When I was 12 I did nude/lewd photoshoots and my photos were sold. Basically CP. This continued til I was 14...

When I was 12 I did nude/lewd photoshoots and my photos were sold. Basically CP. This continued til I was 14, I am now 18.


Ask me anything (picture not me)

>ask me anything

can you post the pictures?

Post pics

How has it effected you?

I don't have any of them, otherwise I would post the ones that arent technically illegal

>Basically
Why would add that, CP is exactly what it was.

Did you like it? Did you know what was going on?

m/f?
how did it happen?

Who took and sold them? Were you ever uncomfortable?

I started sexually exploring, if you call it that, very early. I wanted older men and just adults in general to be attracted to me. At that time I thought I was attracted to them but now I realize I just wanted adult attention.

how does is feel knowing that your naked body is being distrubted to hundreds if not thousands of men who are all cumming to your right 12 year old
pussy?

Who took them? Why did you let them?
>Did it turn you on?

There are rules fucking bunch of retarded faggits

I didn't know what it was exactly in the very beginning but I did realize pretty quickly and I liked itF
This is ridiculous but it started with me being really into anime and so I was in an anime club that wasnt part of school, one of the "organizers" (adult male) always took pictures of the members in cosplay and then slowly I would stay after hours and we would have these photoshoots

Back then I liked it though I didn't completely understand that people were masturbating to them and such if that makes sense. Thinking about it now just makes me feel bad for myself

At what age did you started getting horny?

See
And it didnt turn me on, I dont think I was developed enough if that makes sense. I just really liked the attention

will you post current nudes now?

So did you have sex with older people? If so do you feel like they took advantage of you and did they treat you well?

Why would few photo shoots affect you so much?

You sound adjusted. how old now?

What I meant by exploring early was that I was aware of things like that early. I would act all loli around grown men (I watched anime) and try to get their attention, sexually. I never had sex with anyone then

did you ever regret it. or was there something you liked out of this entire experience.

He would tell me what was "hot" and such. I would ask him why and he would explain so I learned all of this stuff at such a young age. I dont think many 12 year olds have learned the mindset of a paedophile and tried to use it to attract them
I'm 18

>I never had sex with anyone then
Then you are fine, no matter what are you trying to say to yourself, or how bad are you trying to feel for yourselff, if you didn't fuck anyone you are ok, now all you need to do is realise it, and then you blackmail that weaboo for some mad dosh, and you lead a good life.

I don't know honestly. One part of me feels like it didn't matter and didn't affect me but another part of me gets sad about it and wished it never happened.

So do you feel like a victim? Was the person taking the pictures ever unkind to you?

well one of the bad things is that people took advantage of your privacy if you asked me. just saying

How do you know your pictures were sold?
Did you find out later?

It was still a rough experience. I think the only reason he didn't have sex with me was because he was scared of going to jail. I still feel bad thinking back about how I as a CHILD had to undress and do sexual poses and be photographed.

I do feel bad for myself but only some times. Even if it wasn't sex it was still bad. I had to act like I was having sex, if that makes sense.

Example: I would lay down and he would fix my hair so it was going everywhere when from on top of me choke me (but not actually) with one hand, ask me to do a face, and take a picture. Like a POV thing for whoever bought the photo

pics or it didn't happen.

I do feel like a victim some times. And he was never particularly unkind to me, ignoring this whole cp thing.
I asked him what they were for and he told me and I didn't mind. I never got much more info than that nor did I get any money

I can kind of understand that.
> me 18
> gf just turned 16, like, I attended that party as the first time we legit hung out
> super christian family and mindset
> things eventually get intimate, start getting nudes and masturbating together on skype
> ffw to when shit falls apart last year (kms)
> she asks me to delete the pics, we're still on good terms so I tell her honestly why it means a lot to me and she drops the issue
> ffw 2 months later, she asks me out of the blue to please delete pics
> explains that it's complicated and difficult to explain, but, even though she 1000% wanted to send and receive them at the time, now it makes her really embarrassed and shamed
> in a bad way with depression n shit so again I explained why I still wanted them
> no one asked for my life story so gg
tl;dr still have pics and vids of 16 yo gf and she felt bad in a similar way to op
op's situation more interesting though

tits or gtfo

ok , so you're 18 now, you feel its no big deal.
ffwd to 2026 and you've a couple of kids and they've started exploring te internet. what happens if one of them stumbles across some of these photos?

every photographer is completely responsible for what he points his camera at, you on the other hand at 12 years of age can not be regarded as responsible for any of this.

is right blackmail the bastard.

Why would they find CP? Also I don't plan on having kids and if I did I would be very strict with the internet and make sure I always know what they're doing

Did the person responsible for taking pictures of you ever get caught?

If so, how?
If not, have you considered turning him in?

You sound like a whiny piece of shit like all women.

Hopefully you will kill yourself soon.

some bitch said a neat saying "trust goes both ways"
controlling parents create children who feel the need to keep secrets.
I've seen parents be incredibly open and trusting with their kids. Tell them basically everything. They'll know about sex and porn from a very young age and it won't be a big deal to them bc their parents talk to them about shit.

that's pretty hardcore, it's uderestable why you feel bad, but you can't change anything anyway anymore. So you need to do something to feel better, either get revange, or arrange everything in your mind.

oh, and post timestamp, because it feels like some neckbeard is baiting.

Not Op, but gtfo

No he did not and I've never really thought about turning him in since this is something no one knows about and I'm not ready to talk about it in real life

You sound very edgy I'm proud of you

ok, what if one of their fiends finds them?
and planning on not having kids doesn't always work out that way.

if any of the photos is online, it's there pretty much till etenity.

how about a tale of how your parents were strict and always knew what you were doing?

Censure them, cover whatever you want, but post the pics.

Even if you censure everything except for your elbow, I still want to see the pics,

WHITE KNIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT TO THE RESCUE!!!

She won't sleep with you beta shit.

Seems like you still want attention, based on this thread and the fact that it exists. Why did/do you crave attention?

like the saying goes there is no use of crying over spilled milk

I don't think the photos would be easy to find
I was raised by a single parent, other one died when I was little. One parent having to support a household meant they were always working and I had a lot of freedom

could do that, or you could do something that won't get you banned right away.
Just use dropfile or mega or something.

>subhuman confuses being human with being a whiteknight

I would but I don't have any of the photos, never did.

Kek

i know you are posting for help, but are you single.

>I don't think the photos would be easy to find
this is Sup Forums.
Sup Forums can and will find anything once the hivemind gets started.

Gotcha. You might consider talking to someone about it. You might save some other child from going through the same shit you are if you turn him in. But it must be tough going through all that, and having to re-live it all if you did turn him in.

have you ever met Don Trump?

>human

You don't shit about humanity you stupid fucking queer.
The only reason you're even still fucking alive is because we live in a privileged society that shames killing.

If the pics were sold, there's a good chance they are sitting in the collection of some hoarder, never to be circulated.

What name did you go by?

post pic i masturbate and ask to you please get happy because im masturbating to u

L. Ron Hubbard was a blak man!!

OP where you from?

can you post a picture of what you look like know? no nudes. just a normal picture.

okay so post what u look like now user

-thanks in advance

Someone's grumpy

Tiny Diamond

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Maybe not, but we shouldn't always let our situations in life determine who we are, even if we had no control at a particular time.

Do you think you could actually find them? I've never seen the final photos myself
Yeah that part avout saving another kid is important to me but I'm just very scared to do it at the moment

show us ur pics?

Blue Waffle

equally good chance they're not, but have been scanned and emailed around the planet and sitting somewhere for the privildged elite to click through at thier own amusement

Fucking pedos. How could anyone get off to the idea of removing a little girl's clothes and licking her tiny body all over, nibbling her neck and kissing her adorable little nipples? Only a heartless monster would think about her cute girlish mouth and tongue wrapped around a thick cock slick with her saliva, pumping in and out of her mouth until it erupts, the cum more than her little throat can swallow.
The idea of thick viscous semen overflowing, dribbling down her chin over her flat chest, her tiny hands scooping it all up and watching her suck it off her fingertips is just horrible. You're all a bunch of sick perverts, thinking of spreading her smooth slender thighs, cock poised at the entrance to her pure, tight, virginal pussy, and thrusting in deep as a whimper escapes her lips which are slippery with cum, while her small body shudders from having her cherry taken in one quick stroke.
I am disgusted at how you'd get even more excited as you lean over her, listening to her quickening breath, her girlish moans and gasps while you hasten your strokes, her sweet pants warm and moist on your face and her flat chest, shiny with a sheen of fresh sweat, rising and falling rapidly to meet yours.
It is truly nasty how you'd run your hands all over her tiny body while you violate her, feeling her nipples hardening against your tongue as you lick her chest, her neck and her armpits, savoring the scent of her skin and sweat while she trembles from the stimulation and as she reaches her climax, hearing her cry out softly as she has her first orgasm while that cock is buried impossibly deep inside her, pulsing violently as an intense amount of hot cum spurts forth and floods through her freshly-deflowered pussy for the first time, filling her womb only to spill out of her with a sickening squelch. And as you lie atop her flushed body, she sighs breathlessly and her fingers dig into your back as she feels your cock hardening inside her again. You're all sick.

are you ukrainian or japanese?

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Something similar happened to me, not the same as you but also about pedophilia. It took about 6 years before I was willing to talk about it, but when I was, I eventually found a good counselor and it sounds dumb and cliche but the simple act of talking about it to someone who really really cared, helped me sort through a lot. was the only thing that actually helped.
Counselor didn't say much that helped, but the useful things she did say, really helped me understand sources of pain and stress and how to approach them going forward. If that makes sense.

I don't know. All I did was do what he said at the place and leave, I didn't get to know anything about how the pictures were sold or anything like that
Ukraine

op. While you were doing the photoshoots were you enjoying youself? Did you feel comfortable and safe?

Wanting attention is quite normal as a kid, at the time did you think anything of it from it being a sexual desire from men..

You also said you started feeling bad about it after was this because you matured more and started to u derstand sex or be ause adults told you that you should feel bad.

On my tblet pls ignore spelling mistkes.

Hey, that was pretty good.

Yes I am actually ukrainian hahaI don't think it would help me honestly

>Ukraine
I've probably jerked it to you then.

did they touch your little lady parts too?

Mary Goblin

Those kind of pictures should be banned and the people who exploited you deserve to die OP

It's that epic pedo pasta again!

>ukrainian
Oh shit! I wonder if you're a BD girl.

How were convinced to take your clothes off? Were you ever educated about child sexual abuse?

If you did we know someone that grabbed your pussy

I just... I don't know. I just liked the attention, that's all I can remember. There were some things that made me extremely uncomfortable that I didn't like such as the choke hold thing. Sometimes after shoots he would ask me to stand naked in front of him and he would sit down and look at me, just look at me and do nothing for maybe around 5 minutes. That made me feel very bad a kind of scared.

pics or it didnt happen
got kik?

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How explicit were the photos?

Neither did I. My best friend, and his gf who I was also close to, struggled for months to convince me.
My situation wasn't the same as yours, and they concerned out of fear for my life primarily.
Do what you will, just saying that, personally, as a massively cynical person dealing with a lot of self loathing at the time, I believed it wouldn't change a thing, but to my surprise it did.

Counseling not for everyone, people are different, that's just what worked for me. I hope you find some peace with it in a way that leaves you happy, whatever it is.
gl

why is pedophilia so rampant over in the slav countries?

How come?
What's a BD girl?? Is there something about this and ukraine that is common?
No he never touched me like that I dont think

Are you still in contact / able to contact him?
Why not blackmail?

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ok i gotta ask this but were you curious about their penises since they were curious about your body.