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nothing we do matters in life, and we are all going to die.
how does that make you feel ?

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used to bother me

there's nothing you can do about it. Why worry?

the only reason why I worry is cause I love life and don't wish to die

too bad bruh. You're already on the way out. Nothing to worry about.

No I know I am, like people around me have been dying left and right. Especially since I'm not religious, there is no afterlife, so after you die it's just over and I'm terrified of that.

Makes me feel less "worthless" because nothing has value anyway

Apart from my meaninglessness in the universe I feel as though my decaying corpse will permeate our vast cosmos with little specs of my past being, each and every particle becoming part of many foundations from which all types of physical matter will begin their cycles.

And that's what fills me with happiness, knowing that the universe finds a way for us to live on.

It's strangely comforting to me.

Doesn't make me feel anything

then quit wasting your time on the internet

See I do love that, but then there is the part of me that just thinks about dying and literally just being nothing anymore. It's weird, I used to be depressed for a year or two. Now I'm in college, I don't know where I am going, what I'm doing, what I really want to be in life, how in the fuck I'm going to be happy and make enough money to live comfortably. And it's like... I'm still extremely happy just to be alive. It's really weird to me. When I was depressed I wasn't suicidal or anything, but getting so happy makes me so scared of death that it's like me being happy brought negativity into my life and gave me a phobia. I wish I didn't think the way I thought, and I wish I could believe in an afterlife and religion, but I just can't.

See, but wasting my time on the internet is one of my favorite things to do, especially being a College student with no car and little money.

I understand being terrified of boredom, but that's not what you will experience. It's like being terrified of losing consciousness. What exactly are you afraid of?

I still have some time to become a quarter mile concrete stain before I realize that the best years are behind me and I start throwing critical hardware faults. I'm not worried. Call me back when I'm 35, though, and the panic will have started to set in.

Well the thing is I'm afraid that when I die everything will just go black and be over with. Like what happens to my consciousness. Obviously it will just cease to exist, and I just am terrified to know what that's like because I don't want to not be alive.

>nothing we do matters in life

It's "nothing we do in life matters".

kys.

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There is no concept of "black" when you're dead. When you're dead, it doesn't matter anymore how afraid you were of death. You won't know what that's like because you won't know anything.

Remember what it was like before you were born? There you go, it's the same thing.

It's not weird to know that you will fade into nothingness at some point during your life. Everyone has those thoughts and they get over them because they are scared of the thoughts that come after.

Society fills humanity with a false sense of purpose, creating the misrepresentation of having to slave away many hours of your life to pay for things that you don't really want or need but because of your conditioning you slowly begin to 'think' that you really DO want them.

Many people are bombarded with expectations of becoming honor students or having children, and some are simply unable to take these expectations and turn them into a reality no matter how hard they try. This causes us to over exaggerate trivial matters.

Do what you can to get your mind off of these thoughts, it may seem like you become a sheep during which you drink alcohol and partake in rather unorthodox behavior but trust me when I say that there is no cure for your meaninglessness.

Fill your life with purpose, happiness does not come from realization, it comes from the realm of physicality and ignorance. The longer your days are spent worrying about the truth of reality the longer it takes for you to climb out of that hole of yours.

Might as well take morphine and get drunk

Kinda nice actually. It means were all equal, no one wins or loses.

How was it to suddenly wake up alive when you were born? Also who says it cant happen again? It happened once so maybe it happens again. Learn meditation to reflect about yourself and how much of you is actually you and how much is just your parents and teachers and surroundings. What part of you do you actually control

You're a fool trying to cling to life. Accept the fact that you've began your existential crisis and work from there

Makes me feel like everything's jsut fine. Life sucks pretty often, so not existing would be cool after I do the stuff I'd like to.

I disagree with you saying nothing matters though. In their small ways everything matters. Really, in a purely technical way, all that matters is what you care about. Though, there are a lot of "you's" out there.

If life wouldnt suck occasionally, how could you tell the non sucking apart from the sucking?

Remmy matters.

Obviously I don't remember that because I wasn't alive, it's just hard to wrap my head around.

It's not even that I'm in a hole, I drink, party, have fun do crazy shit. There are just times (especially now because multiple people in my life just passed) where I think about death, and just hate it.

I have thought about meditating, I just don't see myself ever waking up again because the real "me" is dead. I can't feel that I am somehow that special of a person.

I think I've started to accept that, it just kinda sucks. It also brings in other okay aspects though, like when I see a random person I think what their story must be like. I think life in general really interests me in a strange way.

aroused

Life's a garden. Just suck it bro

Just kill yourself. It'll be on your terms

>I have thought about meditating, I just don't see myself ever waking up again because the real "me" is dead. I can't feel that I am somehow that special of a person.

What is your real "me" ?

Smoke weed everyday

I don't really think that I control much of anything. The way I see it, I'm something akin to a microchip; a long line of dominoes falling, cause and effect slamming into eachother an unfathomable number of times each second.

I find it hard to believe that there is anything before this, or anything after. I am a process, not a state. All I can trust is the here and now.

Yeah, but I love life so killing myself sounds shitty af obviously.

You sound a bit depressed and lonely.
Get a gf, one day a wife then make a kid. That way ,while you won't live, your essence, your DNA will be carried onward and you can teach him/her the shit you know. That's the only way humans can "survive" death.

What I mean by the real "me" is the person I am right now. By that logic, I must've also been someone in a past life, or something of the sort. I fear waking up as someone that I am really not. Obviously if I were to die I wouldn't remember this life and thus would obviously be a new person. I just think I love life and who I am too much to want to ever lose it. Which I know I will, so it's kinda just annoying more or less at this point.

What I mean by the real "me" is the person I am right now. By that logic, I must've also been someone in a past life, or something of the sort. I fear waking up as someone that I am really not. Obviously if I were to die I wouldn't remember this life and thus would obviously be a new person. I just think I love life and who I am too much to want to ever lose it. Which I know I will, so it's kinda just annoying more or less at this point.

Try to control your breathing, then try to not control your breathing, try to not breathe (without external tools) and see that it is both voluntary and involuntary at the same time. Just like your thinking and how you life your life.

Albert Camu's absurdism, my friend. Worth a wiki search. Hope you resolve you conscious dissonance brought on by existential blah blah blah. Long story short, you're not the first person to ever feel the way you do. All you need to do is look around and create your own blah blah blah

I know I'm not the only one that thinks this, so thanks for the shiet, I'll give it a check.

Try to analyse what that person "you" are right now is. You can do that by trying to not think about anything. You might be suprised by what and how many thoughts come up when you actively try not to think. The trick is to just observe them and then see them floating away, dont get attached and dont judge them and most of all dont get frustrated with yourself if you cant do it at first.

how i feel about that? it doesnt matter because i die anyways.

>nothing we do matters in life, and we are all going to die.
Not quite. The only person that they ultimately matter for is you. Which means you decide how much they matter, from the day you are born to the day you die.

Makes me feel like eating a lot of these...

It makes me question myself:
>"Why do I suffer from anxiety and are afraid of talking to woman, knowing the fact that some day I will be dead. Why is it that my mind is still scared to take risks?"
Please I need advice.

None of this "be yourself" shit.

I am already growing older and time is wasting away. I just want to somehow let go of all my fears and just be able to take those risks and go up to anyone and talk to them, not caring if I make a fool of myself.

There has to be some way either by a drug or psychologically or by mind tricking myself to be able to live this way because I hate being at home constantly and being afraid to go into any social place because I have trained my

Makes me shit my pants with fear. That, plus my vast, bloated sense of self-importance are the reasons that I am a Christian.

Hey you know the cloning facility the hawkband owns right? Well there's untold truth you need to know. 50 Out of every 100 clones we make come out dysfunctional braindead animals, which we colletively call "nate". Aside from basic animalistic tendencies, they can't do much really and are discarded. How are they discarded you ask? Well we round them up in secret rooms and butcher them like animals. Stabbing, beheading, burning, shooting, disembowling, etc. We do to them. Some of them try to fight back, but it doesn't really get them anywhere. Still, there's more to this than you know. The nurses and handmaidens we try and clone to help the would be soliders also come out dysfunctional half the time. But we handle them differently. You see, we rape them multiple times before dragging them out back and shooting them like dogs. What? It's not like they would've been much use otherwise. You may think us as monsters but they're just disposable clones, useless and barely functioning. They may look human but they lack the key things that make us like one in the first place, so we're really doing them a favor honesty. Now on to the last part. Sometimes we get a dysfunctional clone of the elite soldiers modeled after the boss himself. They can function but only enough to say basic things like "hello" or "yes" and basically have the intelligence of a year old child. We give them a dignified death by shooting them in the back of the head with a small caliber round and posing the corpse in a coffin before incinerating it. Just to show respect to the boss, of course. Oh, and you know how we get so many meat rations right? Well let's just say we don't let the bodies go to waste and leave it at that, alright?

ITT: a millennial complains about having normal thoughts for a college-ages person.

Shut up and suck it ip

Meh. I've embraced this fact a long time ago. I've learned that its best to just acknowledge it and try to have a good time while you're here

I don't know what the fuck you're talking about, all of my college-aged friends are carefree and when I've talked about this shit with them they just don't give a shit.

You have retarded friends. Maybe you should fix that first

Kek
>millennial anger

I'm triggered faggot stfu

I mean, I don't think that's it really, They just don't fear it for some odd reason and I can't exactly comprehend why, probably cause I'm not them.

Makes me feel fine to be honest, all I need to worry about is making myself and people I care about (because I feed off their love) happy and I'm good.

In the meantime I have porn and alcohol

Are they better looking then you and get girls?

I mean it depends, it's not like I have like 5 friends that are all guys... so that's a pretty difficult question to really answer. In general guys get girls, girls get guys. I am probably in general better looking than the majority of them.

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So you're ugly. Kek. It's okay dude, we all are

Let us be the judge, post a photo

Nigga what

Pic and time stamp to prove you're not ugly

Relieved