What keeps you going?

What keeps you going?

hatred

Even that's gotta be exhausting

not really
just maddening

Money, I want money.

Well, all the best to you guys

The idea that of all the life forms that preceded me, I am the one that got this far, and I use this impossible level of privilege as a healthy straight white cis male to unapologetically make more money and have more opportunities and I use my time jacking off, doing drugs, getting laid and laughing at others misfortune. It's really really goddam funny to me

Alcohol

stealing ppls souls

but dont worry i return most of them

Contemporary things for now. I'm not terrible looking, have a job making good money at a young age, I go out regularly, it's not very hard for me to get laid, I have a few "close" friends. So really, I don't have it that bad.
But at the end of the day I know none of that matters, I'm not happy or satisfied internally nor am I making any real connections with people, even when I'm around others I feel isolated. It's been that for a long time now. I just keep people around til I'm through with them, that's how I know they don't matter, it's too easy to discard of them. It could be that I'm incredibly apathetic, but I'd eventually like to know how it feels to connect with another person. Whether it's a strong friendship or otherwise.

I still gotta finish my degree and move out and get a life
besides that I'm ready to die

I no longer feel elation. Nothing excites me. I'm dead inside. I honestly don't know what keeps me going

I play Pokémon competitively and I want to win the world championships. I'll probably kill myself afterward

I have no desire to live, but everytime I think how I want to die, I always come up with something better. However it requires preparation, and it seems like too much effort considering living already requires a lot of effort. I just wanna die with honor.

It's a one time deal so I might as well enjoy it with pizza porn and vidya.

Same, also the will of the Dark Side.

So you're basically a soulnigger?

Hey OP

My life is a fucking wreck.

>Gave up career of 10 years for girlfriend; she promptly cheated on me and moved out a week after I started my new job, taking everything with her.
>New job suddenly lays me off after telling me not to worry.
>Best friend dies on my birthday.
>Lost apartment to eviction.
>Everything I have worked on and everyone I know in my life in the last 10 years is gone.

That all happened in the span of 2 weeks last November. What keeps me going? Fuck if I know, I've been in a pretty wide spiral since.

Knowing that in 5 years I will finally have eternal sleep. I can't wait, I'm tired of having to be awake.

What's in 5 years?

Can't really feel bad for you. It was your own fault. Never give anything up for a woman unless she's your wife AND there's a really REALLY good reason.

I'm not going to be awake anymore silly.

...

But why in 5 years? What's going on between then and now?

Absolute terror of death so bad it gives me panic attacks.

don't be so attached to shit
OM nigga

Say what you want, but I'm living comfortably with all my shit, money, time, a roof over my head, etc. I've never let anyone screw me over.

Can you say the same?

It's my ultimate aspiration to aid the advancement of humanity in some way. I want badly to help us colonize other planets aside from Earth or the Moon, because until then it only takes one cosmic catastrophe to close the book on us for good.

The pump

Applied for that Mars One trip?

I have to finish some business, namely a contract that I have to uphold. Afterwards I can sleep forever. It's so close, every day it gets better and better. I can't hold the excitement after all these years the final stretch is here.

No, because it's a scam. But if and when there's a real Mars colonization effort, even if it's a one way trip, I'm 100% on board if they'll take me.

you're fucking kidding me

No, I take my word very seriously.
It's truly the only thing a man has. I will finish my agreement then move on. When you get older you'll come to value this wisdom.

that gif is fake right?

Making her happy, even though she doesn't care about me.

Seeing my best friends one last time

I won't kms because I know it'll hurt the people who love me

Yes. It was a skiier covered with a CHI ostrich if I'm not mistaken.

Nothing really .
One reason I don't end it all is the same reason I contemplate that decision everyday . Is that it won't matter . And nothing I do really does matter .
However sometimes . I want to drive myself forward . A desire for the most stupid and mundane sort of revenge . It isn't even really revenge or payback . Just a stupid trivial thing .
It drives me forward in a way .

That's good, I hope you keep that mentality and get better.

All the haters hating... Really makes life trivial and not worth living

I'm afraid of what might happen after

Excuse me? Umm sweetie