Sup Forums why the fuck am I so anxious about something like this...

Sup Forums why the fuck am I so anxious about something like this? I had a guy come to my door about having a quote on new windows for my house. It was around thanksgiving and I crack under light pressured situations so I gave in and got a free quote. I later figure out I already have windows and getting a quote would be a waste of time. But my brain can't seem to muster up the courage or reason to tell them to fuck off. All I did was reschedule the meeting until a couple days later but I can't seem to bring myself to cancelling it. I feel like I have some sort of emotional devotion to get this even though I don't fucking want it or need it.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

You sound weak, cleanse yourself from the gene pool

sure, but I gotta cancel this meeting first

Cancel the appointment, then do one thing that scares you everyday

I kid you not the only thing I really fear is letting someone down

Which ties in to most other fears

you're not letting them down by telling them you don't need free windows. the workers will be relieved that they don't have to waste their time coming to your house when they already know you're not going to buy any goddamn windows.

you sir need to "let go"

It sort of runs in my mind that they'll be fucking whipped because they finally got someone to get some windows but now they cancel.

I'll fully capable of knowing I don't want them and telling them to fuck off but when it comes to crunch time my brain just goes full fucked

checked

You're just a pussy

Probably but I don't give a shit

so you get a straight and factual answer to your problems and "you don't give a shit'

and on top of that tell this genius to blow it out his ass? wtf OP you're a faggot

I wasn't looking for an asnwer I already know

Nah I'm kinda the same dude. I don't think I'm much of a pushover all the time, but I also feel the feeling that I'm letting someone down by rejecting them on the most menial trivial requests. I'm in Russia right now and I somehow got coaxed into teaching English and I fucking hate it but just feel bad that they'll not have anyone else to do the job so I am stuck in the situation

Praise to ya lad, hope you make it through.

cyka blyat

а иди на хуй, брат
Thanks bud

Just realise that the guy's opinion means fuck all to you, just phone up and say you don't want it then never worry about it again. Next time don't
answer the door, if its that importabt they'll keep knocking.

Its more of a past-time for me. I love answering the door and getting people's hopes up. But usually they just hand you a pamphlet and be on thier way. This nigga wanted all my fucking information. I was going to pretty much stop but I already dug myself a hole before he pulled out the notepad.

The only real reason I answered the door was because I had ordered a pizza, and he came just around the time the pizza was expected. I swear it was some second level entrenepuership right there.

Op do you think you have low self esteem?

Maybe you feel like this because you don't feel as though you're good enough.

he's probably casing your house

They might be a scam coming into your house to see what you got to steal. Using new windows as their key in.

My point being I don't give a fuck, if you aren't family, friends or neighbors I don't care what you have you're not coming into my house.

If I need new windows or anything fixed I'll call a contractor myself, people now are too fucking shady to trust.

I already know I have shit self esteem
my life is a mess and for some reason this is the highlight of it currently.