Alright Sup Forums so I decided to come here cause I ain't got nothing much better to do. Pretty desperate I know

Alright Sup Forums so I decided to come here cause I ain't got nothing much better to do. Pretty desperate I know.
>Be me
>Currently 11AM
>Only 4-7 friends to talk to (4 committed the rest come by whenever)
>In college
>Depressed
>Feeling as if I will never amount to anything
>Potential?
>Got fired from last job and have yet to find a new one even during the holidays
>Friends all have others to go to
>Lonely
>Lonely and depressed thoughts kick in
>Looks back on shit relationship endings
>Gets called clingy by my best friend
>She's off flirting and playing games with a bunch of other online guys
>Completely different tone from how she talks to me
>Only comes to me with problems and has boyfriend
>Possible love interest but it's meaningless
>Just feels irrelevant and replaced at this point
>Just inadequate as anything.
>%20 on contemplating suicide
>%80 I live and these are just first world problems

Your take Sup Forums? Also agedfag but never post. Won't be too surprised if this thread slowly dies out from lack of replies. Feels thread by the way

Hey buddy it'll be ok. I have no advice cause I'm in uni and in a similar position also. It's hard to make friends, and you just get so used to feeling lonely and cut off that it's hard to even imagine making those connections and not just being isolated all the time. You just get used to it but still it never stop sucking. Or at least, that's been my experience. Don't give up though. There are always people out there like you, and you never know when you're going to meet someone who changes something for you. Hang in there buddy. People like us have to believe that things are going to turn around.

Thanks man.

I know the feels, bro. You wouldn't believe what we gotta do for a meal these days.

Go start lifting and work on yourself. Do you actually expect people to be attracted to you when you are at your lowest point? Improve yourself and people will come. Remember that nothing in this life is permanent - love, friends etc, they are just the background you see from your car window as you drive towards whatever awaits you in the future. Give yourself a slap and start working towards your better self. You won't solve your problems on Sup Forums. Life is a fight, don't back out and take it like a man. Do not be afraid of failure - we grow through the mistakes we make. You'll make it. Now close this shitty ass website and go make something of yourself to be proud of.

Also fuck this pussy and what she said. Don't "believe that things are going to turn around" fucking grab em by the balls and turn them around. You are the only variable in this world that you have full control over, fucking use this power and don't wait for cookies on a silver plate like this fuck.

Acquire 200 milligrams of MDMA, go to a rave, dance your ass off, meet and talk with new people there, feel the connection for others and yourself and by tomorrow you'll have a completely different view on life

Not trolling or anything inb4 conservative pussies come spamming drugs r bad kys

I have had a thing going with this girl from my Uni since Halloween. Physical stuff but no sex, because she's had a really rough past to the point of anxiety attacks on that front. She's scared of a relationship because of her past, and now I'm pretty sure I won't get a chance. This is the girl of my dreams, and today she told me that when she said I love you, she meant as a friend. She told me that I need to stop HER from doing anything physical, and I'll do that because I want her to be happy. I thought things had finally stabilized 2 days ago, but now they're collapsing around me. I don't know what to do guys. I really need a drink.

Time for me to bump

No connections to anyone that knows about raves lol. Closest thing to that is parties with drinks and they're nowhere near my area

Thanks for the feels bump. Fan of Dandy too

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Thanks for the support. It is kinda fucked up how she called me clingy but I was trying to help her with another problem she was having with her deployed boyfriend

Anyone lurking? I really need some advice.

OP here. Just chilling out on the thread for a bit.

Watch porn and jack off

Make yourself feel better

Tried that but didn't work before and this time I can't even concentrate on it. Yeah it's that bad. Thanks for the advice though user

>go to psychiatric hopsital in september
>a bit later a cute girl is checked in
>instantly become friends
>she has a bf in military service but w/e
>she's into anime and vidya
>watch anime and horrors movies every evening with her
>she's checked out
>keep writing in fb
>i get checked out
>we watch anime at my place
>catch feels
>tell her about feels and that i don't want to see her anymore cuz it hurts
>she doesn't respect that
>keeps insisting we watch anime
>one time out of the blue calls my number and tells me to open my door
>literally forces herself into my place
>when she leaves says "you should've not given your address to a crazy person"
>make it very clear i don't want to see her anymore
>she still keeps asking if she can come over
>finally tell her if she comes i will kiss her
>she says if i kiss her she will punch me
>say ok
>she says ok
>she comes at my door
>i kiss her
>it's a real, long kiss
>spend magical evening together cuddling and watching anime and kissing
>walk her to her bus stop holding hands
>next day she tells me she has to be with her bf

i KNOW it would've never been a good idea in the first place and i KNOW what she did was terribly for me and the bf, she's fucked in the head but so am i and she made me feel alive for at least a moment

your problem is that you love her but you can't do anything to get closer to her right? well it sucks, but you only have two options: either stay with her and maybe, eventually, you'll get somewhere with her (or forget your love about her), or get over it fast (which is hrd anyway, but harder if you keep on seeing her). plus you're in it since halloween, that's really a short while, things can evolve
for now, I'll stuck to the first option, but I'm spineless,
also, remember that your idea that "she is perfect" or "the one" or anything is just what you think of her right now. 2 monthes ago i broke up with my girlfriend of over 1.5 years, and she was (and our relationship was) perfect at that time. she was completely perfect, yet i got over it (more or less)

OP here. Yeah user that sucks a lot. Pretty similar situation we're in where everything seems nice and dandy at some point but then the BF card is played and kicks us back into reality. Honestly, only thing I can tell you is just push through or try to settle down by not repeating that same day or anything like it. These thing happen and hopefully it'll resolve itself.

bump

ill take a hint from Adonis for this story, so ill be calling myself Apollo.
>be me 19
>was checked into a mental hospital
>had paranoid schizophrenia, Bipolar Depression, and multiple drug addictions.
>i was seriously fucked up when i got there
>there was one TV in the building
>the more stable patients could go to a common room
>take full advantage of not being a wacky steve and sit in a chair by the TV
>the majority of the channels we got were cartoon
>crazy people are apparently really fond of cartoons
>so i changed the channel to the news
>however shit was always playground rules, so if some guy who was really off his rocker wanted to watch fucking spongebob id have to give it up.
>anyway a few days later a girl was admitted
>i was sitting by the TV when she sat next to me
>exchanged a few words about politics
>talked for a bit
>so i asked her "so hey whats your name"
> she responded "jennifer, but call me jen. so whats yours"
>i said "Apollo, i hope ill see you around.
cont?

well, if you think it's worth it, please do. not op, but i'll be around for a bit

ill continue in another thread this one will 404.