Sometimes my heart hurts, and i want to die

Sometimes my heart hurts, and i want to die.

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Join the club.

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I've been in this club for a while dude.

I feel the same way rn user...

Hope you get better...

Here's a picture of my sleeping kitty

Me too. And it's not getting much better so I'm thinking I might just start taking acid on the regular. What have I got to lose? My mind? Puhlease.

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Thanks guy, for saying nice things to me.

I hope that you also get better.

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I'm just gonna wait patiently for the technological singularity.

Join the French Foreign Legion

You fucking forgot the pointy things stupid

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I'm not French. Do you think they would still take me?

I feel this every minute of every day.

Got you Sup Forumsro

That is the whole point. If you speak Arabic, English, Swahili, German or Russian you can join, and French of course.

Why have you not done it yet user?

I tried once.

I know I sound like a recruiter but being told what to do all day really limits your time to stop and think about your sorrows.

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That's cool man. I couldn't handle the stress though. I can't even handle the stress of a part time job. I'm a useless cunt. I really should die.

Me neither. I've gone so nuts that I can't hold down a simple job. All I can seam to do is exist and wait for the sweet release of death. I'd say it's depressing but at this point I don't even really give a fuck that it's depressing.

Get medicated m8

I still care that it's depressing. It hurts so fucking bad sometimes.

Started Bupropion a few weeks ago. Waiting for it to start helping.

I don't know what this is, but it is aesthetically pleasing.

tbh I do sometimes too. Tonight I'm just numb but then other times it gets to me. I cycle from dead inside to unbearable pain with some small amounts of actually feeling alive and well in between.

Sounds like you need to exercise more, Amerifat

>I cycle from dead inside to unbearable pain with some small amounts of actually feeling alive and well in between.

I relate to this. Life is such a crazy fucked up thing.

I don't leave my apartment unless people make me.

Can't feel good all the time but I seam to remember times where I felt good a lot more often.

I'm applying for disability, on the grounds of mental illness (MDD, PDD, BPD, OCD)

What do you think my odds are dudes?

The two lawyers offices i went to, didn't want to help me. The whole process has made me hate myself and my life that much more.

I want to die.
I want to die.
I want to die.
I want to die.
I want to die.
I want to die.

I'm thinking of doing the same thing. It's weird though because it does drive the point home that I'm nuts. Sometimes I'm ok with this and just think oh well fuck the world anyway. I'll just drop out. Then other times it just feels incredibly lonely and grim. No family, no friends and no future. Total existential nihilism. It's an odd place to find ones self in and you never think you'll wind up like this.

You will one day
You will one day
You will one day
You will one day
You will one day

Patience.

I guess I am too busy doing things I don't enjoy.

That and there's one thing that gives me some kind of happiness I indulge in every once in a while. Only happiness I've ever known. =\

I would love to feel nuts. instead i just feel like a fucking useless cunt. A better person would be able to live with this stuff. I just suck.

What is the thing?

I feel like a useless cunt sometimes then other times I feel at peace with just being an eccentric nut who has happily dropped out of society. I'm trying to get used to the idea of the latter. Thinking I'll just work on my music, read and drop acid once a month. The only trouble is the soul crushing loneliness of living that way gets to me.

>Only happiness I've ever known. =\

Heroin?

I am not sure I can explain well. There's a story that has allowed me to understand, even feel, happiness. Pic related.

No girls I've ever dated, family or friends I've ever spoken to or women I've been with have ever given me what that story has. I don't even know why, and I fully understand how insane I must be.

I haven't even figured out why the story allows me to understand hapiness and love more than any other real thing I've ever experienced. The world is just gray to me because everyone is so selfish. I don't wanna live in a world like that, and I think the story allows me to escape for a short while. :(

Hang in there user.

The A.I. overlords are coming. I'm confident they will take good care of us.
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This is actually the reason i haven't killed myself.

Nah, drugs ain't my thing. I smoke a bit of dope every now and then, but nothing hard. Never had the taste for it when I tried it.

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You know it's funny drinking and smoking weed used to at least help me escape a bit now and then. Now it just makes me feel worse so I'm just kind of in this limbo state.

i have a really good job, have a car (altho it's shit i'm able to bring it to the shop this coming weekend to get it fixed), have a new place to live in, paying off school so i can go back after my job contract is up

and yet i feel so empty

what am i doing wrong

What is the story?

People are mostly good, and some are great. (My grandmother, Elon Musk)

I am in awe of the human race. We are capable of amazing things when you think about it.

They still help me, but my body is starting to fail me so I can't do it often anymore, if at all. (Stomach ulcers)

Maybe you need a wifey. And to procreate. Seams to be our biological purpose anyway. Pretty sure I missed the bus on that at this point though.

I'm supposed to have a date this week but I don't really feel like going out while I'm not in college
I don't feel like fucking

Yet we're all only out for ourselves. I haven't had a single person in my entire life look at me and truly care about me. I've cared about pleanty, and every single person always just used that to their advantage in one way or another.

Elon is too pure for this world.

The story is Eureka Seven.

I feel like that less and less these days. Think I'm going A sexual. I just kind of started to slowly die inside after the last bitch left me. And I hate going on dates too. 9 times out of 10 I'll be bored as fuck and pretending to be interested in what some normie is blathering on about.

>Google
>Eureka Seven

You've just had shit luck user. Not every one is like that. There are 7 billion people in the world, and you think they all suck because of the actions like 40?

>the pointy things
kys

What if he's got a pointed stick?

>Pretty sure I missed the bus on that at this point though.

why? how old are u

No, I think I've had shit luck and I'm waiting for it to change. I never said I condemned anyone, it is what it is. It's life.

Just gets harder every day and I'm starting to realize it might never actually change. Not for everyone, but probably for me, it will not change.

You need more Bob Ross in your life.

Gonna turn 44 next week. Probably the oldest faggot around here. No prospects, failed musician, alcoholic, mental health issues. Yup I'm a catch alright.

get a job

Every one wants to die

You aren't special, just fucking deal with it like the rest of us you needy bitch

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Bahaha! This actually made me laugh.

And everyone will. If only people would have a bit more patience.

Everyone could use some more Bob Ross.

Shit man. And here I am feeling like shit and wanting to kill myself because I'm 20 and have never had a girlfriend/still a virgin. What do you do for a living?

Have you tried dating fat chicks?

A living? I'm on the dole.

Yeah the last one. She ran off with some redneck though. Funny thing is I still look pretty good and carry myself well in public. Just doesn't look to good when they find out about my real life and it's utter lack of direction and failure.

Same here. I think i'm a handsome man with a good personality. I just fucking suck at life.

I would really appreciate any advice you guys may have for me on this subject.

If I get on disability I think I'll just lie my ass off and maybe fuck a bunch of bitches. Pretty sure I could pull that off if I wanted to. But do I really want to that's the thing? I dunno I'm almost all out of fucks with everything.

It depends on what state you live in. Leaf fag here can't help much with that as I have no idea how it works there. Where I am it seams shockingly easy.

It does not seem so easy here in Missouri. I'm really sure they will deny my appeal and then, i don't know what the fuck is going to happen to me. I'm afraid.

I guess just try not to worry about that which you can't control. I know that's easier said than done but really what else can we do?

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>easier said than done
Yep.

I really appreciate the advice though user.

I wonder if we'd be better off if we had mandatory training in stoic philosophy from a young age. I bet we would. I really think a lot of these problems are cultural. We live in weird and nihilistic times.

>We live in weird and nihilistic times.
We need a new world order. The way humans live is so outdated. We have the resources to feed and house and educate every person on the planet. We don't do it because there are 196 countries, who don't share with one another, and in a lot of those countries we funnel the wealth up to the people who already have enough of it. I think the human race can do a better job.

Yikes. That's where we're gonna have to disagree. None of that globalist utopian shit for me thanks. In fact I think it's the push towards that and the destruction of sovereign nations and cultures that have caused this dystopia. But that's a whole other can of worms.

Globalism is happening. You backward thinking people, are just going to have to get used to it. I don't understand how people can think it's a good thing to divide everyone up in to different groups and pit them against each other.

The ability to work together is what makes humans the dominant species on this planet. Just fucking think what we could do if all of us worked together.

No thanks. I don't like that sort of un organic collectivism and globalism is actually dying while nationalism is on the rise. You can just keep telling yourself otherwise though if it makes you feel better.

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Nationalism is on the rise, because of how afraid people are of globalism, and it's rise. Technology and the younger generations will inevitably force us into working together. It's going to happen and it's a good thing.

I know your primitive monkey brain is afraid of people from other groups of people, but they are people and they are just like you.

>human beings are a product of there environment.

Nations can still retain their ethnic and cultural identity and roots and work and do business with other nations you simpleton. It's actually the best way to preserve diversity.

>I'm afraid of change.

Yes but humanity isn't built for sharing and caring, that's why you don't devote every moment of your spare time and extra cash to helping the homeless.

confirmed for Human

> I'm afraid of my bullshit utopian ideology being a proven epic fail.

Cancer is a progressive disease.

>Yes but humanity isn't built for sharing and caring
We are not built for a lot of things that we do all the time, but we do them.
Have you ever seen a cave paint of a man sitting in front of a computer all fucking day?

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I have more insulting pictures than you faggot. Bring it on.

cool you just described every person ever for all time
and probably also before there were humans

It's really annoying when people think they understand severe depression, because they have been sad before.