I'm 25 and just had my appeal against my university expulsion rejected

I'm 25 and just had my appeal against my university expulsion rejected.

Give me a reason not to kill myself.

>why were you expelled?
I made these threads
desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/15202084
desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/17207990
and this blog (see February and March 2015 entries)
poleaboo.wordpress.com/

This apparently violated this law
legislation.gov.uk/asp/2010/13/section/39/enacted

One girl complained to the uni who then called in the police and then they brought the second girl in and then they arrested me
The uni suspended me until the trial
I plead guilty 5 months later because my legal aid solicitor was shit
Then the university suspended me for another YEAR due to accusations against me
There was no evidence but the police placed me on bail for a year
Nothing came of it

When I finally got my misconduct hearing, I was repeatedly called a stalker and asked if there were any mitigating circumstances that should be taken into consideration
2 weeks later, I was officially expelled
a month later I had my appeal denied - They didn't even really engage the points I raised, they just handwaved everything away by saying their opinions trumped mine

Also, I don't care about the dox info on the letter, nothing seems to matter anymore

Good.

You strange dog headed cunt. Fucking autism for days.

>go full retard
>cry when shit happens because you're a full retard
What are you retarded?

If your story checks out op: haha! Opfer.

Did I really do anything that retarded?

Yeah you did, retard.

lol as if you got charged for that. What a backwords country you live in. For real though you are kind of a creep, thats definitely secret diary stuff not web blog stuff.

You calling me a liar?

It helped that I had a shit solicitor and confessed because I thought I was on the hook for something more serious

lol I read your blog the last time you posted this. Do you realize how abnormally insane you are? Your problem is you're completely introverted - you focus and think ONLY about yourself. You are unable to empathize with others. It's a horrible trait that you should get serious psychological help for.

Basically he went full retard.

I only think about myself because I don't go outside, I don't interact with other people, they pretty much don't exist

Though I do show extreme empathy when actually confronted by others misery

HEY RETARD

tl;dr? Why were you arrested is all I want to know.

I caused "fear or alarm" via my posts

He stalked his room mate and filmed her/went through her room and read her private diary, among other things

See
He's a white nigger

Not going to read any of the stupid shit you've posted from other threads, either put the story in a nut shell or no ones going to bother.

Whatever the situation is I'd imagine you fucked yourself when you pleaded guilty to something you didn't do. Regardless of how bad it looked, you never ever plead guilty to something you didn't do.

You deserve the full extent of the accusations and charges against you for being a beta cuck faggot.

>should I kill myself

No, you god damn loser, you wouldn't anyways because you are a walking vagina. Just find something that makes you happy and lock in on it. Pursue education elsewhere or just try to find a easier living. Just don't give up, because in time this will blow over and your life will repair itself. You massive beta faggot.

> I only think about myself because I don't go outside, I don't interact with other people, they pretty much don't exist

Gee, you think this may be part of the problem, you fuck?

Believe me or not - but I'm actually a mental health therapist. Again, I read your blog. You show clear signs of pathology - most likely a deep rooted personality disorder. You seriously, seriously need to seek professional help.

Never got charged with any of that so it's irrelevant

yeah, I'm on the fence about booking and appointment

How should I explain myself?

I'm 25 and can't afford to go back into education and I have less than 1 year of work history

The only thing making me happy right now is playing Pokemon Moon

Its not irrelevant though, is it? Get your fucking head out of the sand, its not her fault you're a permavirgin. Even on here, an anonymous message board where nobody can see you, you give off serious rape vibes

Full fucking aspie retard. Your fucked in the head. Plead insanity and check yourself into an institution where you can learn to use glue and glitter to make happy paintings you fucking human failure.

You can start by explaining your current situation and what led to it. Give the therapist access to your blog and the threads as well - they will be valuable in treating you.

Wasted 5 minutes reading your blog,

You seem like an ungrateful shit.

You actually railed that your Dad came in and asked you what you were doign with your life? Um. That's his job dumbass. If you want privacy, get a job, move out, and be an adult.

Holy crap.

OK but what do I want out of therapy?

Do I want to feel better or do I want something else?

If you have a genuine mental issue... ( which seems the case ) don't claim JSA, claim employment support allowance.. that will get you maybe 6 months of no bullshit until you need to be assessed... you will likely lose the assesment, so appeal, which will fail; then take it to tribunal and argue for Sextion 29 exceptional circumstance... that should win you support allowance for up to 2 years, which is £500 a month.

With that much money, you can sort your shit out; and as an unemployed person, you can get aid to access an Open University course; only down side, is you don't get that "student experience ", which these days is fannying about crying that Jeremy Corbyn is being bullied

KILL YOUR PARENTS OR DIE

as a fellow benefit fraudster i agree with this man

Exhibit 1:

"He asked when my next driving lesson was, I told him I misremembered the date I started my job so I haven’t booked one yet. He became abusive after hearing this, as if I was somehow seriously at fault for this "

"I misremembered the date..."

"as if this was somehow my fault"

...and there's just more of this. If you forgot the date, it's YOUR fucking fault.

Christ... Grow up.

How is anyone but yourself supposed to figure out what YOU want out of therapy?

What DO you want? Do you want to keep living like you are - a reclusive, paradoxically self-hating narcissist and misanthrope? Or do you want to live like a happy, productive human being?

Which option is most sperg-friendly?

But can a therapist really help me become become a functional and productive human being? They can't help me get a job

All they can do is make me happier by giving me someone to take to and some pills

>711702823
top kek, im not on your side couse im from poland, fck you. but i understand you. but fck you. ppl are like sharks, if thay dont move forvard thay drown, and you drawn my friend sorry for my englando

Because old copyasta is old

I'm not racist against Poles even though that's what people claimed

I wouldn't have called myself "Poleaboo" is I hated Polish people

I just helped my disabled brother win against the fuckers... a lot of head work if you don't have charity organisations to help.

But that initial near on 6 months before you get the first assessment seems to go a long way to helping people sort their shit out.

Therapy is more than talk and pills. You clearly don't know much about the profession. A good therapist can work with you on goal setting - figuring out what you want to accomplish. They can provide cognitive behavioral techniques to help you restructure maladaptive thoughts. They can provide motivational interviewing to help you resolve ambivalence about decisions for change. They can connect you to services to help you find a job, or provide you with assistance in writing resumes or practice techniques for interviewing.

Honestly, from what I've read of your blog, unless you suffer from extreme anxiety or depression, medication won't help you anyway. You'd benefit more from intense one on one or group therapy.

In any event, therapy won't do shit unless you put in at least some effort and keep an open mind. So consider that.

wow. you are stupid af, what is your iq? 90?

I slightly read tgrough your blog, you say you are abused. In what way?

And what did you exactly do? Secretly make photos?

Some here say it as a joke, but I 'm serious: do you have autism?

OK but in the initial meeting, what exactly do I say my goal is/the reason for getting therapy.

I want my life to magically be fixed but I can't say that, right?

i dont care, im racist towards you, fck you cunt

PSA: Never ever plead guilty unless you absolutely are and want to minimise the damage.

Pleading out when you are innocent, even with no jail time, means you are considered guilty from that point forth. You well have a criminal record, you will be considered a criminal.

If your lawyer is shit, change lawyers. Demand a mistrial due to their incompetence. but do not take the plea and do not represent yourself.

>I slightly read tgrough your blog, you say you are abused. In what way?
My dad says cruel things and the university/police treated me unfairly

>And what did you exactly do? Secretly make photos?
Post facebook pics and mean messages on /r9k/

>Some here say it as a joke, but I 'm serious: do you have autism?
NO

someone fucking tl:dr me

It was 1 month before the trial and I only just learned my lawyer hadn't looked at the case

"...it torments me that a dozen or so people have abused me and they have gotten away with it, the only ones who know of the crimes they’ve committed are themselves and the few thousands of people who have read my blog. At this point all I want are two thing, 1) for my pain to end and 2) either the nation to know my story and/or for justice to be served."

Sounds like you've been the one abusing others. You need to reevaluate your life and get some help. No use in berating you, you've done this to yourself already.

Please get professional help. It sounds as though you definitely have some kind of mental illness.

You can say whatever you want as long as it's honest - a good therapist will work with you to help figure out what you want during the initial assessment - that's part of their job. If you want you life to be "magically fixed" then say that. Don't tell your therapist what you think they want to hear, you moron. That defeats the entire purpose. Tell them what YOU want.

You say no about autism, sometimes autistic people do the thinfs you did without malicious intent but with a lesser empathic undersranding of what it is like for the other. If you aren't autistic, do you just not care when intruding their life, while knowing it is wrong?

Stop with the fb pics and mean messages, it is called harrasment, if somebody did that with you it would be harrasment too.

Your dad is an asshole. Go see a therapist and discuss all of this.

Legal aid lawyers are up to their ears in shit and jaded as fuck. They are low quality, but they do still have to do their jobs. If they are not, you are allowed to demand a change or appeal any decision made under their duty.

It's weak sauce, but if you get a good lawyer, you can appeal your plea under bad legal advice. It's a long shot, but it might stick if you can prove they hasn't looked at your case.

"She's a fucking whore and I hate the stupid slut, I'm uploading the spycam footage to various porn streaming sites later (won't post link, thread would be deleted), will also be sharing her facebook photos to aid the detox, I used to "horde" those pics, made me feel like those were private pics between me and her but like I said, I'm over it and I'm over her, enjoy them, I don't care if others can enjoy her smile, it's hollow, it hides an ugly soul

Will also be messaging her on facebook to let her know that I'm done with her

Thanks for all the help you have given me regarding this cunt

You have no idea how great I feel right now, it's like I can finally breath again, I've got some of my confidence back"

OP, you have some serious issues and this alone makes you deserving of expulsion, if not prison time for invasion of privacy and exploiting a female. Wish I were the prosecutor in this case, because your autistic ass would be roasted.

>but I'm actually a mental health therapist
No you're not. Come on, you really think anybody would fall for that? A mental health therapist? On Sup Forums? Give me a break.

>You know what well adjusted well paid medical professionals like to do in their spare time? Surf an image board filled with trap porn and horse cock porn and 80% re post dead meme threads that have been posted here everyday for years without changing at all.

It's more likely that I will get struck by lightening in the next 5 seconds than you being a real mental health professional. Maybe you should get help from one since you like lying to people just for fun.

Posted a girl's pics and shit just to spite her, all because she made a weird face at you?

Who cares if it was your roommate, if nothing mattered truly you would never have done this.

are you that cross dressing muslim?

If it was harassment then I'd have been charged for that

But I didn't

I don't do that anymore anyway

OK, got it

What makes you think I'm not, besides your baseless assumption that a therapist would never be on Sup Forums? You can ask me anything you want for verification minus anything that would identify me if it makes you feel better.

>muslim
not anymore

>crossdressing
I take pills, so I'm trans

Stop calling him autistic. I 'm REALLY autistic and I absolutely don't like it that you compare us with him. The op has serious problems with affective empathy, possibly emerged after trauma or abuse. He needs therapy.

You pled guilty you fucking idiot. They don't need evidence. Don't you think about the consequences of what you do?

Also - "well paid medical professionals" - you have no clue what you're talking about. I'm an underpaid mental health professional - not medical. You know nothing of the profession, nor what would constitute "well-adjusted"

Oh I see, your religion has fucked you up and taught you that abusing women is normal. I hate the haddith. I wish you luck de-islamizing.

It doesn't matter if I'm guilty or not, it's a minor crime

someone explain whats going on i dont wanna read those stupid threads.

In fact it doesn't surprise me. Many 'm ental health issues visit Sup Forums, so he can study these sick guys well here. Just today I reported a picture of some sick guy to the FBI with what looked like a corpse with 0 reverse image results

you have a whole lot of race/gender cards you can play. the system is biased towards you, take advantage of it

An aspiring autist went full retard.

It doesn't matter how many cards I have to play if I have no one to play against

The uni kept shutting me down and ignoring my arguments

While visiting Sup Forums does give me an interesting look into the phenomena of anonymity and the human psyche, I'm mainly here for dank maymays and porn.

I'm a therapist - I'm not humorless or dead.

Having skimmed through your blog I found that I really hate you. You are a crybaby, a creep and a scrub. Enjoy JSA and never getting a decent job.

forget the uni, that ship has sailed. do what this guy says with the OU course, while gaming the system for every penny you can get.
Through in the mental health card and you might qualify for some disability payments too

quoted wrong post meant

>bought a role of blank stickers, I planned to stick >them all around the city and university with the >message “sorry, [roommates name]!”.
> this might come across as creepy
>there is also a chance that she will see how much she means to me

kys

Yeah well, but a lot of pron here is consisting of privately shared photos, that sometimes hurts my conscious, don't you have that too?

Where does it say that? This makes the sitiation even worse.

Your blog is confusing me, you seem to dislike Pakistanis allot but look pretty south asian, where are your parents from?

Not particularly. The porn I view is never lart of the "photos you shouldn't share" threads. I'm more or less ethical about that.

Ah I see, yes I 'm autistic and I first liked them, but when I realized its private and that it might be done without consent, I prefer to not visit those anymore. It confuses me a bit.

I think islam is to blame more than op.

poleaboo.wordpress.com/2015/03/28/big-day/

In hindsight I get that's messed up

I don't now what I was thinking

I am of paki descent but I understand that pakis are mostly terrible creatures

this kek

It sounds like you think most people are terrible creatures, don't add racism/self loathing to the mix it will make you even less appealing to people.

>Give me a reason not to kill myself.

just do it my man, kill urself, im gona do it sooner or later, you gona die anyway so why not choose how? lol fuck life man, shit is not worth it

kind of lost sympathy for this mong when he started calling whiteys cumskins in a previous thread.
self hating cross dressing paki who hates whites but is infatuated with a white pole. good job.

Sup Forums's been around since 2003. Some of us have grown up, gotten degrees, and still shitpost.

People are weird man, i also dont get how someone can be socially anxious but so egotistical and narcissistic....

That was an imposter

Therapistfag again. It's not that uncommon. Extreme narcissism is often underlied with intense feels of inferiority. And egotism works both ways - either over or under inflated. It's still all about oneself, whether it's positive or negative.

Interdasting,

This actually reminds me of someone describing social anxiety as cowards vanity.... Something ive probably been guilty of.

I think that you are right, autistic fag here again, in periods in which I felt not worth much I remrmber being quite narcisistic in that I tried valueing myself higher to protect myself I guess. I learned to make friends later and regarding them as equals, it helps to get rid of that narcistic feeling. Maybe op has no real friends which makes him like this?

It's a natural revival response to become narcistic if you are not valued and accepted, otherwise you die.

Yes - and self-loathing can be similarly described as pride in reverse. It's still all ego centric. The narcisistic reaction to perceived inadequacy is what we call a compensatory behavior in the field ;)

Fucking hell the last few posts from you have proved more insightful than a fucking 50 pound hour long session i had with a therapist the other week, thanks user....

Fuck college become a private eye since you are adept at stalking.

Pretty much spot on - you have to first value yourself in a healthy manner to rid yourself of feelings of jealousy or misanthropy. Forming friendships with people who genuinely care about you is definitely a key to that.

An adept wouldn't have been caught. Also wouldn't have done stupid shit like that.

So how do you overcome this?

Damn, thanks user! If you feel your not getting much out of the therapist you have, try challenging them. Maybe open up a but more if you're holding back. If it still doesn't work, maybe it's not a good fit. Or maybe they just suck at their job. Not every "professional" is good at what they do.

Dont worry my stalker friend, you would have ended up with a wasted degree like every other fucker anyway. Get a job

Would it be possible to run a few questions by you on a throw away email on how best to go about further therapy or counselling, i could send you a few bitcoins or steam vouchers or something for your trouble. Only tricky bit is ensuring one of these raging foggots doesnt play imposter.

Different methods depending on your particular circumstance. A good start would be getting outside of yourself by helping others. That can increase self esteem and build friendships all at once, which are to of the problem areas. Focus on your accomplishments rather than your failures - stop magnifying and dwelling in negative experiences. Thought restructuring in cognitive behavioral therapy Is one technique that helps, if you want to look it up. There's a lot more to it and it takes work, but a good therapist can help.