Looks like it's the end of the road for me Sup Forums Can't take much more of my life. I've gone through a lot of this but this is an obstacle I can't go through. I have 80,000 followers on twitter and a big community of people who care for me and I want to do something big. I know it'll hurt all of them but I just can't do this anymore.
So as of now I'm asking you guys suggestions of things I should do. I could do it on a stream whatever, I'm gonna tweet it out hours before it happens. I have only a few hundred dollars in paypal left and I'll post my login info on my twitter or here Sup Forums. I need suggestions I want to make this a big deal if I'm going out.
Just wanted to stop by and let you guys know. at the end of this thread I'll be posting my twitter. I just wanted to say thank you Sup Forums I know we all have a reason why we've been here all these years and through all the shit we stuck together.
This'll be happening 3 hours from now. Cya Sup Forums
Jackson Martin
dont do it op
Gabriel Miller
do it op, i need money
Jason Hill
an hero on stream faggot
Isaac Gonzalez
just look out for it -op
Christopher Roberts
You have lots of twitter followers. What more could you want in life?
Joseph Sanchez
it doesnt matter, it doesn't make me happy. nothing makes me happy anymore. i just wanna end it. and i've made my decision. -op
Henry Roberts
Do not do it!
Jordan Morales
I don't think I have much of a choice at this point, but thanks user.. -op
Carter Bell
Poor fag here. You should chuck us your paypal my dude
Angel Mitchell
Why not go to an underdeveloped country and help the people -- especially children -- someway? If you are going to go out, do it helping others.
Samuel Cruz
I will be dumping it, don't worry user. -op
Levi Lewis
So first come first serve?
Luis Allen
That's why I'm dumping it, it may help someone out, but I want to help someone here because Sup Forums has helped me out in the past. So this is me giving back user. -op
Samuel Watson
Yes. -op
Henry Ross
Do it, dont do it, who gives a fuck and if somebody gives a fuck then they should do it to. Stop being an a. Whore op it seems like it didnt help u so far
Kevin Ross
stream up, bet many here would fap to it
Parker Harris
I will be. -op
not trying to be, just wanted to let everyone know just incase they wanted the paypal info.
Nicholas Jackson
But the other way, you are still alive and happy.
Liam Ramirez
Why not try killing the social media. Move on with real life find a girl/guy that you can chill with all the time that pushes you forward all the time. "Life gets better " that's all I can say.
Logan Fisher
Please be courteous and donate your organs.
Parker Jones
Blow your brains out in front of the white house. Make sure to wear a T shirt that says Trump Did This. You will dominate the news cycle for at least 3 days
Eli Evans
how do you imagine doing it?
Carson Turner
idk if i can make it til this thread ends. just say your twitter OP.
Christian Rogers
rip
William Parker
it's hard to be happy these days. just can't do it anymore. -op
I've tried. I've had girlfriends, I've had family I've had friends. None of what they say effect me emotionally, so I'm done.
I'll leave a note.
Noah Bell
turn this in to a rekt thread
Thomas Flores
rub one out. you'll feel better.
Levi Collins
That's a great idea actually. I was just in DC a few weeks ago. So I could.
Not sure yet, but I want people to see it definitely.
thanks user.
Noah Hall
>it's hard to be happy these days. Just look at Timmy.
Kevin Rodriguez
Don't do it OP!
Brayden Bennett
this
Landon Nelson
Have to, but thanks user I really appreciate it. -op
I'am... nothing, but thanks user.
Charles Cook
We can help you OP,just don't do it!
Henry Evans
Do an Elliot Rodger before you an hero
Austin Gonzalez
Roll
Blake Miller
I just don't know what to do anymore...
Jace Wilson
There must be a way to help you.
Nathaniel Scott
See you on the other side op
Jayden Johnson
How are you going out?
Oliver Wright
Why don't you leave your paypal info and just go into the woods and try to wrestle a bear or a wolf or something stupid like that. Either you die and feed the animal or you kill the animal and then die anyways and feed the other animalas. Small % of surviving and telling the tale of how you defeated a wolf or a bear.
Ian Diaz
Lol
Cameron Jones
You know how there are lists of films to watch before you die? Well, you cannot die without watching the films on this list of films that YOU should watch before you die: Inglourious Basterds Before Sunrise Before Sunset Annie Hall Arrival Crimes and Misdemeanors The Curious Case of Benjamin Button Fight Club Y Tu Mamá También Inception Living is Easy with Eyes Closed The Master Punch-Drunk Love
Jackson Nelson
Give me something to look forward to... I know you don't know me personally but something.. Cause there's nothing I can possibly see that'll make me happy, whether it be now or later. So...
Looking for ideas at the moment user
Noted... thanks user
Thanks user
Joseph Turner
Skip Inception, the movie is a waste of time, but the other ones are fine
Brody Sanders
Neat
Jackson Phillips
find a tall building. monday morning. make someones day unforgettable
Asher Brooks
I forgot to include: The Prestige Mulholland Drive Blue Velvet Rushmore Moonlight Ghost World
Asher Flores
use that couple hundred to buy yourself tickets elsewhere, as far as possible.
Austin Walker
Hey OP wanna send me some cash if you feel fancy while we wait
Also what form of account is it on twitter
Cameron Foster
Goodbye op!
Grayson Morgan
this.
Jace Baker
>>cause 80,000 followers means any of them actually give a fuck about you >>announces he will kill himself as a subconscious way of reaching out for help but says he doesn't care Who are you trying to fool OP. You feel lile shit and maybe you had a shit life. It's true that we all experience things differently. But do you honestly believe there is nothing else in the world for you? Go blow some money fucking off, get away from all those people who show an artificial interest in you because you're the "flavor of the month". I don't even know you. But I know what it's like to be depressed. Your brain spews all sorts of shit to you. Get yourself feeling better, get on the right anti-depressents for a while to help get your chemistry balanced again, do stuff you love, and see if you still want to an hero at the end of it all. What more do you have to lose, right? In the end, it's your decision. But just remember you won't get another one. It's obvious you care and you want people to care. Keep that in the mind when you're holding that cold steel to your head or whatever you're planning to do. Just remember that.
Julian Martin
Tell us more about yourself OP.When did this urge start?
Carter Cooper
op really don't do it, this is not only about your life, don't you think that your family and friends won't be hurt? You'll leave this world and the pain would stop, but would you make your closest people around go through horrible pain because of your selfish act?
Tyler Gray
thirding
Sebastian Anderson
Noted, thank you user... And yeah I know if it. I appreciate this.
I just don't know user... I don't know if that'll do anything to change my decision user. I want to but I know in the end I just can't do this anymore. but I really appreciate you doing this, you don't know how much it means.
What this user said. They will carry that pain for the rest of their lives. You will leave them heartbroken and even worse, with a feeling of regret that they could have somehow avoided this -- regardless of anything that you write n a note. They will carry a general sense of uneasiness with which they will have to learn to live, and they will not be able to feel complete happiness again.
Levi Fisher
OP think of everyone you love and don't do it please, even if you don't feel that much love towards them, if they love you, they will feel hurt when you'll go, you really will, don't make them go through shit like this, go talk to them, go out in town with people that care about you, have a pint or two, go to a movie, life is beautiful if you want it to be...
Isaiah Thompson
imma kms
William Clark
Op if you are sending money instead of the giveaway thing here;s my pay-pal email: [email protected]
Also, rest in peace my bro
Ian Ross
try taking some SJW's with you
Josiah Morales
Please don't
Brayden Kelly
Health reasons, nothing to look forward to. Can't play anything anymore, it's almost impossible. Can barely go outside without having these anxiety attacks... It's not like im saying that's all I ever did I did a lot and I traveled, its just that was a massive outlet for me but note that isn't mainly why I'm doing it. My health is a bigger factor I could care less not doing what I love for the rest of my live if all I was was happy but im not just don't want to live anymore...Just can't do it...
Jackson Fisher
Killing yourself while there is hot teen poon out there to enjoy. I don't get it.
Hudson Jones
This sounds like fun
Brayden Price
>>Selfish act That's completely subjective. If you really understood depression you wouldn't be saying that. I can absolutely see how it feels selfish. But you need to also understand their point of view. To them, it's nearly impossible to give meaning to life and have happiness lasting longer than a moment. It's like a nightmare you can't wake up from. You don't want to live like that every day so suicide seems like the only way to end it all. And how many people actually give enough of a fuck to do something about it? "Oh don't kill yourself", but then no one gives enough of a shit to do more than just say that. I understand what you're saying, but you need to also understand them too.
Ian Rodriguez
why though just go do something else
Jackson Hill
dont do it fag. Find some friends, have a beer, fuck you job, use your last money to make an amazing journey around the world. If you still wanna die after that, just do it. If you've been eating tendies all day while browsing Sup Forums, of course you'll wanna kill yourself
Thomas Johnson
Dont think its as easy as that for him mate
Dominic Parker
Tell me about the place where you live, how small is it? Anxiety can be triggered by such things.
Adam Gray
this
Ethan Butler
I don't have a paypal account myself and i just wanna buy some steam games so would you be able to email the deets to me plz
Brayden Bell
Just don't botch it. I spent a year in a mental health institution after being diagnosed with clinical depression, and let me tell you, it's like Catch-22 (or Hotel California, I guess). Leaving is quite tricky. The whole business is such an inconvenience that if it weren't for the few meaningful things I learned there, I might've been happier dead.
Then again, an infinity of nothingness sounds frightening compared to the monotony and balderdash that I'm used to dealing with every day.
In any case, take your gamble if you're willing to. Just be sure to aim true and die efficiently.
Justin Anderson
Don't diss tendies faggot
Isaac Torres
life just isnt easy. If you really want to do something with your remaining time, you're gonna have to do some effort
Colton Garcia
kek
Zachary Reyes
Oceanside, California
I really appreciate these comments, I know it's selfish but I just can't anymore. I wish the best for everyone I've ever known but they have to know it isn't because of them
Brandon Morgan
Look at this cuck. Greet over yourself. You think we all want to keep living. I'm not a fan of life but I'm not going to bitch out either. Suck your pathetic ass up and keep moving faggot
Cooper Phillips
alrighty, at least go out with a bang
Jonathan Cox
Exactly why he wants to off himself... although that takes a bit of effort too... hmm...
Dominic Cook
OP don't,we care about you!
David Sullivan
Plz dont do it
Julian Morgan
Look, you're right, I've never had depression, was quite a lucky guy in life, but let me tell you this, never will you see someone whom a friend has killed himself that will act normally and say "well there ain't shit we could have done, at least he's peaceful now", no they will cry, they will feel empty in their hearts, I firmly believe that life has a meaning only if you give it a meaning, depression is tough even though I don't relate to it, but I believe that you can escape from it and I really wish OP would escape from it, with help, not necessarily our help, there is medical help and there are friends, real friends, real family out there, I believe in you OP.
Grayson Rivera
You only live 3 hours from me, lets get fucked up op
Jose Robinson
I, popo, see all yall trying so hard but tbh I think OP has it figured out, like, I know when i finally do it I wouldnt let Sup Forums talk me out of it so. I will try to send peace OP
Julian Gutierrez
What kind of health reasons? I'm in my 20's and have crippling osteoarthritis all over my body. My elbows, fingers, knees, lower back. Every day I feel some form of pain and it hinders my motions. I've lived in a mold and shit infested home for most of my life. It's caused numerous health problems for me. No one to understand, but have had a friend or two in my life who have been there for me ever since after many years of all of that. Not physically there, but they're there. I still try to do what I can. I joke that I'll eventually be like stephen hawking. Humor has always been my way of coping, even if I get depressed from time to time or demoralized. I want to exercise so bad but it's unbelievably difficult to. Fortunately I'm not some fat slob who eats his worries his way. It's hard user, and I'm not saying all this to trivialize any of your hardships. I'm just saying it to try and give you a bit of perspective. Not everyone feels or experiences things the same way. But maybe you should try to tell your depression to fuck off for a moment so you can get someone to help you get back on track. Someone you really feel would spend the time and care to help you out.
Kevin Cox
Finally I am on time for someone killing themselves Best part of my day so far.
The idea with wrestling a bear sounds cool, get your phone and Facebook live stream it or sth? Like set it up a tree.
Or you could always trigger some wrong ideas like dress up as KKK and kill people, especially niggers.
Ryder Anderson
I hope that you die
Eli Sanchez
find op and drink some beer together
Landon Moore
op still posting paypal deets or sending pms now?
also, when does the stream start? im bored
Jackson Williams
Would you be able to email the details to [email protected] I wanna buy a couple small things. Also a shotgun through the roof of your mouth is the quickest and most successful way to go. Just think about the people who love you before you do it, you will be missed
Eli Scott
OP,
I've made too many suicide attempts to list.
Could never slit my wrists. The idea of slashing my veins open and bleeding out is not a nice one.
Overdose on pills? With all the meds the doctors have me on right now, technically I overdose every day. If I did a huge overdose I know I'd end up getting my stomach pumped and wake up in a hospital feeling terrible.
Hanging? I tried to hang myself but I was so damn fat the tree broke in half. I ended up on my ass on the muddy ground with splinters all through my skin and a sore neck.
Drowning never worked for me. I'd weigh down my pockets with rocks, but by the time I started feeling faint I impulsively threw those rocks out of my pocket and swam back up to the surface.
Can't shoot myself because we're not allowed guns in this country.
I could go on.
I've given up on trying to off myself because it always fails.
Yes I could jump off a building, but a part of me wonders if I would miscalculate the fall and end up alive with all my bones broken instead. Same with jumping in front of a vehicle. And even if either effort were to kill me, then those poor people will never recover from the trauma.
Imagine running someone over, or someone jumps down and goes splat right next to you, or you are a traindriver or a passenger and the train minces you. They would never get over that.
My point is you may very well fail and live on to regret it and feel a thousand times more worse off than you do now.
Luke Collins
I support your decision OP. I was where you were and someone stopped me. Never been able to work up the courage for another attempt. Don't let anyone take that away from you because it never gets better.