Slowly moving back into alcoholism to deal with the pain etc etc.
Seeing as how I'm addressing it and recognizing it should I seek help or try and stop?
Will not be able to stop w/o help. Not ready to go to a therapist to deal with shit as the reason/s why I drink. Cheaper than therapist.
Thoughts? Open discussion... anyone in similar place/been there
I drink to much because I'm lonely. Try to find someone you would want to hang out with that doesn't drink.
I work too much and have tried to be social so many times. I just end up coming straight home, on goes the laptop and drink in hand.
The pain?
Oh boo fucking hoo, I'm sure you've lost more than man can remember
Soon as I read "should I seek help or stop" that's when I'm out
I am there I get intoxicated every single day. You gotta recognize before you accept or your never feel certain.
Gotta stay true to yourself
In similar place with opiates. Sucks man but I can't imagine life without em. They make me sane.
Trust me it's better to not know but you won't know that till you do know. Then it's to late
It's all about the pursuit of happiness. I don't see what's wrong with opiates for fun
Well you're already cognizant of your condition. Challenge yourself mentally to command control of your life. It's as simple as saying no and just refraining. Self will, mental discipline - it won't be hard. Take command.
On the other hand beer is so fucking good
Sounds fun. Maybe not to me but sounds fun to you so there for
Sounds fun
why's that, if you don't mind me asking?
Recognize that you are an alcoholic? Before you can except it? and stay true to yourself to carry on or stop.
That's exactly how I feel man. I need that drink. It's my ritual and it's my embrace. I nee dto be numb
I can feel it creeping. I know it's true, I know I am. That's the scary part. Yet I still function, and I function well- job wise but that's it. Right now I'm itching for that next drink and I've only just finished one.
This isn't happiness though and I know it. It's to dull and get through.
Read my mind friend.
hey op. serious question here
have you thought about psychedelic introspection?
studies show promising results
it's not fun. Really not. I feel like I have to do it.
no, what's that?
Just drink non alcoholic beer as a filler and pinch your gooch every time you have an impure thought about alcohol
you have to focus on fixing your problems rather than prolonging your pain with alcohol.
I have drunk myself into oblivion probably upwards of 50+ times. all including severe alcohol withdrawals where i couldn't eat for 2 days straight, nearly had a seizure, hallucinated, and had uncontrollable muscle spasms. Stop before it gets worse.
Shit man I love em and have no plans on quitting but I do know how it feels to be sorta dependent. I'm pretty good at keeping the monster at bay though sometimes it gets away from me.
I don't really drink but I'm so alone. I feel like I annoy people so I wait for them to invite me (and they don't). God thanks music.
>no, what's that?
it means tripping balls to treat your addiction bro.
see
Embrace desth, let the alcohol take you home weary Sup Forumsro. You can finally rest.
Morbid, but somewhat comforting in a sad way. Thanks for that tiny little feel there, user.
Try and separate yourself from yourself for a moment and ask yourself "why do I drink" and keep repeating that
Think more along the lines of you enjoy not enjoying alcohol then. Think differently
im sure youre great with people
Sign up for an entry level motorcycle course and get your endorsment (motorcycle license) then pick up a bike on Craigslist for 1 or 2 grand, look for something smaller like a 250 (you will find out what that is in time, if you don't already) It is one of the best hobbies you can have. I was drinking almost a half gallon of Canadian mist whisky every day, seriously. I had nothing to do other than work and world of Warcraft. these days I either go for a ride or watch some YouTube videos on how to tune up my bike and I feel like I have direction now.
Pour your drink onto your laptop.
You'll resent alcohol for ducking up your computer, and you won't have your computer for a while so you can try a new hobby.
Imagine being someone who's dependent on something that they don't know there dependent on. Ignorance is bliss the ignorant are always bliss
Well all depend on each other it's the way
like i said before
here
seperate yourself with psychedelics bro
its easy and can cure you over night
check this quote
""Only by losing the self, can you find the self," explains Dr Robin Carhart-Harris, from Imperial College London. These may not be the usual words of a scientist but there is biology behind them. "People try and run away from things and to forget, but with psychedelic drugs they're forced to confront and really look at themselves," he says. "
source cnn.com
honestly if i do that it just makes it worse. I drink to dull the thoughts/memories/feels.
That got to me a little, I'll admit.
huh... guess I'll try get hold of some shrooms then... the idea behind it is to trip balls and realize why you drink?
I agree thank god for music man keeps me going. that and my tv shows but they're getting emotional for me and hitting home too much
Trying bro. How did you do yous did you go to therapy?
I really don't I just want to numb my mind
a new hobby then?
haha that made me chuckle
I'm kinda digging this.
But scared what I will face tbh
>be me
>addicted to cigs
>try acid one day
>see my veins under my skin pulsing with nicotine
>quit smoking that day
>no withdrawls
>no cravings
...
do you remember the pain of active alcoholism?
so you're going to combine that pain, on top of this psychological pain?
man... just try and remember how bad it gets (active addiction/alcoholism, towards the end).
I'm with this guy, though for me I discovered mountain biking. Three years later I'm in way better shape, I barely drink anymore and if I'm not riding I'm researching how to ride better.
Awww are you upset Trump is in control?
Just another snowflake upset with the world?
Cry it out there hunny find a safe space and shoot up some heroin
Alcoholic here
Dont wanna stop since im on the verge of commiting an epic suicide anyway
Do what you want OP no one cares about you
Yep find something that suits your interest, for me it was motorcycles. I have never been a gear head or anything like that. Never driven a manual car, and I had 0 knowledge of automobiles. When you do something as simple as an oil change for the first time it will fill you with more confidence than you may have ever felt before.
I have taken legit acid, had a moment of pure bliss where i was not sure if I was awake or dreaming, and reaching into my hand for my pack of cigarettes was like searching inside of a pocket universe for my shit.
I still smoked like 10 cigarettes that night. Whenever I take psychedelics I smoke a shitload of cigarettes.
I also often drink beer on the comedown to "come back" to reality -- alcohol's warm embrace with LSD or psilocybin's afterglow allows for sleep.
I don't think psychedelics can cure addictions at all. I trip about once every 2 months and it's something I personally do to have fun, despite the profound experiences of feeling like a grain of sand floating in the cosmos.
I drink and smoke as regularly before and after I trip.
>But scared what I will face tbh
the idea behind it is to trip balls and realize why you drink?
the way it works is it will bring your most honest and burried thoughts to the surface and it will not let you ignore them until you finally confront them. ignoring them will cause you to have a "bad trip" your fears and insecurities will come to life in front of you in hideous forms. it can be extremely scary. scary enough to want to go the hospital because you think you are dying. but you wont die. people dont die from hallucinogens. its like weed. totally harmless (physically) but it can definitely fuck you over mentally if you are not ready to face your own personal truth and see who you really are and why you are the way you are.
in the end. you will have answers wether you like them or not. but at least you will have answers
Then he'll get addicted to pinching his gooch
Hey man maybe if a bottle of alcohol that 90% of the world can deal with just fine is turning your life into a retarded clown porn video, maybe you should blow your brains out and hope you are reborn on a planet where there aren't any dangerous chemicals like cotton candy or peanut butter
it all really depends on your mindset about things im sure you know that.
obvjously you dont think drinking or smoking is a problem. but to me, smoking was something i wasnt proud of and that night i realized it. im sure OP will learn some things about his alcoholism. but you are right. i smoke weed and dont see it as a problem and when i trip i dont think weed is bad. its all about how you think about things / your attitude towards things.
The thing is. You don't have a choice you will face yourself and the weak will die while the strong continue while the strongest will carry the weak
kinda like rush limbaugh I guess, or the average republican meth junkie :/
(It's me the motorcycle guy again) Where do you live and what kind of bike do you have? Mountain biking and skiing is huge here in WA state, particularly central Washington. I have friends that work in bike shops and offered to sell me one at cost but I opted for a motorcycle instead. My brother picked up a sweet bike though and I'm considering getting one this tax season.
yea sometimes strong people die.
actually
everybody dies
your logic is dumb
what even is your point.
So there's this fucking girl, she's actually my ex lol she always texts me but she's fucking annoying, she asked me if i could help her by liking some yt video, i think it's a proyect or something from school, every dislike she gets, it's a -1 point, so if you guys could help me by disliking the shit out of the vid it would be pretty nice and funny lol here's the link youtube.com
lol i actually get iron lungs when i trip i can smoke weed and it feels like nothing. i dont even cough off a huge rip. it is strange stuff indeed
I think it becomes glaringly obvious that they're dependent on it when they wake up dopesick or with DT's. It's a nice thought though, user. Poetic, really.
Lol justify how you do bad things how you do drugs are bad cause fuck you :^)
Wanna know something even weirder GOD DOESNT WANT YOU TO KNOW AND THE DEVIL DOES WANT YOU TO KNOW who's the real God then?
OP here.
I'll admit. I just poured the rest of my drink down the sink and put the pan on the stove to make dinner to sober up. Tonight's going to hurt.
Lol the sky is blue roses are red. The strong will live while the weak will die
Fuck you thats my point
you did the right thing.
can I suggest meetings? and finding a *good* sponsor? (not just any sponsor)
You'd think right? But it's not like that
how mushrooms effect the brains connections and associations.
each color represents a different region of the brain while the lines represent connections.
as you can see, regions of the brain not normally in communication become strongly linked and can be permanent.
this just means that thoughts or ideas that you try to stay away from subconsciously are brought back to life and you see how exactly its been effecting you and you also see what exactly you can do to fix it.
obviously this can be dangerous if you have suppressed memories of abuse and whatnot.
so be careful if you try to treat your addictions with psychs op.
Haha u funny guess it'll hurt then
It isn't? Cuz I've been dope sick before. A lot.
Kys is this something you really want people knowing? Drugs are bad, big brother told me
If you can afford to quit your job, it will be the first good day of the year. Maybe even the first good week. Could be a whole new beginning.
Thanks.
Was hard. Still more in the fridge but not touching it. Steak in the pan and I'll do some eggs. Guess you guys got to me. Sponsor isn't a bad idea.... i guess you have to go attend meetings?
I guess it will, friend.
Yeah it isnt
Fuckin crazy bro. You blew my mind. My entire outlook on life and this universe has changed forever. Because of you I've transcended this reality and ascended to a higher spiritual plain. I'm finally awake, after all these years. Because of you, user.
Whatever you think it means. Take it for the opposite
Totem pole
Cellar door.