How do i stop having a pathetic lack of self worth to the point where i masturbate to themes of degration such as sissy...

how do i stop having a pathetic lack of self worth to the point where i masturbate to themes of degration such as sissy fetishes?

Do you have any sort of goal?

Just end it all.

Dont listen to this gaylord, suicide is the opposite of a solution. You must rebel against this shitty life thing, not choke on it's cock like a little bitch.

not any noteworthy ones as far as i know. i do have a general sense of where im going but there isnt much aspiration in my life

This, you're proably living without doing anything with your life. Get yourself a hard task and improve yourself while persuing it.
You're supposed to be more than your crippled sexuality. You probably don't have a notable hobby you can socialize about with actual 3D people. When you do you will realize how your self perception improves.

I envy your position. You still have the opportunity to find what you want- thats a pretty fun process.

Go out and find something you would enjoy doing, and do it.

This universe is void of intrinsic meaning, but in this void is the power to create your own meaning. Your reality is truly your own to bend and shape as you please.

How old / fat are you?
What do you do for a living?
Do you live in a city or town?

>he thinks im not considering

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what r u a fag?
fags kill themselves do u wanna be a fag

I mean why haven't you done it yet? Do you have any reason to continue living? What fuels you to keep trudging along in this squalid existence, other than being a massive beta?

Late christmas present on me guys go fuck your ex gf tonight - snap-leak-cf

Why not go to college (gain knowledge) graduate (fulfill a goal), find a job (gain skills), talk to everyone (comumication), do leisurely activity that get you out of the house and into nature.

OI, fag, i'm trying to help you.
I need some info on you in order to help you get your life on track - something like this.

you've wired your brain to be into "sissy" things. You need to rewire it to be into "alpha" things. Stop visiting Sup Forums, it's a haven for faggotry and cucks. Workout everyday until you can see a 4-pack. Don't let your insecurities keep you from doing anything, there is no failure, everyone will eventually die alone there is absolutely no reason to let anything put you down because nothing is actually holding you back. It is literally all in your head.

i mean its like i try and then i just get tired of it all and relapse then i ask myself why i keep doing it and if im even trying one fucking bit and its just a messy state of mind to be in

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Hey isn't that messyjessie58 ? That's her snap name btw

Have you tried self harm? I hear cutting or burning yourself works wonders.

This must be a paid ad, how could Sup Forums not block these?

im scared of death so i might as well stick around and wing this life thing

18/fairly attractive/doing an apprenticeship for construction/town p near manchester

definitely into women but ive only had 1 in my life

Why are you scared of death? Are you scared of what comes after? Are you curious to find out at the same time?

too much of a pussy to cut myself and i dont really see the point anyways if im honest

this is assuming that OP is autistic and would consider self harm

"too much of a pussy"
Nigger the only people that cut themselves are 15 year old pussies.

Seems you're easily discouraged by too big tasks: One way to adress big problems is to split it into smaller problems. Keep track of your daily tasks and cross it out once you're done. Put the tasks you didn't do on the next day.
Important / urgent tasks first, then unimportant urgent tasks, then everything else.
Also mark a point where you stop working and have free time. If you fail to seperate free time and work you will end up perceiving it all as work which makes you more tired for no fucking good reason.
This generates a positive hormonal reaction which makes you a little happy. (This is the entire reason why people can play world of warcraft for days without getting tired - there's a bar that fills up and you're congratulated once you've reached a new level.)

what comes after if anything at all. also scared of leaving everything behind and the sensation itself of dying.

well consider me an ultra pussy, friend

But after that initial fear it would be like you never even experienced it.

how do you know?

take estrogen and become catamite

fuck man im actually gonna try this. ive never really thought of it like that but youre right

Because your brain ceases to feel or experience when you die. All that fear would be gone like it never happened. You could see what happens on the other side.

>what happens on the other side
you mean nothing?

Then you've got pretty much all choices which may seem overwhelming.
>if you're somewhat beta:
Go studying something in MINT (math informatics, nature sciences, technology). You will find tons of friendly people and you might just become a nerd with a massive income. That's what i did.
>if you're somewhat alpha:
Construction work is good and hardworking, a respectable type of work in my opinion, but be aware that you won't do it forever because as soon as your body detoriates you'll be next to useless. Get yourself a hobby for starters: Join a soccer club for instance, or learn how to operate a ship. At some point you'll have to start looking for further education, but there's time for that.
Were you ever good at anything? >inb4 playing video games / drinking / smoking /fapping etc. Join a group where people like the same stuff and improve yourself.

There's no way to be completely sure if there is anything after death or not.

might sound a bit crazy but i dont reslly have any gender dysphoria. i just have a horrible self esteem and dont really have any self respect. its also note worthy to say that the first time ive ever seen porn is at 5 years of age and its been in my life since really

True, but it's not a 50/50 scenario
The evidence that there is nothing is overwhelming, the evidence that there is something in nominal

i was in a soccer club for a long time and i was actually reallly good. still am i just dont really play at all anymore cause i dont have a lot of friends. i dont know a lot of people in general so i feel very alone.

Well - this is a problem where i can't really help you any more because i kind of have the same problem.
It got somewhat better once i got out more and did shit with people, maybe you're just too picky about what you consider a friend.
I don't know, but well - you're only 18, go out with people who are like you and take the initiative for doing something. I do it, it takes work and is often unthankful, but at least i have some people arround.

well yes my body wont feel pain but who knows where ill go. theres no way of telling. id rather just leave in my own time.

what a fucking retarded argument. what evidence? whatever is beyond death is beyond existing. and how are you going to disprove and afterlife if its outside of our universe

You don't need evidence of what is after death. If you look at what gives a human identity, of what make you "you". Look at how sufferers of brain damage and dementia lose that identity, sometimes completely. Do you really believe there is a little homunculus inside of you that retains some semblance of your identity, that goes on after death? If its not identifiable in any way as you, its not truly existence after death.

>MINT
What's your problem with STEM?

Well wikipedia says it's an acronym for MINT.
Maybe STEM is the american term? Dunno.

I know exactly what you mean and I'm planning on committing suicide. The only thing that's holding me back currently is that I want to know how The King Killer Chronicles ends. Once I've read the 3rd book I'm out.

well these are things that make you "you" according to yourself.

If its not you, then you don't exist. Pretty simple really. I think people are afraid to imagine a world without them. But the thing is, each one of us will always exist somewhere in the time/space continuum, like a thread in the fabric generated by the loom of the universe. The thread is not infinite in length, but its always there.

Keked so hard. That is a good-ass series.

do you have a custom molded richard dawkins dildo

i mean you havent really disproved the possibility of an afterlife all youve really done is disprove the possibility of existing in the universe beyond death

You should try google. Perhaps a dragon dildo will get you where you want to go.

I'm not trying to go full fedora atheism here. I don't begrudge anyone their beliefs, nor do I think mine are valid or true.

But what does afterlife mean if nothing identifiable as you exists there?

*more* valid or true.

shitty comeback tbh

get one of those dog collar zappers that shock the shit out of you whenever you get an unworthy erection

*valid or true

well fuck knows man if its another world completely then id imagine we'd have different senses too

hahahaha ive actually considered something similar. just for shits and giggles though. do you think it would actually work?