Sometimes I really hate myself. Pedo AMA, tell your story, tell me how I deserve to die, or whatever

Sometimes I really hate myself. Pedo AMA, tell your story, tell me how I deserve to die, or whatever.

what did you do?

You probably did something
just confess already

Just keep telling myself I'm done with the cheesy stuff, then I go right back.

The minute that nut busts, the reality that I am a failure falls right back in.

Have you molested any children?

If not, then you shouldn't feel bad for having a sexual attraction

Well lets get the FBI in here and they can help you out with a program called prison my man.

No, but see I keep losing the struggle and it's harder to live with myself each time.

Just fess up op
Everyone has a slightly pedo-ish story
I would fondle my little cousin in her sleep when we were kids
I still fap thinking about it

There is nothing wrong with being sexually attracted to minors

But you were a kid too

Kek

If u have urges to fuck kids go kill urself, im dead serious thats the only thing that will work, im 100% kys now u are the worst kinda scum

Loli/shota or actual child porn?

>the cheesy stuff
make an educated guess

You can live life with out having to actually do anything with kids or young girls or boys. Just find someone who you get along with and can be sexual with. You'll eventually realize that you dont need it.

Im sure you jerk off to gore

No i dont actually im nkt into gore but i am into pedos commiting suicide bc thats what they deserve

just got out of jail on a potential conviction for "child sex abuse"" ama too i guess

I don't know why pedos are hated but gays are just praised.
It should be either hate both or allow both.

get a new fetish

Nah, I really don't have one. I chased girls around the playground and kissed them in elementary school, but it wasn't really sexual. In adolescence I tried to cop feels on older women. I've never actually done anything for sexual gratification with a child now that I'm older.

Cartoons don't appeal to me in the slightest.

I don't have urges to violate a child, but there's the "KYS" I was looking for.

Yeah probably. I always find the strongest urge to view such things and masturbate when I'm alone. I'd love to have someone in life I can lean on.

It's not quite the same

I'm planning on doing this, but before that I want to make my fantasies reality and fullfill all my urges until my dick hurts, and maybe take my victims with me, because why not lol.

>Everyone

Go fuck yourself pedo scum.

Bc being gay is consenting adults, raping a child is way diffrent and all pedos should be rounded up and tortured to death

Would be quite hot. OP can you kill yoruslef on camera? Pedo's are very sick in the head and it's a disease that cannot be reversed. No matter how much therapy you might try I think you are better off going the an hero route on live stream.

You touched your own dick when you were younger
go fuck yourself pedo scum.

You've got a mental illness society doesn't recognize yet man. Hang in there dude.

Might as well turn yourself in now. Don't bring anyone else down with you because you are a mentally ill tard.

You were talking about touching kids that aren't yourself. Of course every kid touches themselves .Funny how pedos always try and justify their disgusting behavior.

i'm not

I agree with this. It's not the same at all.

I would not go out on a live stream even if I killed myself. Also, I'd like to do something positive with my life for my family before I die...and it looks like I may never do anything right.

Hearing shit like that, even if it is 0% serious, it makes me feel sick.

You should consider the fact that your life will be 10x worse if you end up in jail or prison for this shit. The worst of the worst people all confined to a concrete nightmare will want to kill you. You are and will be considered the worst type of criminal. Even the guards will make sure everyone knows you are a pedo.

Spill the story

You hate me, everyone hates me and wants me death, so why should I be good to anyone else? Fuck it, i'll kill myself but I wont make it pretty or happy for everyone else.

Yeah, I think about that. Tbh, the consequence that scares me the mos is losing my family though. I already feel so isolated from them because of this part of my life I don't share that eats me up inside. To completely lose the only happiness I have in life, that's why I hate myself for being so weak.

People don't pick their sexual orientation. Understandably pedophiles are hated, but keep in mind there are many factors that play into a persons psyche.

had a friends daughter say ï touch her there"in regards to her cooch when asked by mom "which is true kinda"and i got arrested on "probable cause"cause thats all they need to throw you in the fucking brig and just recently got put out on release till they decide what to do with me i guess.

and that's what happens when pedos get alienated by society. why give a fuck about what happens to anyone else when everyone hates you?

this guy is an example of basically how most pedos will end up if things don't improve. makes me not want to have kids.

>People don't pick their sexual orientation
o·ri·en·ta·tion
ˌôrēənˈtāSH(ə)n/
noun
the relative physical position or direction of something.
>Implying we walk in random directions and hope we get where we want to go.

But an illness implies it is treatable. Is it really? Can the will to beat it actually be put inside me somehow?

I mean this with all honesty and as respectful as i can to a freak like you... u will only get worse till u hurt innocent children and their families with ur sickness, there is no cure and wont ever be, do yourself and the world a favor and kill yourself tonight. Im sorry u are who u are but u need to die before u hurt someone maybe u will find peace in death. Plz go do it now

And theres the pedo=gay dumbass that was bound to show up

Dude I want to kill myself too but if I ever actually did go through with it it makes 0 sense to take anyone else. Just because they are living happy and normal lives doesn't mean we should be jealous or angry. You would ruin not just that life but all of the families connected as well. Not a pedo though so maybe that's it.

OP here. Do you really think we'll all end up this way? So what if society in general doesn't care to understand or hate me? I have no desire to become that way myself, it will just be another reason to hate myself.

With all of the empathy i can possibly send to you over the internet, i hear you. I'm the same. Life has always been pain. I've had the loaded gun to my temple, but i couldn't bring myself to shoot. If you feel like that's what you need to do that's fine, i firmly believe that it's every man's right to die on his own terms. But your post here tells me that your heart isn't in it. While our capacity to handle can be very great, our capacity for empathy and love is greater. Only when you suffer like we have can you appreciate the depth of humanity. This might make sense to you, i don't know, it might sounds like horse shit. I've found plenty of ways to compartmentalize my pain and my life is a struggle to have the strength to accept myself. The greatest thing I've taken away is that whatever we are, it's supposed to be. We exist in nature, and anything that exists in nature can't be completely "good" or "evil". It just is. Listening to the talks of Alan Watts really helped me develop my perspective on realty, and helped me start on the path to acceptance. Eastern philosophy has done amazing things for me. Just know that your are not alone in your suffering, and the more you struggle the better chance you have to find someone whom you can express the pain, or to make yourself into a person you can love despite what seed nature has planted in us. The only thing we have is our will.

Look user, I know you're a summerfag from reddit, but I think I can spare you this super rare, hard to grow fuck, and fix your sentence

>Bc being gay is bwtewwn consenting adults, raping a child is way diffrent and all jews, niggers, and fags should be rounded up and tortured to death.

>Your mom will never be a big potato chip

I mean maybe be more conscious on how you acquire it and how you can get caught eventually, or is it that easy for you to indulge without that fear overtaking you?

...

*Harm not handle

>Which is true kinda
Nigga wat.

I dont know how to respond to this stupidity

Whatever treatment some doc will cook up will probably be to curb urges and make you feel funny but as long as you're not diddling kids feeling a little off probably won't be so bad.

Also OP everything everybody else is saying in this thread is complete bullshit. They have no idea, no imaginable concept of what we do through. Listen to their words but take every word with the understanding that they live in a different reality.

You ser, that's what pisses me off, somehow it's ok that everyone wants me tortured and dead un the worst ways for something I didn't ask to, but then I AM the one who has to "think about the children and the families"
Fuck that.

>This might make sense to you, i don't know, it might sounds like horse shit.
It totally makes sense user.

Honestly, the fear is little deterrent. I have actually gotten less secure over time. I think that it's due to the fact that part of me feels I deserve to be punished, even though it will only wreck my life even more. When I get that feeling in my gut that I need to indulge, it usually wins rather quickly.

All of you are short-sighted, weak-willed fools.
Society is limited and we are all strangulated by its confines. No one escapes its cruel and uncaring grip. The laws we're bound by only serve to cause more harm than to protect. It forces adults and children alike to become weak victims to those who are driven to act in desperation or in sheer malice.

You are all being controlled by laws you don't understand, not for lack of trying, but for the reason that they aren't made through any logic. All the systems humans have put in place only serve to hurt humanity, perhaps by design to reroute power and control to the few, but perhaps not by design and only through the certainty that is human error and cruelty.

Society is unfeeling arbitration. Humanity is nothing but endless flaws and hatred. You can only trust what you are and what you believe in. If you are a pedophile and you believe in children, take solace in that. It is ALL you can do to ensure that you don't invite more pain and suffering into this already hellish system.

I don't believe the seed planted in you is meant to cause harm. Social structure is at fault. It suppresses ideals that are different until they act out in violence or desperation or sheer malice in retaliation. You and those you love only need the right circumstances and environment to let your way of life flourish. It's too bad that no such environment exists on this planet.

i did it kinda i put my hands on her but thats all and i never tried to finger her or anything just simply put my hand on her for the enjoyment of having the touch

Never be afraid of change by force. Eject your current lifestyle. Put yourself in a situation where you stay completely fresh. I'm about to move across the country and love it if my car for the chance to be in a place where i feel i have the space and build the spiritual reserve to love myself. I'm getting rid of nearly everything i have and going far away from all of my family, but i know that my life and mind will never change or heal if i stay here. Don't be afraid.

A child cant consent to sex thats not a man made ideal, its common fucking sense you twat ur prob a chomo urself

No it's not ok that they say they want you dead. They have the same standard reaction people have had towards misunderstood groups since the beginning of time. It comes from a place of ignorance.

Ignore everyone supporting u here, they are other pedos, listen to a person who is right in the head enough to not rape kids, KYS

>Sometimes I really hate myself
You're weak.

You shouldn't hate yourself for liking what you do, you should hate yourself for allowing other people's opinions about you, to rule over your life.

If you are not doing anything wrong to anybody, there's no reason for you to apologize.

*Live out of

Well yeah I'm a phoneposter obviously, but please consider my words. The only healing will come from within and sometimes it takes a complete reconstruction of yourself to do it. At least it's now interesting to gamble on that than just to end it eh?

Killing people who did nothing is wrong, like blacks gays etc killing pedos is right

If they know you're a pedo then I wouldn't be surprised. You can't go around fucking little kids and expect people to be cool with it. Still you're an even bigger piece of shit if you want to take other people with you because you're sad and lonely. I'm sad and lonely with no friends and I'm still not that big of a douche.

Dude, that's exactly a man made idea. Lol

OP here. Just wondering, does no part of you want to truly love a child? For me, I think the problem is that the line between nurturing love and romantic feelings blurs. Even if the world decided it was time to torture and kill me, I want to leave love behind, not pain.

Sometimes I wonder if I need something like that, but I'd hate to leave it all. A lot of my family holds me in high regard and I'm a rock to them even though I'm crumbling inside. I can't leave them.

It's common sense, isn't it? That a person at the age of 18 suddenly realizes they're capable of informed consent. It's perfectly natural. You experienced that magic moment too, didn't you? When the world around you suddenly looked at you and said "yes, you can have sex. you're capable of consenting."
Before that, you had no agency over your body or what you could do with it. Before that, you had no idea what sex was, what it was meant for, or the connotations of having sex with another human being. You were a mindless sub-human incapable of self-exploration, empathy, incapable of comprehension or learning. You were a child, and that's what children are in this world. Less than a person, but so, so precious. So precious that it's common sense to belittle and limit them.

It's common sense. It's just common sense that when something is common sense, you take measures to ensure that it actually is common sense. It's a law, isn't it? So we should make them vulnerable. We should make them ignorant. We should maintain that "innocence" we project onto them, so that it CAN be ruined. So that people CAN hurt them. It's only common sense that they can't act for themselves because we MAKE IT so they can't act for themselves without SERIOUS DAMAGE. All according to plan. It's just common sense.

It's completely possible to be a pedo and not have personally hurt a kid. If OP is legit, this is an obvious call for help. He needs support to stay strong not be told to kill himself. Chances are pretty good if he did kill himself he'd have a moment of weakness first and he wouldn't be the only person hurt that day.

Bravo dude.

Im talkkng about small children who cant even make their own dinner not teenagers, sex with children is wrong law or no law

You pedo people make me sick this whole post is cancer, defending pedos wtf is wrong with you, all of u kys

Yes because the second before someone turns 18, they are not capable of consenting. As soon as that clock ticks over one second, all of a sudden they can fuck ANYTHING. Jesus christ...

Thank you for understanding user. I wouldn't exactly say it's a call for help, but I do find these sessions with Sup Forums therapeutic at times. I don't mind the people telling me to kill myself, as it's to be expected. People want me dead and if this thread is authentic, someone here will feel that way and say it.

>Chances are pretty good if he did kill himself he'd have a moment of weakness first and he wouldn't be the only person hurt that day.
If I'm interpreting this correctly, then you are absolutely correct. If I crossed that line, I would not be alive to talk about it. My life would then have no worth that could outweigh what had been done.

Cool goalposts bro. Where's the next one? How about you own up to the stupid shit this world has become and make a change by refraining from limiting and victimizing other people with your shitty ideals?

The only thing that needs to be illegal is harming a person or their property. And the measure by which that harm should be gauged is the victim's complaint crossed with the actuality of the harm.

I hope you're not that unstable. Believe in yourself, dude. You have a lot of potential for good in you. Having a predisposition like that doesn't mean shit. Just enjoy life.

there is no good or evil
no right no wrong
no good decisions no bad ones
simply the human moral compass.

And buddy, that's one fucked up compass.

Nice try, FBI.

OP just off yourself

Nah in all seriousness just stop doing it. It only makes you miserable. Do you want to be miserable that bad? You don't have to apologize to anyone, you have to change. There are 20 billion other fetishes. Don't off yourself, don't do anything rash, just admit how wrong it is and maybe take steps to learn how wrong it is.

Also run away from some people here like the plague. Some are not willing to listen at all, even if what you told them was actually false and you were trying to get a reaction. Some will try to justify the behavior like it's a good thing. "Pedosexuality" they call it these days, with all this SJ bollocks.

If you want an equivalence for instance, what's your stance on parents putting their kids through surgery because they think they "might" be transgender? That might tell you something.

Clearly none of you have children or yiu would tell this guy to kill himself too, dont speak about kids like u have any clue what having one is. If some guy was like hey im gonna jerk off to ur daughter later but i wont touch her you would be enraged, him simply controlling it isnt enough he needs to die

baby raper

something is wrong simply because we say it is
what is it truly? just 10 years ago we were burning gays at the stake because it was a "mental illness"now look where we are .

I actually agree with them that sex with a child is wrong, especially penetrating a body that is not physically matured. I do also feel that once adolescence is reached, there will be wildly varying degrees of emotional and mental readiness and that there is not a universal "magic number".

As to being unstable, I wouldn't say that, but I'm not at all comfortable with the idea of living as someone who actually victimizes someone.

>just admit how wrong it is and maybe take steps to learn how wrong it is.
I know how wrong it is, that's what makes it all worse.

I know this is a silly troll, but people we're not talking about babies here. Someone with feelings and tendencies like that is incredibly rare.

Pretty sure there's a difference between forcing your kid through lifechanging procedures and allowing your kid the option to express themselves and experience their own body in their own way

Uh, no, I have kids and I would probably not wish death onto someone who said that to me. I'd probably be like, what the fuck dude, is that really an appropriate thing to say in public? I mean, good to know that you're the kind of guy who faps to the memory of random people you met on the street, but what do you get out of telling me that? Why not just enjoy your own shit on your own time?
Maybe if it was someone I knew well, and they told me about it in a more respectful manner, I'd be more understanding and wary, but if it was a random stranger, I'd definitely chew them out for being so forward and creepy, perhaps get a restraining order.
I don't give a shit what he does in private or what feelings he harbors, though. He has a right to those things.

Of course. It's common sense, isn't it? It's common sense that common sense changes to suit those in power. They need control of the homosexuals too.

You are as bad at history as you are at trying to justify being a pedo. Think you can talk it into acceptance all you want, society has a line, and we make pedos suffer and always will. Don't fuck with kids or even convicts will stab you.

Former degenerate speaking. I used to fap to nudism mostly, very rarely coming across actual CP. One day I found some serious hard candy, videos and shit. Fappy at first, but became really depressed for the next few days and starting having nightmares. Eventually couldn't take the guilt anymore, and deleted everything. I don't know how far you've gone user, but if you actually do feel guilty, there will be a breaking point.