It's my birthday today

Sebastian Taylor
Sebastian Taylor

It's my birthday today..

My gf came over and she "had to pee"
She came out wearing sexy pink poka-dot underwear
My first thought was panic.
I actually needed a few seconds to adjust to this development, to the point where she was offering to put her clothes back on
We moved awkwardly to the bedroom and I ate her out for a while
I tried to fuck her, but I couldn't get hard
I moved to my back and she jerked me off until I was hard
I tried to turn over and fuck her, but I would go limp almost immediately
We did this a few times and finally I was inside her
Went limp after 10 seconds
She jerked me off
A few seconds of happiness give way to feelings of failure, shame, regret, etc..

I'm 30 now.. Most of the time I don't give a fuck, but if I was ever going to be honest, now is a good time.. My life is falling apart in every way.

I quit my job last October, I've gained 10 lbs and (somehow) 6 pant sizes. I almost never leave my apartment, because I'm no longer interested in anything that the "outside world" has to offer.

I've tried getting back into many of the things that used to hold my attention (gym, art, music, programming, woodworking), in an effort to restart myself, but none of that interests me for more than an afternoon. I've applied for a few jobs, with no luck. I have no real skills, despite attending several colleges throughout the US.

I sorta follow the "what dreams may come" rule on suicide, but I have pointed a loaded gun at my head in the last 30 minutes. Believe it or not, I put the gun down to post this.

I don't know what to do with myself. Please help me Sup Forums

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youtube.com/watch?v=Virf5oMx564
youtube.com/watch?v=OP32atuCt6Y
youtube.com/watch?v=K8tqtoahH3I
youtu.be/EfBBf0BpopI

Elijah Ross
Elijah Ross

Don't do it, simple. Things will work out, it just doesn't seem like it right now

Brayden Baker
Brayden Baker

eh , you have it pretty decent. If you still want to die you should do it in a guns blazing style. And get a life insurance policy. For your fam

Adam Martin
Adam Martin

Do acid or shrooms and have a real conversation about yourself and what you want.

Josiah Turner
Josiah Turner

Midlife crises
You have a girlfriend in the first place
Not much of a real achievement, but a start considering you got another person to give a shit about you

John Howard
John Howard

youtube.com/watch?v=Virf5oMx564
youtube.com/watch?v=OP32atuCt6Y
youtube.com/watch?v=K8tqtoahH3I

Cooper Rodriguez
Cooper Rodriguez

Just kill yourself. You're not experiencing anything different than we are. The ONLY difference is you're hear whining about it. No one gives a shit about you. You're clearly not vital to the productivity of the human race. Kill yourself, dude.

Brandon Nguyen
Brandon Nguyen

here*

Justin Myers
Justin Myers

Kill you're self too for that typo.

Asher Reed
Asher Reed

yourself*

Parker Cook
Parker Cook

Btw, I got dubs on both those posts. You can fuck off. ;)

Angel Clark
Angel Clark

Get medication

Julian Walker
Julian Walker

If I had access to a gun, I would have died long ago. I'm in a similar situation where I quit my job about a month ago and I don't go out of my house for days.

But I don't feel bad because of that, in fact I like being like this. The only concern I have is the lack of income so I will have to look for a job soon.

I also lose interest in things quite quickly, one day I'm trying to repair my old videogame consoles, the other I'm getting back to calculus, another day I'm programming, but never go on for more than two afternoons.

I don't want to die right now but most of the time I think that it would be better, mainly because I'm tired of the constant battle against everithing: there a lot of termites screwing the house, having to keep calories intake low in order to not gain weight, the thought of having to work to get money and finally the feeling that there is just no point in all the effort because in the end it doesn't even matter.

Eli Campbell
Eli Campbell

Just play Video Games, that seems to be a greater all consuming void.

Ryder Phillips
Ryder Phillips

This is better advice than it seems at first.

Also, for your sexual performance anxiety, just get some Viagra or Cialis. Seriously, it didn't win the Nobel Prize for no reason. It's a life changer for any guy who has trouble performing.

Adrian Wilson
Adrian Wilson

Ok

Nathaniel Nguyen
Nathaniel Nguyen

go to the dr. you need help. ask for it user. shit can get better. least u have a gf. half the cunts here dont lol

Jeremiah Bennett
Jeremiah Bennett

Honestly, I think it's possible that OP is actually gay.

Self-loathing before self-actualization in confused gays is a real thing...you might be gay, not know it, and hate yourself for it.

Brandon Turner
Brandon Turner

1. Drop LSD
2. Find yourself
3. ??????
4. Profit.

Jose Baker
Jose Baker

human males aren't meant to live comfortably. you are living too comfortably.

join your local fight club.

Colton Allen
Colton Allen

Have you discussed this with your girlfriend

Easton Perry
Easton Perry

OP

Get back into the grind as soon as you can. The longer you spend away from it, the more desperate things become.

I can't play video games anymore.. Maybe for an hour or so, when I'm feeling good.

I've tried to locate dmt/lsd/shrooms.. I can't find any. Tried deepweb, but i don't have enough money to purchase bitcoins.

Wyatt Kelly
Wyatt Kelly

your life is good but you have depression, suicidal thoughts is a symptom of your condition

Aiden Taylor
Aiden Taylor

yo, sell your gun first

Ryder Brown
Ryder Brown

dude. Believe it or not but I know how you feel.
I am almost in the same position due to other reasons.
I got 2 exesboth narcissistic and they ruin my and my kids life.

the only thing that keeps me alive is the channelings of Abraham Hicks:

youtu.be/EfBBf0BpopI

just try some of these videos on any subject.
hope they help you out.

suicide is the way of least resistance but that's not why you came to this planet.

hard to believe , I know but please give it a shot, bro.

Parker Nelson
Parker Nelson

Get an adjustable cock ring

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