So, I'm contemplating suicide

So, I'm contemplating suicide.

tl;dr: I'm a failure and non existent prospects for the future and the shame of failure made me consider ending it.

Graduated from highschool with good marks and got accepted into a good university. I was young, stupid and lazy. Fast-forward 8 years and I've been suspended twice for failing multiple courses multiple times. I've managed to kick myself in the ass, pay off student debt and pay for tuition on my own, however even with the high marks I'm getting now, there's no hope in graduating with a remotely decent GPA that will allow gradschool or any sort of job.
Can't apply to a college or another university either as they'll know about my past marks and reject me.

My folks and friends think I'm smart and have high hopes for me, but I can't face them and tell them that I'm a failure.


Just wanted to vent, also looking for painless ways to suicide.

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My dad killed himself recently. Stabbed himself to death. Sort of devastates those that love you.

Maybe seek some perspective before you contemplate further.

What kind of sad job needs GPA?

If ur uni is good, and ur career is known to be hard, that's all that counts.

Hang on user

Discuss redoing courses to upgrade your GPA? If you've proven to your school that you've gotten your shit together im sure they would it agree it'll just be more money if their pocket

I graduated with a 2.5 from a shitty state college. I took a job in sales that involved heavy travel. Four years and three company changes later I'm making 200k, have company car and phone and spend all my time entertaining customers. GPA doesn't mean shit. Go into sales.

Holy fuck, I'm going through a similar problem...its rough man I know but we got this far just do what comes natural you can still get a decent job with a high school education...or you can get into a technical college and get certifications

>also looking for painless ways to suicide.

>hate life and ready to end it forever
>not prepared to deal with pain tho

lol

Do it. Either make steps to improve yourself and situation, or kill yourself. Just stop complaining.

Community college and apply as if you've never been to college.
When I was 18 I went and derped my whole first semester, getting an A solely in my gaphic design class and failing the rest. I dropped out.

Fast forward to 22 years old, I went to a different community college and literally started from scratch. Didnt transfer shit. Got associates and accepted into an actual state four year.

join the military. if you wanna die, then at least die doing something useful/exciting. if you commit suicide then you'll end up being the faggot that killed himself. but if you die fighting, people will remember you as some kind of hero. plus you get paid. think about it OP

In this thread: People telling OP to hang on.
"we're not in Sup Forums anymore, m00t"

It took me 10 years and 3 schools to graduate with a 2.59 gpa, engineering.

First job out of school due to gpa was a technician job, not even engineering, 35k/year. Problem with school appatently was i didnt adapt well. In school i was actually top 5 in senior year.

I think im a complete dumbass, but apparently im not? In 3 years i climbed to 90k/year and boss seems completely satisfied. I think it's because I'm lazy, work smart not hard may really be a thing. Either that or I'm just lucky.

I was in about the same situation. And also contemplated suicide. I ended up dropping out. Parents were dissapointed. But it's cool. I bounced around jobs, places women.
Anyways I ended up finding a Zen job I enjoy, built my own house. I could make more, I could of done more. But I'm happy where I'm at. And I don't think I would be as happy if I follawed the collage meme.
I guess my point is there's a lot more out there then money and education.

Take time off school and learn about your desired field on your own. If your friends and family believe in you, like you say they do yourself, they'll show you support instead of shame.

If you're studying a high level science or something, where materials might not be available online, put your ambitions on the back burner. Begin learning a new skill or language in the meantime while keeping the fundamentals of math familiar to yourself. However long it takes, there's nothing preventing you from returning to a university in the future.

Cheers

If u hate college so much, y go for 8 years? College is not for everybody. But nowadays they make you think that it is so they can take your money. My suggestion is don't quit, get a well paying job and stop wasting money.

You're putting way too reliance on GPA here
As many anons have said, it really means nothing
Don't even put it on your resume, I graduated Highschool with a mediocre 1.8 and College with a 2.2.
Never once did I get asked for it during any hiring process.
What let me excel and obtain an 80k/yr career in Systems Administration is previous experiences with internships
People car more about experience than academic marks, most know it's bullshit

Not sure about your industry, but I'm in software. The companies that care about GPA and degrees are ones you don't want to work at anyway. They care about what you know and what you can do. I barely finished High School and skipped college. Right out of High School I got a 6 figure job at a startup.

Protip : Applying to jobs online is dumb. Find places you can meet people already in the industry. Talk to people. They learn much more about you from that than they do from a resume. In my experience, one business connection is worth about a thousand online applications.

You could also start a business. Not easy, but not as hard as it sounds. If you do this, learn some economics first. Save up for a lawyer too. That helps.

It's not the end of the world. You have options. If your field doesn't work, don't be afraid to try something else, at least temporarily.

Get over yourself petal. What a fucking stupid reason to consider suicide. Millions would give anything to be as fortunate as you.

I've been through >way< more than you (from the sounds of it) but decided to use it as fuel for my fire to kick ass and give a big fuck you to all those who doubted me. FFWD to today, corporate fatcat in top tier profession, things ain't yet 100% perfect, but they're pretty damn rosy.

And also, don't fall into the trap of thinking qualifications = success. Around 3/4 of the self-made millionaires I know are uneducated.

I know how you feel OP.

I farted really hard one time and I lost the ability to speak for two weeks after.

What if we make a Sup Forums suicude pact? We all say we will kill ourselves and then only one person actually dies. Lulz ensue.

I tried about a month ago. obviously didn't succeed. my son came home early from school and opened up the garage, and called the cops immediately.... that was a week-long stay at the loony bin.

go do some drugs. try these ones... they work well for depression. ill list them in order from best to okay for depression.

Shrooms

4ACO

LSD (1p lsd is really easy to get, which is why lsd is great.

Speed (great for feeling productive and getting over anxiety, but sucks because the comedown is meh, and you feel less productive after)

Weed, which is just overall great for relaxing. but in a bad state of mind, you may feel that post smoke regret similiar to drinking, or fapping to gay porn.

>this
Military is great for people like you user, you don't even have to think for yourself/ deal with your self pity

oh, btw... all of these are safe to do, and wont harm you physically in any way. LSD isnt always the best to do in a bad state of mind, so i recommend micro dosing (maybe a half or 1/4 dose)

you're still young and lack perspective overall imo

im posting here before i go find a fap roll thread to remind you that people start second educations and careers in their 30s and 40s and you're nowhere near that. you're not dead yet and im not sure why you think you should be

sure things aren't going to be as easy as they could be but life can still be sweet.

Don't worry about GPA on your shit. My brother works with hiring a lot of the tech entries at the company he works at. They take literally every resume with a GPA on it and throw it in the trash.

my mother is graduating at 43 for architecture! this is very true! she is also a recovering meth addict (im the guy who recommended the safe drugs btw)

Learn an in-demand skill
Network, socialize, freelance
Don't give up

Why specifically do they throw out those with a GPA on it?

OP listen to this
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Listen to me fag, contrary to what most retards here say, an hero is a privilege.
Join the military, kill at least 30 muslims.
Get shot while protecting one of your brothers in arms.
>Die a hero death in the arms of the medic.
>never play tf2 again.
Resume your desk job at military HQ after you got shot, you're a fag so obviously youre no front line material.
Hang yourself with an extension cord.
People around you profit.

Jokes aside do join the military, do something useful. save a life or something gay like that.

Good old fashioned helium suicide. Painless. Done it a few times.

Not OP, but I'm a different user in a similar spot. 23/m, got roped into the college meme but turns out I fucking hate school. Tried over 5 years across 2 schools because I was supposed to be the college educated son unlike my brother, but after I came to the realization early on that college is a business, most "intellectuals" are just cunts, and degrees don't qualify really qualify jack shit, I couldn't bring myself to care.

So now I'm working an off the books job 20-30 hours a week making ~20k/yr. The 9-5, 40hr/week, 50week/yr wage slavery life doesn't appeal to me at all as I like traveling and music. As I see it I have 3 paths available. 1) The safe dumbed down path, become unionized electrician and be making 50/hr in 5 years. 2) The prove-your-worth path, self teach web dev, move west and get internship, move up from there. Decent chance of 100k+/yr. 3) The passion path, grind at music production and practice DJing and see where that takes me. Money doesn't really matter much to me and this would allow me to travel the world, but would I be fucked at 40+?

My Question: Which of these would leave me with the least regrets?

How late is too late to join? And not trying to insult, but won't being surrounded by 18-21 year old chads/retards drive me insane?

My friend
I am a medical student in the UK. I'm waiting like a prisoner on death row for the email that will summon me to to the main office to be dismissed. I fucked up real bad by being a lazy shit and not attending stuff
I know for a fact that they're kicking me out. I can't sleep, I'm just constantly waiting for it to come. I've sunk 4 years and 50grand into this course, and I'm going to get kicked out with nothing to show.

I feel like killing myself. I really think I'm good do it

Since when does having good grades dictate how your life will turn out? You can be whatever you fucking want if you work hard for it. At the end of your life it'll be the family and legacy you leave behind that you'll be remembered for, not what grades you got at school.

I remember my grandad and dad being cool ass people that helped me through life, not how qualified they were for anything.

Hard work and dedication help you achieve what you want, but you only get one life so might aswel make the most of it.

this is true; unless you apply for a job and are in direct competition with several other people who all have the exact same type of degree, your GPA is not a huge concern

Or maybe he could try to do something better with his life instead of being a druggie bum

Grades don't fucking matter

I'm not against suicide OP, if you feel like that's what you need to do, I don't mind. Too much people on this world already.

But don't talk bullshit. You can do whatever you set your mind to. I've literally known a person with down syndrome to get a masters, just for example.

If you want to be better, just do it. Make plans, short and long term. Get in shape(this shit is underrated) while you try to figure out who you want to be.

1) Failure is the way for you learn to avoid them. All people who you consider succesful faile many times, but the difference is that they keep trying and avoid those mistakes.

2) Your graduation does not define who you are. Your folks and friends love you for more than that.

3) If you were once happy, you can be again. So don't be an idiot and think that this low point defines your future.

Don't suicide. It'll get better. Always does.

DO IT FAGGOT

How the fuck he stab himself to death?

BS

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They did it

They fucking did it

They completely took over Sup Forums like a disgusting tidal wave of moral faggotry and righteous indignation.

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OP PIC RELATED YOU FAG

wtf

doitfag

I agree with this. if you haven't been arrested or super bad credit you should be ok. find out what careers the military have to offer and pick a few that interest you. I recommend Air Force, the life style is more civilian then the other branches. sign up for 4-6 years pay off debts. if you like it stay in if you don't get out and use the GI bill to finish college. Once you have a job, you feel less of a failure and if your in the military you can sustain and live life quite well.

They'll ask if you ever thought or attempted suicide as part of the phyc evaluation. Lie and say no. They'll also ask if you did drug.. say no if you dont have a record already just make sure you're clean b4 they test you.record already.

>It'll get better. Always does.
That's patently false. History is full of accounts where shit does not get better. Much of today is getting worse. Income inequality is getting worse. Sinking boats tend to go down not repair themselves.

Yeh exactly, try telling that trite shit to a terminal cancer patient you fucking moron.

Also OP, kys

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People came out from worse situations than this user, give it another try

Ok OP, first lets get the pleasantries out of the way.
>You're an incorrigible, absolutely obscene, massive faggot who just cannot stop sucking dicks.

Now that that's out of the way, let's get to the facts. If God exists, you're fucked if you commit suicide. Depending on what bullshit religion you subscribe to, you could end up dragging your dick through mountains of broken glass, burning in hell, or reincarnated just so you can do it all over again.

If God doesn't exist, you get nothing but the knowledge that you're fucking up someone else's life when you pull the trigger, the second they find your corpse. Disappearing won't work either, because they'll worry until your corpse is found, or all hope is lost.

Damned if you do, damned if you dont, right?

That's where you're fucking wrong, bucko. If there is a god, then that entity put you on this world for some god damn reason. That makes you fucking special. You don't see any spider monkeys making telephones do you? No. That's a creation of man -- YOUR species.

If there isn't a god, then by some fluke of nature, out of literally billions of life forms on this planet, man evolved and developed sentience. That means you're unique, but not special. So what the fuck can you do?

You are one of several billion. You've got nothing, or you at least think you've got nothing to look forward to. You know what that means? Nothing to hold you back. It's time to have some fun, faggot. It's time you dumped your inhibitions and became a goddamn legend.

You can indeed transfer out, schools will only know about other schools you tell them about. I am not just blowing smoke, I have done it. Went to jc my first year, never, I mean never went to class, fucked off, got a job and didn't even bother to withdraw. Did the same dumbass thing a couple of years later. So had 30 goddamn hours of 0.0 which would run any college career.

Decided I was tired of working blue collar busting my ass, applied to a different university, didn't bother saying a fucking thing about any past schools. Got in, no one said a word, graduated summa cum laude. Went to grad school, MS geology, again not a fucking word from then or me about my past. Well, did that a few years ago and now I am going to Med school in Sept.

I was a complete and utter fuck up, trust me, parents were dead, had the money from that, so was just working, drinking and being a complete goddamn douche.

Life sucked, was depressed, had shit jobs, no life, didn't care to hang out with friends, just go to bars and leave shit faced drunk. Lived close enough to walk, so at least I got lucky with that.

tl;dr I was fucking retarded, but came through, you can to, but that is up to you. Suicide will be the ultimate failure.

Sounds like you are whining about bullshit that doesnt matter, you fucking pussy. You made your bed, lie in it faggot, i hope you fucking do kill yourself.

There are actually quite a few options for employment.

Uber / Lyft are taxi apps where you choose your own hours and can make good money depending on where you decide to drive. [Busy cities, busy times of the day + tips on Lyft]
Certain entry level jobs, like Starbucks, will pay for your schooling, which may make it easier to join? [idk. figured i might mention it.]
Certain medical jobs [Like EMT, CNA, etc.] have totally separated classes from regular colleges that only require your vaccine background and a couple months.

Besides that, I know it seems like you need to be perfect to be happy but you can also look further into your own personal passions. Life isn't all about work. Some people get so caught up in the demand for money that they neglect their own desires.

this isn't reddit ffs, ypur posts will die soon just like op

this works with jcs, doesnt work when dropping out of a 4year uni.

Fuck off nerd. I need money and I will kill anyone, including you, who dares to step in my road to riches

If anyone should an hero, it's your worthless ass. Fuck off with the reddit comparison.

>"Ffs"

You have a 2,000 character limit, and you use a shitty acronym like some baily jay idolizing cock sleeve. This ain't twitter, faggot. The least you could do is be a little creative. Sucking your sister's balls would be a good start.