Feels thread? Feels thread.
>Be me, HS senior (I'm 18 now, inb4 b&)
>had huge crush on friend(she has anxiety/depression), but we never really talked much
>always seemed kinda fatigued, nervous, etc but never thought anything of it
>she goes out for a month, her close friend says "she has mono"
>notbuyingit.jpeg
>decide whatever, if she wanted me to know she would have tole me
>flash forward to this year, work up the balls to ask her out
>she says yes
>fuckyea.png
>eventually she tells me some bad shit that happened last year for her
>She got this manipulative and emotionally abusive boyfriend (I'll call him B)
>B scared the shit out of her, he was unstable, violent, and generally awful.
>Eventually he convinced her to sneak out, then he tried to make a move on her, she said no, he did anyways
>she says to me "user, you remember when I was out for a month last year?
>tells me she tried to kill myself, and went to a mental hospital for a month
>flash forward to now
>She still has these awful flashbacks
>she still wants to kill herself/self harm sometimes
>she had a flashback earlier, not too bad this time
>she says how she's so sick of dealing with this and wants it all to be over
>says she hates herself and that really hurt to hear. I think shes such an amazing person and to hear her talk about herself like that makes me feel awful for her.
>by the end she tells me: "user, I'm so sorry I'm like this, you deserve someone who isn't broken like me"
Fuck that just made me burst into tears in all honesty. I know, I know, but it just hit me right in the feels knowing through all of this, she was thinking most about what she thought I "deserved" and how she doesn't feel good enough.
But every day I just wish I was closer to her earlier last year, maybe none of this awful shit would have happened. I just feel like it's my fault she got raped then in turn tried to kill herself.
>MFW I know I could have prevented this from happening to her.
So Sup Forums, how's life?