Be me

>be me
>4 years old
>moved to Germany because my dad is military
>only child
>no friends
>act like an autismo to look funny
>fail miserably
>brotheraquired.png
>great relationship with dad too so there's that
>always go out sledding at winter, visiting castles
>finally get into my own little niche of three or four close friends
>get molested by one
>three more
>get in a fight with another
>only two left

>be me
>8 years old
>move to Arkansas
>dads out of military
>get bullied all the time at school
>nobody really likes me, spend most of my time studying or drawing in class, begging mom not to make me go back to school
>find out I have tourettes
>not the verbal kind, physical twitches almost constantly
>hurts like hell
>get bullied for it a lot
>almost get my arm broken

>be 9
>move to a little farm
>at this point I'm kind of not giving a fuck
>one kid across the street, hang out with him once or twice
>we don't click well, don't dislike him but don't like him either
>go to another school
>great at class but never turn in work
>I'manidiot.jpeg
>graduate somehow,
>parents hold me back and homeschool me now
>I deserve it because I sucked in school at that point
>spend all my time on a little 7 acre farm
>animals dying all the time because we're too poor to keep them well
>we keep trying and get a few

>be me
>14
>go to a homeschool park day and finally start making friends for the first time in 7 or so years
>meet a cool kid named Ryan
>he becomes suicidal
>goes away for a while,
>comes back a little different, turned out he went to a mental hospital
>dont care
>he's my best friend at this point
>get 2 sisters
>dad doesn't pay much attention anymore, spends more and more time online
>see Ryan for the last time on his birthday
>move

>be 15
>now in Texas
>living in suburbs for the first time
>go to park day again
>can't really talk anymore
>super shy and kinda edgy
>go onto chats online, make a few good friends make two great ones named Ian and Jade
>meet Gillian
>first gf
>shes really nice but dad hates her guts
>dad is really distant now
>when he's not at work he's on laptop
>even when we hang out theres a tension

>be me
>16
>making friends again
>they dont pay attention to me much
>I don't mind, just want the company

>be 17
>second gf named Jessica, had to dump Gillian cuz of family
>have to dump Jessica because moving again
>get banned from the chat and only have Ian and Jade left

>be me
>19
>living in a farm in the middle of nowhere with family
>thinking back to when I would hang out with friends in Germany
>back when dad hung out with me
>spend all my time in basement playing WoW or doing school
>about to move out because dad is starting to get angry at me for everything that I say
>I feel like a complete disappointment
>no friends
>only one acquaintance who may or may not let me crash at his place
>dont care, willing to be homeless right about now
>just want to escape the constant guilt of never being good enough for my family
>nobody responds to my texts anymore
>Not Ryan
>Not Gillian
>Barely ever Jessica
>Two online friends are becoming more and more distant,
>completely alone
>siblings hate me
>father hates me
>my friends forgot me
>mfw

Op post kik ill be fren

I don't want to do anything online anymore. I just want to find someone I can talk to irl and actually make a real friend.

So what we may not be irl buds but eventually we can hang irl :D

Damn dude.
Find yourself a place to settle.
Youll find a friend

where u living now OP?

Post a pic OP and things that interest you. Let us get to know you, yknow? Cars? Building? Gaming? Fabbing? Watcha into bud?

It only gets worse. It isn't worth it really accept loneliness, kill yourself, or go on crazy adventure....

Or join military

...

Fuck off leave our bud alone

Just being honest. Stop blowing smoke up his ass. Accept you're a lonely yard. An hero. Go on done life affirming trip to break out of shell. Or join military and have them force him into being a man.

Your fault for being friends with a Muslim.

Listen here little nigger, you have the chance now. Zero attachments, zero commitments. Go some place, any place. Get your passport get a work visa, move to another country, not Germany that's Muslim land now and they'll kill you soon. Maybe Asia. Become someone, fuck your family, get weird Asian friends that are weird like you. Endless possibilities quit being a downer to yourself. You are the only one that cares about you.

>New age military
>Making men

No, the new military creates safe zones and let's someone that they legally own cry and not do things when told. You aren't asked to do anything in the military. You are told. Not so much anymore. They'll just turn op into mindless pussy with PTSD from having to scrub the toilet with a toothbrush.

Mfw when op hung himself

That's what the dummies do. I got to grow a bigvass beard. Train other dummies. And blow people up. It was great and I made wonderful friends. Got back home got a great job and have a hot wife.

And I was a sperglord like OP

Fair enough mate.

The key is to be in special forces of any branch. Its a different world. They want independent problem solvers. And you need diplomacy as much as you need the sword.

>be me
>12
>change school
>get bullied for always sleeping
>start hating school and life
>one day I get the shit out of one bully
>teachers only jell at me
>be 13
>no one in my year talk to me
>start talking with a chinese
>talk with the elders students
>get some friends
>get a gf from there
>be happy for 4 months with her
>she go away with a emofag
>alone again
>be 14
>I only have the china guy now
>start hanging out with the china guy's friends
>I fell in love with one of the chiks in our group
>one of them is just like me
>he never goes to school, plays a lot of videogames and use Sup Forums
>become good friends
>keep loving the chick
>the chick told me she likes one of my best friends
>hate my life
>get into a lot of shit
>cut myself even more
>get into drugs
>try to kill myself
>fail