Suicide Discussion thread, fags. Anyone else planning to take their own life?

Suicide Discussion thread, fags. Anyone else planning to take their own life?
I've finally decided I'm gonna do it guys. Years spent considering it, unsure if I'm really capable of blasting the roof of my fucking head off with a shotgun. But yesterday I went out to Cabelas and bought it. I also started a journal of my final days/weeks/year. I figure the final entry will be my note and will

Oddly enough it feels like a weight lifted off my shoulders. I feel a sense of control over my life that I've never had before. With nothing to lose, I'm free to live out the remainder of my existence seeing and trying things I never felt I would do. Ironically, this last bit of my life may be my happiest

For context, I'm a 22 year old loser from Minnesota. I had dreams of being a game developer with my closest friend, but that window is closing and without a proper diploma a life of minimum wage menial labor is looking certain. I'm also a kissless virgin. At almost 23 years old. I've attempted to play the game, but I must be boring because I've never gone on a second date. Earlier this week was actually my last 1st date I'll ever go on, and she seemed to genuinely like me. But she'd rather help her brother assemble a desk than go to Dave & Busters with me and I think that's pretty telling. I'm gonna die a virgin

The loneliness eating away at my very being combined with other's failed aspirations for my life, which was a waste of intelligence, have convinced me that it is better to end it this way while I'm still loved than 20 years from now when I'm REALLY a fuckin loser. I still wince at the thought of my parents, granparents, siblings, and friends mourning me, but if they can't comprehend why I did it than they must not actually understand me or my rut of a life. I also understand that being born with a healthy mind and body only to destroy it is senseless, surely others have it worse off than me. But I guess my fortitude just isn't strong enough to endure...

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Not yet.

"Death is so terribly final, while life is full of possibilities" Tyrion Lannister

Give it time, it only gets worse friend. Happiness is temporary. Pain last forever

Never watched Game of Thrones. Perhaps I'll throw it on the bucket list

Cont.

When I was 17 and first got thought of suicide, I planned to end it with a shooting spree like you always see on the news. I was much angrier then and felt that if I was gonna die anyway, I might as well experience that rush before I end it. But I see the selfishness of that now and it's just my choice to decide when other random people will die. The only choice I can make is when I'M gonna die.

Plus that would sully my last name and my family would carry the burden of being related to a "terrorist" Fuck that, it's bad enough they'll never get to talk to or see me again

Do you read large books? They are amazing. Might keep you alive just waiting for the last 2 to be published.

*just not

Also fuck you if you shoot yourself in a place where others will have to clean your corpse up. I don't want anyone I know to suffer the horror of coming upon my mangled head and body, so I've decided I'm gonna leave my note in my apartment, drive out 200 miles north to the prettiest woods of Minnesota, park my car somewhere, hike out to the woods with my Mossberg, listen to an Aphex Twin song or two, and do it there. With luck, coyotes or wolves will eat my body up before it's found

Man, I need to just write an auto response for your suicidal kids on here and copy and paste it.
Your O post is riddled with depression. I know it well, I suffered from it a lot. But the world isn't as bleak as it seems to you. Your brain is playing a trick on you. You need to seek professional help. You need a support system. You need to reach out. It get's so much better. The hopelessness you feel isn't reality. It's just how you feel. Healing is a life long process. It can be a wonderful journey. Start putting the work in user, I care about you.

I have a meager collection of books, and I do enjoy reading, but I doubt any sort of entertainment could keep me alive. That'd have to be a pretty damn good book. lol

Golden Gate Bridge was/is my plan. But not yet...I finally found a med that made me feel happy for a few months. I'm back to pain and despair for over a year now but now that I know happiness is actually possible...not yet.

Also, you can't die before having sex.

-Wisconsin

Here is your homework.
1. Get the first Game of Thrones Book. Start reading it
2. Go onto psychology today .com and get a therapist. It's easy, it almost works like a dating site. Just choose your insurance and you can search by catagories, like depression. You aren't allowed to hurt yourself until you've put in 10 years of work. it own that to yourself, and you family. GL user

I totally get where you're coming from, and a year ago I was you, typing hopeful words up to other suicidal shitposters. And sometimes I feel like what you are saying is right, my mood shifts. But going from that mindset, to those days where I hit rock bottom, to times like now where I'm just at a peaceful acceptance, it's just a rollercoaster that I want off of. Trying to make it work one day then seeing no reason the next is exhausting and it's taking a toll on my psyche.

This is the fourth and final time I've seriously considered it, and to go back to pretending it's all alright seems like just another dead end. Having really accepted it this time and made preparations... It's cathartic. I'm happier now than if I try to put that mask back on

Just don't kill yourself. Dave and Busters sucks anyway.

Maybe her brother is like Mary's brother in 'There's Something About Mary'

Jumper? You're ballsier than I am cause you might not die from that. You could end up a vegetable, then you'd really wanna die. I've researched this a lot, and I've come to the conclusion that shotgun is just the way to go. Highest fatality rate, least pain, and no time to regret it.

I've thought about medication as well, and was almost prescribed Zoloft once. But I figure if I have to implant happiness through a foreign object, is it really even me being happy? I feel like prescriptions are just smoke and mirrors to the mind, and true happiness must be attained organically. That's just my thoughts though. If it's working for you, good on ya man

Also Wisconsin is nice. I've fished there a couple times. Damn good smoked salmon and cheeses if you can find it

Don't do it. You need professional help. You're not thinking clearly. Please don't do anything life ending. Seek help. Even tho you believe you're a loser, you got us user. A community to help you. Seek the professional help you need. Recovery is the first step to happiness.

Hehe, yeah it kinda does suck. Good place for a date though

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This is what I look like btw

Well, if that's your choice. Just remember, on the surface, people might seem sympathetic and grief of your soul.You know how 90% of people will actually perceive you as deep down after maybe a month of your passing? That guy that gave up on life because he couldn't handle it. You will be little more than a fading memory of an insignificant person who chose the easy way out when things looked a little tough. Basically, the legacy you leave behind, your whole existence, accomplishments, dreams, aspirations etc.will all be wiped out of everyone's memory. You wont be remembered, your life will just be chalked up as the life of someone who killed himself, nothing more. Even your family wont help but remember you like that as they learn to heal.

Personally, thats not the legacy i want to leave behind. But of you feel like thats how you want to be remembered, go for it. It's not like we're losing anything of value if all you aspire to do is commit suicide.

If you were typing hopeful words to other shitposters, it means you are a good person. Most people wouldn't bother. You have to remember, I've been where you are right now. At my lowest, the only thing I had was my integrity.
Let me break it down for you like this. Some people like us make it, other do not. But all the people that make it, the ones the struggle and put the work in, are SO thankful they didn't kill themselves when they were young. Thinking back to who I used to be, it's like a totally different person. Everyday I'm thankful for what I have, and how far I came. The thing is, once you get past your depression, it's almost like it never happened. It's in the past, and the past doesn't exist. It over. All I have now is a life I'm happy and thankful for. If I would have offed myself, I never would have had the chance to grow to the man I am today. That's why I gave you the Tyrion Lannister quote. Their are so many things you can do, be, and experience that is so much better than where you head is at now. Life is Precious, and really short as it is. To end yours before it ever even really get's started is just tragic. It's the wrong move. The Foolish move. Life is filled with so many possibilities. It's not like your 60 years old and want to off yourself. For someone like that, I might say just do it. They put in there time, and their possibilities are limited. But for someone so young, you have to at least try. Life and be even more beautiful than it is painful. You have never even been in love yet for christs' sake.

Minnesota,

Suicidal ideation is a daily occurrence for me. It fucking hurts and I'm not sure how long I'll make it. But...we should go to bed for the night. Tomorrow, go outside for at least 30 minutes and appreciate nature in some way. I'll try to do the same. Teamwork?!

Also, as a person who was crippled by depression and even dwelled on suicidal thoughts, my biggest advice to you is to go to a psychiatrist/psychologist and test for any underlying mental health issues. I was diagnosed with adult adhd and found that treatment also cured me of my depression and maybe an overall more productive person.

ok, first let me tell you this: you will live.
thats the good news.

life is hard, but it´s also beautiful. my advice to you is sell everything you can, deposit your last personal belongings at your parents or your friends and then go travelling. yes, this is how you save yourself from doing something stupid.
go see the world. expand your horizon. i bet you´ve never gotten any further than south dakota. also i´m sure you´ve been spending way too much time staring at monitors and shit like that.
leave that behind you. go travelling. don´t tell me you can´t. you could just walk. pack a small backpack and move your ass. as soon as you´re on the road, you´ll see that your perspective is going to change. make that first step, it´ll be worth it.

Sorry about all the typos, im wasted as i write this

You make a fair point, but what legacy would I leave had I decided to wait it out for another couple decades? Is it not better to be remembered by my bits of time where I had peace and was happy? The alternative is to be remembered as that depressed guy who didn't do anything with his life for years and years.

I guess what I'm trying to say is might as well end it while there's still some flame left. I'd rather my legacy be sad than pathetic

I also have about a dozen songs written for the game we're designing. Perhaps those pieces of music will be my legacy

Bruh, lose weight, start hitting the gym at least 3 days a week. You have the potential to be an easy 7.5/10, maybe an 8.

don't kill yourself, but if you are, hire yourself some escorts and overdose on Viagra, I heard its a great way to go out, but that's just what I've heard

Kill yourself OP, life is meaningless. If it weren't for my mother I would kill myself too. The more I live the more disappointed with people and life I am.

Your legacy will never be pathetic if you at least attempt to leave your mark in the world. If you lose the depression, youll be able to see that. Right now youre in a deep hole that you cannot see out of. It feels like the end is always near. I know that feeling, ive been there. Professional help got me looking out of those barriers. There are always options, and unless you live in absolute lower class conditions, like homeless low, many options are relatively easy to go through with in the long run and give you many opportunities. Killing yourself doesnt make yoy "go out with a fire". At best it wastes all your potential and makes you go out more pathetically than if you led an average life

Feels, man. This got to me.
I'll take what you said into serious consideration. I'll even write it down in my journal. That being said, at the current moment my mindset is still bleak. But thank you for caring and saying that, it means a lot to me and I don't really get advice from others who suffered/suffer from suicidal thoughts

Let's do it. I just moved to Maple Grove, maybe I'll find a nice path by a lake or something.

Get a Shrink, Travel, Read, Exercise, try. These are all good ideas. Fucking Try user. You started this thread because a part of you wants help. You have been given a jumping off point.(no pun intended) Now get out there and do something.

Life is only meaningless if you choose to not find meaning in it. Life can mean so many things for so many different people, but you have to actually attempt to find it first. It could be anything from leading a christian life to leaving a legacy or even finding the easiest way to lead a comfortable life. Depression and other mental cases make it hard to find meaning, treating it makes you much more capable of finding all the paths life has for you. Dont let the darkness of depression fool you into thinking theres nothing there.

Jumping from the Golden Gate Bridge has a very high success rate. The few survivors generally went in at a certain angle. There was also a (genius) woman who shot herself while falling.

But that's depressing. HA!

And honestly, you could get laid. You could be in a relationship. You're not bad looking. (Female speaking here...)

Go to support groups. You won't feel as alone and I've even dated people I've met through my DBSA/NAMI groups.

Ooh, and take a DBT class. You'll learn good coping skills for the shit you tell yourself in your head.

Good advice, with my luck though I'd attempt cheaper travel and end up sold into slavery in a 3rd world country. lol

I don't think I have the energy or motivation to improve myself phyically, man. I'm near the end of my rope, what do I care if I'm 40 lbs overweight. I'd only attract more vain women anyway

Seems like a confusing and somewhat awkward death

I knew one of you'd show up here eventually. Bring on the lot, tell me why YOU decided it would end. That's why I made this thread, perspective

Tomorrow, outside. 30 minutes. Right now, I'm going to bed. I'll check this tomorrow to see let you know I did it and see if you did it.

Sweet dreams Minnesota!

-Wisconsin

Being suicidal myself, I've decided to join the military and volunteer for deployment. If youre gonna go out, might as well be useful doing it. Also, it's a lot easier to kill terrorists and perform risky operations when you simply dont give a fuck about dying. Best case scenario, you live through it, come back a respected veteran and get so many benefits that would hopefully change your view of the world and give you hope. Worst case scenario, you die a hero with a legacy that will forever be remembered by close ones and potentially the whole world. It's win-win really, just takes a lot of effort

I killed myself in 2009 and it was the worst mistake I ever made.

Im a normie give me some ideas on how to kill myself please Sup Forumsros

LOL anyone who joins the US military belongs to the dregs of society. You are too stupid for college or even a trade school. Thats why most in military are white trash, niggers or spics. You have the IQ of a chimp and will end up dead or paralyzed fighting for jew interests kek

Femanon here. I usually don't reveal my gender for obvious reasons, but tonight I'll make an exception. Your fine, nothing wrong with you. Not ugly, nothing. I can see in your eyes that you're really hurting OP. I know that feeling, I think of ending it every day. I don't because of my husband, he wouldn't survive without me (he has an anxiety problem and would prob off himself too). I just can't do that to him. But please OP, there's a perfect girl out there, she exists. Anyone who has such expressive, deep, and beautiful eyes like yours can't just leave. You make the world better by just being here. I wish I was there to hug you OP, take care and please reconsider.

Go out with chad's gf. He will probably want some sort of physical altercation. When he comes after you, keep verbally abusing him in the worst ways possible as he beats you up harder and harder. If he starts slowing down, punch him in the face, spit on him etc. So he doesnt. Drag it out until either you die or chad gets arrested. Do this until someone finally ends your life

Another jumper here. Still gonna take a while before I see it through, but going to go out to an antenna tower to do it. Buildings have way too many people who might spot you/stop you, not to mention risk of pedestrians, so I'm going to make sure it's fairly isolated. Plus those towers are much taller than even skyscrapers, I plan to see if I can hit terminal velocity on the way down.

Therapy hasn't done anything for me and any medication that works strips away my cognition and memory. I'd rather go out sharp with my mind intact than dilute my mental faculties.

thanks for the shitpost, its a rough day for me too, but this made me laugh

>You started this thread because a part of you wants help

I knew I'd get accused of this cause 90% of Sup Forums's suicide posts are cries for help. Hell, I've made a few of those kinda posts before. But it's not why I made it this time. I want to see how other suicidal blokes are feeling, and there's not really a better place to do that but here. Here in this haven of depravity and shit

I get what you're saying, but really "meaning" in life is all relative. You can either die satisfied with your life or not. At the end of the day, we're all just floating around on a rock

Does it? Cause I've heard of a decent amount of people surviving it. I've also heard that "every one of them regretted it the second they jumped" but that's actually not true. I'm getting kinda tired of people asking me to seek professional help. That's just not the kinda person I am honestly

Also I don't think it's my looks stopping me from getting laid. I think I'm just too nice and persistent. Boring and simple

here is a reference of methods,
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I mean we are just cogs in the machine anyway

I have an above average IQ and will be completing a double major under field training. The government pays for all of my university expenses and gives me a very respectable salary, medical insurance, etc for my time in deployment.
Also, master's and ph.d are paid for in full and require 0 work experience to get (other than your thesis).

Whos the stupid one now?

Personally, im satisfied with living in a rock that is so relatively big that i will never be able to experience all that it offers. Its all about perspective

Bookmarked.

us soldiers risk their health, to kill in the name of american oversea business intressets;

generally speaking, soldiers are murderers; no soldiers=no war

I'm not a huge fan of the military either. That being said, this hate poster is literally the only person in this thread that should actually kill themselves.

If I fail any of my classes this semester, I'll get suspended for a year. If it comes to that, I'm going to end it all

If you mean me, then i hardly see how im hate-posting. Im sharing why the military might be a compelling option and all the benefits it reaps. It was my way out of suicide

You better start studying your ass off then. If you find it difficult to do any work, look into getting your hands on adderall

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Nah, I mean the guy you were responding too. I choose my words really poorly. My bad, user

Are you in college, since if you're failing loads of classes, maybe you should switch majors instead of suicide.

sounds good, man

Good plan, glad it worked out for you. I have no desire to join the military, but I respect those who do, even if the wars are unjustified

nice

Thank you, that's very nice to say. I don't think my eyes are as expressive as you seem to, but I appreciate the input

wut

Damn. That's a pretty badass way to go, I must say. I hope you break the sound barrier, man. lol

>Therapy hasn't done anything for me and any medication that works strips away my cognition and memory. I'd rather go out sharp with my mind intact than dilute my mental faculties.

this part is too real

Thanks. I will most likely read that full article when this thread dies

nice, but maybe next time look for an option where you can save your live without killing other people

Or it could mean that he is trying to find alternatives and isnt fully comfortable with the idea yet. Dont be a faggot

I already gave my finals. Last one was today and I haven't slept for two days because I didn't want to waste any studying time

Something like 98% die. And yeah, a lot of survivors said they regretted it the moment they let go of the rail. I think there was only one person who did it again after surviving. (Maybe...)

But gunshot with freefall...not to mention San Francisco is BEAUTIFUL.

I wouldnt call those savages people. Ever since the Nice attacks, Ive been convinced that anyone who willfully associastes with ISIS deserves to die

Wont kill yourself, you are a loser who is desperate for attention. everyone know u are a huge fucking pussy.

It's a lot more complicated than that. For one I'm incredibly stupid. I'm failing community college classes no matter what I do. I'm Pakistani so it's either doctor, engineer or disowned and I only have a year till we go back to that shithole. If I lose this chance, I can't get an associates and without that I can't move out and support myself, so why would a life in that hell be worth living?

You're not bad looking bro. Give yourself a few years to reach into maturity looks wise. Looks like you could be a potential 7.5 which is good! Also fuck people who say think about your family. Fuck your family they dont understand what youre goung through and they never will. Also, seems you might be bipolar. Zoloft is a drug im on currently. Also im taking dogmatil. Sorry for my non punctuated sentences but im at work. Alot of people say it will get better but this is just not true sometimes. You will have bad days anf u will have good days. This is the life of depression/bipolar. Learn to control yiur urges on the bad days and u will live to see another day. Goodluck user

Damn OP I'm sad. Can u atleast give us a quick walkthrough of your life growing up. What made you the "loser" that you think you are right now? Is there any way that u can stop yourself from doing this? What event in life needs to happen for you to be happy. Please respond

here comes the teenager

In my opinion, having the ability to work your ass off like that shows that you have developed skills that could be applied elsewhere if your current path isn't going well. Look into alternatives, in this day and age, there are always at least some compelling ones.

Omg that hurt my feelings so ima kill myself! plz /b tell me not to do it like the buncha white knight faggots you all are

Shit dude, yeah no that's way more fucked up.

Make a youtube video of this event. Doesn't need to show your face just audio discussing why and how you ended up being this depressed

Lol get disowned. Your parents clearly are delusional if they impose restrictions like those on you. Find a way to gain financial freedom (loans, government program, part time job) and drop them out of your life. All they do is limit you

I can't. If I do my parents will notice that I'm trying something different from what they want me to do and there goes everything. I'm working minimum wage at around 25 hours a week. There's no way I can live off that in LA

I'm here as an immigrant though. A visa. I'm already working but 1k ish a month is hardly enough to survive in LA

Thats your first problem, fucking LA. Try enrolling to community college away from that shithole. The amount of money you save will be astronomical, and it'll be much easier to gain financial freedom

Thus why if anything goes wrong, I'll be done with it all

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think for a moment: someone with superior military possibilities starts a war against your country, based on lies; then leaves the country a mess, maybe even killing some of your relatives, can you be mad at them for breaking bad; can you call them animals? get off your high horse, america is the bad one here; ofc they are bad too, but you left them no choice in the first place

Moving to new city with no job isn't going to be easy. Especially since I only have around 1.5k in my bank account

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Been having a lot of suicide ideation but this post is making me consider. I've thought of trying freight hopping both as an experience of itself and just seeing where I end up. May have to consider that one of my last exploits.

Worse comes to worst, the trains themselves are notably reliable for being able to end people, so I'd still have that option at hand.

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its easie to believe the lies your government tells you, and think you are the good one and the other ones are the bad ones with no morality, but as a human beeing with a little brain and a little empathy, its your job to look further than your war propaganda, and look what radicalised them, and see the sad lives behind the terrorists; i dont think they really want to die for the cause, but rather live happy in their shithole country with their family beeing alive, but thats not possible since their is a war going. and by getting involved there, you dont stop the war, but keep it alive

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Grow up, bitch nigga. You're 22. No responsibility, no wife or kids, no major debts if any debts at all, no one depends on you. No illnesses holding you back. The world is your oyster and you're gonna kill yourself because you don't get to make video games and go on second dates? No wonder girls don't want to date you if this is how your thought processes go. You have all the freedom in the world to pursue whatever happiness you want and you're gonna end it all at 22 over this stupid shit?

If you can't see how ridiculous and childish that is then go ahead and kill yourself. You weren't cut out for being alive

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Former USMC Marine here.
This thread is about depression, not your anti-American veiws.

When I got out I started dating my specialist seriously. Her Father liked me but the rest of the family didn't. (He worked for Homeland Security )
She got run over while she was on a jog and it crushed me. I didn't hear from her for two weeks and I had to hunt her brother down for info. Cocksucker.
The thought of losing her sent me on a drinking spree.

Op, don't forget that someone loves you.

Bro, I hope you read this.

I had a dad who hung himself when I was 14. Shit pretty much left me thinking fuck, that's what my genetics is gonna lead to. I must be doomed to be a suicidal loser too.

And it's like 13 years later and sometimes I trip into that hole.

But let me share some things that I've learned. Life requires skill. and Skills ask for Mastery.

Right now you're dreading a life of minimum wage labor. This is nothing to fear, if you know what you're trying to build up to.

For years I dreaded that, but I spent some time working minimum wage in a warehouse, and it was the most therapeutic time, because it was simple, it was physical, and it felt honest and humble. I saved up enough money to go back to school from that and I could afford to go after bigger things from there.

So you want to be a game developer. That's going to take education and skill. MAP OUT the skills you need, and when you run into an obstacle (say, a school turns you down), FIND A WAY AROUND IT. like Learning online, connecting with a software company in your area, whatever it takes.

SKILLS beats education in the real world.

And this especially applies to your love life too.

MOST guys start out as horrible losers in the dating game, mainly because their life is a mess and they don't have to responsibility to take care of themselves to begin with.

But I promise you, first focus on getting yourself to where you're making a decent income, and live in your OWN place. Then you'll be in a way better position to start dating.

MAP OUT all the things where your life is lacking and then START LEARNING.

Or just hit game over before even bothering to read the manual.

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