>20 years old
>one failed relationship in my life
>no friends, ruined relationships with old friends
>flunking out of college
>spend free time on the internet or playing videogames
>addicted to cigarettes (pack a day)
>spend weekends smoking by my apartment window in the dark watching people my age go out and have fun in the streets below
why shouldnt i end myself Sup Forums
i know this is a cliche but life does get better, you just have to be strong
porn
Do you honestly expect to find meaningful insight here on Sup Forums? I'm sorry but this board isn't the place for it. I don't frequent this place anymore, but I do remember a time where you could actually share your lamentations with others who were empathetic.
Why don't you go out in the streets to find friends? That's what I did. Had great times. I was once like you.
A pack a day? Disgusting.
Quit. Try vaping. Try to get a job.
I just don't see a point.
I don't really know why I'm posting here. Usually I frequent Sup Forums, Sup Forums, and /his/ but I was just feeling desperate to communicate with people.
Sometimes I actually do that. I wander around at night listening to music. Sometimes I'll end up talking to people. Nothing ever comes out of it though.
Better to experience something than nothing imo, plus you don't know if the ride really ends
Try reconnecting with your old friends, or you could attempt to make some new ones on like tindr or something, maybe
Im right there behind Sup Forumsro except the smoking
Pic related or kill self
If you can save yourself, you haven't failed user
Lonliness is painful, pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. Go lift faggit
I feel pathetic for sharing this story.
>Start dating girl in my senior year of high school
>She's a grade before me
>Genuinely love her for the beginning of the relationship
>She starts getting acquainted with my friends, we all form a tight knit group
>Notice she starts to change a bit
>Subtle at first, little habits and idiosyncrasies she picks up from my friends
>Whatever, still like her
>Leave for college, doing a somewhat-long distance type relationship now.
>She still regularly hangs out with all of my friends, they all take a liking to her that they had never really shown me.
>Come home and visit and realize she is totally different. Feel frustrated and annoyed by her company. Her entire image and character is now about garnering praise and recognition from said friends for having the same interests and whatnot.
>Friends don't talk to me so much at this point anymore.
>Start to resent her. Start to resent them.
>Eventually after months of keeping up a relationship despite the fact neither of us liked each other anymore, we break up.
>She paints me as a mean-spirited dick, friends no longer talk to me.
>She proceeds to fuck every single one of them, I know because they would tell me.
>Days after she settles on one of them and has been dating him ever since.
So yeah I'm not really keen on trying to reconnect.
wow what a bitch
>i'm BR
>failed
Ask for their phone number next time stupid. Made the same mistake. I stopped walking around completely if I wasn't looking for someone to hang out with. If you miss hanging out with people you might as well be dead.
id rather die of cancer than being seen with a vape. faget
Yeeaaahh.... Don't reconnect with them. Don't kill yourself either, don't let them win this shit. Man fuck all of them I'll legit a little upset now after reading that story. They were never your friends to begin with their fucking pieces of shit and I hope karma fucks them all over mercilessly. Shit dude, fuck them. Anyway like I said, maybe you could try Tindr, I never have, but two of my good friends who are in a relationship met on Tindr and have a real good thing going. I'm actually thinking about checking it out myself at some point..
Also maybe get a job, you could meet people that way or at the very least get some money. You'll be alright, OP. I believe in you. Good luck
You will feel the pain of living.
You both are pathetic walking around looking for friends, it reeks of desperation and no one wants to be around that. They just talk to you back to you because they don't want to be rude.
Yup, this is me. Especially the smoking bit.
I am 23 years old and have been smoking since I was 13. My old man must have smoked a carton a week. I remember him smoking cigarettes constantly. He worked in construction and was never without one. Naturally, I wanted to be just like my dad so I would bum cigarettes off of him. He didn't really care. We were all white trash.