Because why not

Because why not.

>Be me 26
>In a shitty relationship, bitch is borderline crazy and stupid like a boot.
>Stick with her cause I feel sorry for her.
>Become friends with a girl in an online game
>She lives in another country, we chat on MSN messenger.
>Feelings grow stronger, it is mutual
>Break up with my old gf, because I realized it just is not worth it.
>Tell the new girl I can't date her, because if I do, I won't survive from it if she breaks up.
>Things get difficult, new girl pushes me away.
>I accept and go on my own way, she goes hers.
>Fast forward 4 years. Get an email from the girl, reply.
>We talk on the phone, feelings are still there.
>She comes to visit me during winter holiday, we can't get enough of each other.
>Convinces me that we should be together, I agree.
>Fuckyeah.bmp
>She asks me not to break her, I promise her I won't.
>Things are amazing, we love each other even though the distance is driving us nuts.
>We plan our future, talk about our own house, play vidya, fuck like horny rabbits every time we meet.
>She gets da boot from her work, but soon finds new job and starts studies.
>2 years in I propose, she accepts, fuck I am the fucking master of the universe!
>Now when she is not busy with work, she is busy with school.
>We stick together for 3.5 years, she brings out the best from me and to be honest, the worst.
>We get our hard times, the distance and the busy lives is fucking us over.
>I try my best to endure, I just really fucking miss her.
>We both act out and be like little shits towards each other.
>She dumps me, I try my best to get her back.
>LoLNope.jpg
>Send her one last text, pretty much tell her to fuck off and she does not exist to me anymore. Didn't mean it, but I can't handle another message from her.
>Work overtime, drink heavy on days off, flirt with every girl I meet and drunk fuck bitches, try to keep my mind busy any way possible.
>Keep comparing every girl I meet to her, no one is even close.

>Every time my phone makes a noise, I find myself hoping it's her. It never is.
>Fuck my life.
>Months pass, every fucking day I find myself thinking about her.
>Meet an amazing girl from way past, we talk, she seems interested.
>Go meet her, talk, go out, have fun.
>I can't bring myself to have any feelings towards her.
>My heart is just noping so hard, we don't even fuck.
>Pretty much tell the girl to fuck off, so I won't hurt her.
>She is pissed but accepts.
>Company I work for closes down.
>Too much free time. Drink more.
>New old girl sends me messages again, reply but be distant.
>After almost an year, I still miss here every fucking day.
>Realize that I am fucked so hard and I have no way out.

I sit in front of my computer, typing this and drinking another glass of rum.
Part of me regrets that I let myself fall so hard into that relationship, but the bigger part is so fucking happy I could at least once
feel something so powerful it fucked me over this bad. I have accepted that she has moved on and I should too, but I just fucking can't.

Also I am drunk, ask me anything.

...

Do you have suicidal thoughts

Nope.
I am not an angsty teen anymore.

Sucks op but long distance does that. It just ruins relationships. Try not to drink yourself to death and find a hobby you care about. All you can do

also cheers

It indeed does.
I actually have a hobby. Started to lift. But it can't fill my mind with it 24/7. And I am kinda ruining my gainz with the constant drinking.

I feel worse for the bear

Cheers!
Kraken, spiced rum.
What are you having?

Whyd she break up?

Who doesn't?

Captain, great go to after work

I lost my shit and acted out.
According to her, she didn't feel safe with me anymore. Funny thing is I am one of the very
few who never beat the living shit out of her in
a relationship.

Let's take one for that then. Cheers!

Cheers mate

what game u met her in?

Fuck it, why don't you just text her, tell her she meant everything to you and that you would do anything for a new chance in a new life together? I mean okay she might be taken already, or your proud might get in the way, but then again, you're telling us your story, ground zero has been reached. What would happen if she told you right now that there is no chance in that happening ever again? I reckon you would feel shitty, like fucked up shitty, but it sounds like you're already at that point, what's to lose? Why wouldn't you try? Do you really believe this was the best you're ever gonna feel with a girl ever? Because if you wouldn't wanna try this (not right now, sober the fuck up first, if she denies you, have a drink again), then I would say that it is possible you're being a little bitch atm, and wallowing in selfpity is easier than imagining there's more out there.

It was an old porn mmo, porn star wars or some shit like that..

Sorry, left that part out. I sent her a message 4 months after we broke off. Still a nope.
Knowing her, the answer will not change, but I can humor you tomorrow and send her a message.

feelsbadman
I broke up my with my gf of 1 year cause there's some of my own issues I need to fix before I could promise forever with her, so I figured it would be best for both of us. She moved on pretty quick and already in a new relationship, while I just started abusing weed.

Every girl I start chatting up it's only to bang and then I give 0 fucks about her after that, pretty sure I'm still in love with her but what can you do mang

do it

this dude is right

just do it fam


text her right fucking now


no fuck that
call her

leave a voicemail

... thought it was going to be Runescape or some shit like that.

I know the feeling. Only way I could fuck around was getting piss drunk and use some viagra.
Dude, not drunk. Sober. She is worth a sober call plus she probably listens few seconds longer when I can still talk.

Nope. No memes here.

Okay well fuck it then, there's gonna be another girl out there, even better, just keep your eyes and your soul open, drinking alone at home isnt gonna get you anywhere man. I cannot feel your feels but i understand it. Crazy ex-girlfriend with whom i didnt have a relationship, had fun together, shitloads of drinkjng, she got way too dependant on me, calling me all the time, i felt like if i hung up she would kill herself. Broke contact, she freaked out, suicide letter, i broke her off for good. 2 months later met again, shit hit the fan again. Year ago now, still fucking think about her. Untill 3 months ago she was the only girl i ever met with who i could lay in any position and it was okay, felt so fucking safe, so trusting. Recently met another girl, same feel, this one was not batshitcrazy tho. Fell in love a bit, she was not ready for that, broke me off last sunday. But fuck it, i now know that this feeling was not only for the first crazy girl, i know that i can find it again, so you probably too. Anyway i still have dreams about the first girl, i know deep inside she would take me back any fucking time of the year, i feel it, im scared i would take her back too if she would come to me, but she wont because i cut her off bigtime, telling her she really should leave me alone. Still i almost know for sure that one of these days i will contact her, or run into her, i fucking imagine running into her still. So much on my mind still, it's like a magical mutual feeling with her that i almost know for sure she still thinks about too every now and then, although i havent seen her in 1,5year.. Crazy shit..

Hey Sup Forumsros.... Gf of 4 years left me for no reason, other than she wants to be selfish and alone. We have a 2 y/o daughter with her, and we live together/share a car. Im into down to earth girls, and l am really into nature. Currently high, and I am in VA 804 area. Cheer me up? Help me meet someone new? This girl I just broke up with previously cheated on me, and I forgave her and got back with her, [after 4 months of her whoring around]... It's been a year now and she just randomly breaks it off.. So wut eva? Help.

Pic is me.

Yeah, we are talking about the same feeling. Fucking hell, I hope things will work out for you.

Wish I could help man, I am pretty fucking clueless myself.

I believe they will man, i mean i know that i can feel big feelings for another girl now. But still, it wasnt the same.. Also the first crazy girl brought up the worst in me too, drinking every day with her, life was a fucking party, i dont know man, maybe i also just fell in love with the nonstop sex with alcohol and no reaponsibilities.. but still, the idea of holding her in my arms again wont let me go, i just know shitll probably hit the fan again if i meet up woth her. I had a streak of drinking alone after we broke up, smoking cigarettes and drinking was an activity, listening to music we used to listen to. Going to the gym helps but like you said it doesnt fill your whole day. But then again, drinking all day is fucked up too, and at the end of a night drinking alone i always felt fucked, like i didnt want to drink anymore, but kept drinking. I came to the point where i would see the notes of the night before and wouldnt even read them anymore cause i know what they would say. Or running into old messages or voice recordings of myself in my phone that i was scared to read or listen to.
Anyway if im not posting more after this, good luck /bro, i believe you will find something or someone to love again

Yeah the first chick I banged after the break up I couldn't keep it up, was smashing her with a half-chub by the end of it. Sex with someone you fucken love compared to some random slut you have 0 feelings for is pretty shit tbh

Best of luck dude, just keep working on yourself and I figure you may not get that same girl, but another who's just as good. I'm hoping once I sort all my issues and get my life on track I can go back and fix things with my ex (but she said she couldn't be with me again) so who fkn knows man.

And like you said before, it is nice to know that you can love something that much, even if its taken away, the idea that something can destroy you this way means that you do have feelings, and the girls you mindlessly fuck and dont feel anything about dont mean shit, just find a girl who means more than a shit and work your way up or smthng, goodluck

I didn't come to Sup Forums to cry