Feels thread died. user had a good story going... hoping he'll finish it here

Feels thread died. user had a good story going... hoping he'll finish it here

I hope he does. I hope there's a happy ending

the story about my childhood and father's death?
if that's the one you are referring to I can continue here.

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will continue anyways... need to put this on paper somewhere...

>my father was very well-known within the community
>literally a couple hundred people show up for his wake
>people come everyday for 9 days to pray for him, yeah we are catholic so people do that here
>few days go by
>I am traumatized from the experience and my body starts reacting negatively
>rashes everywhere
>stomach pain
>those years were tough
>had to rearrange my psyche and compartimentalize my emotions
>manage to go to a good school for college
>become really good at this college thing
>I'm pretty much dead inside though. Have a few friends but people do sense that something is amiss.
>keep being great at this college thing
>earn excellent grades
>find out I know my way around literature and language
>meet a girl online
>travel to meet her
>i was a virgin when I met her and was 20 years old. she was 24 years old
>met her, lost my virginity to her
>travel back home, that was awesome
>she is very cunning and manipulative though
>tells me she should live with me
>comes and lives with me, what could go wrong?
>starts living with me
>my mom does not approve
>i rebel immediately and tell her to fuck off
>she is very sad but knows that I'm not thinking clearly and gives me space
>mfw my mom was so right
>mfw dozens of red flags i ignored
>mfw she ended up becoming pregnant
>mfw the child is really mine (I was not cucked, he looks like me)
>mfw now we are a family all of a sudden.
>life becomes really, really complicated now.
>cont

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>now my life is extremely hard
>i have a part time job while going to school full time
>my "wife" does not work nor does she study
>she quit work after she got pregnant
>sex was good though, and she used that to manipulate me as well as threats to take my son away.
>one year goes by
>still really good at this college shit
>get offered a six month full ride to attend a canadian university for half a year with the possibility to extend for a year.
>i say fuck yeah immediately, offer accepted
>go home and tell my mom, she is very happy for me! I am proud of you user, good, she says
>my "partner" on the other hand is pretty pissed
>starts shit testing me
>says that I should have asked first for permission cause I will be away from my son and her
>says that I don't value her or my son and don't give a shit about them
>says I am a bad father and husband
>a terrible partner
>a horrible human being
>next couple of months before my trip are living hell
>she makes my life miserable cause I took on the offer before asking for her permission
>mfw too inexperienced to just tell her to fuck off and go on with my life
>was about to decline the offer but my mom said that she would be very pissed if I did. she wanted me to go abroad.
>my family starting giving money
>aunts, grandpas, money was coming from all places
>mfw everyone wants me to go to see canadian cuties and freeze my ass in western Canada
>mfw I give my partner the middle finger and leave
>mfw 4 months later I am in Canada
>mfw IS THIS REAL LIFE?

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>Sup Forums

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Yes please i was reading it in the prev thread

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>living le canadian dream
>attending le canadian university
>canadian cuties everywhere
>mfw is this life?
>mfw the family that is hosting me treat me like I am their son even though my life is a wreck
>mfw so much love and generosity
>mfw school is awesome
>mfw my partner makes every effort to make me feel like shit for going abroad
>mfw it kinda works and I feel like shit
>mfw still manage to have a great time
>mfw Canada is amazing
>6 months later I finally return home
>more shit testing
>more guilt tripping
>my health is deteriorating
>I am stressed beyond belief
>ps: I declined a six month extension in Canada to come back home to her and my son cuz of guilt tripping.
>my life is miserable, she is making me pay for those months I spent abroad living the dream.
>she makes everything unbearable
>still good at college though
>still doing my best
>still being the best
>professors, friends, everyone appreciates me even though I'm rough around the edges
>mfw one day she fucks me over really badly and I have a literal meltdown
>my brained turned into jello
>have to be on anti depressants
>i'm pretty fucked and manipulable
>my mom is very worried
>even my partner is worried, like oh fuck I overdid it type of worried

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>cont
>have to take a 2 month break from school
>my professors tell me to get better and come back as soon as I'm ready
>slowly but steadily recuperate
>she really fucked with my head
>keep getting stronger
>go back to work eventually
>go back to school gradually
>one day at work my best friend tells me to cut the shit out and get real
>that can only mean one thing
>come back home and tell my partner to sit at the table
>i tell her that things aren't working anymore and that I am not going to be her bitch anymore
>tell her I am done with her and our relationship is over
>tell her that I will keep working and will give her money to take care of my son but that I don't give a damn about her nor do I love her
>she looks fucking stunned
>she cannot believe what she is seeing and hearing
>rekt
>she cries, asks for forgiveness, says she will be better
>i don't give a shit, you can leave right now and go back to your state (1000 miles away) for all I care
>I am firm and determined
>mfw it works!
>mfw she leaves within a week after I said that
>mfw I regained control of my existence
>mfw one year left of school and I graduate
>mfw is this real life?

good that you got that bitch out of your life. Also good that you're assisting your son. The absence of a father figure may fuck him up in ways, but at least he's being supported.

Read the whole story from the prev thread, good on you that stuff seemed to have worked out.

I read the whole story since the prev thread, good on you for (it seems) stuff working out.

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>feelz thread

Story I wrote for an english class last year
kind of came out of nowhere, the prompt was: write a story titled "the window."

what do u think anons
I wanna write a book some day

>6 months before graduation
>my professor and mentor tells me that I should go for a Masters abroad
>she wants to send me to MURICA
>mfw I'm like fuck yeah let's do it
>I apply to only one school where her mentor teaches at
>accepted with a very good scholarship
>graduate from college in my country and come to Murica 2 months later
>MFW Im in MURICA
>MFW I cannot believe how lucky I am
>MFW what the fuck is going on
>start life in MURICA
>as a foreigner I am so different from people here
>people appreciates me for being different and having a unique sense of humour and perspective on life and knowledge
>earn my place quickly within my graduate program
>some fuck ups here and there, some mistakes here and there, does not matter. i'm fucking lucky beyond belief
>I end up teaching classes as a teaching fellow
>mfw I am teaching classes in MURICA
>mfw my female students throw themselves at me
>mfw my male students love me cause I'm unlike anything they have met before --or so they tell me
>I am just so happy to be in Murica, living the dream
>mfw
>my ex starts calling me and gets back in touch with me, starts manipulating me telling me shit about my son.

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Damn, thank you guys. I appreciate it.

Life has been a bit rough recently cause more shit unfolded. But will continue and be more succinct. Otherwise I will stay here all night long.

>I wanna write a book some day
that book will be only good for toilet paper

I like a lot

>ex tries to get back into my life
>tell her to get fucked
>fast forward I'm about to graduate from masters program
>meet murican cutie, won't mention her name cause YOU never know. I am sure that people who know me browse /b and they will know who's this
>she was my student
>mfw I had already graduated from MA program and still teaching a class
>mfw this gorgeous murican girl is there
>mfw do you believe in love at first sight? I didn't until I met her
>mfw she also fell in love with me the minute she saw me
>mfw I am her TA
>start texting her
>start exchanging very long emails
>tension builds up
>see her in my classes
>she gets jelly cuz other female students literally throw themselves at me
>i dont give a damn, I only have eyes for her
>i only care about her
>she is (was?) the love of my life
>i ask her out for coffee as "friends"
>she accepts and we go to a starbucks (MURICA YEAH!)
>we talk
>everything is awesome
>we talk for two hours
>mfw im on a date with one of my students
>mfw
>cont

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This one always hit close to home

>mfw best two hours of my life at starbucks
>god bless starbucks
>i ask her if she'd like to go have a beer at the local bar
>it's a very famous bar located in the East Coast, in a small town whose name starts with W. The bar's name starts with M. (gonna shit my pants if anyone guesses).
>historic town
anyways
>be there enjoying a beer and fries with her
>she is amazing, she is perfect
>i just want to kiss her
>she is playing it cool though
>lots of tensions in the air
>two more hours go by
>we leave
>we are walking on Main Street
>it's cold as fuck
>she is gorgeus
>we are talking, we are laughing
>suddenly we stop and I kiss her
>she reciprocates
> we keep kissing passionately
>I push her body against the wall of a fishing related store
>mfw what the fuck is going on
>mfw I will never have this feels in my life again
>mfw this is love
>I tell her that I love her with all my heart
>she says that she finds that hard to believe and that she can't reply to that
>i tell her not to worry and that the only thing she should worry about is what her answer will be when I ask for her hand in marriage
>she smiles and kisses me again
>mfw its a cold, starry, beautiful night
>mfw I walk her to her house
>mfw I don't go in and wen don't bang, I just go back home and become the happiest person on earth,
>mfw
>mfw
>mfw

cont

>be 9 years old
>come from divorced family, mom a social worker and dad upper middle class small business owner

>one night my dad and seriously crazy stephmother were drinking outside when she attacked him and ended up hitting him in the back of his head with a frying pan

>a policeman opened the door to 9 year old me's room and asked if he could wash his hands while showing me his blood soaked hands

>terrified me starts to cry while the guy goes into the bathroom to wash his hands

>dad suffered fractured skull, minor braindamage and was in hospital for over a month

>stephmother is insane, still lives here and they still drink and fight every other day.

I'm 18 now and cant wait until i finish HS so i can get a job and move out, tried talking my father into leaving her several times but to no help.

Also what kind of fucking police officer opens the door to a 9 year old kid with his hands soaked with blood to ask to fucking borrow the sink??

Too many adverbs. You don't have to describe every action if the way it's done is nonimportant. It clouds up the story. Those details don't matter and distract more than enhance.

cont
>we eventually end up making love
>her past is complicated
>her parents divorced when she was a teenager in high school
>the divorced left her scarred for life
>she is the most beautiful human being I have ever been with
>she is scarred though, like me
>she also suffered sexual abuse, but by other children
>the divorce left her with daddy issues
>her entire foundation is wrecked
>we try to make it work
>we both are wounded animals by our pasts
>we both share so much in common
>we both love each other with intensity
>times goes by
>I am abroad in my country and she cheats on me while at St. Patrick's day party
>I get to know several months later
>I feel so betrayed
>I love her though
>What should I do
>I'm angry
>I'm at a loss of words
>What can anyone do in these circumstances?
>she only did it once and she confessed
>she says she couldnt hide it from me
> she was honest and risked my wrath
>she says she loves me and wants to be with me
>what should I do?

user if youre reading this, i'll always love you

dont worry so much, itll all be okay

take care user

Story I wrote last year

Yes, I still walk along that old cobble path, turning the watch you gave me over in my hand. I still stop when I come to the bridge to look out and enjoy the sunrise. And when I reach the end of the path I still smile when I hear the faint sounds of the city. I still sit in the same chair, farthest one to the left, at the same cafe on the same street corner. And I still order the same cup of tea everyday. Maybe this routine is what's keeping the thought.
Yes, I still tug at the bottom of my coat when I put it on, though I know it seemed to baffle you why. I still hang yours up on the front of the coatrack. It's longer than mine so I put it in front. I still use that old record player you loved, still playing the same four songs, or the only record we had. I still watch the sun go down as I eat dinner. And I still set a plate for you, maybe one day the seat and plate will be filled again.
Yes, I still only sleep to one side of the bed. I still stare at the ceiling and wonder if it was glass if I could count the stars while I slept. I still want to feel your hand on my shoulder. I still want to wake up to you trimming your beard, almost late for work. I still want to hear those soft three words, even after both of our parents said another, more harmful three. I still want to see you leave after puting your scarf on.
Yes, I still think of you. I still hope that wherever you've gone that you're happy. I still wish the best for you when I see you pass the cafe in silence. And I still smile when I hear your voice ringing in my ears. Of all the time we spent together I never thought of you more than when you left. Whatever the reason was, I can't remember. So yes, I still love you. And yes, I always will.

>mfw I didn't know what to do
>ask her if she would marry me
>mfw why did I do that?
>still, she says yes
>god, I love her so much that asking for her to marry me was the only thing I could think of
>she says yes though
>the most beautiful person I have ever met said she'd marry me
>I feel blessed
> I am in love
>is this real life?
>YES, it is real life. I always resented her for cheating on me
>her conflictive past, my conflictive past led to situations where things would get very nasty
>flying objects across the room, insults, screaming, very painful to watch scenes
>name calling, lots of anxiety and stress
>one day I shoved her
>was so stressed
>couldn't control myself
>i shoved her
>she thought I wanted to hurt her really badly
>i was just asking for space and she was yelling at me closely so I pushed her aside
>I assaulted her, apparently
>she kicked me out of the house
>she broke up with me
>now I was homeless
>called one of my best friends in MURICA
>murican friend to the rescue offers me his couch at home
>stay at murican's friend couch
>i want to die
>i was engaged to the love of my life, what happened?
>mfw

So will I
>implying thats actually you

Is this for me? I'm the >greentext user from the other thread.

>then I decided to kill myself because I always say 'mfw' without actually uploading a picture of a reaction

You too Dan.
Love you always.

cont
>life goes on
>find a new home
>continue working on school, hey now I'm a doctoral student
>mfw I'm attending one of the most prestigious universities in the entire world for a Ph.D.
>mfw my life is a wreck though because the love of my life is not with me anymore
>still keep going
>cry here and there
>feel vulnerable
>drink a lot
>exercise a lot
>eventually she gets in touch with me
>wants to try again
>i did a lot of bad shit
>she did bad shit too but not as bad as me
> i always resented that she cheated on me and my trust issues from the past just made it worse (remember that I was sexually abused,etc)
>still she wanted to try again
>mfw we tried again
>mfw we somehow managed to make it work
>mfw we married at a very private wedding
>we eloped
>we had a photographer
>it was very romantic
>I was married to the love of my life
>is this even real?
>we make things work
>we love each other with infinite love (or so I thought)
>she graduates from college
>she moves with me to the city
>we are husband and wife now, living together
>she is the most beautiful person I have ever met in my life
>mfw do I deserve her?
>mfw eventually old feelings arise again
>conflict ensues
>I shoved her again
>crisis
>name calling
>insults
>we make it work
>she loves me so much
> i love her so much
> she tells me i need to get help
>i postponed it for so long because I was ashamed of it
>the distrust from her cheating on me never went away
>life went on however...
>somehow we made it work
>somehow we were still together
>somehow...
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How do you open up to people Sup Forums?

I want so badly to let them in but I just don't know how.

I think a problem is, is that people don't really open up to each other, even when they say they are.

Have fun with that one user.

>guys, I'm exhausted...
>will make it short
>we both fucked up
>but I fucked up bigly
>never could get over her cheating on me
>and ended up hurting her a lot
>she hurt me too
>but deep down she always loved me
>it wasnt perfect love, but it was genuine and humane
>it was the most beautiful thing I ever experienced in this life
>and its gone
>she left me in July 2015
>we divorced in early 2016
>I will never fall in love again
>I will never love another woman again
> I am committed to living in solitude and not hurting anyone else again because I am wounded myself
>There is more to tell but I am exhausted.
>thank you to those of you who followed me from the other thread
>God bless you all

Sincerely

user.

Well that was a waste
Shittily written, boring, not interesting story

Fuck off

good story... get some sleep user

It is not difficult. I found myself opening up to people after knowing them a week or so. They often open up too. Everyone wants to open up and they do so with small hints just pick up on them and go from there.

I have the wedding ring here...
let me post a pic of it

My wedding ring. Hadn't looked at it in several months.

Love you /b

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I'm becoming more isolated. It's getting to the point where I can't even stand people on Sup Forums. I am even considering isolated myself from my own family. I'll just be voluntarily mute, drink myself to death, and be used by other guys.

god bless ya /bra
I hope that you can find happiness and, unlike I, manage to keep it.

Take care user. Good story. Mine is similar I'm just a year or two ahead. Did not get to marry her but fucked it up because of issues from my past.
It gets better after two years or so.
At least you have your son and your education,
There is more than one way to have happiness. I find mine through family and research. If you are still studying maybe you can too

mfw your post

great story user, read it all.
i hope everything works out for you and your wife.
every one makes mistakes, so try to forgive her, find some help for your trust issues
wish you luck on your life

>so try to forgive her

t. user's wife

shit, how did this get to me.

*hugs user*
I can relate
My past destroyed my future with the person I loved the most.
Now here I am, alone and content, maybe even happy but without the love of my life.
God bless you, wherever you are, S.

Idk what's worse, people knowing I need serious help but they ignore it, or people not realizing I need serious help.

I just had my first birthday alone (:

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people who don't know, because they at least treat you the same

god I love Dark Souls
Dark Souls 2 and 3 helped me through the roughest months of life post-divorce
now I play ff14 and doing the savage raids is what keeps me going.
god bless videogames.

how do you live without them /bro?

At least use your isolation for something beneficial. You will have plenty of time on your hands and having so much time on your hands and squandering it by browsing Sup Forums until you sleep is a very pernicious thing. I moved 2200 miles to leave everyone including my family. You will want them back at some point. Just let them know you love them and that you just need to be alone. At the end of the day they are all you have.

By accepting that I fucked up and that I cannot do anything to change my present.
By reading the works of the greatest thinkers in the history of humanity (Marcus Aurelius, Buddha, Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, etc...)...
By enjoying the simple things of life such as the company of my pet and my quiet, solitary, and peaceful life.
Hasn't been easy but it gets better day after day.

Zetsu?

Nice to see a fellow fan of an amazing show.
Shame it's in here.

I really want to cry but can never get myself to do it. It's driving me nuts. I need to let out my emotions but there is no way I can.

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Just started playing dark souls two weeks ago. Shit's rough.

Comics have really helped me stay alive in the darkest times. But marvel right now needs to whip back into shape

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Ds1 is beloved to me more than the next two in the series.

Ayyy i feel this, cept im not a fag

Not this user but the user this guy replied to. It is not easy at first. It may take years but it is a slow process. You start to make small insights about life as time goes on. Understand things better. Understand that you are not someone special. She was not anyone special. The fact that you two fell in love was not special. Understand that everything thing you felt was nothing more than an imbalance in chemicals. Look at things from a completely non-biased and objective place.
There was a study which the details escape me but found that people associate happiness with some immediate event in their lives. It was on lottery winners and it found that before winning the lottery people associate with a wide range of things like family. work, activities, etc. After winning they associate it mostly with money which is why they get depressed. It was long but the same concept works with love and stuff after relationships.

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My bad. This post meant for

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Am I the only dumping come on niggers.

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dammit, these are my feels user, but i guess

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i need help guys

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with what?

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