Feels thread?

Feels thread?
Feels thread.

>be me
>40
>make gay oc
>use as pic for feels thread
>ready to be berated, belittled, and called a faggot

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whats got ya down?

faggot

Yeah OP share with us. I've got a bit of a doozy to share myself. Prolly gunna result in a variety of insults but thats why we're here isn't it

Im getting numb. To love, to anger, to joy. All of it is just mixing together into one state. Step brother was born with birth defects (step mom's genes) and is currently in the hospital for the last time. Complicated issues with my mom made it so she isnt allowed to contact me. Never had a girl even come close to liking my ugly ass brick of a face. The family im living with now can not empathize with me, but they try to comfort me. Hated by the my aunt who raised me to the point of her burning all of my pictures, even though i tried my hardest to make her happy, i failed. Now i wake up, put on a smile, go to work, hang out with friends, go home, and wait until i return to that dull state once again. I need something to put emotion back into my life, but it just isnt there.

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Nothing really. Just generally low self opinion, feels of unimportance, whatever.

Go ahead Sup Forumsro. I won't judge. Can't really speak for anyone else tho, but you know how this place is.

I'm just about done with life.

Holy shit. This is a powerful feel I don't ever want to feel.

>be me, 38
>have a son who has no idea who his father, basically an uncle to the family
>I had sex with my best friend when she was passed out around 17
>she thinks some guy raped her
>son is really distraught he has no father his whole life
>can't tell him or her

Alright I'll share. I'm more angry than I am upset, but it does hurt so I guess it'll fit in here, or at least bump the thread. So. Few years back I met this girl, we really hit it off and I was really into her, but I was with someone at the time, anyways we spent like all our time together for about a year, then she got with someone and completely shut me out and when I confronted her on it there was this big fiasco and I walked out of there in a fit of rage with a broken heart and thinking she chose him over me. I cut all contact with her because I felt so betrayed. That was two years ago. And recently around october I started getting really depressed and started thinking about her more and more. So I got back in touch a little before Christmas. Turns out she was still with the guy and for the last two years he's been abusive physically mentally and sexually. And in those two years we've distanced, I.e. I went off to uni far away (yeah I'm young), currently she's finishing last year of highschool and I'm about to finish my first two years. Anyways point being we're really far away from each other atm. And after learning about how this guy treats her I've been trying to get her to separate from him. And today she was actually going to break up with him. But the fucker started saying he was going to kill himself and got all her friends involved and talked her out of it. So right now shes "giving him a second chance" and I want so badly to.just go kick this guys ass. And it just hurts because again it feels like she chose him over me even after everything he's done. I should mention that when we first got back in touch I learned that originally it was a misunderstanding and I over reacted and she wasn't actually choosing him over me. And I'm probably over reacting now as well but idk, it just feels awful being second best to a guy who's literally scum of the earth and I don't know what to do about it.

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Some guy did rape her. It was you. Also she'll find out some day and she's going to hate you for it and will probably never talk to you again. That being said I'm surprised she's not figured it out yet if you're around all the time, like oh user you two have the same eyes and the same nose and the same mouth and wait a minute.... That being said marry your friend, become your sons step dad, and be the only real dad he'll have. And when you're friend is dead and gone, tell him the truth.

I'm married to someone else and Hannah is a fucking train wreck now. Probably just going to go about my life, feeling guilty and just let sleeping dogs lie.

Aw man, as a 40yo I know I'm old and shit, but my life experience has taught me a thing or two. You want to know what to do about it?
Let her make her own mistakes.
I know this is going to be the answer you expect from an old fart like me, but move on. You cannot fix her. You cannot save her. She will do what she will do. You can try to give her advice, but don't try to get with her anymore. That ship has sailed.

If I could have gotten and stayed with any of the girls I had a thing for (or things with) back in my late teens and early 20s, I'd be so screwed now. I can't complain about the woman I have now, but if I'd hung on and clung to those girls I just LOOOOOOOVED so much, and with a kind of incredibly fiery burning passionate love that nobody could possibly understand, I wouldn't have who I do now.

Distance yourself from her once again. Make a decision to move on and leave her behind. If the two of you could have a misunderstanding so easily, then it wasn't going to work out anyway.

Peace, Sup Forumsrother.

tired of fwb

Gf broke up with me 3 days ago,it hurts like hell still. i miss her

>tfw your sub tells you that they don't have to do what you say

Find a new sub. Or be the switch you always knew you were.

not a bad image, OP. Make more?

i don't switch, fuckhead. also i can't leave this sub.

I know this sounds incredibly retarded, but the fact that you like my OC means a lot.

I'm one of those artsy-fartsy creative types and of all the stupid things, I often seek validation here on Sup Forums.

I abandoned an entire artform that I thought I invented, when I posted pictures of some of my work here on Sup Forums and some dude posted pictures of his and was like, "Mine shit all over yours bro!".
And he was right. His pieces were far superior. And I had no idea anybody else was making anything like what I did.

So I deleted the pictures, quietly boxed up the pieces I made and they've been in that box for like 3 years now.

As for the OC, my wife actually assembled the models. I just posed them and did that snapchat thingy.

I've also got one on my phone I use as a react image. It's a chick's face smiling surrounded by a shit ton of crying smiley emojis and 100s. Nobody seems to have noticed it yet lol.

>dom
>sub doesn't listen
>can't leave sub

k

to provide a little bit of elaboration, we aren't "full on" D/s, it's more of a normal romantic relationship where D/s is a major theme. i'm in love with her. so, my problem is that her sudden unwillingness to sub for me today may be leading towards our potential breakup in the future. which makes me feel feelings.

Well in that case my friend, I also feel for you then. I hope it doesn't turn out as bad as you fear.

First time I've ever come close to shedding a sad tear from a feels thread

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hey Sup Forumsros, I got some feels to post but it's long as fuck, probably ~10 posts, should I?

Just told my crush that we can't be friends anymore. She does not feel the same about me and is currently been fucking my friend. Her and I have fooled around in the past though. But I really needed to end it. It hurts so bad

OP here: Do it.

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>be me
>be born into this world, an only child
>white boy born to middle class parents
>very very talkative
>seems completely average
>little brother born when I'm 3 and a half
>go to preschool
>make a few friends, two friends we'll call F and J
>as the year draws to a close, the teachers have conferences with parents
>you were supposed to stay in preschool two years, I'd been there for one
>but the teachers told my parents I was too smart to stay.
>I was already reading, and the teachers said I'd get bored
>but they also warned my parents I'd never be emotionally at the same level as peers.
>parents said fuck it, send him to kindergarten
>the kids were little shits, the teacher was an angry hag
>teacher had us parnter up to learn one of those hands-clapping games
>I had to play with the wall
>shit like this all the time
>diagnosed with being moderate-severely hard of hearing
>first grade starts, snotty sexist teacher
>gives the little girls whatever they want, little boys are demonized
>constantly singled out for being partly deaf, needing assistive tech
>second grade comes, new kid moves in, Bill Gates type sperg, we'll call him B
>very good friends with B.
>In recent years he's at the top like we all predicted, proud of him
>third grade
>get a crush on a girl
>we pass notes, eventually I kiss her on a dare
>she came to my house and we'd make out or whatever
>eventually our parents put a stop to it
>unrelated, kids start pushing me around, calling me weak and small
>parents get divorced when I'm 9, dad is abusive dick and gets custody
>cut to 5th grade. Pokemon is no longer cool, it is now for babies and fags.
>get beat up for liking Pokemon, publicly embarassed in school newspaper by another kid.
>we'll call him H.
>H started beating me up in middle school, other kids joined in
>told teachers but they didn't care
>laughing stock of the school
>F doesn't hang out with me much anymore
>J doesn't at all
>B is at a different school because genius

>middle school was pretty much hell.
>I got harassed so often that I would tell the passing of time with insults
>I have some kind of sensitivity to a very few certain sounds
>misophonia I think it's called
>one kid figures out one of them. We'll call him C
>we had school agendas, they had holographic covers
>the kind you look at from another angle and the image changes
>it makes this horrendous sound when scratched
>genuinely hurts me, but it doesn't seem to effect anyone else
>C was already beating me up and instigating shit
>now he had more ammo
>one day I got sick of C treating me like shit and told the vice principal
>vice principal never helped with H treating me like shit
>tried anyways
>"Stop acting like the victim user!"
>C apparently has ADD and he uses that agenda cover to fidget
>they both make all kinds of excuses as to why nothing else will do
>they pretty much tell me to suck it up
>"C is the one with the real problem."
>I gave up. Nobody would ever care to help me.
>one morning, waiting in the gym before classes
>I see an inflatable yoga disc on the ground
>try and jump on it like in Mario
>fell like any clumsy 12 year old
>H and his friends surround me laughing
>like they do at every flaw and shortcoming
>they kept tripping and kicking me when I tried to stand up
>that day, that moment, something inside me just shattered, broke, snapped
>I stood up, jumped on H, and punched him in the face
>like all the boys in my grade he was twice my size
>he effortlessly threw me on the ground and stomped on me
>the other kids joined him
>classes begin and the gym clears
>face down on the floor, quietly crying
>this isn't fair, isn't right, I thought, this isn't how stories are supposed to end.
>all I wanted was a soft pat on the back
>someone to tell me it would all be okay
>angry VP orders me to the office
>in too much pain to move from the floor
>that answer wasn't good enough
>suspended
>H and friends walked free
>cried myself to sleep that night

>grades going down due to emotional stress
>my dad makes me stay after daily to get them up
>and walk home in the middle of a new england winter
>I never see my mom or my friends, my dad beats me at home, the kids beat me at school
>No matter who I talk to, I'm the laughing stock
>They ignore me, beat me, or laugh at me
>depression.png
>my dad gets a girlfriend, with two qt3.14 daughters and a younger one
>turns out they're all assholes
>we move in with them.
>the two older stepsisters are about my age, they beat on me constantly
>they start stealing my shit, they're constantly getting in trouble with cops
>they date and bring home the assholes that beat me up
>I see mom every other weekend, it's the only peace I have
>until my brother starts becoming more manipulative and physical like the stepsisters
>no privacy, no solace, can't even wank in peace
>be 8th grade
>a kid beats me up, fucks up my hips and spine
>nothing bad happens to him
>sister starts dating him
>my hips and lower back only feel two things to this day: pain and numb
>it's a miracle I can still feel most of my penis, and still walk
>I can only describe the atmostphere at home as "psychological warfare"
>everything I say to anyone, at home or school, gets turned on me somehow
>get voted most talkative in the yearbook, yet nobody listens when I cry for help
>stop talking to people as much
>one day, hanging out at B's house
>cellphone rings. it's F
>F tells me that J died in a car crash
>I tell him to quit joking around like that and hang up
>B tells me it's true
>It was. I visited J's grave in 2016. He died at 13 years old.
>the last conversation I had with J, he was calling me out on being an unathletic sperg basically
>I know it was just petty kid stuff. I feel like we would have been friends again someday
>but he never lived to see that day.
>I always feel bad that our last talk was that of all things.
>Not invited to J's funeral
>first and last time I've ever seen F cry at school

If it's any consolation, I like your Zaku III and GM Command.
>I wish there were actual figures

>do summer camp, two different years
>meet a girl, think she's amazing
>we flirt constantly, think it's getting somewhere
>ask her out, she says she wants to wait until she's 13
>I say okay
>she starts noticing my sperg tendencies but I think nothing of it
>next year she's 13 and I ask her out again
>she laughs at me
>can't even begin to explain how damaging that was to my self esteem
>F and I have been closer since the end of 8th grade
>highschool begins
>H stops making fun of me and beating me up, the other kids lay off a bit
>they already broke me, so I'm no fun anymore to them
>still the school's laughing stock
>stepmom is going full fascist at home, dishing out ridiculous volumes of heavy chores
>before this, the only chores I got were very light if at all, dishwashing , sweeping, stuff like that.
>between school, homework, and chores, I never have time to live
>at this time in my life, the only solace I found was talking to randoms online with my iPod Touch
>forget to mop and vaccuum the house one night
>my dad and stepmom are smiley and laughing
>they seem to be getting pleasure out of the idea of taking away my stuff for a few months
>they've done this before, and they'll do it again.
>her daughters and my brother get away with everything, but never me. So sick of it.
>I walk right out the front door, in plain pajamas and bare feet
>they lock the door behind me
>I decide to try and run away.
>manage to avoid the cops all night, sneak over a friend's house
>we'll call him W, I've known W since 6th grade, our moms were neighbors
>W lets me stay over but his dad rats me out
>my mom takes me back to my dad's house
>the cops cuss me out, my parents are arguing like they used to
>dad gets me into outpatient rehab for five days
>all the other kids have real issues like anorexia or suicide attempts
>I'm just depressed and self loathing
>the doctor that works there perscribes me some heavy sedatives
>static.gif
>like a zombie the next few years.

>During that time, we moved out of state to stepmom's trashy hometown
>all the kids looked like they crawled out of Jersey Shore.
>no friends, miss hometown, miss mom
>got formally diagnosed with autism, suspected it for years
>horribly depressed
>only like 4 kids picked on me
>they couldn't beat my ass because there's cameras
>so that was a plus
>people ignore me mostly
>still feel all alone.
>life feels like a sedated carousel ride
>get up, go to school, sleep, go home, sleep
>ponder suicide in between, when I'm conscious enough
>one day my dad beats me again
>in the past he made me lie to social services to get him out of it
>not this time.
>tell guidance counselor
>tell them how depressed and horrible it makes me feel when he does that
>they call my dad to the school along with my stepmom
>they put me in an ambulance and drive me to a hospital
>my dad and stepmom play dumb about my depression and whatnot
>big fake smiles
>when we get there, the nurse asks where I got the bruise on my face
>grow_a_pair.gif
>tell the truth, even though dad is right there
>dad tells them that I hallucinate and that's not true
>stepmom backs him up
>at this point, I start questioning my sanity
>tell the nurse they're lying
>medical protocol says they must take the parent's word over the child's
>get checked out of hospital
>dad takes my phone from the receptionist, doesn't give it back
>in the car they start yelling
>stepmom: "what happens in our house stays in our house"
>dad: "I should check you into a mental hospital"
>he starts working on that idea
>go to autism group meet thing
>it's weekly, there's free food, other spergs don't judge me
>not much for hanging out with them outside group though
>they don't have phones and are never available, parents control their lives
>still no friends, just people that I feel okay around
>ask if I can use the phone
>they say yes
>tearsofjoy.gif
>I call my mom
>she gets me out of the whole impending hospital thing

>remember I described home as "psychological warfare"?
>the past few months I had been accused of "spreading rumors" about the family
>I didn't talk to anyone in the trash town highschool but they insisted I did
>They said I could have my shit back if I just apologized
>swallow my pride, or whatever is left of it, and apologize
>"YOU ADMITTED TO IT!" they don't give my shit back
>I was already depressed and it was already a bad idea to leave me alone with my thoughts
>but now I had no distractions. I was out of books to read and whatnot.
>the library at school had the budget of a little boy at Chuck E Cheese
>get more into hacking stuff, use tools to get around the web blocks at school
>"oh wow user you're so smart how do you do that"
>trade tools for lunch money
>was neglected at home and didn't get much food so this was my one meal a day
>unless stepmom cooked dinner but she is a really bad cook
>get phone and iPod back months later. find some texting app
>turns out TextPlus had a huge community of furfags and furfag RP chats
>become furfag. The furfags are actually very nice, and the RP was very literate
>none of that *yiffs ur butt* shit in here. These people are serious.
>meet a girl in there that invites me to her own private RP group
>takes place on an island, she's an island princess, we're all stranded travelers or islanders
>I make my character a scientist, kinda Gilligan's Island esque
>save her character from death multiple times
>her birthday is coming up, obligatory birthday selfie in the chat.
>holy shit she's a 10/10 qt3.14
>I already kinda liked her but now I REALLY liked her. We'll call her S.
>I wrote S a story about her character as her birthday gift
>She loves it
>I ask her out, and she says she's getting back with her ex
>get_cucked.jpg
>turns out the guy is a complete chad, and also another furry RPer
>the chad breaks her heart, she comes crying to me
>there_there.gif
>she gets with another chad
>cycle continues for awhile

>in the state I lived in at the time they had this thing called "portfolio"
>you don't graduate by getting good grades, oh no
>gotta hold onto old work from the past 4 years
>and write essays on 10 assignments you did
>stating WHY you think you deserve the grade on it
>I had been saving work as long as I'd known about it in a shoebox in my closet
>check, shoebox is gone
>ask dad
>he threw it out, fucking dick
>manage to pull together a portfolio with only work from senior year I had around
>they make you present it in formal clothes in front of a committee of teachers
>practically beg to graduate
>I just want to be done, just want to go home, to mom, to my friends
>finally graduate
>move home to live with mom
>allowed to do anything I wanted
>get off the meds fucking with my head
>hit puberty finally, all the meds had stunted it
>hanging out with W, F, B, and more friends, again.
>enjoying freedom and happiness for the first time.
>I lived right in the heart of my hometown
>mom would leave a little cash on the table each day
>so I could go get an ice cream or whatever if I wanted
>went outside almost every day
>my friends were always coming over to see if I could hang out
>mom's homecooked breakfasts, lunch was a sandwich I packed
>dinner was pizza or subs or sundaes
>mornings were hikes and boating, or bugging our sleepy friends
>afternoons were urban exploration, games, and creative fun
>evenings were spent at the park with a picnic blanket or a frisbee
>nights were sleepovers and practical jokes
>I was so happy, this was what I always wanted.
>then one day...
>S asks me out. Holy fuck.
>say yes.
>life is good, I'm finally happy.
>a month later S starts getting cold and distant.
>she breaks up with me via text while I'm sleeping, goes and dates another chad
>this was on the night before my first day of college
>depressed all day.
>since it's time for school, I don't see friends as much anymore
>too much of a sperg to make new friends at school.

Basically this You can't do shit to a grown up kid, let her do her mistakes

If you're supposed to get together she will eventually understand

>meet another girl online, we date for a year
>eight months into it, I nearly bang her at a convention
>didn't have a hotel room, too scared to get caught
>we decide that we shouldn't stay together since we don't want the same things out of life
>I want kids, she doesn't
>we want to live in different places
>we disagree a lot
>we broke up, and there were a lot more like that
>some were just desperate, some actually liked me
>it never worked out though
>transfer to a cheap community college to save money
>don't feel like I'm getting anywhere in college
>just dragging my way through prereqs that I suck at because autism
>just want to get to the computer shit, so I can actually learn my major
>you know, the thing I'm paying for
>try to make friends at school.
>gamers guild lets me sit near them and ignores me
>F is good with the guild, but nobody even remembers me each time
>the few people that eventually start remembering me can never hang out
>at this point I'm so depressed it's taking a toll on my internal cycle
>can't stay awake in class, can't sleep at night
>lay down, close eyes, sad memories on replay
>I wonder why I couldn't have been born normal and have a life like F.
>he's a pretty normal guy, has everything going for him
>manages to be genuinely interesting and fun to be around
>aside from losing J, nothing bad really ever happened to him
>I envy him but I don't hate him for it or anything
>just silently wish I had a life like his
>look around the real world.
>everyone peaks at one point in their life.
>some people peak in highschool and have awesome memories and social lives
>or they become valedictorian or something, or get into the college they like.
>some peak in college, have a lot of sex and parties, or do well academically
>some peak in their 30s or 40s, have great spouses, great jobs, a house, maybe kids
>I don't think I'll ever get those things.
>I just live because there might be a chance.
>I have hope. It's small but it's there.

...

>get a job at the movie theater
>dilligent, show up to work on time every time
>work the hardest on my whole team
>the rest of them are stupid slacker highschoolers
>or sweet old people that need something to do
>they didn't train me properly, acted like it was my fault when I didn't know how
>they undersupply me, schedule me on days that I ask for off
>ignore me when I need help then act like it's my fault things fuck up
>they tell me to move a trash bag full of sodas and popcorns
>I try to do it, 120lb scrawny nerd
>it rips and spills everywhere, total accident honestly
>they start trying to reprimand me
>uncontrollable_crying.gif
>it was hell
>never, never never work at a movie theater.
>start talking to S again, as friends
>in the past few years I made a few friends online, one of which we'll call M
>M is an asexual girl from several hundred miles away.
>Didn't care she was asex, didn't mind being just friends
>had secret crush but whatever.
>During a skype chat with S, casually ask why she broke up with me
>"you have to promise you won't get mad user"
>bullshit, but I want to know, so I say okay
>"You're too nice. You aren't manly enough."
>hang up on her, rage cry for hours.
>contemplating suicide the next day
>not over her, but over the fact that I was never good enough
>not for the girls I liked, not for the jobs I wanted, not for the schools I went to
>not even to make new irl friends, not even for my parents
>complain to M, she doesn't wanna hear it. She swears off talking to me until I get help
>all my mental disorders, my past, none of it's ever "bad enough" to get real help
>or even real sympathy
>I don't know what I did to deserve this
>I just want to be loved and treated like a real human being
>want to be able to make friends and have fun like anyone else
>do everything that seems to come easy to normal people
>but everything is hard mode, red tape, bar set too high
>I'll never be good enough, or bad enough
>I'll always be in this limbo

>still going to college for the time being
>go to the free therapy they offer for students
>don't really want to, asking for help is hard for me
>do it anyways because I miss talking with M
>my counselor is a cool guy
>he helps me vent and process my thoughts
>we meet once a week for several months
>feel a little better
>start talking to M again
>decide college isn't for me, just can't handle it, manage to get out debt free
>have to stop seeing counselor because therapy is a school service
>get a job at the gas station
>M tells me she is actually demisexual
>basically means she needs ridiculous amounts of trust in someone before she can fall for them
>She tells me I'm the only one she's ever fallen for
>We start dating
>she moves in with me at my mom's house
>lost virginity to M at 20 years old
>things are going okay
>fired from the gas station for being easily shaken by rude customers
>mom kicks us out, my brother manipulated her into doing it.
>homeless for awhile, but we move to M's hometown in the south
>cheaper there, we can afford it
>but I have no friends there, there's hardly even a town
>so now I just computer all the time since I can't find a job I can do
>depressed all the time
>suicide is such a regular thought that it doesn't phase me at all anymore
>M has the sex drive of a teaspoon so I'm not getting laid much at all
>come home to visit mom 6 months later
>friends were excited to see me at first but they slowly became less available again
>M and I have been arguing over the phone
>not sure things will last but I love her
>I'm fine during the day and with friends but alone at night I'm depressed
>start smoking weed with F, it helps with my issues
>I can't feel anything but happy or calm when I'm high
>trying to make the best of life, trying to plan to move back to my hometown
>F plans to live here his whole life so I'd always have him around
>at least I hope so
>I just wish he, or anyone, would call to hang out.
>still depressed of course

>meet up with this kid from my town
>he's probably like 18, we have some mutual friends and he smokes pot
>I hang out with him for two days, we hardly did shit
>we don't do anything but eat and smoke pretty much
>I was so high I couldn't comprehend anything around me
>decided that I needed to go cold turkey for a bit, take a break
>I didn't want to get psychologically dependent
>didn't really enjoy hanging out with this guy
>the kind of life he lives is sad, does nothing but smoke weed
>he dabs just so he can sleep at night
>I get it can be helpful with the shit I'm dealing with
>just don't want to make a lifestyle out of it.
>it's expensive and degrading
>like to believe I have better things to do
>lying to myself but whatever
>fighting with M has stopped but she's asking weird questions
>ones that make me question my sanity
>ones that make me question our relationship
>she doesn't think I love her, thinks she's interchangable
>I've questioned it so much I'm not even sure anymore
>I realize our relationship is beginning to fall apart
>it was never really stable to begin with.
>we both have a lot of disorders, pretty fucked up all around
>I think I have more disorders than I was diagnosed with so far
>been diagnosed with like 5 by now
>I thought we understood each other pretty well and had a strong bond
>guess not
>a mutual friend of M and I, we'll call him T, has been helping with my issues on occasion
>another friend of mine, we'll call her N, has been doing the same
>T and N don't know each other, but they both think M is at least partly to blame
>I guess that should make me feel better but it doesn't

>turning 21 in a few days
>been trying to get my friends to hang out and have a drink with me
>only a few people are showing interest, barely
>I don't really care, I don't even really like alcohol
>it's been three years today since S and I got together
>in a month it'll have been 3 years since she broke me
>my thoughts keep going to a plan in my head
>a plan to an hero on my birthday
>leave a written legacy behind
>but I won't
>too pussy to die, too weak to live
>besides if I an hero, F will have to lose another friend
>I can't do that to him, I love him too much
>couldn't do it to any other friends I've mentioned thus far either
>can only hope things will work in my favor someday
>instead I browse Sup Forums all night
>be end of summer
>go back to M's hometown, our little house
>start smoking pot with her cousin down the street on weekends
>relationship with M is going to shit
>we fight all the time over stupid shit
>she's batshit insane, the house is a mess, I'm always irritable
>spend halloween alone eating candy in my computer room
>spend thanksgiving with her crazy christian family
>decide I'm done and I'm moving back with mom
>mom says she'll pay for it, now I wait
>and wait
>and wait...
>I don't leave my computer room much anymore, except to eat and use the bathroom
>existentially bored and depressed, no life outside the internet
>3 month dry spell with M, we don't spend time together anymore
>all she does is draw, skype and RP with her online friends
>there's nothing for us to do together out here anyway
>this place is empty and barren
>I want to go home
>F says when I get home we'll play games in 4k in his new man cave
>he says we'll get high and order pizzas and have a grand old time
>I need that so badly
>mom cashes in her brownie points at work
>her boss, a family friend, helps move my shit home
>mom buys me a train ticket with her credit card
>clearly she can't afford it but she does it for me
>forgive her for before
>just good to be home again

>Been officially home a couple months now
>hang out with F roughly once a week
>just like he said, we chill in his man cave and have a blast
>chilling with him is the only thing in my life that I really care about
>still NEET because I can't drive and it's too cold to walk to work
>local public transit practically doesn't exist
>working with a job agency for the disabled, they will place me in something this spring
>but for now I'm still NEET
>my brother was nice for the first few weeks I was back
>after telling my mom he missed me and shit
>he started sharing his weed sometimes, driving me places, playing vidya with me
>then he went back to his old ways of being a cunt and stealing shit
>I'd kick his ass but he's pretty large compared to me
>mom won't punish him because he doesn't give a shit, he'll destroy the house
>mom's boss and M pack up my shit and he drives it home
>what a bro
>M however starts completely ignoring me as soon as my shit's out of her house
>I was pretty done with the relationship but I still love and care for her
>so it definitely hurts still
>I start talking like I'm done with girls in almost a mgtow way
>since women only ever let me down and hurt me
>this is the logical way to go but I just love women too much
>I'm a lonely heart, a hopeless romantic
>start talking to a few old friends and exes again including S
>S got raped by some asshole and she's 2nd trimester now
>wouldn't report it and wouldn't get the abortion
>while I do care about her, I'm not gonna try help anymore, hopeless
>everyone pretty much just ignores me now
>F leads a somewhat busy life so he just chats me when he's online and sometimes invites me over
>I called B last week and he hasn't called back
>W moved away so going to see him isn't easy. Neither of us have a car.
>go see the doc, he perscribes antidepressants
>been on them a few days
>no noticable effect yet, I'll give it time I guess.
>still up late every night and lonely
present day...

youtu.be/dTnYL0ZZt2w
For all of you.

tl;dr fag

post more sad pics

Does anyone have that image of a couple brother kids having breakfast, the kid is having some cereal and smilling and I think it's about her little sister

Really cant remember anything else but I would really appreciate if someone posted it

youtube.com/watch?v=uiT0fBePR0Q

heres my suicide song

Meanwhile, I'm married and looking for a fwb. Strange world, where the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.

what does it mean to finish the game?

Btw, checking my own dubs and posting said pic.

Time will heal this. Stay strong.

indeed. Long greentext user here. When I was dating M I fantasized about having a fwb since I wasn't getting much, but now that I'm single again I miss romantic shit more

My wife actually built those. She's been painting them when she has time. We're weaboos and have been going to cons almost 15 years now.

She doesn't even talk to me anymore

you got a pretty cool wife to do weeb stuff like that with you

Try parashooting (I think that's how you write it), or something that envolves adrenaline

Or start running, sometimes getting your heart pounding for real for some time can clean a lot of energies

holy fuck, is this present day?

o shit didnt refresh

the feels

craving romance and being too much of a retard to keep a relationship sucks

Holy shit, bro. I just finally read all of that.

You've been through some shit, no doubt!

And I know it's hard to get out of the cycle, but I hope the antidepressants start working for you soon.

Oh, by the way, you are a human being. You have the right to live your life. I'd recommend getting away from the weed as much as possible. I mean seriously, if you're taking any kind of meds, the weed needs to go.

The works posted here are fiction and anyone who believes them are a fool. However, let's say this was real. Good Fucking Luck. You'll be in our thoughts Sup Forumsro. Glad you're not a virgin.

Yeah, that I do. But this is a feels thread, so I'm not going to dwell on that.

I appreciate it Sup Forumsro. I know it's tough to believe. Writing a memoir though, maybe you'll end up reading it someday. If I end up doing an hero I'll post it here first.

Sorry to hear that bro. Hope everything works out for you.

I sincerely hope that, instead of killing yourself you finally find your footing, get established, find a groove in your life that you can make work for you, and then flourish.

The first 21 years of your life have been pretty shitty. Mine were too, although nowhere near as bad as yours. But I'd rather read your memoir about how you overcame it all than one where it's your final words and you're ending it.

You have not peaked yet. You've been held down. You still have time and room to spread your fucking wings and soar.

Again, I cannot reiterate enough that the weed is the last thing you need. It will hold you down and sap any ambition you might have left.

You figured out some hack tools when you were hs? You might not think that's a big deal, but you had the wherewithal to figure that out.

Look into some kind of tech support or networking or any kind of IT stuff. I got my first IT job at 21 and then I wandered from it for various reasons and finally got into fulltime software development in my late 30s.

You really truly can do anything you put your mind to. Don't give up. You have a lot of potential, and every bit of worth that any other human being has.

I FUCKING MEAN THAT!!

Do not let the abuse of the past hold you back. Also, work on an exit plan. Your brother sounds like bad news and you will need to get away from him ASAP.

Why do you feel the need to bring him down like that?
wow, Sup Forums sure is full of underage faggots

I know we're just two strangers on the internet but that means a lot to me, user

Are you....... impaired....... in some way?

Or did you reply to the wrong post?

Give me a month

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I feel ya OP, 25, living with parents, haven't achieved shit, just realized my so called "friends" aren't friends, terrible job and family that love to remind me that I had potential.

Depression is my every day bread fro the last 6 months.

Drunk as fuck, sharing bitch ass details of my life to complete strangers at /b

Not really feels or anything major but I am going to vent.

I have always been told that I am really attractive from countless of girls and I always get the looks. I swear I have autism or something. I am super anti social, socially awkward, and have low self esteem. All I do is go to class and jerk off.

You fool, you've been tricked! !!!

Faggot

>being this underage

Get the fuck out my Sup Forums, this is not for drunkies you know..? x)

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We're not "just" anything, user.

We're human beings. And it's important that when someone hasn't been treated like a human being, they at least get reminded that they still actually are one.

Nobody deserves the shit you've been through, which is why it will be all the me satisfying when you do succeed.

Godspeed, good luck, and/or whatever other well wishes I can give.

I started this thread just to show off my stupid picture, but now I leave it with tears of solidarity and hope for you. I'm glad our paths crossed, user.

So you go to class and start jerking off with everyone around you?

sure do

NICE

Oh shit anyone knows where the me person in that picture comes from?

Holy shit you mixed the two things up! x) Faceplam!! Oh man x)

Arrrrgh! Got me. But to be fair, it's 2AM, and I've been editing a video, and the feels have hit me pretty hard, so my mental capacity might not be up to snuff.

gg all the same

it's 7:20am here, I win right?

*more satisfying

AutoMistake strikes again.

>family that love to remind me that I had potential.
You have potential. All you need is a goal and determination. That's all anyone needs to achieve anything.

Indeed! You win an internet! :D

Source: ROGERS

very Sup Forumsrotherly anons on here tonight, thank you for restoring some of my resolve. Not sure who is who, but long greentext user wishes each of you well. If there is Sup Forumsrotherhood, it is in each of you.

Goodnight, hope everything gets better on your life

You all can do it!