I am so depressed there is nothing out there (except food...

I am so depressed there is nothing out there (except food, and I'm detoxing from alcohol and cigarettes due to severe health problems) on the internet that I enjoy.

I am completely desensitized to everything. Video games haven't been able to hold my attention since the mid 2000's. I've watched every episode of Family Guy and American Dad on netflix at least several times, and they are the only two shows I "enjoy", probably because of the colors.

Does anyone have a doorway to a whole other world on the internet that might finally awaken me?

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amazon.com/Anatomy-Epidemic-Bullets-Psychiatric-Astonishing/dp/0307452425/
amazon.com/Deadly-Psychiatry-Organised-Denial-Gotzsche-ebook/dp/B014SO7GHS/
madinamerica.com/2016/09/confessions-of-a-trespasser/
businessinsider.com/software-developers-fear-age-30-2014-3?IR=T
youtube.com/watch?v=vJlv8xW__l0
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Get friends and a gf. If you can't explain why.

I cant and it's a long story.

Honestly user, just change your lifestyle. Force yourself to exercise and go out and meet some people. It's a life changer.

Fuck a small animal or have a larger animal fuck you. It's transformative

I was forcibly drugged with neuroleptics by the state for much of my childhood and have had tardive dyskenisia for about the last 20 some years.

I also have extremely severe social anxiety that even shit loads of alcohol combined with xanax cant touch.

You must fight

Find a hobby, preferably outside. If you insist on being inside, start with something away from a screen or electronic device, like whittling or something.
Fuck, idk at least try pokemon go. That will get your ass outside and meeting people.

w0t?

Try watching some anime. There's lots of different genres so you should be able to find one you like.

I just came

Horse pussy brings me inner-peace

Fag

Do porn. I'm also getting bored of games too so I don't really know what to do. I'm just collecting yugioh and pokemon cards

I've tried all of that. I'm desensitized to it all. Whether I'm staring at this screen or standing in the middle of what should be a breathtaking storm with 70mph winds, it's the same ho-hum to me.

>stop liking things i dont like

By all that I meant going outside.

I've heard suicide can be pretty exhilarating

Go to Sup Forums there is no good advice here but degeneracy

ooOOoo, court-ordered anti-psychotics, eh?
spill the beans, user. what'd you do?

Or just do what normal people do and go snort cocaine and fuck a filthy skanky hooker

You watch anime your take on this is irrelevant. Anime is a trap to keep autists out of productive fields and in the mom's basement. The Japanese are successful for a reason.

Or dogs

i wonder what could go wrong

kill ursrlf looooool XDDDDDDDD

Morphine

I was a child, dumb-ass. I had no legal right to withhold consent. No child does.

>being this retarded

Oh, and I was hyper-active in school, the school referred me to a psychiatrist, my parents didn't buy into all that bullshit and decided to home school me instead, the school, the psychiatrists and a social worker ganged up on them with child protective services and took me away from when I was 6 until I was 14 years old.

All the drugs they put me on only fucked me up in some way or another, leading to more drugs that fucked me up even more in some way or another that lead to even more and more.

didn't answer the question

certainly. but, surely there must be a juicy story leading up to that, right?
what was it, then? cut yourself? kill a pet? rob a store?

Sup Forums has more purpose to offer than Sup Forums. Hating niggers is a legit pasttime

Maybe death is the only option left...

Learn a New skill or discover a New hobby faggot

>Watching anime instead of honing your abilities in math and shiet because it's what spergs are meant for
No user stop wasting time on bullshit that gives you no perspective and teaches nothing

reddit.com/r/GetMotivated/

Funny thing is, barring any sort of exciting shit that someone hasn't told me, the only way to get to your ideal world is to do stuff that makes your life as close to it as possible. Some people wanna be Casanova, so they pretty themselves up and turn themselves into a manwhore. Some people wanna be Sword Art Online fags, so they work on VR and neuroscience and shit. Fuck, some people are just combat junkies or wannabe heroes. You see those fuckers turn into fighters and cops or something.

OP, the only way you can achieve some measure of self-worth is by attempting to change your world into your ideal. Maybe it won't be the ideal fantasy world you envisioned, but it will probably get you to give a shit again.

The only way you'll ever feel a positive emotion again is if you start trying to realize that world you desire. Nobody's gonna magically appear to save you, you delusional fuckhead. Save your goddamn self.

ASMR. Autonomous sensory meridian response. YouTube it.

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>stop wasting time on bullshit that gives you no perspective and teaches nothing
>on Sup Forums
>being this retarded

Listen to some Alan Watts tapes... smoke some weed... feel for the door...

Deep web...? There can be some pretty interesting shit on there if you figure out how to navigate it properly (It's not that hard)

>Nobody's gonna magically appear to save you, you delusional fuckhead. Save your goddamn self.
But I don't have the power or ability.

it seems you like cartoons so anime might work

try watching kill la kill or Gurren Lagann. (they're not the best anime but they're on Netflix.) I'd recommend watching it subtitled instead of English dubbed.

other annons can chyme in on some recommendations if they want to.

just stop with the b8. if it's not b8 then go take some of your own advice and get off Sup Forums and start
>honing your abilities in math and shiet
also you are acting like a moron and only embarrassing yourself.
I humbly request for you to Lurk More.

sure you do

it was inside you all the time

sigh fucking facepalming

We don't live in a movie where I happen to be Rocky Balboa or some shit.

Basically OP, you are depressed/whiny like millions of other people are. All you can do is work hard to get out of it, because nobody in real life will be there to help you, unless you specifically ask for help. What I've learned from life is that when life gives you lemons, bite those lemons hard, and savor that sour taste until you die.

And when life gives you melons, you might have dyslexia.

I love you user.

Perhaps the awnsers you seek are inside, not outside.

Try learning about chackras, energy and try talking to people, even if you think you can't, try.

If you truly want to be awaken, you need to break free from media, connect with nature, with the cycles. I recommend reading about the tree of life, as it represents a lot the truth.

But you'll only be awakened if you desire and accept you don't know everything. That's the first step. The door is inside you, but only you can choose to open it.

Peace.

Just one thing I might add. This feeling of not caring, emptyness. It's taking over humanity. It's reinforced by media that causes fear.

You NEED to CARE. If you don't care, about yourself, about people, about nature, about feelings, about art, music, everything. If you don't care, none of it will ever make sense.

If you care, deep inside, care to find a way to overcome the negativity, the way will become clearer. Don't be afraid. Love will win.

>But I don't have the power or ability.
To do anything? Believe me, nobody's that stupid that they make themselves believe that they can't do any things at all. I didn't say it would be "quick". Might take you a damn long time, but it's better than nothing. You are able to do things, and doing things generally have consequences. Cause and effect. Maybe you'll die before you're done, maybe not. You become "awakened" when you force your body to move and begin the acts that will allow you to be where you want in the future. Really, there is no substitute for trying to make your desired world a reality. Not telling you what to do, but there is some measure of a dream you have beyond a generic "I'm happy and not depressed". There are reasons in the future that make you happy. Baby steps, amigo. Baby steps.

don't listen to this

meditation is fine but don't subscribe to pseudo scientific bullshit.

The rabbithole you seek? Here it is, spoonfed is your finishline, your goal, your happiness. This WILL work. Follow the white rabbit (racist)

youtube.com/watch?v=0wld0tOx4ro

Maybe you are looking for answers in all the wrong places.

Give Feng Shui a chance, try talking to your friends about it.

If you want to develop yourself, without the influence of populac culture, you should have a few sessions and see where it leads you.

If you are open enough, you may prosper and regain a new outlook on life, wish you the best.

You're unlikely to care for this answer, but I'm guessing you're not going to get better with a combination of medication and psychotherapy. You need a psychiatrist and a psychology who can work as a team.

Sounds like you've got something in the area of major depressive disorder. You've certainly got anhedonia (if you don't know the word, look it up, it should unlock useful facts).

I won't add much. You need professional help.

OP here. I want to live in a place like Alaska or Siberia, in the cold in a cabin with a wood stove with nobody around for 50 miles at least. I fantasize about it a lot, especially as I'm laying down and going to sleep. I wish I could afford it.

go ride a bike and look for a job you sack of filth. or you could just buy a nice strong rope to hold your fat ass and hang yourself.

1. Buy some new clothes, fix yourself up.
2. Get in shape
3. Look nice, get a nice hairstyle, look into male grooming, etc.
4. Obtain bitches.

Basically OP, you help to make up 33% of the Sup Forums population, but when everyone talks about it, it is up to themselves.

OP here, if it were up to me, the psychiatric profession would be put on trial for crimes against humanity. There's no way I would ever seen one, unless I planned to go to prison shortly after.

you owe me the most precious thing in the world,
my time. count is at 4:46. repay me promptly.

You're going to laugh yourself into oblivion, it's really cheap to live in alaska or siberia. Try living anywhere else where anyone would want to live, and it's going to be significantly more expensive.

I thought you might say something like that.

You're doomed.

it ok op we are here to help u

I would cost me thousands of dollars just to travel there. I live off of less than 10,000 dollars a year.

Change your life. Or end it. Either way it's your choice to live in a stupid cycle or pull yourself out. How you pull out depends on how strong you actually are.

you fucking skeleton king bastard, you made me click the youtube link and you now owe me about 20 seconds and a better mood

become a truck driver,
kill prostitutes as a hobby.

Thodr prescribed meds are usually only gibem for antisocial behaviour. Tell us your story, OP

Those

still 4:26 to go.

You're going to laugh even harder into oblivion. Tell me, have you ever heard of the mythical art known as "coding". I have seen dumber men than I make bank off of web coding. The shit I learned in a week. In other news, college is overrated.

Best part, lotta coding jobs can be done from home. Internet's a beautiful place to make cash.

I want to be raped by brooms lit on fire

amazon.com/Anatomy-Epidemic-Bullets-Psychiatric-Astonishing/dp/0307452425/

amazon.com/Deadly-Psychiatry-Organised-Denial-Gotzsche-ebook/dp/B014SO7GHS/

madinamerica.com/2016/09/confessions-of-a-trespasser/

this I've been reading up on coding and it's pretty fun.

And you are the guys IT project manager are laughing at.
While college may be "overrated" you will always stay in the code monkey bepartment

this has led me to a unsuccessful google search,
i dont thank you.

weebs making mythical art coding... ok. ill just keep doing electrical construction and earn more than you fucking fat nerds. kill yourself before its too late

Haven't read the entire thread, but how old are you OP? What health problems were you having?

Kek. Thanks for your service, son. We'll remember it next time we use your hard work to do ours.

Theres no pseudo-cientific bs.
It's a milenar knowledge about our energy and psyche. About how our mind, body and "soul" works, or conscience. It's about balance of mind and body, thought and action. It's about turning humanity back to the real world, not the one we created for ourselves and called it truth. We are part of this entire eco-system, and all that becomes misaligned with the balance of the natural world, unbalances everything. And that's why more and more people are becoming depressed and feeling weak and empty.

Don't be too quick to label knowledges. Try seeing what it teaches you. It won't hurt to know.

Introducing someone to coding is how you get them to learn other stuff. It's childish to laugh at someone who starts out by programming for a living before they move onto something better.

Btw, you are the type of guy the Project Managers and Design Leads are exasperated with. While IT is important, you will never have the fun we have working to create something.

yea sure i'll read up on it just give me some links first

>protip [alt + 0129] bypasses wordfilters

It would be worth more points if the V or Y were on her anus.

I never said, that learning something new was bad. I simply said, not wanting to learn the theory of programming is a bad thing. And believe me, neither during college, nor during uni you learn much about programming. You learn how to plan through a project and all the necessary know how. Everything else you have to learn yourself.

>implying I am no business manager myself
I never had the goal, to stay code monkey for the rest of my life and then be replaced in my mid 40's by someone, who was younger and more fit in new technologies. But if it is your goal, well be it.

I would say to try shrooms. I hope you find happiness user.

You mean you never played Word of Warcraft? Latest expansion is the bomb.

meditation, psychedelics, weed and sensory deprivation has turned my life around from sitting in my room all day doing nothing but self pity. I now have a love for life I haven't had since both my parents died.

>I never had the goal, to stay code monkey for the rest of my life and then be replaced in my mid 40's by someone, who was younger and more fit in new technologies. But if it is your goal, well be it.
You're assuming that everyone has no ambition in the field and also that those people cannot find work in their mid 40's. That's ridiculous. There are people who are unambitious for every job, even yours. Don't be so conceited. Many people go on to start their own business or obtain a more permanent role in their company. Calling people "code monkeys" only shows a sense of insecurity or a wounded pride delivered from someone in that profession.

I give you my support in the point, that one will never achieve anything, if he doesn't like, what he is working on or has any goals.
Come on, code monkey is a running gag for programmer, just like OSI8.

But just at the same time, I am in my late 20's and I keep getting trouble keeping up with the latest techs, I would have never had problems with in my youth. It is simple aging and several surveys already researched that topic.

businessinsider.com/software-developers-fear-age-30-2014-3?IR=T

We need to shut down the outside world to undertand our internal world, become whole with ourselves so we can go back to the world with a expanded perception and purpose.

Drugs can be a help, but not for everyone. You can get lost inside yourself too.

You can find a lot about the Tree of Life, Taror, and all that shit. The problem is it has all been mystified and people see it as bullshit.

But there's plenty of essenstial things you can connect with how our minds and body works togheter with reality.

youtube.com/watch?v=vJlv8xW__l0

This is just one example in english, theres way too much to point out.

In the fact that there is always fear of becoming "outdated", that's something I can agree upon. It's a legitimate fear. It's why I really stress to people to not get complacent with their knowledge, and to always think beyond their current job. If you don't think that you can find work at an established company at 30, then you'd best look towards a startup or getting on that knowledge train hardcore.

yea i understand that. a large amount of philosophy is mystified but you can still gain things from it without following some other parts. i was mainly warning people that believing in everything there, is not a very good idea.

Yeah, I agree upon your statement. I only wanted to say in my initial post, that willingly stopping the learning process may doom your career (so to say: learn programming and everything will be fine in the future).

I once talked to a 40ish guy. He was a simple typo3 dev and he made insane amounts of money simply by knowing his shit in his niche.

The whole point was for OP to be able to make money to get to his wilderness cabin scenario and hopefully continue to make money in his lifestyle assuming he isn't batshit enough to remove Wifi from his life. For that, learning programming will do. Beyond that, who can say?

OP, the world can offer you much. You need only acquire some measure of funds so you can go and enjoy some of it. A man's gotta eat.