Why are you single?

Why are you single?

>be me
>be 18
>best friends with girl since 13
>always kinda wanted to hit but i was super un-confident
>also kinda relied on each other in a fucked up codependent kinda way so i didn't wanna lose her over tryna bang, if i could get it elsewhere
>both pretty fucked up individuals
>her father raped her repeatedly when she was a child and then an-hero'd with a shotgun
>she found his body
>mother honors fathers memory like he was a saint most days
>doesn't know he fucked her daughter until her pussy bled
>i grew up in care homes/foster families because both my parents were junkie fucks
>care homes were ok, bit lonely but meh, food, water and a bed
>one foster family was lovely but they sent me back because i was torrington scum and acted like it (i was 6 so it's not like i was consciously acting scummy or anything)
>2 other foster homes were fuckin death
>one would treat me like a business, keep me locked away with a bucket to shit in and a loaf of bread and tins of beans to eat
>taken from them because a random inspectin happened and i hadn't washed for 5 days and looked fuckin malnourished
>next foster home (this was between about 10 and 14) beat the shit out of me for even the smallest shit like accidentally dropping a glass of water or whatever
>least they fuckin fed me tho
>started cutting at like 11 because they drilled it into me that i was a worthless little shit
>ran away at 13, crashed on 3 different buddy sofas
>met this chick
>i think when you've got some shit to deal with, you can detect it in others too
>start talkin a lot, not about any of that but like general shit
cont

>over time we end up sharing all this stuff and basically acting as each other's pseudo-therapists
>actually saved her life once, found her bleeding out with slashed wrists in this forest place we used to go to smoke and tied my hoodie tight af around the cuts
>emt was like 'you saved a life today'
>still living on friends sofas
>save up enough from selling weed to buy an old RV
>live in that until 18
>throughout all this time talking with this girl, we're super close now
>im talkin if we had to be apart/incommunicado for even a week we'd start losing our shit
>we kinda...
>idek man it was a really fucked up friendship
>so anyway at 18 i get a job as a trainee drug and alcohol rehabilitation specialist
>being torrington scum brought up the way i was i had some substance issues in my past
>realized that my relationship with the girl pointed out that i work and function best whn my purpose is helping others who are going through some shit
>shit pays pretty good
>within 2 months i got a small apartment
>around this time the chick snaps on her mom and tells her about her father's rapism
>mom doesnt believe it and kicks her ass out
>'come crash on my couch then'
>never seen her this fucked
>i've seen her bleeding out and she wasn't this bad
>she would just scream and pull her hair for hours, crying and shit
>trying to comfort her, usually i'm pro at this but this time... not so much
>eventually she calms down
>next day i go work she goes school, all is as good as it can possibly be
>that evening we end up fucking
>i didn't even really want it, she'd been cutting pretty bad and that shit ain't hot
>keeps asking me to hurt her, choke her, pull her hair
>dont think she meant it to but this slipped out
>'make me scream like daddy'
cont

>at this point it's all a total turn off, we stop
>she's crying again
>fuck.jpg this is my fault
>we talk it over and shit
>keep fucking for like 4 months, never really discuss it but we're like partners, clingy ones at that
>one day i come home from work
>i remember i'd picked up beef jerky
>this was her favourite shit of all time (yeah i know, weird favorite food)
>go to living room
>no gf
>go to bedroom
>no gf
>'ah well must be staying late at school for something'
>go for a piss
>shower curtain is drawn
>blood dripping down sides of bath
>freak the fuck out, open shower curtain
>she's obviously dead, no pulse, still desperately tryna get her to breathe, doing cpr and shit
>hugging her lifeless corpse and begging her to come back
>ambulance arrives, confirms she's actually dead
>police question me
>i'm breaking down, cannot handle it
>there was a note to me in the kitchen that i never saw
>said i was the best thing that happened to her and she was so sorry for doing this to me but she couldn't go on
>never cried so hard in my life
>imagine losing the one person who always gave you a reason to live, since like 13
>nobody to turn to
>compassionate leave from work
>stay inside cutting all day pretty much, cant stop thinking about an-heroing to be with her again
>probably wont happen anyway knowing my luck i'd be sent to hell
>this was like a month ago, im still of work and still in pieces
>typing this helped a bit but fuck man
>why did she fucking have to do this? i did everything for her and she's destroyed me, completely
>tryna cling on but its hard af
>fucking feels bad bro

There's more but that's the general idea. Soulmate is kill.

Sorry user, I really hope for your sake this is just an autistic work of fiction.

I was an awkward unconfident uncomfortable fatty growing up, never had problem making friends but basically never learned how to into girls.

Now I've lost a lot of weight and am a more confident and less awkward, I even have a girl who's DTF and pretty much perfect for me but I just can't make the move. She's so lonely and all she wants is a good dicking and someone to have a casual relationship, but I just can't fucking do it. Still, I hope to fix that at a big hotel rave coming up we're both gonna be at. Hopefully drugs can help me make that move.

Unfortunately not.

Damn user.....I'm sorry for your loss

I hate being around people.
Kinda makes the whole thing impossible.

Any other form of relationship is just as cringy.

Well if it was that's exactly what you would say. I think this is a classic example if schrodingers autist. Unless I meet you irl this both is and isn't an autistic work of fiction

Well, I'm single because I was emotionally abusive to my last ex. We had a kid and gave it up for adoption. Karma bit me in the as later when I became a cripple.

Reasons Tho:
>fat
>cripple
>mean
>paranoid
>I shave my neck beard but keep the white trash mustache
>I live with my grandma
>lost my car
>lost my job
>lost my dog
>lost my apartment
>am slowly getting more broke

I can keep going, but after all that I think I'm just gonna lay down for awhile.

Thanks man.
Believe what you want, I really don't give a shit.

Depressed since my first gf left me after four years, haven't spoke to her since. Feels bad. Now I'm mid twenties, live at home, hard time keeping friends. At least I have a good job

Sucks bro, feel for ya

My ex was basically cheating on me by sending nudes to a mate of mine.
Not wanted anyone since... not even wanted to get laid since (almost 3 years now).

I'm paralyzed and can't make a move.

Torrington's a shit hole, no wonder she offed herself,

look on the bright side, gents. for every one of you that stay single, at least one woman out there will die alone with cats.

Torrington's really not that bad. You probably drove through southside once and are basing everything off of one neighborhood.

If your reading this your parents will die within 5 years to break the curse you must copy this to 5 pictures good luck. If you love your mom post this to 20 picture. One girl ignored this and her mom died 365 days later. Sorry I can't ignore this because I love my mom

My parents can get fucked, the junkie fucks. Probably already dead.

bit out of shape, can be triggered easily, sometimes doesn't know the shit that's coming out of my mouth

Dont want the bullshit right now. Me and ex cut ties about 6 months back. Didnt talk for a month. Started talking. Got back together a month after. I continue to try and fuck up as well. She continues to complain and play a victim. She cut it off right before christmas and my bday. Its not like the last break up. I feel good about it. She texts me happy bday i dont reply. No contact. Being able to save lots of money now and put focus back into neglected friendships and family. Spent all this money and time on her and i have found outlets to put those things and now im happy with friends making memories and spoiling myself. In a good career. Girls eyeball me. Its great.

I just can't be myself around people i like, It's natural for me to say stupid shit or flat out humiliate myself, just because i think the other person it's simply too good for me.
Sorry if my english is broken

Working on it

because I'm NEET and play video games all day every day

Because I hate meeting new people and the few girls I know and like are either far away, not interested or both. I don't really want a relationship tbh.

I can´t talk, and I have a tic in the eyes and hands

I'm shy, don't know how to meet girls, and a lot of them think I'm gay. Eh bb im gay for that lady anus

cock too thick, might actually choke someone.better stay single.

Move on, do it for her. She wouldn't like you to die too.

cause i'm an unlikeably human being

Nice pasta brev

I'm just feel like I'm the type of person who never understands how to express love and would be a terrible partner nonetheless. I never understood how people can have sex, much less love, and why even bother wasting your time for such hit-or-miss shit.

Too much work to keep a relationship going and IMO not worth the effort.

Dude. Please don't shoot up any schools or some shit.

I dont want to spend Money. maybe once i become economically stable after college i will.

Same

It's all good man. I have no reason to do so.

Can't. Every time I sleep I have the same nightmare, basically reliving the part where I find her body covered in blood, try to resuscitate her,fail, then just hold onto her for dear life and cry. Then the paramedics show up and drag me off her, and I wake up deathgripping a bodypillow with her hoodie on it bawling my eyes out. I fucking talk to a pillow because I can't sleep at all unless I convince myself momentarily that she's right there with me. Everything's a reminder and any time I think of her I just break the fuck down. It was a mug with a bit of her lipstick on yesterday.

Fuck's sake I take whore's baths in my sink and shit at a gas station because I can't even bear to be in the room where she died.

She was my reason to live. Fucking everything to me. Only one in the world who loved me, is fucking gone. Aaaaand now I'm in tears again.

Fuck my fucking life.

Because I'm 16 and live in a government state with a bunch of niggers who I fucking hate and im depressed as fuck and have shit social skills

>Ctrl+F
>Video games and Porn

fuck yuo Sup Forums you used to be kew;l

Weird, fat, shy, and boring as shit.

Patricio?


I was socially awkward and fat for most of my childhood. Then I lost the weight and got out of my shell in high school, but I didn't know how to deal with females. Senior year (last year) I finally started dating this girl I had known for a couple years. It was my first relationship and she kinda formed me into her. Codependent, controlling, insecure, paranoid, jealous, and demoralizing. I suppose those were all traits I possessed prior to her, but with her acting like that it definitely brought it out. She broke up with me in like November. Got another girlfriend later that month because I figured I'd rebound. Chick left a week ago because of all the aforementioned traits being too much for her.
>tl;dr had my first girlfriend for 9 months and became a total asshole just like she was and now it's hard for me to treat women properly

I'm 33 and have been single my entire life.

I'm single because I'm extremely introverted. Plus, women never seem to be interested in me in the slightest.

Not looking for a relationship because that shits a lot of work

I have Asperger's.

Are you actively rejecting women? Or is that just a feeble justification for not being able to attract a girl?

Most of the men going 'MGTOW' are the men who are unable to attract women in the first place. Their abstinence from women will go completely unnoticed.

This is really sad to read, do you have any friends to speak to about your predicament?

None - I never really kept close friends because I had her. A work friend visited pretty soon after but I ended up flipping shit on him because he said 'plenty more fish' or words to that effect. He's not called since.

Nobody really gives a shit. I just gotta deal.

I had a girl once but then I went to college and blew the whole thing off (she was still in hs). Why? I'm not sure to be honest. A part of me feared getting involved in something serious with her being my only girl I've been with. Another part wanted to have time for friends and new experiences. Idk If I regret my decision, she got a new boyfriend a month later which hit hard as she used to say her worst fear was me getting a new girlfriend within a short time, but here she is, doing the shit she that she felt would haunt her. It makes me think if she really loved me or not. I feel she might have a had abandonment issues or something. Doubt anyone will read this really or care much. I miss her, but I know it wouldn't work in the long run, I just don't think I'm ready for that kind of commitment.

Shit so you're all alone in this :(
I'm really sorry user..

im no single bbut my girlfriend is a complete retard

you utter total faggot user

>fucking talking to a body pillow
>crying over a mug
>scared of a fucking room

kill yourself user. you're pathetic

Wow.

Reading your story makes me so very happy that my life is great. I feel awesome! Reading about other people's sadness just fills me with glee!

When other people in the world are upset, I am happy.

Sorry for your loss user :) Oh well, plenty more fish, eh?

MODS MODS MODS UNDERAGED BAN

Yup. Keep hoping I'll wake up and this is all a nightmare. Life's a total fucking bitch.

Make sense please buddy.

Easy for your 13 year old ass to say.

I hope you never go through this. I really fucking hope you never have to look into the person you love's dead eyes and realise everything she was, all the amazing things she could do, all the memories, have drifted away and she's just a lifeless sack of meat. You'll still hold her even when you know she's gone.You'll close your eyes and hold her and pray to anyone who'll listen for her to wake up.

Please don't shit talk me for having feelings. Feelings are good. They're what makes us human.

Because I dumped her

Ah well, every cloud has a silver lining I guess.

i hear you, user
not knowing whether you regret it or not is whats haunting me right now

im sure being a racist and a virgin isnt holding you back any.

Hey guys. Cheer up! I'm married and wish I was single!!!

My girlfriend is dead, unless you have some valium I'm probably gonna stay depressed, still.

Also why not just leave her? It's shitty of you to keep her on the hook if you aren't feeling it.

What would Naruto do

Don't go, user. Don't do it.

I was left by someone some time ago. Don't really feel like getting myself into something new.
Also I have pretty weird fetishes