the girl wants you but at the same time feels obliged to stay with her ex?

Nobody who cares about someone else abandons them with thoughts of their own worthlessness and unanswered questions in this horrible, empty world by leaving them alone in that way. Don't make it sound noble. You're loving nobody that you're planning to abandon.

When you already had depression and now this

Target why you hate your job and find one you like. I used to be on here all the time, but now I'm too focused on improving my life through working that I don't have the time to sit here and swap porn tabs.

I'm feelin to some bon iver right now

anyone have any suggestions similar to like, bon iver, iron and wine...etc etc. I want to feel

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>It's hard to find it when you knew it
>When your money's gone
>And you're drunk as hell...

...holy fuckin shit user

what do you plan on doing?

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Become better then her ex I guess? Get those feelings targeted at him to you.

How? Idk, ask to do stuff, just you two like movies or some shit. Just casually bring it up and see where the convo' takes you, it doesn't have to technically be a date either.

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any other anons with daddy issues?

this one gets me

>Become better then her ex I guess?
and what if i already am? like, she doesn't have feelings of arousal around him but with me she has, she likes texting me frisky stuff while drunk which she couldn't do with him, for example

nice dubs

making other people happy can give you purpose and make you want to come back for more. But be straight-up with her. She's your close friend, you don't have to talk him up to her, especially if you're interested. Who says she's trying to date online, anyway? No pressure. Feels threads give me time to sort my feelings after living for others all day. And fantastic music, apparently.

Greentext what's going on? Doesn't have to be long.

The wolves part 1 and 2 by Bon Iver

Racked up 800+ plays in a month when my girlfriend left me 11 months ago.. maybe thats autist idk

I still really miss her

My ex and her best friend had a falling out when she found out she cheated on me

I slept with her bestfriend last weekend and think I'm falling for her.. I dont know if thats a good or a bad thing

Hope you're okay user

You don't want her to bounce from relationship to relationship. if she's mature she'll try to work it out, if it doesn't work out for them, see if you still like the person she is after they've been over for awhile. Don't change yourself for a girl. Change yourself for the you you want to be.

Flume by Bon Iver

There's so much drama around the situation that I wish it that easy, man. I've dug a hole and slipped right into it, but thanks. Best thing to do from what I can see is ride it out because my friend circle is really small and if I fuck this up then I'll never end-up going outside.