I created a massive list of fake porn movies/scenes with girls I know. There's over 5000 scenes...

I created a massive list of fake porn movies/scenes with girls I know. There's over 5000 scenes, with the guys they're in the scene with, type of scene, studio, site, title, etc. all listed for each. It's taken me months to make and it's become all I can jerk off to. Is that fucked up?

Not only is that fucked up, but I imagine that's the saddest thing I'll hear it years. Goddamn I feel good about myself right now.

Not quite sure I understand what you did.

why would you go throught all that effort?is it really worth it?I think asking them out would be better even if the reject you.Goddamnit man this isn't healthy

i agree this seems like a very unhealthy endeavor haha

It's an excel document with the first column being the girl's name, the next being the type of scene (solo, lesbian, hardcore, dp, etc), the next the # of women in the scene, the next # of men in the scene, the studio name (brazzers, kink.com, etc), the next the site (assparade, hardx, etc), the next being the title of the scene, or if it's a dvd the scene number, a description of the cover or the webscene preview, the names of any other people in the scene, the date of release, and a bunch of other information. The names of all the studios and male porn stars are real, but the scenes are all fake. I currently have 5554 rows in this document.

I have had sex with 70 of the 119 women in this.

It's definitely unhealthy. I have a girlfriend and a healthy life otherwise. This is just a weird fetish of mine. It seems pretty harmless.

I'm impressed

sounds kinda schizo actually

Wait so you're jacking off to the fantasy then? This is awful. You need to escalate this shit and find some porn doppelgangers of these people or somethin

I have porn doppelgangers for each and patterned their fictional porn career on the actual porn star I felt they were most like, either physically or personality-wise.

Eh, not really.

Thank you!

I don't know if I should be impressed or weirded out.If what you are saying is true and you have a normal life outside of this thing then I guess it's pretty harmless.

this is actually really impressive, i'll probably do this. maybe not as extensive though

Her sister's hotter

I have an incredibly normal life outside of this. I doubt anyone would suspect I'm into anything strange, especially something so niche and time-consuming. This started as a sort of electronic black book with a list of women I'd had sex with. I later added "stats", so I could rank which of them were better at certain things. I've made similar weird fantasy documents for the last several years and this seems like a natural escalation.

post her sister then bitch

What's autism like?

Alright. Post some of the doc

takes one to know one

Seconded

I'd recommend it. One thing I'd suggest, if you do try to do this, is to do two things.

1. Focus on smaller studios and first-time scenes mostly while fleshing it out. I didn't, and focused on high budget Elegant Angel and Greg Lansky scenes at the beginning, which made it way harder to flesh out the early parts of their career. Use www.iafd.com to look up entire careers.

2. You'll be tempted to add yourself to some scenes. Don't. It makes it nearly impossible to be interested in any that don't have you in it. They're all you in your head.

The most satisfying thing is, when you're done, just choose any scene at random and think "imagine if this was real".

That doesn't sound satisfying to me at all honestly

Different interests, maybe. Do you require porn for masturbation? I'm in that strange place where I can still get off to my imagination.

You should include the films total budget, how much it grossed, and what each girls salary was.

I don't require porn but this just sounds like a weird amount of effort for a fantasy. If I want to imagine myself fucking someone I just do that I don't need to involve spreadsheets

Yes

I have seriously considered it and made one attempt at this. The problem was that I wanted to keep adding movies in between, so the salary kept not making sense if they did a high-budget film earlier that I added. I also had columns for hair color, length, if they had gotten any modifications, who their agent was, if they had contracts, and it made it really unwieldy. I think I'll do this and what you suggest once I'm close to finished with adding all the films I want.

Oh, but it's so much more than that. It's an entire alternate reality where every woman you know personally is a porn star. The depth of the fantasy is so much more than can be accomplished on just casual fantasizing.

Now I have to know, do you (still) watch porn, or has this replaced porn for you?

Not often, this has mostly replaced it. Most of the time when I do, it's when I'm adding a new scene and want to get an idea of what happens in it. You get a really clear view of what this particular girl looks like in porn, while knowing them personally, that when you watch porn now it's like "who is this?"

But why do I want them to be a porn star? Is it about them getting fucked by other people? Cause I'd rather fantasize about me fucking them. Different strokes for different folks I guess.

But they're all you. That's the thing, and that's why I don't add myself as a male star in any of these. Every one of these guys is you in your head.

Interesting, thanks for sharing. I guess I understand this a little more. Not my bag, but to each his own. So long as nobody is getting hurt, I say carry on.

But what is the appeal vs just imagining a new scenario about someone when you wanna jack off?

Why is harry potter a better story than imagining you're a wizard in the shower? The depth of info, the emergent info like which scenes were filmed on which days, etc.

can you PLEASE post one of these you have made? I have to see this shit.
you can censor all you have too but just let me see this shit

I don't imagine that I'm Harry Potter though when I watch the movies.