Anyone here with experiences with PTSD?

Anyone here with experiences with PTSD?

Check your fucking privilege

I'm experienced at not having it.

I don't know what else I expected from Sup Forums
I hate you bastards

Yeah man, shit sucks.

what fucked you up?

Marinebro here. I still think those ISIS motherfuckers are looking for me especially with the internet. Hell, Im getting paranoid as Im typing this up. Everyday I check my truck for bombs and always go in public with a gun. Hell, I'm always fucking cautious and alert 24/7. Whenever I see muslims, I get super fucking skeptical. Sometimes I could fucking tell onenof them is a secret ISIS agent ready to kidnap me. I only sleep 3 hours because I think these fuckers have tracked my address and are ready to kill me. My family hasn't heard from me since March because I don't want them to be in danger. My life isn't the fucking same since my last deployment and I'm about to end it all, I can't fucking stand this.

Dont worry trump's got your back

Hey, warfighter, we will need you for the purge. Don't end your life now, there's still plenty of muzzo's to kill, here in the USA.

You weren't there. You wouldn't understand.

Very few will ever understand the importance of silver wings and a blue rope

Palestinian here.
Grew up dealing with IDFags, rioting, etc.
Fought Amerifags in Iraq 2006-2008
Fought with FSA in Syria 2012-2013

Seen too much shit, too many people die. Participated in too much violence. Daily, vivid flashbacks, random cold sweats, insomnia & sleep disorders, randomly start crying for no reason.

1v1 me IRL.

No point, I'd be in it to lose. No more will to fight. Every night I see the faces of everyone. War is brutal. It broke me.

who did your first kill went down?

3ID 11c here.....
Don't care to explain the novel that is my depression.
But I would like to point out that the only thing that has kept me from killing myself has been that I am emotionally disabled and have a constant fear of death.

I was debriefed leaving the army and told because of my failure to report preexisting mental issues that I would lose all benefits except life and home loan....
My mom fucked my life payments and after almost 2 decades I finally go to look into getting a house and I'm told I don't qualify for the home loan as my active duty was revoked from the records and washed.....
Fuck this country

Mostly gun and artillery battles... But those don't haunt you as much because you don't really see their faces and facial expressions, you can kinda pretend they survived or u missed or someone else got them... The worst is when you have to do it with ur bare hands. I remember once after i was caught and tortured by Iraqi military forces (post-saddam), and then the place where they were holding us came under fire, mortars hit one of the buildings and we were able to make it out, absolute pandemonium as 100+ captives are on the loose. I'm sneaking around the base looking for someone to take a military uniform from, find a young kid, maybe about 20 but he looks 14, looks terrified, tkaing cover behind a wall and reloading, choked him to death with my bare hands. I still have nightmares about killing him and stripping his uniform off him.

instead of killing yourself, you should start doing shit for someone else, to balance the karmic scale. Help the homeless, poor people, volunteer for shit. idk, but something to balance out all the fucked shit you've done. Killing yourself is easy and for cowards. time to man up to what you've down and counter all the sick shit you did. Be a man. Maybe after doing enough good shit, youll be able to sleep.

Yes. It's called being born.

First commandment - thou shall not kill. You are going to hell too. Good lesson for those thinking of joinng. Fuck the usa. Enjoy the stupid coin they gave you. Fools

God's chosen ones went through warfare so get fucked faggot

Don't do it brother. IGY6 ~ wiz