I'm really bored today

I'm really bored today
Ask someone with Borderline Personality Disorder anything.
I got so bored that I decided to test myself on the rekt thread and I nearly threw up, so I best keep far away from there now.

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how are you feeling today

Is your other personality the one with deprrssiob and uh schizophrenia?

That's not BPD that's Multiple Personality Disorder/ DiD. No I am not SchizOP although SchizOP did once inspire me to make this thread.

Very bored which means I'm about to feel pretty empty. So I just gotta try and entertain myself as much as I can

Well, either way I love ya, I appreciate ya and I know things will get better.

Also I'll suck your benis wearing panties and a wig if ya want.

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Aight lets go come on over

Don't start this shit again

Yeeeeeey on my way :3

Is that a challenge desu

Once more with feeling

Futaba user, please come in here and tell me what the fuck this is. It's scaring me

You better be quick, I'm an impatient boi

Plz no, we have the ninja alliance remember. And I'm the least impressive ninja. All I have to show off is a sweet ass gaming rig and some cough medicine that has just been sitting in my room for weeks.

Every picture has 100% feeling in it desu

That's big nose, best character in the game

I'm going to try and find a white shirt to become storm shadow

bump

Haha I had a feeling you'd be lurking somewhere. Is there a way to set Japanese audio and English subs. I'm not used to hearing English in anime.

Good gooood, spice it up a little

I lurk where I'm needed. If there's anything for Japanese audio it'd be in main menu option I assume. The English cast nails it though if you can stomach it long enough to get to know them

Gonna go get lunch brb

Nevermind everything is closed for another half hour

Rip, I'm feeling a little hungry myself but I don't think we have much in. I feel the urge to stream this game but I'm in no way interesting at all so it wouldn't be good. Plus I'd have to be slightly quiet because everyone's sleeping. Also I don't even know how to get to the main menu, it jumped me straight into the game and I can't pause.

I also have BPD

If you end up streaming I'll probably lurk in there as well. The beginning of Persona games are extremely hand holdy though so it'll be a bit before you even get to use the main menu

pop

I went and got some Milo cereal. You folks wouldn't know what that is would you :P

Really user? Tell me about your day. Is everything alright?

Yea this intro bit is a bit boring. I may set up a stream tomorrow, depends on whether I feel like it

Is it like big Cocoa Krispies?
You get to just chill with Nanako and Dojima for a bit at least

You're a piece of shit in every way. Did you know that?

same

Are you Shiek?

Rip my game

Wait a minute... Do you not have Coco Pops where you are?!

Well, yea... That's why I'm trying to act as nice as possible now to make up for it.

Hehe I strive to achieve that look. I'm glad I've been recognized :)

>Hehe I strive to achieve that look.
You... Want to look like a lesbian trying to fool straight chicks into sex?

FFWD button saves lives. I've never even heard of Coco Pops, we have Cocoa Puffs though

He has the trap build it has to happen

Finally I can get food

Kill yourself?

Eating with the ninja mask true dedication!
Have some water desu

I uh... I didn't think of it that way I just wanted to cosplay as a video game character and I always thought Sheik was cool when I was younger.

>He has the trap build
How the hell would you know my build stranger

Wheeew food. Well Coco pops is Australian and identical to Cocoa Krispies except it's mascot is a monkey and the punchline is "It''s just like a chocolate milkshake, ooooonly crunchy" and they also made a spin off cereal called Coco Pops Chex which was the best (pic related). Also we have Rice Bubbles and they have the same mascot as your Cocoa Krispies

I know what it is, and i know the duo is better!

NZ fag here, i take it your from au/nz?

Nah

I could use some water. I think I'll have juice instead cos I got a sweet tooth

I'm in Aus yis, best place ever I reckon

I can imagine your build to be as sexy as I want

I'm back and I've brought subs
Do you guys have any of the cereals we do? I've never heard of Rice Bubbles before either

oops

No one fucking cares , get out of your house and go make friends you worthless cunt

>Borderline Personality Disorder
NZ fag here.

Didnt know what that shit was, googled it and it pretty much describes me.

Do you think it would be worth going to the doc about it? is the treatment available worth it at all?

Also, Au seems pretty cool, ive only ever been their once. Gold coast. I liked seeing snakes, they are competently ban here, even in zoos. I like snakes.

This

Samefag

bpd fuckwits are incapable of making friends.

I miss mayo chiki :( wish there were more seasons out.

So what ? I'll keep samefaggin till this bitch khs

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Must be fun talking to yourself

+1

Got nothing to do so yeah

ninjaanon I'm about to eat some foods :3

Did the crash make you give up P4 for the day?

Hehe xd keep dreamin buddy

Uh I'm not too sure what cereal we share, I don't get cereal often because it's basically just sugar you eat for breakfast.

Heh nice meme. I'm not sure what mental health care is like in NZ but if you were here, I'd recommend you get a mental health care plan from your doc then go see a bulk billing psychologist just to see if something is up, especially if you have most the symptoms. So just do the equivalent in NZ I guess. What symptoms do you feel you mainly experience? I'm no psychologist so I can't diagnose you myself, but I'd like to be one and I can spot a BPD person from miles away.

I'm terribly sorry anonymous bridge troll, I shall follow your every command

I'll believe in the booty until the day I die

I have been summoned

How old are you?

It ended so suddenly as well :c I'd be so happy if they even just released one more episode.

I have lots of friends : ^)

I don't care if Felix is a trap I would 10/10 bang. That pic is beautiful

Nah I'm gunna continue on, I just caught up to where I was before with FFWD

Traps save lives. Hopefully you'll be able to make it to a save point this time

One day friendo

I don't like disclosing personal info on Sup Forums pal, sorry

You have really nice eyes, ya know that?

People have been saying that desu

>One day

there's a chance

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lifes weird mang

>intense anger, that does not fit with the situation, or difficulty controlling anger

I always find myself getting super mad over somewhat stupid shit, like grabbing the wrong flavoured snack, family looking at me weird, or even at myself for not doing anything with my life. I just get in a super bad mood, sometimes yell, break stuff and every time i look back i realise it was stupid and dont understand why i got mad.

>recurrent suicidal behaviour or self-harm

Constantly bite myself, have thoroughly planned suicide a few times but never gone through with it.

>ongoing feelings of emptiness

I feel like i dont have a reason, i dont have many interests or friends, i dont get much joy out of anything, i feel like the world wasnt meant for me (edgy i know)

>experiencing minor problems as major crises

Shit like being late, if im even a bit late to something, 1/2 the time i will just towl it in and not go, i get super anxious about it.

>a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships

Mainly with parents and friends. 1/2 the time i will enjoy spending time with them, the other 1/2 i just feel like they are super annoying and i tend to not spend any time with them, or reply to messages.

From the list the only thing i couldnt really relate to was the avoiding abandonment one.

i couldnt fit everything i wanted in this post, so if you have any more questions feel free to ask. i could be barking up the wrong tree, but i just felt like it described me.

My porn has been stolen desu

A very slim chance I should say. Like I said, it only happens in certain moods

People used to compliment my eyebrows which I found a little weird. I don't really take any care of them so I was a little confused

Does anyone here play Osu! I need some new beatmaps, I'm getting bored of the ones I already have. I can just about finish some 5 star maps

My GF has borderline. It s pretty difficult to live with her. Every two months its twee weeks up up up and then twee weeks rockbottom down . Am getting awfull tired after spending so many years with her. :(

butt?

Slim chance is better then none

Why you are such a fag? Thts not even a real disease

Hi op.
Bipolar reporting in.

I'm from the north pole...where's bipole again?

That's goin in the fap folder

You meet just about 5/9 criteria from what you've told me here and for a valid diagnosis you need at least that. I would definitely recommend you see a psychologist just to be safe. Do you struggle with any impulses, mood swings, intense emotions other than anger or get any strong anxiety? Fear of abandonment is usually the biggest problem so it's very good that you don't have that but it also gives me the feeling that BPD may not be the problem.

Bipole is inside my head, of course..

Been a long time since I played Osu! but S3RLs stuff was always pretty fun

He has seduced me and stolen my porn desu
Kill me

Do it faggot

just post butt instead

Not yet young one

True

Homosexuality was once thought to be a mental illness. But you're not wrong, BPD is not a real disease. It's a real disorder.

Hey hey hey. I used to think I was Bipolar then I found out my mood swings occurred too frequently. What type of Bipolar Disorder do you have and how does it affect you?

Hehe Bipolar mean 2 opposite poles little one (at least I think so). What's with all this Wendy's stuff that's appearing on Sup Forums tho? I ain't complaining about the r34 but I'm curious where the hype came from.

People started drawing smug Wendy's from Twitter then Sup Forums found out

Bipolar 1
And it was fucking ruining my life until I got diagnosed.
Depakote works best for me.

Yea, my mental state always feels like its on steroids, im barely ever "normal" some times i will be super down, suicidal even, other times i will be really up myself, like im the top dog, sometimes i feel really inspired like "imma do this, then that, and get that job and ask that girl" etc. but i never go though with it, the suicide or inspiration, its all just thoughts, im too anxious to act on any of it.

and yes, i have extremely bad social anxiety, i avoid going out side at all costs, im a full time shut in / neet because of it. Simple shit like going down to the shop to get food is fucking hard, i feel like i always stand out, like the way i walk, or carry something, the way i dress or my hair always attracts attention. I know it doesnt but it fucks with me, i start sweating and shit.

i also sometimes get anxiety induced panic attacks, not often as i barely ever go outside. Only example was i was in the mc donalds drive though with my mum, she put the drink in the cup holder by the stereo and it pushed up against the volume button and turned the music up super loud, i saw heads turn and holy fuck, my heart sank, throat tightened, became sweaty and started full on sobbing/crying as we drove away. It was one of the worst feelings ive ever experienced.

Obviously i dont want to be abandon, but i feel like that wouldnt happen.

Not OP here. This could be bipolar disorder. But I am not a doctor.

I see I see

Hmm ok. I don't take any meds because it's sorta my last resort and at the moment I'm surviving, getting better actually.

You're beginning to sound more and more just like me. So get yourself checked out asap please, for your own good. I've left it for too long and now I'm too anxious to actually go through with getting meds or doing any therapy. So basically I'm too scared to get better. I get what you mean with the social anxiety. I remember once heading home from school and going in the shops real quick to get a drink and shit. When I went to pay, I gave the woman at the register money that was 9 cents short exactly, and for some reason I felt like collapsing into a heap on the floor and crying because of my mistake holding up people behind me. I didn't of course because that would draw more attention to myself but I let it all out when I got home. That's probably the worst thing that happened to me which sounds ridiculous when I think about it now but I understand why I reacted the way I did. I only get panic attacks when I go to get vaccinated because of my fear of my own veins and blood. I think about how they are going to be stabbing something into me and into my veins and I nearly pass out every time.

What medication did they put you on? I'm on anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, anti depression and anxiety shit but I find that my moods are still all over the place and I get super intense. No grey

Not op here
How long have you been on these meds?

I think i will. Going to get help does scare me, a lot. I have even avoided going about my anxiety which is literally ruining my life.

im going to the doctor on wed for unrelated issues, i might see if i can bring it up then, problem is i have no idea how i would bring up mental illness, a physical thing is easy but mental i just have no idea.

also i relate to you being short on money, one of my "pet peeves" is constantly checking how much money i have when ever i go into a shop. Like i will count the money before i leave, check the price, count money again and then check its all their before i go to pay. Its an anxiety thing for me, i dont want to be short, that would force further social interaction and draw attention, which is not what i want.

Ill try to bring it up with the doc, dont know how i would go about doing it because im a socially awkward sack of shit but meh, ill try.

Also whats the difference in mood swing periods for you? for me its normally a 30 min - a few hours. its never been over a day, unless something is keeping me in that mood, like a parent constantly bitching at me that i need to get a job :(

Haha I said it in but that's ok
I don't take meds because it's my last resort and I don't believe I need them to fix myself. Sure it means I have crazy moods and all the symptoms are still there but I'm getting used to it, accepting it and I'm starting to get better by myself without meds. I think the key to getting better is understanding the disorder and realizing when you're experiencing some of the symptoms and being self aware so that you can try to stop them, then and there. For example, when I get really angry I tell myself "alright Riley, you need to calm down, remember what happened last time you got this angry. Do you want bad things to happen again?" Obviously it won't help with everything but it seems to be working with me

I tried S3RL - Feel the Melody
It's alright, I'm not a big fan of heavy doof doof doof techno stuff but it's playable. I finished Insane difficulty on my second try :D

You gotta get the real S3RL classic tho youtube.com/watch?v=-zHm77FkW3U

As someone with BPD, I pretty much have a 0-100 scale with nothing in between. My doctor refers to it as manic, but a lifetime of a single "episode". How do you cope with the anger?

>might see if i can bring it up then
Hmm I was in a similar situation. You can do this user, but you really have to do this, even if you change your mind while you're there, or you get too scared. I believe in you. If you wanna keep in touch I have Kik, Discord and Steam if you wanna add me on one or all of those. Just ask if you want my info. As for mood swing, I'm just about the same but anything big or small can stop or trigger a mood swing and it can be just the tiniest thing.

I tell myself that I'm overrreacting and remind myself of past experiences. Then I'll either talk to a friend about it or if I'm angry at my favorite person (we all have those right BPD's?) She will either tell me that I should go off and distract myself or I will tell myself that. I distract myself with anything like YouTube, shows, video games and I just ordered a Fidget Cube (pic related) so hopefully that will help me when it gets here. I recommend all of you here get one, whether you need it or not.

Holy shit is that where that's from. I've only heard the song from a Rick Astley remix. I'll try and find an Osu! beatmap for it

Yea same for me, anything big or small. Although its normally the smaller things, things others view at stupid and insignificant.

for example, i was re heating some spaghetti meatball for breakfast (idk i just felt like it, and it was there) and my dad ask me what i was doing, kinda ridiculed me and told me "thats not something you have for breakfast, have something normal" i dont know why, but that shit put me in a shitty mood for hours, like a suicidal mood over something so stupid and insignificant its retarded.

I already feel like im not going to bring it up, ive been meaning to for years (anxiety that is) and never have, i dont know. i know i should, i know it will help but its just so fucking hard when your in the room, face to face with the doc.

and yea, keeping in touch would be cool, i have steam, i dont go on much but just being friends with someone that has similar issues as me would be nice. id/senzaii

bimp

bomp

What was your kik again? I figured I'd give it another shot, maybe bots aren't so bad now

hypershadic21 because mephiles is overrated. Kik is handy because it actually gives me a god damn notification on my phone when I get a message, unlike Discord and Steam so I can talk to yall on the go

It makes me sad that the Steam app is so shit it'd actually be a good messenger