Hello Sup Forums sorry to interrupt your trap threads and loli porn but I just need to get something off my chest.
For a while now I have been depressed and somewhat suicidal but I have always been able to find something to keep me going.
It was never an overwhelming feeling or sinking feeling but more of a constant nagging or poking sensation that with enough thought and effort could be ignored or escaped from through various hobbies and activities...
That is until the past few night at work.
Nothing particular happened at work or with my family or anything of that nature but suddenly out of the blue I have been feeling really depressed and I have been nearly shouting at myself to end it all, end the pain, just close my eyes and not wake back up.
Now while not the first time i have endured this kind of thing it was the most impactful and recent and even had me looking up prices on Helium tanks for a makeshift "exit bag" since i already own a CPAP and the tubing that goes with it.
but even through all of this I have had to remember a saying that i have been telling myself often but no longer have a good answer to.
"Will I ever have an other good day"?
As I ask myself this I have found it really difficult to answer in a positive light and it honestly has made the abyss seem more and more inviting each day.
So what I guess I am asking for after all of that is what keeps you going? and why?
Oh oh oh depression. It seems yours is not of the clinical or some other mambo jambo if you had at least some good days. That is good. I had and still have constant depression through my whole life. I know the feel of constant sadness anger emptyness lonelyness and all that other shit from the dark spectre of emotions. Something that you can't share with anyone who hasn't gone through the same shit because they cannot understand it. The one thing that keeps me going is music. That thing with which you can express those emotions and feel the emotions of other people who created it is somehow at least interesting to me, but the constant thoughts that you are empty, nothing are very hard to control and can break you.
Ayden Evans
Go the fuck outside and get off your pity pot. Who cares about the good or bad opinions of others.
The only thing that keeps me going is fear of death. Also not knowing what's on the other side. More than likely it's nothingness. Like going to sleep and not waking up.
Wyatt Brooks
No questions asked, you have to do the Tony Robbins Get the Edge - a 7 day audio book. Torrent it if you can't buy it. Take notes, and give everything he says a shot, without being a condescending asshole and explaining away every line he says. Done, next. IF YOU DON'T TRY IT, YOU CLEARLY DON'T WANT TO BE FIXED. You don't have to believe you CAN be fixed, that's hard/impossible in your current state, but you have to start.
Elijah Turner
Seriously? I recommend Therapy. Even if your job requires a clean bill of mental health. Doctor Patient Confidentiality is awesome. You need to get rid of the everyday triggers for depressing thoughts, develop coping mechanisms and having an outside perspective on things does help. Also: Happy Pills. Depression is as much a pile of habits than it is a illness. You are unlikely to ever be completely rid of the illness, but you can get rid of the habits that enable and exacerbate it.
Luke Peterson
If he is the apathetic type, starting kinda IS the problem. You can do the most during non-depressed phases, in the "hot" phases its mostly damage control. Keep your life stable, make sure you don't create reasons to be depressed because you can't be arsed to get your fat ass out of bed in the morning.
Jose Johnson
This and fucking this.
Type 2 manic depressive here, bud. I have good days, where I have a great time, and then I'm still fucking depressed at the end of that same day.
Like user said, you need to find some interesting hobbies to keep yourself busy, because introspection is the Devil's plaything.
TL;DR, OP? Get some hobbies, and get the fuck over it. It's life.
Jordan Stewart
How can you keep up and find a hobby if you can't find any joy, fulfilness in anything.
Luis Morris
i tune in to gta vice city radios after work to avoid thinking about the black hole in my soul
There was once a quote om /b saying: ( icannot really remember how it was written i just feel it everytime i think of it) something like:living life in it self is like commiting suicide you just dont know how and when it happens. It states that regardless of your position, youll die anyways ( obviously) and the writer sampled your death as suicide. I dont know why but for me it is a really huge relief to view life like this. You are gonna die anyways, everything is a huge tale so why shorten your life? See what happens you can take your life anytime but you dont know ifyou can restore that option. Life is continius change.you ask yourself: will you have a happy day? Well simply: idont know nobody knows, unless you life that life and find out by yourself. It is as simple as that, or not. You are deciding.
Blake Howard
Thanks for the different opinions guys i always like seeing people comment on threads like these. As the saying goes "Life goes on" if you can find something to live for then be happy that's the important part. For some this will be a fight to the end without any resolution resolutin
William Martin
If you join in on Loli and trap threads then end your life, otherwise suck it up buttercup. Go kill something cute and move on with your day
Austin Rogers
>sorry to interrupt your trap threads HOW DARE YOU
Nathaniel Reyes
>what keeps you going? Not being utterly obsessed with myself, like you obviously are.
And don't you know there's a helium shortage? Kill yourself responsibly. Use a hammer.
buy dumbbells & lift 1h a day: it'll do wonder for your mind & body even after 2-3 weeks
Cameron Sanders
>what keeps you going? and why? I know I'm loved and I have a daughter to look after. But if it wasn't for her I think I'd have checked out by now. I just gets harder every day knowing you're gonna feel shit, you'll go to bed feeling shit, and tomorrow will probably be worse.
Jack Miller
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Asher Hernandez
Just the fact that I know it would hurt the people I love keeps me from doing anything
