Ask a Schizophrenic anything!

Ask a Schizophrenic anything!
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What is your opinion on shotacon?

>What is your opinion on shotacon?
Hmm, it's okay I guess. It's gay if you're a guy and like it tho.

Do you ever read Threads/comments that aren't really there
Genuinely asking
(Some porn for your troubles)

>Do you ever read Threads/comments that aren't really there
Not entire threads or replies, no. Occasionally I misread entire sentences though.

Schizo doodle bump

What afflicts you the most abour your day? What are your common troubles you experience?

Does your name happen to begin with X?

>What afflicts you the most abour your day?
I'd have to say not having any sort of motivation or desire to do anything at all, just always feeling completely empty.
>What are your common troubles you experience?
Severe paranoia and anxiety attacks are the most common. Auditory hallucinations (voices, random noises, animals, etc) are the second most common.
>Does your name happen to begin with X?
negative.

Join the fucking club shit sucks.

I got diagnosed with Schizophrenia too.
Now I get free money from the government.
Shits cash.

>Join the fucking club
I already did, user.

>shit sucks.
That it does.

Are you able to get a job, or are you on disability?

With these in mind user do you manage to at least go out and try different things? Are you on support or anything to help you stay couped up or do you manage a job? Lastly if most are auditory what's the one thing you think you hear the most if you can guess that is?

>I got diagnosed with Schizophrenia too.
Sorry to hear that, user.
>Now I get free money from the government.
That's nice, I guess.
>Are you able to get a job
I can, but I don't have one.
>or are you on disability?
I am on SSI.

>do you manage to at least go out and try different things?
No, I only leave my house about 2 times a month to go shopping. Other than I never leave.
>Are you on support or anything to help you stay couped up
Yes, I am on SSI.
>do you manage a job?
No, not at the moment. I've been kind of half-assed looking for one though.
>Lastly if most are auditory what's the one thing you think you hear the most
Voices and an ambient ringing are the two most common. I also hear a lot of birds chirping.

What goes on in your head? Full details. Serious question..

I got a Schizophrenic friend and I don't wanna ask him out of fears of making him feel alienated or weird.

sure does

Hmm sounds quaint a bit with what you hear. Then again I'm in not boat to judge and probably have no idea the hell it is go hear it constantly. Even if you're half-assing it you're giving it a shot and that's all that counts really

When did you get diagnosed?
What do you do for fun?

Sup nerd. Hows your day been?

>What goes on in your head?
That's a really vague and difficult question to answer. Can you be more specific?
>I got a Schizophrenic friend and I don't wanna ask him out of fears of making him feel alienated or weird.
If you've known him for a while, just ask him. As long as you don't judge him, I'm sure he'd be glad to enlighten you.
>Hmm sounds quaint a bit with what you hear.
It's fairly mild, but it can be really annoying. Especially when the ringing gets so loud that I can't hear anything else or think
>Even if you're half-assing it you're giving it a shot
Yea, that is true. I doubt anything will come of it though.

What anime is this girl from and what is your favorite anime(s)? Have you watched Steins;Gate? I think of you as Okabe Rintarou

>When did you get diagnosed?
2012/2013 Somewhere around there.

>What do you do for fun?
>fun
What's that?
I mostly just play vidya, post on Sup Forums and watch shit on youtube.
>Sup nerd.
Hiya
>Hows your day been?
Not bad, kinda bland and empty. As usual

what happened when you were diagnosed, were you put on meds or hospitalized?
asking for a friend

favorite vidya?

>What anime is this girl from
The Monogatari series
>what is your favorite anime(s)?
In no particular order
Kabaneri of the Iron Fortress
Steins;gate
Gakkou Gurashi
Monogatari
Oreimo
Clannad
EurekaseveN
Just to name a few
>Have you watched Steins;Gate?
Yup, it's one of my top animus.
>I think of you as Okabe Rintarou
Thanks, I guess?

Are you permanently disabled? I was on SSI for a year when I was diagnosed with severe depression and suicidal tendencies. After a bunch of anti-depressants failed, they figured out I had a big cobalamin (B12) deficiency, so I took a bunch of that and got better. I was on SSI for about a year. The thing I hated about it was that you constantly had to prove that you were disabled.

Do you have to go somewhere every now and then to prove you're still schizophrenic? Don't you worry one day they'll cut off your SSI and you won't be able to get a decent job due to lack of job experience?

Also, I'm assuming you still live with someone since SSI pays terribly. It did for me, anyway.

Fair enough, scratch that then.

Do you have anything specific that triggers your hallucinations or paranoia? Or is it just random and/or constant.

>If you've known him for a while, just ask him. As long as you don't judge him, I'm sure he'd be glad to enlighten you.
I've known him since high school. Don't wanna ask him because he didn't tell me directly. I found out through a mutual friend..so I don't want to bring it up since he didn't break it to me directly.

do you give good head?

When did you start to notice?

Do you ever get stuck on some completely random thought about made up strangers out of nowhere?

How does your paranoia manifest?

Thank you

>what happened when you were diagnosed
Well, I went and saw a psychologist for sleep problems. Turned out the sleep problems were a side effect of the Schizophrenia.
>were you put on meds
I was told I should be on meds. But I don't take any.
>or hospitalized?
No, it's not that severe.
>favorite vidya?
Darksouls 1, followed by Darksouls 3 then Darksouls 2.
>Are you permanently disabled?
Yes.
>Do you have to go somewhere every now and then to prove you're still schizophrenic?
No, I don't get SSI from the Schizophrenia. I get it because of Spinabifida.

>Also, I'm assuming you still live with someone since SSI pays terribly.
Technically, yes. I live with my brother, and my mother pays his half of the bills.
>Do you have anything specific that triggers your hallucinations or paranoia?
Other than stress, not that I am aware of.
>Or is it just random and/or constant.
It's pretty much random.
>Don't wanna ask him because he didn't tell me directly.
I see, that makes sense.

Does one have to watch all of this in order?

>do you give good head?
Dunno.
>When did you start to notice?
Late teens early 20's
>Do you ever get stuck on some completely random thought about made up strangers out of nowhere?
I do get stuck on a lot of random made up thoughts.
>How does your paranoia manifest?
What do you mean?
>Does one have to watch all of this in order?
That's the best way to do it.

Bomp

hello my dear user.

do you suffer from "torretish" forced thoughts and imagry?
If so, can you relate to my expieriences and also is my problem in anyway close to your schizo?

I myself keep visualising horrible horrible things that happens to the ones i deeply love and myself, family and people around me that matters most to me. and i can also sort of see beings of true horror.

i really really hate it, not only does it give me anxiety but it also makes me uncomfortable, scared, and i get trouble sleeping at night. my mind starts forcing me to visualize the most terrefying thing or event that i can possibly come up with, up to a point where its torturing me and giving me sleep paralysies where I DO SEE THEM. but thats for a completly different reason..

like now because i brought up the subject, a floating face with popped out large red eyes has appeared in the back of the room and is very slowly levitating towards me while at the same time, very slowly opening its mouth. these are common for me. i can see that its not there. but i can in a way also see it at the same time, im visualizing it and have no control / ways of removing it except focusing on something else.

and afterwards it usually triggers some wierd torrets behavior, like i have to visuallize a big red X over the horrible event, while crossing my fingers as an X over my forehead, because otherwise it might happen. I know how stupid it sounds, i realize that myself but i have no control because if i dont do a response like that after a few minutes i go CRAZY. it needs, no, it HAS to force its way out.

sorry for the wall of text my friend

>Not bad, kinda bland and empty. As usual
You need some excitement in your life friend. my life is kinda like that too but every now and then I snap and go to town and do MDMA or do something outrageous like walk around the park naked at 3am. I think I'd go out of my mind if I just sat around doing the same old shit ad nauseam.

EVER RAPED SOMEONE?

are you as cute as the anime girl?
pls nudes

whats the length of your flaccid penis?

whats your weight

>hello my dear user.
Hello, friend.
>do you suffer from "torretish" forced thoughts and imagry?
I do, it's primary thoughts, not so much with images.

>I myself keep visualising horrible horrible things that happens to the ones i deeply love and myself
I'm no doctor, but that sounds like some sort of anxiety disorder.

>a floating face with popped out large red eyes has appeared in the back of the room
Is this face reoccurring, or is it the first time you've seen it?
Hallucinations like that can be caused by a lot of things. You should probably see a psychologist.
>and afterwards it usually triggers some wierd torrets behaviorred X
This does sound a bit like Schizophrenia, often when I get really psychotic it forces me to do weird movements as well.

>sorry for the wall of text my friend
Worry not.
>You need some excitement in your life friend.
There is nothing exciting around here.
>I think I'd go out of my mind if I just sat around doing the same old shit ad nauseam.
That doesn't surprise me, most people can't handle it. I'm used to the blandness though, it's the way it's always been.
>EVER RAPED SOMEONE?
No, but I've tried.

>are you as cute as the anime girl?
I've been told I'm pretty cute.
>pls nudes
Why?
>whats the length of your flaccid penis?
Dunno I've never measured it flaccid, and I don't have the means to measure it currently.
>whats your weight
115~ Lbs

Hey, it's been a while.
Thanks for recommending Shutter Island. It was a 10/10 movie.
Did you ever try microdosing LSD?

How would you rate your luck level?

What goes on in the mind of schizo?
All manner of negative thing. Everything I see, or hear... voices telling me why I should destroy "it". When I look at a person, even if I want to like them, others in my head offer vivid ideas to destroy "it". When having sex I wrestle with "choke it", "use a knife" "reach in and cut something out". There's a constant worry that doesn't let up, the endless floor pacing, uncontrollable thoughts, arent even my own..... Sometimes voices have faces. I've caught myself reaching out to choke someone I was arguing with only to realize empty space. And then a lot of advanced math, astrology, a lot of computer knowledge, Japanese, German, French, all flood my mind and leaves me exhausted mentally.
Emotion is for the weak, as they sometimes sing in my head, "you can't have that", "you're undeserving", "you are excitement 'neath a riders boot", "you arent worth the flesh you're made of". They say whenever I think I want something. Its no longer possible for others to insult me. In my mind I've already heard things so
Im shown the judgment of me every day. This what I must see:

Myself standing in an alley surrounded by filth. Behind me is a door with bloody bandages covering it. Bodies wrapped in trash bags rain from the sky. Some of have large holes through the chest, some through the head. all have my face but the eyes and tongues are torn out. A car drives by. The passenger and driver are argue. The car reverses. The driver shoots the passenger then himself. They both have my face. I go to the hospital at the end of the alley. Inside A priest is killed by his wife. I am bound to the floor. She lowers her vaginal yo my face, inside are rusted gears that leak a purple fluid, it is damnation. I am fed it for a time then sent up some stairs. At the top is a door. There is god waiting for me. He has my face. I am sent to hell. The devil has my face. He pushes me out a door. I am back in the alley.

what kind of medication are you on?
i need nudes for scientific research

>Hey, it's been a while.
Hey there, user.
>Thanks for recommending Shutter Island.
No problem, glad you enjoyed it.
>Did you ever try microdosing LSD?
Not yet, I don't have the money for it. I still plan on trying it sometime in the future.
>your luck level?
1/10

Damn dude, so much of that is pretty much exactly how I feel. Except the voices I hear don't really insult me at all. I don't even really have any words.

>what kind of medication are you on?
none.
>i need nudes for scientific research
Pic related

>There is nothing exciting around here.
There's something exciting to do anywhere if you're creative enough
>I'm used to the blandness though, it's the way it's always been.
You're missing out, user. Save up and buy some drugs, at least. They're good for you

How did you come to realize it? What are some of your symptoms?

Have you watched the American version of Wilfred? If so, thoughts?

>There's something exciting to do anywhere if you're creative enough
Not around here, not without a car. I live in a town with a population of less than 2k. It's a 20 min drive to the nearest anything.
>Save up and buy some drugs
I bought some weed a little while ago, but smoked it all too fast.
>How did you come to realize it?
I'm not really sure how to answer that.
>What are some of your symptoms?
The more common ones are anxiety and paranoia attacked, auditory and visual hallucinations (the visual ones are pretty rare right now) I have the occasional delusions. Never feel like doing anything at all and I always feel like I'm completely devoid of any emotions.
>Have you watched the American version of Wilfred?
I watched it way back when it first came out.
>If so, thoughts?
It was a pretty fun show, but I don't have anything specific to say about it. It's been ages since I've seen it.

>post boipussy

I don't give out my newds to strangers.

we are not strangers we are your fellow anons

>we are not strangers we are your fellow anons
What I mean to say is, I only give newds to people I want to have them. Like someone I have a deep emotional connection to.

Where are you from?

how do you deal with your family ? i have schizoaffective disorder and i know that it isnt exactly comparable, but i live with my older brother and father and it kills me that im being so terrible to them but at the same time i dont care enough to change myself. i avoid them as much as possible . it feels bad and i feel so fucking guilty. so what do you do ?

thanks for the good answers user.

>You should probably see a psychologist.

i do know i have to see a psychologist, but here in Sweden they rarely take men seriously in that field, around my age. i do not trust them anymore, since five years ago i had my big depression (got thru it, feel great only remains of anxiety and socialanxiety left to day) it got to the point where i was thinking of suicide and was self harming myself through drug and alkohol abuse, and STILL they would not listen, they would not take me seriously, even with my spirit broken down crying in front of them they would not listen.
Three psychologists i have met. They all gave me the same advice:
>try eating healthy and exercise user, that will surely fix things, and smile abit often, i know your dad just died but things could be worse, you still have a job and you dont have cancer or something like that
and then my ex gf goes to hers, says shes abit down because of stress from homework making her sad, and she got diagnosed, got meds to help her cope, the shrink kept calling her every two weeks to check (none of mine called back, despite mentioning suicide)

>Is this face reoccurring, or is it the first time you've seen it?
the "type" of hallucination have appeared for me several times yes, but its just one of the many ones i see everyday. it might be anything that my mind cooks up in the moment, that causes me to feel terror in my chest or give me shivers. if i could explain it i guess.. its like i make myself see what a person would see in a psychosis, while on 5 tabs of LSD.
so the face doesnt have a personality. the closest to that would be a floating corpse of a woman with black hair decayed body and simply white eyes, missing pupil. it usually rotates the head slightly, aknowledging me.

after i read up on tulpas i try to not give these beings to much personilized thought because of fear of giving them "life" or enabling schizo.

will continue answer in next comment

>Where are you from?
The United States of Trump, specifically a little shithole in Florida.
>how do you deal with your family ?
I don't really interact with anyone in my family.
>t kills me that im being so terrible to them but at the same time i dont care enough to change myself
I used to be the same way when I was younger. I often wound up physically and mentally abusing my younger brother.
>it feels bad and i feel so fucking guilty.
I can't relate to that, I've never felt guilty for anything I've done like that.
>so what do you do ?
I don't really do anything, I avoid almost everyone.

favorite porn genre

DID (Dissociative Personality Disorder) reporting in. I'm personally not schozophrenic, but I know for a fact that both DID and Schizophrenia stem from the same mental conditions. Most people say that DID is a lot more severe, but after reading this thread, I have to disagree. Apart from some mild Anxiety, I'm quite mentally rational, except for the fact that my outlook and perspective on events including both myself and other people changes daily, and yes, it is very similar to that one movie, Split. I don't consider myself a different identity with each coming day, but I act very differently and my emotions span from an introverted beta cuck to an alpha chad, I can imagine that someone unknowing of the condition could find it extremely strange, and it makes it hard for me to gain friends due to my mental turbulence.

You again? Why such a narcissist. Kys.

how often do you fap
also do you fap to porn or hentai, specify genre

>but here in Sweden they rarely take men seriously in that field,
Damn, that's rough. I thought it was bad here in America but at least they listen to us.

>after i read up on tulpas i try to not give these beings to much personilized thought because of fear of giving them "life" or enabling schizo.
That's total bogus.
>favorite porn genre
N/A I don't watch porn.

>when I get really psychotic it forces me to do weird movements as well.
yes! for example, when i lived in my parents house and started walking away from it, my dog came running to the windows and watched me sadly as i left. this, for some reason, triggered me to do a wave towards him and the house, then for some reason, i have to have my body fully in the air without touching ground, so i do a jump.

To this day (we sold the house) that i walk by it i still get forced to do it, with and without the dog, and the wierd thing is, if i leave my mothers apartment i still have to do it, DESPITE it not being the house, nor living there, and also my dog lives with me today.

i have tousands of these examples, like bumping into something on left side, i have to bump on my right side to "even" it out..

New questions :3

What country do you live in?

also, have you ever responded to an auditory hallucination and gotten a response?

>DID (Dissociative Personality Disorder) reporting in
Ayo, DIDanon.
>Most people say that DID is a lot more severe
I've never heard that before. I've always heard that Schizo is basically the worst thing you can get (mental health wise)

>and it makes it hard for me to gain friends due to my mental turbulence.
You just have to find people who understand what you're going through.
>You again?
Yup.
>Why such a narcissist.
I dunno
>Kys.
>>>/reddit/
>how often do you fap
It's been like 3 days since I last fapped. But I usually fap like 2 times a day, but it can range from 0 to like 7 times a day.
>also do you fap to porn or hentai
No I don't watch any sort of porn.

some parts of this sounds familiar in a way to me.. do you consider myself be affiliated with schizo in anyway?

this is me :
i would appretiate your thought on the matter

A lot of the symptoms you describe remind me of something between OCD and some anxiety disorder mixed up with some psychosis. It sucks that you can't get a good psychologist to help you out.

>What country do you live in?
'Merica.
>also, have you ever responded to an auditory hallucination and gotten a response?
Yes, the voices I have are persistent and are able to converse with me.

>That's total bogus.
well, thats mildy comforting atleast.

also i forgot a third question, do you feel a "high" from your SSR? from what i heard the effect comes after a week or two and only stays for some days until you get used to it

Not really up for talking user but I really appreciate the thread. Also I like the doodles they are nice to look at
Best of luck.

thanks friend.
>Yes, the voices I have are persistent and are able to converse with me.
my guess is you have no choice but accepting it and try to associate them as a day by day normal accurence.

How do you cope? are there friendly voices aswell or mostly hostile?

>do you feel a "high" from your SSR?
I don't take any SSRI's (or any medication for that matter, not even headache medication).
Anti-psychotics do have really bad side effects especially when you first start taking them.
>Not really up for talking user
That's fine, thanks for stopping by.
> I really appreciate the thread
Glad you enjoy it.
>Also I like the doodles they are nice to look at
Thanks, I need to make some more sometime.
>Best of luck.
You too, user. Take it easy.
>thanks friend.
Sure thing.
>my guess is you have no choice but accepting it
That's pretty much it, there isn't a lot I can do to stop them other than ignoring them.
>How do you cope?
I've just gotten used to it, I don't do anything in particular.
>are there friendly voices aswell or mostly hostile?
I have three, two of them are friendly, the other is not so friendly.

Bumpi

I come check if you have made a thread every day for multiple times. Don't even browse Sup Forums regularly.

Have you watched Eromanga-Sensei? Basically an Oreimo v2, same studio iirc.

Nothing special to contribute, just telling I like these threads and I hope you keep up. Kinda selfish hoping that for my own sake, but I've heard you benefiting from this also.

>I come check if you have made a thread every day for multiple times.
You can add me on Kik if you'd like: SchziOP
I often disappear from Sup Forums for random amounts of time (as with everything). But if you want to keep regular contact you're more than welcome to add me.
>Have you watched Eromanga-Sensei?
I haven't but it looks hella cute. I might have to watch that.

>Kinda selfish hoping that for my own sake
It's alright to be selfish, I make these threads both for myself, and for the anons.

Are Corgis best small doggo?

>Are Corgis best small doggo?
They're easily top 5. I prefer big doggos though so I don't have a "favorite" small doggo.

What is best big doggo

>What is best big doggo
Great Pyrenees and (white) German Shepards are tied for me.

Pmub

yeah i have seen your threads b4 too its just today i actually wrote in them. i appretiate them too, reminds me of the user that used to do ask anything threads about him living in a uhh whats it called that type of car, "portable home/truck" but not to big so he could still park in random spaces.

two moar random questions:

Whats your opinion on world of warcraft? do you play it?

Any favorite music genre/artists?

Did you vote for trump?

*three Ehrm

>i appretiate them too
Glad you enjoy them

>whats it called that type of car, "portable home/truck"
Like a small RV? (Recreational Vehicle)

>Whats your opinion on world of warcraft?
I liked Vanilla WoW, but my computer wasn't able to handle it back then
>do you play it?
Briefly, I made it to level 18 or so and got lost after boarding a boat and then going through 10 load screens because my computer couldn't handle the game. kek.

>Any favorite music genre/artists?
Gonna dump some of my favorite songs and artists
youtube.com/watch?v=nMewZkHMmqk

>Did you vote for trump?
No, I don't vote.
youtube.com/watch?v=GPrQLqYvRf8
youtube.com/watch?v=UzGFEr9oy14
youtube.com/watch?v=4XpQI0ztOic
youtube.com/watch?v=5zJJidE17Ks
youtube.com/watch?v=j05hzwQf8pA
youtube.com/watch?v=DDgdoPSkPnM
youtube.com/watch?v=sSRLHccN7hU
youtube.com/watch?v=E9x1q-QRg3w
youtube.com/watch?v=Qtp7D72cXcw
youtube.com/watch?v=U8gIj5FwdSw (song starts at 1:40ish)

(my favorite artist)
youtube.com/watch?v=qAeybdD5UoQ

Favourite 2hu? This is important.

>Favourite 2hu?
Never played it.

WHAT

>WHAT
Never played it.
Is it f-free?

Everything's free if you torrent it

>Everything's free if you torrent it
It's too much work to look for the torrents though. I'm lazy

All you have to do is type "touhou" in qbittorrents search engine and you'll find a full collection of the games, not very hard at all. That and they're a blast to play.

I'll have to download qbit and look, I don't really torrent things. I've always found it to be annoying.

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nump

mpd here.

do you currently take any meds, and if so what?

>mpd here.
Hi, mpd.
>Referring to it as mpd instead of did
reee
>do you currently take any meds
No, I don't take any medication at all, not even for headaches.

mpd on my country

>mpd on my country
What kind of backwards country do you live in?
Inb4 brazil

I think of schizophrenia is fascinating, yet a horrible illness I'm sorry you have. What age did you get it? Male or female? Are the voices nice, mean, or in between? Have you tried talking to a shaman or spiritual healers? Ever shocking your brain? What about black/white magic? Blood-letting?