Hey Sup Forumsros im feeling fuckin sad and pathetic. so tell me whats got ya down...

hey Sup Forumsros im feeling fuckin sad and pathetic. so tell me whats got ya down. cuck stories and general stories of you being a pathetic human being or degenerate also accepted

Now we're two
Putting it an end soon

just fucking depressed. been dealing with it for about 20 years. hard to function in life and is pathetic.

Im the guy that when people look at me they think "Atleast im not that guy"

Ive come to accept it however, but the loneliness still stings

>but the loneliness still stings

27kv here, the loneliness seems to hurt a lot more than it used to. I've take a break from my wageslave job just to ease the stress but I have no one to talk to now. I've been cooped up in my house for over 2 weeks now.

well i might have just failed my first year of university, currently pounding back some beer and browsing Sup Forums. at least we have each other.

>2 weeks without work
>break

What are you european?

Yes, why?

Are you clinically depressed or why do you want to end it?

Taking 4 days off in the US would get you fired from your job

You're lucky man

>at least we have each other.

We don't. We're just screaming into the void. I would love to kill myself but you know, family stops me from doing that.

What? No, this is unpaid holiday I'm taking. It's that shit that I'm taking an unpaid holiday.

That's a horrible reason to keep going. It's your life, they'll get over it.

I'm an unemployed broke alcoholic

for me i dont even give a shit about my family. im just a pathetic pussy bitch. i dont like pain. what if it hurts. im afraid of telling my friends and family and looked at like a pathetic attention starved failure of a man who cant get past his emotion problems. i have 0 work ethic. 0 drive. 0 motivation all because i was a spoiled little bitch as a kid. i dont deserve anything i own. im just a waste. an actual cancer.

Short greentext
>just walking down the street and see this woman eyeing me out
>ignore it but glance to see if she is still doing it
>she's still doing it so I approach her and start up a convo
>ends up with me getting her number
>go on a few dates and one night we get drunk and we fucked raw
>later on the bitch tells me she wants to keep the baby
>I don't like the idea but I reluctantly agree
>fast forward months later
>OP was born

haha got that right im actually not wanted on this earth man. good on ya for spotting out the truth for me.

I broke up with my partner after 7 years, my dog died, my car too, my stepfather and my mother-in-law died from cancer and I accompanied them both trough their 1-2years to their death and last breath, I lost my job and my company I founded, got a major depression/burnout, was unable to work for over a year, just was home all time and didn't wanted to see anyone, am in treatment since 1.5 years, have huge financial problems and may loose my house too in the next few months when divorce is over.

I'm still alive.

Tell me your problem.

Stop being so hard on yourself. Also find a hobby that requires you to stand up and do something. You will feel way better after spending some time doing shit you like, that is not looked down upon/seems like a waste of time.

I'm pretty much the same. Apparently the rachet strap is painless and quick. I tried using it couple days ago but didn't know how it works. Once I learn how to use it I'll be gone hopefully.

You can turn it all around guys. I did :)
One step at a time. Going to gym isn't a bad way to start and improve your self-confidence. It isn't about the women, don't be fooled - it does help though.

True. Hobbies are a good distraction from how much you despise yourself

a distraction is good for starters, but in the long run, you want to start liking yourself.

Yeah that's a good start.

thanks for the advise.
i like the idea of the garage and car

^This
I started going to the gym, because my ex broke up with me, but then I realised, that going to the gym is actually really fun. Since then, I've been feeling a lot better and stopped being so self-concious about my looks and shit like that.

Im just empty of emotions

Nice poem

As long as the garage isn't where close ones will find you first I'm all for it

Yeah I did the same, it's more for the brain than the body .... body and self confidence follows automatically.

I feel like im just pretending to be a real person and I only exist to cause pain

I would just someone to fucking talk to, is it that hard God, you fucking dick? And not just some random fuckheads on the net.

Exactly.
Also you learn discipline in a fun way.
Plus there's nothing better than to hit a new PR on Diddlys and feeling like a god

With an attitude like that, noone is going to want to talk to you

Wow, what a self-indulgent fuck. Do you live in a closet full of decaying ravens?
Go out and find yourself a passion, start each day with goals and motivation, try new things and enjoy yourself. There's so much to experience and do, stop dwelling.

Talkings not all its cracked up to be. You talk to someone and then what? Your problems are still there and they can't fix them all

this feels thread is a sad one, not sad as in "I feel bad for him" but sad as in "get your shit together". I'm recovering from a lot of past mistakes atm so I'll be dropping some wisdom on your asses, you'd do well to listen:

Girls:
>don't make yourself look desperate, be chill and confident and act like you don't care about them and they will keep coming to you. That means you've to go in for the kill ok?

work:
>get a job, it sucks at the start but as with everything, you get used to it.
>if you're a sperg then try out college/community college, whatever will get you out of the house and into a social environment

friends:
>job/college/school, never too late to meet people

loneliness:
>smoke weed, think about everything, try to get some answers. Then focus on yourself and what you want to do, spend time alone doing something that might get you somewhere (learning how to draw/animate/play an instrument/create websites/create games).

suicidal tendencies:
>stop bullshitting about the whole "family will miss me" thing, you're only fooling yourself. Either do it or don't, if you really are suicidal then you've nothing to lose, go out and enjoy life and maybe you won't feel suicidal after that

sex:
>follow the 'girls' guidelines and one thing will lead to another. Just go for it when you think both of you are on the same page and like eachother.
>if you cum too quickly just say 'its been awhile' or tell her that she's 'so hot' you bust your nut

looks:
>if you have long hair and are over 18 then shave that shit off, chances are you might look decent
>wear clothes that don't look like they're drenched in sweat, make yourself look cool

personality:
>its ok to be yourself, but not when all you do and talk about is anime/japan oriented, its just cringe and nobody will take you seriously
>act like a normie if you have to, but be real with yourself and try to have some perspective on the autistic shit you pull off

most important advice of all:
>be confident.

>having a mental breakdown
>on holidays when everybody goes making party or having fun, i am lonely at home on my pc and this makes to cry myself to sleep
>don't really have any friends( so no social life)
>parent's splitting up and fucking annoying me with that
>also depressiv
>before i never got a problem for being alone but now it makes me
insane

>You talk to someone and then what?

Be acknowledged that you exist? That someone realises you're alive? That they're actually interested in what you have to say?

Finally someone who seems rational.
I'd like to add, that it's normal to be sad at times; don't stress it too much and it will go away by itself.

Life is hard shit sometimes, but also the greatest thing on earth. It changes all the times. Without the shit part you won't recognize the good parts.

>be me
>who else would I be faggot
>get home from army at 22, meet buddy's girlfriend
>fuck her for the next few years
>meet another buddy's girlfriend
>eat her pussy
>meet a different buddy's wife
>have three way with her and my gf
>meet another buddy's wife
>fuck her in his house 2 or 3 nights a week
>gf finds out I was cheating, ditch her and fuck some of her friends
>fuck all of my female friends
>meet cute coworker, fuck her at work
>meet bosses niece
>fuck her at work
>get fired
>new boss is qt 3.14
>fuck her at work
>awkward.jpg
>quit job
>meet her sister
>fuck her
>neither wants to talk to me anymore
>buddy's all find out about their wives/girlfriends sleeping with me
>no more friends, no more pussy
>befriend some randoms at bar
>work my way into the group
>fuck their girlfriends, wives, friends, sisters
>eventually girl from past shows up
>told everyone what I did before, new buddy's ditch me "just in case"
>"sorry bro"
>"lol it's okay I already banged all your bitches"
>show pictures for proof, watch relationships crumble around me
>MyWorkIsDone.avi
>moves on to next group. do this from 22 - 30
>systematically infiltrate groups of friends, bang the girlfriends, wives, sisters, etc. and watch it all get destroyed
>I do this because I know that women are all whores, all sluts. None can be trusted. Every women in the world will cheat on you in a heartbeat given the right circumstance
>become disgusted with women in general
>give up the sexual conquests. was bored with it after 8 years anyway
>only friends I could ever keep were dudes that had fat wives and girlfriends; no chance I'd fuck them
>realize they were weak, pathetic people anyway
>drop them too, move out to the woods
>spend over a year living alone in the wilderness, become true woodsman
>property owner dies
>government seizes land, pushed off property
cont?

Currently going through some life troubles but im thinking of reinventing myself by letting my inner self out rather than putting on and act. Im working towards changing my wardrobe thats years old, my name, my hair style. Im currently working a shitty job but its a step up. I am socialising more with friends and i am trying not to care about girls so much as i know they will come. Im hoping this all works otherwise im fresh out. I just need to focus more on my studies and i should turn out okay through it all.

Maybe life isnt so bad after all?

>I'd like to add, that it's normal to be sad at times; don't stress it too much and it will go away by itself.

I'm more than sure that a lot of anons suffer from clinical depression. I'm mean, being sad for years on end can't be possibly normal.

Though is it clinical if your dead social life is the reason for you depression?

that is a good point of view

Cool, good attitude

sure mega alpha user

Life is not bad. It's not good either. Why does nobody understand that life means nothing in and of itself? Life is only what you do with it. So if you don't put any effort into it (both mentally and phisically), why would you get anything out of it?

ImIll listen for awhile

continuing
>homeless, find a job in town
>sleep in parking lot at work
>boss finds out
>fires me for it
>whatever, made enough cash anyway
>wander around town on foot
>summer time, find car in parking lot for sale
>pay in cash, now I'm mobile again
>get new job
>live in car for a while
>end up in my own apartment in different part of the city
>spent most of my free time and money at the shooting range
>meet gorgeous girl there, who just got her CCW
>teach her to shoot
>we hit it off, start dating
>she's hot, athletic, a serious shooter, intelligent, good sense of humor, down to earth
>we end up engaged
>her friends become my friends, etc.
>we're out shopping together when someone from my past shows up
>it all comes out
>the groups of destroyed relationships, the countless women, etc.
>she breaks off engagement
>says that she couldn't imagine I had a "dark side" like that
>can't believe I was the kind of man that could so those things
>tell her I was angry, I was confused, idk what I was doing
>she says if I can hide that much about my past, what else could I be hiding, blah blah
>fine then.
>pack her shit for her
>now live alone
>and hang out on Sup Forums
>alpha as fuck

That is where you are wrong. Life is definitely good. Depends on perspective. We are all important parts in our small little worlds. The truth is. A life trying to change the world is futile but a life lived for friends, family and love is a life well lived and the only one that will matter in the end anyway

It's clinical, if the reason is your clinical depression. Clinical depression can't be cured and has no reason to exist. You don't become shizo because you can't socialise either.
If you're sad, because of something like your social life/love life, it's not clinical and can be fixed. Try harder. Life's not fair. Make the best out of it.

>I'm more than sure that a lot of anons suffer from clinical depression. I'm mean, being sad for years on end can't be possibly normal.

True, I tell this all the time, if you feel sad and depressed without motivation for more than 6 months don't be a pussy and go visiting a doctor. There are drugs that really can help to get back to a great life again.

Did you not prove my point with that?
I think it's just a shit excuse, if you blame everything that went wrong on life being bad. It's all just what you make of it.

You said life is neither good or bad. What im saying is thats just not true life is only good. It is very rare we are forced into situations that change this

I don't know, it's sorta feels like it's been my personality for a decade now.

sadness is absolutely fine man, thought it was needless to point out. How else are you gonna appreciate the good things in life?

people who claim to have 'happy lives' are some of the saddest people on earth, because if you have too much of a certain thing it becomes boring, like you've done it a million times and it lost its charm.

Be sad anons, ain't nobody gonna hold it against you. Besides, sad people are inventive people, they're usually poor and have a middle class/working class background. These are the people that make things happen. Spoiled, 'happy' kids do nothing but thrive on other people's failures and missed opportunities. Fuck em, live your life the way you want it, at least if you fail you go back to where you started.

>I've been alone for years now, occasionally see some friends for a couple of days before I go back home but not enough to feel like I'm socializing. Its great tho, I do whatever I like doing, nobody to give me shit about it, I get to explore my own hobbies and interests, practice playing guitar, write songs and when I'm bored, play vidya or browse the web, what else do you want in life?

>These are the people that make things happen.

And have their credit stolen by the cool kids.

I mean, look at gaming and grime, both niche interests and years later it gets co-opted by the hipsters, people who played no part in their growth and yet reap all the rewards.

Maybe, maybe not. Maybe you were just born with some slightly reduced neurotransmitter levels.... would worth a try to increase them.... you have nothing to lose.

well if the rewards are what you're looking for then you're no better than the ones that reap them.

Nothing made with heart and soul is worth your while, nothing man. Once you realize that there shouldn't be a reward for leaving a mark on the planet then you'll figure out what to do with your life. The right people will always know the truth

What happens when you take them?

They increase your neurotransmitter levels (the doctor will determine which ones, but i guess it will be seretonin).
Depending on your condition it takes about 2 weeks. You will feel more motivated and balanced, able to feel fun again and to see the life positive. Happy to socialize with others and just do things.

I.e. they can also be prescribed after lost of a loved person to help getting better trough that hatd time.

I'm sure without them I would be dead today....

>well if the rewards are what you're looking for then you're no better than the ones that reap them.

I don't know man, it's just watching people undeserving get acknowledged and everyone else get pushed by the wayside.

Like when walking simulators get awards coming out their arse or when Ed Sheeran got voted Most influential black artist.

So it won't give me a personality boost?

I look at it this way,
if it wasn't for the little guys then 90% of the music I listen to wouldn't exist. Most of these people just do it for passion, even work a day job to support their interests.
Some of the best games I've ever played went under in the first couple of months, lack of recognition, bad marketing, people didn't get the idea.
Some of my favorite movies are movies my friends never heard of.

You gotta do shit for yourself man, the world is a fucked up place, its ridiculous actually when you really look at it for what it is. Stupid people are in power, democracy means nothing. unless you film a soft core porn and have a pretty face then you won't mean shit in the music industry. Its stuff like this that you have to stop being pissed off about and just forget it. Fuck what people want, fuck what people think, just you do you and do your own thing, people will come, if not by the thousands then by the dozen, who cares? do it for yourself man, whatever it is.
I stopped giving a shit about all of those things years ago man, can't change it, don't want to be part of it. So just do what makes you happy, pretend the rest of the world doesn't exist, its all fucked anyway

No they won't change your personality. Have you ever taken mdma (ecstasy/molly)? If yes imagine it like that feeling but not that strong... more at a lower level but permanent.

To change your life a accompanying therapist treatment is needed.

>start going out with a girl i had a crush on for 6 years
>she just got out of a long relationship
>i know, bad idea
>had 2 incredible dates, i am already in love
>i can tell something is off, she is not giving in like the others i used to
>check her facebook, she is still has photos of ex and had recent likes on his photos
>suddenly acting distant
>fuck my life
>5 days without a single text from her, i dont talk either
>she texts me one week later asking if i am live
>just told her "leave me at peace, until you figure yourself out"
>never heard from her again
>hurts but i need to respect myself first
>alone again

I guess. It's just irritating to lay rights on something that wasn't theirs.

Ed Sheeran is a middle-class ponce who got into the scene real late and even then only did a handful of "grime" singles, and somehow he was vote the most influential urban artist.

Even Sup Forums has had it's shit commercialised and put out into the mainstream.

It just pisses me off. But you're right, it happens all the time, case in point Van Gogh never made it in life but in death he's suddenly a great artist making millions for others.

Let me hug you

I was born an only child and had lots of issues with social interaction. My parents didn't help either.
This lead me to being bullied for most of my childhood. Wanted to kill myself too. Parents found out and took me to counseling.
Middle school was okay, but highschool broke me good. I had no friends, crippling social anxiety and depression. That's not all. I also had (and unfortunately still do) a mental disorder that caused me to imagine myself in horrifying situations where I would torture and even mutilate people who wronged me in the past. My only escapes from this were walking my dog and videogames. Lately I've been considering some form of punishment for my fucked up brain. I don't deserve death. Not yet anyhow. What I've been considering is cutting my left hand off with a miter saw in the backyard then cutting my right leg off after I recover from the arm amputation. Then maybe mutilating my face and taking a staplegun and stapling a mask to hide it all. What would you faggots do?

Me too. And on SSRI's for a week now to zap my urge to drink. They're working but the trouble is they've zapped everything else in me. I don't know about this shit.