Ok, so I just spent my last money (new paycheck due in like 2 weeks) on online gambling. Slot machines to be precise...

Ok, so I just spent my last money (new paycheck due in like 2 weeks) on online gambling. Slot machines to be precise. I know that most likely, either no one will reply or I will get trolled but... I just wanted to get that off my chest. I have literally 1$ in my account. And it's not like I spent it all at once. I first lost 20$, then 50$, then another 20$ which were my last money for this month. I got some in my savings, which I really don't want to touch. It's looking like I have to, now. My wife doesn't know. No one knows. I have a 2 year old daughter and another kid on the way. We have a car, and loans on our apartment. We both have jobs, we both have meaningful lives. I-m happy in every sense of the word.

Why the fuck can't I stop gambling? I've done it all, or at least I think so. I gamble on sports, slot machines, blackjack and roulette online, I even gamble on fucking cs:go gambling sites. That's ironic because I barely even play the game. I just... I just like it so much. I want to be able to do it, just a little. I'm scared my wife will leave me if I tell her. She knows I gamble but she thinks I can control it. Most of the time, I can. Tonight, I couldn't. I wish I had a little guy on my shoulder telling me to stop, when I felt like gambling too much. I mean, a little is fine. I am ok with the idea of losing a small amount of money each month, as an entertainment and of course there is always the chance of winning. And when I do win, I tend to be able to stop gambling - not always, but most of the time. I've done a few self-tests online, so I know from those tests (and my gut feeling) that I have a problem, however it's not as bad as it can get, if you understand me. If it were alcohol, I'd be a "functioning alcoholic", and not a hobo living on the street, begging people for cash to buy booze.

Advice? Help? Anything? Not asking for any money. I'll be fine. I just want to share this with people who I don't know... Thanks for reading.

cool time stamp. ever play poker irl?

Wow, didn't notice. I have tried it, poker really isn't my game... Too impatient. But yeah tried playing a few times with friends.

Yeah I do the same thing. I cut up my debit card to stop me from blowing $400 in 2 hours. No card to use in the cash machine means I have to travel to the bank to get money.

Change your bank account.

Where I live you need a bank acc to pay bills etc., also I know I would just rebound... thinking about counseling. Have any experience?

Reformed gambling addict here. Sounds like you are really at a tipping point if you are considering dipping into savings or otherwise to cover your gambling losses. You should try as hard as you can to stop by yourself but if you can't then get help.
As someone who was and is a long way down the slippery slope I can tell you you don't want to get any deeper in.
Just cut your losses and move away from it, find something else to occupy/satisfy you. You will never win you will only lose more and more until you have nothing left to lose. Then you'll be on here being an hero.

I was getting out of control with sports betting
Its like anything with self control, you just have to make yourself stop
Cut your losses and dont worry about it but you have to stop now you arent going to win in the long run

Thanks, I need to hear things like this. I just wish I could do it, just a little. you feel me?

Im 20 lost all my money on fucken sports betting quit while u can go back when u are rich 2 succeed

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This is the national gambling addiction and treatment hotline. I recommend giving them a call or texting them when you get a chance.

Gambling addiction is a legitimate problem OP. Hope this helps get you on the path to recovery.

The problem is if you bet a little you win a little
You really want to win a lot
If you have a good job and make tons of money and can make a SEPARATE little savings for gambling only but I probably wouldn't recommend that for you since you have an addiction problem
I've cut it down to one large bet per year (a couple hundred) and try to parlay that and I'm satisfied with it

That's the problem man there is no 'just a little' it only gets worse.
To me it's like any addiction except you can do it without ever leaving your house and with no ill physical effects which is why it's dangerous.
Maybe talk to your wife about it if she is not going to kick your ass out but just sort it out man.
You know you need to or you wouldn't be on here.

Tell your wife: "honey, I have a problem, I discovered that I can't control, can't stop gambling. So please keep you all the money safe and maybe give me only a little piece to gamble for fun"

Been thinking along those lines too. I have a standing lottery bet going on, which costs me something like... 15$ per month or so. On New years I won 2000$ from those numbers. I am thinking about keeping those numbers and just letting them roll, and let that be my weekly fix of "gambling". It's a low bet, with a very low chance of winning, but if I do win I can actually win millions, although I know that chance is slimmer than slim.

Thanks for the concern, however I'm swedish... there is a number to call here too. But I'm too scared/ashamed to do it. I probably should, though.

Thanks again, getting all emotional because you are all being so nice and supportive.

I have to go to bed now, got work tomorrow (almost midnight here). I want you all to know that I am a real person. The problems I described are 100% true and accurate, nothing left out. I usually come to this board for laughs and porn, but I'm glad to have found some real human beings too. I want you to know I'm a real person, and I am extremely grateful for your help. Thank you so much

no prob man, glad you were willing to reach out for support, that's a huge step, even if you don't realize it. As for the hotlines, I'm pretty sure they're all setup to accept text messages as well, you'd still be texting a real person. I'd suggest doing that if you're nervous about speaking to someone yet.

Best of luck to you man

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2 options: or an hero.

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just play online poker and put like 50$ in your account and start on the smallest bets and when you beat the smallest games you can work up to the next level and if you lose money down to like $100 just collect money from the smallest bets again you'll never lose money again

I know you know this already. But I am going to say this again.

You will always lose money playing online casinos. Always.

Have you got 5 bucks in your pocket? If I told you to burn it, would you do it? Because you're doing exactly the same.

12-13 yr recovered compulsive gambling addict here. Stay away from this fucking addictive spiral nightmare. It will get worse. Much worse.

I been thru it all, nearly lost my house, wrecked my car because I was binge-playing all night in a casino and fell asleep at the wheel, jacked up a handful of credit cards that I'm still paying off to this day, attempted suicide, all that shit.

You can quit easier right now because you're just starting, but the longer you hold out, the quitting part becomes a fucking joke.

My excuse was thinking up every stupid strategy possible to keep playing (all of them failed).

These machines are there to make you chase your money until it's all gone hoping to hit something big which for the most part won't fucking happen. They fucking lure/draw you in, that's all they do. You play the slots, lose 3 hands in a row, hit something, win about a fraction of what you just lost back and so on and so on. By the time you actually hit something, you're down $100, but you didn't win it all back, you're just down $80 now instead of $100, it just felt like you hit something big when the house edge just keeps fucking with you.

I'd say 2 times out of ten, I left with more money than I came in with on average (think about how shitty that is) and many times I would play with $400 and leave winning a mere $20 ahead after sitting in a casino for hours. Yeah, I won but $20, really? Felt like I was wasting my life away.

I never seeked professional help but it's the best thing if you're out of control. If I did seek help my addiction may have only lasted half of the 12-13 years of hell I went through. I made good money but I was still living paycheck to paycheck surviving on canned tuna fish and ramen fucking noodles for years. RIP in peace to gambling, bro. Don't fall for the glitz and glamour, it's all bullshit.

So your fucked up selfish habits are taking food out of you daughter's mouth? Do you realize how big of a piece of shit you? You should be ashamed of yourself, man the fuck up and fix yourself before you hurt someone else. A real fuckin man doesn't let his daughter go hungry.

Piece of shit.