Hey B, have any depressing / bad stories to tell?

Hey B, have any depressing / bad stories to tell?

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>be me, in 1995
>happy, graduated, a good job and a lovely 9/10 gf
>fast forward 29 months later
>gf breaks up, suddenly, no reason, not any slightest hint
>tried to contact her, she's annoyed, only says she doesn't want to see me anymore
>a month later tried again, she shouts I must disappear from her life

>feel depressed because definitely sure no wrongdoing on my side
>noone of shared friends willing to tell me anything

>fast forward to 2001
>one of old shared friends told me she casually asked about me
>but she also added she was absolutely sure she didn't want to see me anymore

>from time to time, still googling her name/surname (sadly both very common in our country)
>sometime in 2009-2010 found her linkedin
>she lives 900 km away from here

>fast forward to late 2014
>finally found her fb, not totally barred
>browsed until late, found she's single, lives alone, has a cat
>she occasionally joked "it should be time to get engaged"
>checked her fb page everyday for a few days, craving for more info
>suddenly she applied the most paranoid privacy settings
>days later she updated linkedin, switched job (this could explain fb privacy)
>me feels depressed, didn't save any pic, too busy looking at her and dreaming

>anyway, decided to "casually" meet her
>went there (900km) and boarded the trains I predicted she would ride
>6:10pm aboard, check from first to last car, then get off, wait 30 mins, board next train, repeat
>she wasn't on 6:10 6:40 7:10 7:40 8:10... dude, I only missed the least probable one at 5:40, either that day she left earlier, or she took a day off

>fast forward to saturday
>go countryside biking
>31 km later, enter the small alley where her parents house was
>3pm, stopped in front of her house, looked at her room window on 1st floor, where we first kissed 22 years ago
>realized I was staring, someone could see me
>turn bike and go back, pedaling 31 km while thinking about her

TL;DR: she dumped me in 1997,never had any clue why,still love her

wow didn't expect a reply. thanks user. I'll post mine in few mins.

I once rubbed cayenne pepper over my entire body

I am about to cry, user you have to write a book about this!!!!

I am studying to be an Obgyn just so I can perform abortions. I want to kill people in masses and this is the only way for me to become the most prolific serial killer in history.

i dont want to tell it or greentext it out. was trying to bone best buds girl bc she'd been crying to me about him for weeks, night she turns down coming over she told me she went over and fucked one of me and best buds other best bud. totally broke me and topped off forming my alcohol dependence and depression

Perfectly legal. Good luck to you.

Look, user, I need to tell you something because I don't know if I'll ever see you again.

I was an orphan. I grew up in Pennsylvania in a whorehouse. I read about Milton Hershey and his school in porno magazine or whatever crap the girls left by the toilet. And I read that some orphans had a different life there. I could picture it. I dreamt of it. Of being wanted. Because the woman who was forced to raise me would look at me every day like she hoped I would disappear. The closest I got to feeling wanted was from a girl who would make me go through her jons’ pockets while they screwed. If I collected more than a dollar, she’d buy me a Hershey bar. And I would eat it–alone–in my room, with great ceremony, feeling like a normal kid. It said “sweet” on the packet. It was the only sweet thing in my life.

This is brilliant

Klay moved in my apartment in July. He was doing really well. Just started working a job, said he was on top of his program, and was paying rent by himself. This is all good stuff in my eyes. He was really getting out from under his parent's thumb. Being sent to Florida isn't the easiest. You don't really re-invent yourself but you have to deal with life without the commodities that normal people can endure. Things like resent, pride, and especially the problem of stress. I understood the mental aspect we faced together. Talking about old behaviors and thoughts we should fight against while we chain smoked on the patio. We lived on a golf course but weren't allowed to play so we just harassed the few people that would play in the summer.
We got along well. Striving to act as though we didn't mind walking everywhere and taking the bus. I would always ask him to come play basketball with the crew we could keep together as people would leave to live life or just get kicked out for stupid shit. He would decline as always; his forearm was fucked up from falling down a staircase. I guess you should't shoot heroin and immediately go answer the door. Anyways, it never stopped him from bragging about playing AA ball in Philly (Probably played HS ball at some private school).
Things moved along as always. Everyone working on themselves and throwing others under the bus if the attention was on themselves. I figured shit was getting bad when he started passing out gifts for no reason. No one had any money and if he was able to buy me a Bluetooth stereo I knew he was getting into the wrong shit. Usually the story is that you work for a call center, find people that deal, and boom! You're out the door after a piss test. This kid was smart, but not really, he could just sell any story like a good addict.
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Nice meme

Currently work for a butcher and pretend to be Rocky when I close shop. Sometimes a ninja too.

I was doing my own thing at the time. Working towards an A+ Certification and trying to head from the bull dyke upstairs. He would spend his time in the bathroom for 40 minutes at a time, shower on, and I would never say anything because this kid just bought me a stereo.
So as the story goes he was working at a call center. Found some co-workers that did drugs and figured he could get his connect in PA to send down pills. EZ money if you scheme with the right people. Thing about Florida is that EZ money means working with Haitians. Not a people to fuck with. He eventually got caught with some Roxie's and got kicked out which wasn't really a big deal to him. He made $2,500 off the deal and moved in with his treatment sweetheart at an apartment complex that doesn't check credit.
I would see him around _____ and exchange pleasantries but the truth is always revealed. His connect was arrested in PA, he was dependent, and the money was running out. You start doing Kava or Kratum just to not be dope sick, which usually moves to sniffing heroin then smoking it and finally IV use. From big pimpin' around PA to clucker in FL only takes about 4 months. Debts start to pile up to dealers from around town and soon you are getting robbed on a daily basis. His girl ended up getting trained and eventually just living at a crack house in _____. I don't know if you can call out a prostitute if you see one. I don't know what happened to him after that actually, I just have a fond memory of him thinking I was a loser since I didn't hard drugs.

then she rubbed it in and bragged about how hard she fucked him
made me want to become an hero, like it was the most degrading conversation ive ever had and like the first time ive really been bullied

I killed a man once and pretended he had attacked me first

No I've actually been having a really good life for these past few months, I think 2017 will be a pretty good year for me.

My life has always been pretty shitty but at least I'm healthy and have a gf

Well sometimes I eat cat food and pretend to be a cat. Then I jerk off.

That's fucked up.

What the shit

You arrogant fuck.

You're upset because you were trying to fuck your friends girlfriend and she fucked someone else? I'm so stoked that happened because you are a bigger piece of shit than any of the others involved in that scenario

>I'm 18 now
>Be me 2014
>First day at my school
>See 2 small girls sitting in front of me
>They looked like they were lesbians but not sure
>1 month later
>Confirmed these 2 small girls were lesbians by one of their closest friends
>One of them tried to talk to me
>Me being a faggot starts to bully her
>2 month later
>Almost everyone in my class thinks I am a cool guy
>Everyone is looking up to me
>These 2 girls gets bullied by everyone in my class and soon by everyone in our school
>1 year later
>Me growing up starts to realise I just missed a big opportunity
>Starts to see how wonderful these 2 girls actually was
>Regrets all the things I did
>Starts to stalk them on FB, Kik
>Me having very good social & technical skills starts to use it as much as I can to stalk them
>4 month later, another girl from my class likes me
>My being a motherfucker bullies her too
>She still tries to be my GF
>Me bullies her even more
>She wont give up and tries her best
>Me being a real mother fucking faggot whore ass mother fuck I swear to god I would be the shit out of myself if I could back in time ...

Sorry, I hate even thinking about it but this when I read I had to contribute with something. Alright back to my green text.

>Me being a cocksucker, bullies her even harder to the point were she gave up.
>1 year later, I was done with my middle school and our class had to split.
>Stalks all these 3 girls to this day
>Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night just thinking about what I did during the middle school

Why arrogant, I'm still a disgrace to everyone in my family, have no friends left, no job, dropped out of uni...

it didnt start off with me trying to fuck her, they actually broke up and she started using me as the rebound. got close to banging but never homerun. then she broke the news she banged our other friend spontaneously bc she felt like it and got back together with BF next day.
I caught feelings for her basically, i mean she was and is still a good friend, back together with BF. Friend 1 does not know Friend 2 banged or that i Friend 3 was trying

The standards of success around here are pretty low. The fact that you don't weigh 300 pounds or manrexic plus GF would piss people off.

Cant contribute but i need to know this. How bad do you think it is if im so paranoied that i once thought that my bestfriends are plotting to kill me and that im scared to fap in my room because im scared theres hidden cameras?

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Feelsthread?

>Meet Katie
>Something is not right with the girl
>Learn she has social anxiety, depression, PTSD
>When she was 10-14y old people tried to rape her, multiple times
>Traumatized, doesn't speak too much & afraid of other people, especially men.
>meet her when she's 17
>be friends with her cuz she has basically none, feel bad for her, like really.
>she's nice 'n all, slightly autistic but I don't see a problem
>Trying to help her as best as I can
>She has maybe 3 friends that she doesnt speak with too much and me
>I've introduced her to some people so she has more friends, would make her happy.
>She's happy, I'm happy.
>She started meeting new people, some of them tried to use her
>le white knight syndrome in me appears; gtfo fucking faggots
>fast forward some time
>Learn she tried to kill herself because someone asked her to cut her veins because that would make him happy
>She loved to make people happy, to see people happy, even thought she wasn't.
>doesnt answer, cry for hours that she killed herself, feel worried.
>finally got to her, after some "serious" talk with her I thought it'll get better
>it didnt
>always came up with "im gonna kill mahself" every now and then cutting herself for dumbest reasons
>one day while being drunk, say some stupid shit that if she wanted to kill herself she would already do it etc.
>insta-mad at me
>doesnt say a word to me in 2 days
>finally spoke with me
>apologized to me, and so did I to her for being a dick
>everything was ok for weeks since then
>continuted to make her smile
>one day phone call with her, she asked me if I like her name
>Said yes, tfw she literally cried after I said it, then I realized nobody told her anything nice in a long time.
>Because... how come person can cry that their names is beautiful? It really means nothing good happened to that person in a long time

>>CONT

Well almost only thing I can do to spend some time is work out so yeah I'm not a landwhale.

>few minutes later texting, she asks if I really mean that her name is beautiful, say yes
>sets it as a phone background
>really happy she's happy
>weeks go by, and I really started to care about her.
>Not like "love" or some shit, just really cared about her because she was very... sad person
>continue to tell her nice stuff along with some friends to cheer her up
>fast forward month later; she got really mad at our mutual friend... after further investigation from me... he didn't do anything wrong
>she just misunderstood, but couldn't understand that (autism strikes? Idk...)
>Guy literally begged me for hours/days to talk with her and that he didn't do anything wrong.
>I did, she finally understood. As he said "I was his best friend" better than anyone he ever knew (skipping some priv convos here)
>week later Katie has a breakdown because of some person, people tell me she cut her wrists really bad this time... and she hasn't said a word in few hours
>march to her house AF boi
>she's alone in house
>she's fine it seems, show me the wrists "i dont want to" "they look ugly" and after 5 mins she shows me
>omfg miracle she's still alive
>have very long talk with her about it
>blah blah blah, you know where this goes at this point user
>fast forward 2-3 weeks, talk with her... I asked me what I could do to make her happy
>"marry me" my first thought "wtf?" but then after a while I thought why not... I'll agree but on few conditions
>the conditions were: she would stop hurting herself, she would stop calling herself a whore, that she would tell me immidiately if someone tried to use her etc.
>you get the idea bros.
>Didn't think much of it, if that'll make her happy it's ok
>months go by... I started to really care about her a lot, like first time in years I felt something positive. I liked that.
>I could relate to so many things with her

>>cont

That's my issue too. I should be medicated but too paranoid the government would find out and try and do something to me. I control it.

>And then... one day we were speaking on phone
>I don't know if it's my fault or not, but I was drunk and asked why she loves me... she couldn't answer
>I kept pushing her, why you love me... "have you thought I might not love you?"
>tells me to stop saying such things
>I don't....
>she has breakdown
>says she will kill herself etc
>doesnt answer, doesn't reply.
>Friends start to call me, "the fuck you said etc"
>speak with our mutual friend, tell him that we are together but never said anything, tell him she loves me etc.
>Then I learned she was saying exactly the same shit to him (except marry me stuff)
>talk with some more people
>learn that she said the same things to at least 4 people
>feelsbadman.jpg i can't even express how I felt then
>friend sends me sms from her "I'll leave him for you" that was not even 1 hour after she had a breakdown
>While I fucking worried about her and cried that she might have killed herself she was already looking for replacement
>cry fuckton, feel bad a lot
>fast forward to next day: learn about more people she was saying the same stuff to... learn she was sending nudes to other people.
>week later, remember the guy that said I was his best friend? Never said a word to me since then... so much "best friends" are worth.
>feel into alcoholism, been drinking for 2-3 months now because of it I think... in fact I no longer know why I'm drinking
>Sometimes try to remember her.... doesnt end up well

Me literally right nao..

There wwere massive fires in Knysna in South Africa this week. A father, mother and their little boy burned to death in their home. The mother was 8 months pregnant.

Imagine them screaming.

200 homes burned down as well as many other people dying.

26 fires started at the same time.

I wonder who could've started all these fires?

do you see where im coming from? I need someone to talk to this about or atleast give me some input

If replies are too long, I refuse to read them. I am the least motivated person I've ever known. Haven't brushed my teeth all day. I wanted to masturbate yesterday, but couldn't muster up the motivation to find porn to watch. It takes me at least 30 minutes.

Sorry to hear. Didnt even know that there was medication for it. Mfw im starting to date a girl and its really hard because of my paranoia.

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I still don't know why so many FAGGOTS love to write neverending "cont?cont?cont?" fake stories on their shitty iphones here.

Some advice for you:

> be brief: no more than two dozen lines

> be coherent: no shitloads of useless details

> be interesting: no unreasonable claims, no ramblings, no fagspeech

> don't beg for feedback

> separate important paragraphs with a blank line

> proofread before sending: loudly say "I don't give a shit" every line

> proofread before sending: loudly say "cool story bro" every line

> proofread before sending; don't awake grammarnazis

> don't be a faggot: always add some "pic related", many bonus points for OC

> final check: does your story comply with the 5W rule? "who, where, when, what, why?"

This.

Dated a Muslim girl from Palestine. She dumped me, told me her father would kill her if he found out. Still miss rubbing my dick between her thighs.

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Can more people contribute or?

"bully" is too vague, what do you mean?

Am old fag (42). Reasonable looking. Met a gorgeous girl 7 years ago 10 years my junior. Punching well above my weight. She has come back to me time and time again throughout the years and every time I fuck it up. I drinks a little you see. I choose drinking over putting effort in to be with her. And now she's gone again and I don't think she'll ever come back again.

impossible.
you would already done Boom Boom (on C4 explosives, not on sex)

I am glad you asked me that, every time she tried to start a conversation with me, I tried to find something wrong with her and told everyone it and at the end there were a lot of class mates around her and laughing.

That made me feel good somehow.

is Semtex already outdated?

Thanks user, really appreciate your feedback on my "fake story"


No sorry. I made it as short as possible, it' 3x maybe 4x longer than I wrote, just importan details, at least important to me.

I am a known racist skinhead in my community. Years ago I lived in Huntington Beach and became obsessed with Mexican women. I spend all my time stalking Mexicans whores online. I use Mexican prostitutes. My girlfriend is 250 pounds and white. We haven't slept together in 3 months.

We have 3 good greentexts right now.

>me in 11th grade
>becomes friends with a really nice dude
>dude catches feelings for me and tries to woo me
>dude gives me his phone number
>I don't have a phone but i keep the number
>loses the number and feels like shit
>me and the dude continue on being friends till summer
>dude thanks me for the good year and tells me he'll see me again next year
>slowly develops massive crush on the dude over the summer
>oh fuck school's back on
>guy lost contact with me
>i finally got a phone
>instead i write a note confessing my feelings and have my friend give it to him
>guy takes a month to respond
>friend gives me a note from him
>note says that he hates me and called me an ugly animal rapist
>gets depression
>gets body dismorphia
>a year later gets social anxiety
>tries to commit suicide via xanax months later
>fails and ends up getting hospitalized
>stuck here :/

TL;DR- Dude develops a crush on me and i tell him i like him 3 months later, dude rejects me, and I'm stuck on this shitty planet.

Why are you even racist if you have some interest in Mexican grills?

Boi leave that white 250 pound girl and find some someone else

This story is very similar to my version, I can greentext it if you want.

I would be alienated from friends and social groups I participate in. My fat girlfriend is a good person.

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You're like 18, none of the things you are experiencing right now have even close the significance you think they have. In ten years, but probably much less, you'll have forgotten all about him and won't care at all. Start relativizing.

Tits

Okey, I see your situation.
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>be me when I was 12 years old
>play with at a friend's house quite often
>he tells me one of her younger sisters has a crush on me
>kinda make fun of her since she was really young (8)
>be me 21
>she became a 9/10 and I tried asking her out (17 is legal here)
>"You're too old sorry :("
I laughed at how the tables had turned, but this still haunts me to this day.

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gg/ctagmQE

I am depersed

I was molested by an elementary school teacher and when my friend asked me about it in high school I lied and said he didn't do anything to me.
I didn't want him to know there were others but left him there thinking he was alone in the struggle.
Had a dream about it two weeks ago and it's the only thing I think about now.

Am I a bad person?

See

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SUM MER FAG

For all the new posters, here's all the greentext we have right now. Here's the instructions for the greentext

>ok

>relativising
*putting things into perspective

Yeah I suck at English

This one hit me hard

my depressing story is my life. i' ve been depressed as long as i can think back. also im a virgin at age 27 and i honestly set that as my point to finally get out of this misery (so i go before i lost the last bit of dignity). the lonliness is killing me, but i guess i could bear it if i would see a slight chance of not beeing lonly forever, but you know, things dont suddenly change, so maybe i grow the balls to go out by the end of this year. At least i had some fun inbetween the really bad days. maybe there is even a slight hope i hold on to atm of finding a soul partner that makes the suffering worth enduring, but once its gone (and it will surely), so will I. would have already done it, but fuck those gun laws here.

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im here no ones talking

Do you have friends? If so then go out and head to your local club or something...

Do you really think that he wouldn't have tried that already you stupid piece of shit

And how are you contributing with something useful?

i do have friends, i live a normal live, im even pretty happy now, yet, depression is a sickness with no cure (at least not for me, since antidepressants just turned me into a functioning zombie, to which i prefer normal mode)

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Fucking get rekt you whore motherfucker

Try DMT to find some answers

Oh, yeah, suggesting going out with his friends after he said that loneliness was killing him was useful indeed. What a useless piece of trash you are. At least I'm realistic.

worthless fuck

dmt/acid/shrooms is not aN ANSWER-SEEKING DRUG
it is a hallucinatory psychoative nothing more you tripfag

Better late then never, I guess. These people were a worthless investment of your time and energy. The only thing you should be angry about is all the lost time you could've spend more productively. They were never your real friends, so it took you a while, but you dodged a bullet here. Also, don't fuck with crazy women, do you think that's something all not-mentally-handicapped men say for fun?

tried enough psychedelics, didnt find any answers (but much beauty)
you can stand in a crowd of people and yet be lonely, i recently read a quote that statet: lonly is the one, who is no ones number one

so thats pretty much the case for me

Yeah good point

So my suggestion was legit? If so then user can suck his own cock like the faggot he is

Nothing is gonna happen if you're just waiting for it to change, or maybe even (sub-)consciously resisting. I'm in sort of the same situation, but I'm not being stupid about the nature of it.

Many people have found answers through drugs like dmt for example, and in this case user didn't find any answer but he did try it at least.

>The lonliness is killing me, but i guess i could bear it if i would see a slight chance of not beeing lonly forever (sic)
Asking if he has friends is just plainly stupid.

You know user what... the only thing at this point I'm angry about is that... I trusted someone, first time in years. i think that ruined me the msot.

I know she was "mentally ill" but I just wanted to help.... and yeah, that's how it ends up for me for being nice.

I know I should just let got "fuck her" etc. but for some reason I can't. Have no idea why. It's not because "omfg first grill gunna fuck" as I've had 5 gf's before, i just never loved them for real... as I did her. I don't really know... no idea why I even write this, no idea why I still remember the horrible things that person did to me. It's just all fucked up.

Your suggestion was some stupid normie senseless shit

And he answered that he/she has friends and lives a pretty normal life and is more happy then before. So I don't really see your point here.

I at least contributed with something.

>be 34 now
>formed babby, will marry soon
>moved from nuremberg to tyrol
>theres no techno in tyrol
>dancing alone with headphones while wife and kid are asleep

No you didn't

yeah, that suggestion was really pretty shit, if you cant live with your bs getting called out, go back to your reddit safe space faggot;
anyways to come back to the topic, i know that most of my problems are self made (low self esteem and mild social anxiety)... i didnt come here for advice, just to share my depressing story.

I understand, you're a good guy and they took advantage of that.

Also about that love, I don't think you actually love her. You probably love the image you have of her in your mind, like the person she could have been, or maybe was for some short periods of time. From what I've read, she's a mentally ill, unstable, immature girl who preys on naive people as a source of attention. She's an attention seeker. Probably craves constant validation. She doesn't care about you. The sooner you see this, the sooner you can move on. You'll meet other people, who are far worthier of your attention and time.

>Asked a question and tried to come with a solution
>user came with a legit answer
>New suggestion sent to user
>user answered the suggestion

So I really don't see how i did not contribute with anything?

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This you?

Relax, he's just busting your balls.
Don't mind him.

i have autism, anxiety, depression, body dysmorphic disorder,and i'm antisocial, shy, suicidal,with no talent no hobby, no interest,ugly face, small dick, manlet.. but my mom says i'm a 5/10.. now i'm here and begging for attention..

I believe most of what you wrote probably isn't even far from the truth.

>be old as fuck
>serviced my country for most of my adult life
>teaching children about science, values and culture. assembling ammunition for our troops, and tending to the wounded of our wars
>life was sometimes cruel, but it was also good. but then things changed
>saw the world slowly going to shit
>eventually get sick
>be sent to a home by my faggot children who were long since stripped from our values and honour by the niggers and kikes who flooded our bueatifull country
>105th birthday
>the only day of the year these faggots come to visit
>this time they brought their children as well
>fuck me they are on an entire new level of queer
>one of them painted his arm to look like a nigger
>make one last attempt to bring back good times and try to teach these dipshits about the morals and values of their ancestors
>they all laugh
>the niggerboy slaps me and no-one hangs him or even beats him up a little
>retard son just stands there pointing his mobile telephone at me
>i think im ready to die

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