10 years of depression

>10 years of depression
>its getting worse everyday
>crying at least 5 times a week

when will i be happy like the others?

girls killed me on the inside

weed is the answer

its not, it cant be

I have never felt depressed in my life what am I mission out on.
Told the say to my friend, fag called me a lier
I haven't cried in year lost all my feelings just by not caring

Are you alone?

i've been depressed for 20 years, don't worry once you reach the point of apathy you'll be fine

Used to have friends 5 months ago
Went outside every fucking day
Moved house. Now no friends still don't give a shit. Live in a small town with 500 people. 90% adults I think I'm the only 19 year old the rest kids

Years. Sorry not year .

I'm with ya bro. Been dealing with chronic depression for 10 years myself, it's gotten real bad lately. Think I might have to check myself into a psych ward, inpatient or outpatient, I just can't keep doing this shit man.

i'm already turning mad on the inside, i think i'm already insane and it's difficult to hide it every day

last girl i met told me that i looked "overwhelmed and anxious" just by the look of my eyes

i'm thinking about it bro but i'm too scared to turn into a vegetable with meds

It's feeling that the world owes you love and support but for whatever reason it still doesn't give you as much as you need, but you're unable to go on without them.
Then the person becomes addicted to victimizing himself, so it becomes easy to justify not doing anything to make their situation better at the moment, which will later bite them right back in the ass, but they use that to further victimize themselves. Downward spiral.

The person needs to be extremely egocentrical and selfish to do this. Could say Solipsistic, and this makes them feel lonely though, no matter how much support they get from others.

The cure for it seems easy, but also risky.
A depressed person won't challenge himself, so he also deprives the sense of success from his mind.
He needs to be put in a situation that requires him to man the fuck up, and start taking care of himself, BUT if he fails alone, there's a good chance that he'll attempt suicide.

Suffered from depression myself. Poverty and family problems related. I got out of it and I feel great. Haven't been on b for 6 months or so. Was bored so I decided to pop in on my tablet for a quick fap. Now that I'm over, let me tell you how I got over my depression

The gist of it: get out the house and meet people. Focus on personal development. Think positive, be positive, force yourself to not think negative thoughts.

That's it. Those 3 sentences should be enough.

For staters, look for some events in your area on Facebook or whatnot. I recommend improv theatre and maybe some yoga classes.

Just find the strength to try different things, and don't be afraid. You have to take care of your problems in this world. Keeping up with the fight is the best thing you can do in life.

Hope you the best. I believe in you, you must believe in yourself and live yourself as much as you can.

thank you, but i'm the kind of person who has a lot of social life, i'm engineer and i go out every weekend with people.

but i'm still dead on the inside

it's a huge void each time i start having negative thoughts

that sucks but how did you not lose all your feelings yet?
i have been depressed for 7 years and absolutely lost all emotion, basicly turning into a robot.
see this guy how can you cry 5 times a week? im feeling better now but i still can't really cry
i guess your pain is different, if its caused by girls.
>when will i be happy like the others?
could be next year user. Take me as an example: i had a horrible childhood, and it ruined my life. The PTSD, Depression, Paranoia and everything were destroying me.
But i managed to better myself! I'm now having an actual social life, dating a nice girl, and i have real smiles.
It takes a lot of hard work, you really have to pull yourself together, but it will be worth it. i'll comment my skype so you can talk to me if you want, maybe we can learn from each other

have a nice day user

thanks, maybe i'll contact you

Letting grills hurt you
Been there done that faget. Shit is retarded but she was probably a cunt anyways better off alone atleast now you have chances of meeting someone who isn't a bitch. Gotta get over it.
Op is the strongest there is
I'm strongest
user above me is strongest
Blah blah gl doucher

it's my third attempt of starting a real relationship (never had anything serious in 24 years) and each time it ended by serious depression and paranoia, because they treated me like i was an unknown person from one day to another

That's the only reason I'm leaning towards outpatient. I know inpatient would be better only because I could have around the clock attention and therapy sessions, but I don't want to get all doped up on 100 different things.
I've been there before when I was younger, not a good time being inpatient.

Ketamine infusion ftw.

Smoke one marijuana per mid-evening. Reduce crying to once per week.

Increase marijuana to two per day. Reduce crying to once per month. Repeat as necessary.

You need to stop complaining too much and focus on the positive while you better yourself.

As an engineer, I think your main problem lies in your emotional self. You have poor emotional hygiene, and your being is pure rational. No wonder it is hard to enjoy life. Reconnect with your emotional /feminine side and learn to live yourself.

For starters, talk to yourself in the mirror (do it naked for extra effect) and try to connect with the emotional self inside you. Ask her/him of her /his needs.

Two secrets to happiness :
1. Be grateful.
2. Do what makes you feel passionate.

You are lacking 1, and point 2 might not be up to date .

One is a rational need ,the other is an emotional need.

Please close this thread and don't come back to b unless you sort your life out. You have it in you, so stop asking other people to help you.

Take care of yourself and love yourself. Accept who you are and move forward.

Love ya

Have substantially less money than before and lung cancer in future. Now, even more depressed.

>20 years
>apathy
are you even trying?
once you reach the bottom of the barrel, only then will you know the true euphoria of a life of dysphoria. when nothing can get worse and stuff just being really bad becomes the new good only then will you enjoy the welt schmerz like a fine whiskey sour.

no medication for 15 years. im already winning by not killing myself.

Yeah, but how do I figure out what I'm truly passionate about? I know a little about a lot of things, but I don't know a lot about a little.

I suffered from depression for years now too, but I've got it under check now with the help of two half-year long hospital stays and medication.

About your girl problem, I found that once I was mentally stable, I was still sad about problems with girls, but they didn't throw me into a pit of desperation anymore.

So, that's the gayest shit to say, but it's true: Get some professional help and power through it. During therapy it will become even worse and that's why many people quit, but once you get over the hill, you will be happy you went through it.

Give me all your money, happiness guaranteed

If OP decides on kermit. Dp lifestream

By doing and growing up.

The main thing about being an adult is knowing what you want. Meaning what you choose. Out of five million things you want, you have to choose 5.

Practice and you'll get there. Removing excuses and negative thoughts from your minds vocabulary is an amazing feeling, give it a shot.

>depressed
>crying
bruh, if you can still feel feelings you're good

Only one solution.
>save up
>move out
>get better fucking friends
>get close
>life long bond

What happened girls in your life? Are you a virgin? I hooked up with this chick on Friday night and I've felt depressed ever since and im not sure why. But if you focus on your own life and bettering it instead of focusing on women youll be happier and women will like you more

This but there's a downside to it