Ask a Schizophrenic anything. I may take a while to reply sometimes, be patient!

Ask a Schizophrenic anything. I may take a while to reply sometimes, be patient!
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Do you larp on /x/ often?

>Do you larp on /x/ often?
No, I haven't been on /x/ in a very long time.

How is it like to hear voices? The closest I got with that type of thing incredibly was just before yesterday, I decided to not sleep until 6 AM and I've heard some whispers, it was really scary.

is ur mom hot

is ur dad hot too

>How is it like to hear voices?
It's distracting and can be very annoying. But, for the most part, it's just a minor annoyance.
>I decided to not sleep until 6 AM and I've heard some whispers
Hallucinations are associated with sleep deprivation.
>is ur mom hot
Haha, noooo.
She's a "crazy dog lady" as her neighbors say. She's got 20 something dogs. Physically she is not very attractive either.
>is ur dad hot too
I don't know, I've never met him.

How many people did (((they))) asked you to kill?

ok thanks but what about your grandfather

>How many people did (((they))) asked you to kill?
Two.
>ok thanks but what about your grandfather
My biological grandfather, not so much. But, my Grandmother's husband is not a bad looking dude for his age. (80 something, now)

if you have any pets please descibe their
appearance as well

Did you ever thought someone was telling you something on a conversation but in reality it was just a hallucination?

>you lot can thank me later
Oh, wow! Thanks, user!
>if you have any pets
Well, I found a starving dog in my yard today so, kind of? I took her in and gave her some foods.
>please descibe their appearance as well
she's a black pit/boxer mutt from what I can tell.
Super skinny, nothing but skin and bones. Probably less than 30 LBs.

>Did you ever thought someone was telling you something on a conversation but in reality it was just a hallucination?
Yes, that does happen. It doesn't help that when I'm hanging out with my friends we're ALWAYS smoking weed, and weed makes my hallucinations much, much more vivid.

if you had to choose between me or shinobu, who would you kidnap

how many people have you killed???

Have you ever been offended by one of the voices?
Have you ever insulted someone because a voice told you to do so?

>if you had to choose between me or shinobu, who would you kidnap
Well, unless you're a qt grill, probably Shinobu.
>how many people have you killed???
None, I have exercised self-restraint in order to refrain from being put in prison. All of the times I have wanted to kill someone it has been impulsive and not thought out. So, I didn't do it.
I have been very, very close more than once though.

>Have you ever been offended by one of the voices?
No, I don't get offended by anything, really.
>Have you ever insulted someone because a voice told you to do so?
Hmm, not really.
How do I explain this so that it makes sense..
I have insulted people unintentionally. Like the words I said I didn't want to say. It was like I was forced to say them. No one told me to do it, but it was like someone else said them?
Does that make sense?

Were there any logical reason to kill them or it was random?

>Were there any logical reason to kill them
Well, there's always a logical reason. Nothing humans do is "random".
The reasoning I had was not something you would call "logical" from a normal standpoint, though.
It was mostly for the thrill, and a way to "feel alive" as it were.

Actually, it does.
Have you ever been bullied for being schizophrenic?

>Actually, it does.
Good, I often find it difficult to get my point across. Glad you understood.
>Have you ever been bullied for being schizophrenic?
Apart from the occasional troll on Sup Forums? No.
I don't really tell people IRL, mostly because I don't really interact with people at all.

Are you religious?

>Are you religious?
I identify as Pantheist, it's the closest thing to my personal belief.
I don't believe in a "personal god" such as Jesus, or Mohammad, etc. I believe that the universe as a whole is the "entity" that one would refer to as "god".

what do you think of andy sixx?

Do you like music? When you listen to it, do you feel mad because the voices keep fucking talking to you and don't let you listen to it?

>what do you think of andy sixx?
Shitty, lebbit tier meme.
>Do you like music?
Quite a lot.
>do you feel mad because the voices keep fucking talking to you and don't let you listen to it?
No, I often listen to music to drown out the voices.

Did a voice ever said "your waifu is shit"?

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Oh I was inquiring about the voices, not the people you might want to kill.

Was it like an order like "kill him" or like "you could kill him"

I understand that thrill, I am a psychopath but not the violent type, I am more the cunning/manipulative type. I don't really want to harm people, just to use them.

>Did a voice ever said "your waifu is shit"?
Nope.
If you want to spam something with shit memes, go spam lebbit.
>Oh I was inquiring about the voices, not the people you might want to kill.
Oh.
>Was it like an order like "kill him" or like "you could kill him"
It wasn't really either of those.
It was more like the desire to do it came from an "outside" source, but also internally. It wasn't an actual auditory hallucination saying to do it.

What do you think about porn and sex?
What do you think about the LGBT community and feminism?
What do you thunk about gun control and guns in general?
Have you ever been suicidal?

How did it started? What age? Sometimes I see white flashes I catch with the corner of my eyes and sometimes I also hear sounds, not voices tho. I've never been to a therapist, just once I got to Emergencies for a panic/anxiety attack and I was diagnosed with depression. Did you have depression or anxiety?

Okay, it's not schizo behavior then.

I know someone who is schizo too but he heard a girly voice telling him to kill random people before being diagnosed.

That's scary as fuck, I hope he still take his pills. Long time I didn't saw him since I moved.

>What do you think about porn and sex?
Not very much. I don't watch porn, and I dont' think about sex very often either.
>What do you think about the LGBT community
I have nothing against the people who identify as any of those. But the "community" is kind of cancerous.
>and feminism?
Feminism itself, I have no issues with. But the radicals are completely cancerous.
>What do you thunk about gun control
There should be some level of control background checks, etc.
>and guns in general?
I rather like guns. I've fired a fair few of them myself and one day wish to own a few.
>Have you ever been suicidal?
Frequently.

Hiya, user. How are you doing tonight?

What type are you?
Catatonic, paranoid, eclectic, or disorganized?

What is your favorite hobby?
Do you consider yourself a fragile person?
What is the worst thing you have ever done?
What is your favorite video game?

Fellow schizo here.Why is the average schizophrenic so dumb?
I mean I have once seen a guy that was deadset on building a perpetual motion-machine.

I know you dont take any, but what would you say to a person who would constantly urge you to take your medicine?
People constantly tell me to take this wretched stuff and want to put me on higher and higher dosages.

>How did it started?
What do you mean "how"?
>Sometimes I see white flashes I catch with the corner of my eyes and sometimes I also hear sounds
Those are fairly common. It's probably nothing to be worried about. But if it progresses you should see someone about it.
>Did you have depression
I have bouts of depression and mania followed by long stints of "emotionlessness" for lack of a better word.
>or anxiety?
I have suffered from anxiety attacks all of my life.
>Okay, it's not schizo behavior then.
What makes you say that?
>I know someone who is schizo too but he heard a girly voice telling him to kill random
I do hear voices, they just don't "order" me to do things in that manner. It's not like having a voice in your head saying "do this, do that". It's more like the "feeling" or "desire" I'm having is coming from an outside source other than myself.
>Hiya, user. How are you doing tonight?
Not too bad, how about yourself?
>What type are you?
I have traits of all of them, but my strongest traits are catatonia and paranoia.

What do you think about the cancer that is burning this piece of shit site?

Psychosis here. Induced by a very long MDMA bender. Never recovered from it, and audatory hallucinations still persist. I am on 10mg Zyprexa every night.

>What is your favorite hobby?
"favorite" is a strong word. But, I spend a majority of my time playing videogames.
>Do you consider yourself a fragile person?
Emotionally fragile, I assume?
Not at all.
>Do you consider yourself a fragile person?
I've tortured people emotionally, and physically. As well as torturing animals.
>What is your favorite video game?
The Dark Souls series are my favorites. DS1 is the best, followed by 3, then 2 is the "least good".
>Fellow schizo here
Hello, Schizanon.
>Why is the average schizophrenic so dumb?
I wouldn't say dumb, but they seem to be completely absorbed in their own worlds. But I can understand why.
>I mean I have once seen a guy that was deadset on building a perpetual motion-machine.
I met a Schizo guy that had a plan to "scam people out of pennies and become rich".
>but what would you say to a person who would constantly urge you to take your medicine?
"I'm not going to"

>What do you think about the cancer that is burning this piece of shit site?
It's shitty, but it's nothing new in practice. Sup Forums has always been plagued by some type of cancer. The only thing that's changed what the cancer manifests as.
>Psychosis here. Induced by a very long MDMA bender.
That's rough, user. Hopefully, you're able to keep up some sort of "normalcy".

>It's shitty, but it's nothing new in practice. Sup Forums has always been plagued by some type of cancer. The only thing that's changed what the cancer manifests as

well said sir

If you had to work in a job, what would be the least worst work for you?
(A common job, nothing exotic like politician or pornstar)

Honestly the worst thing is the anxiety. I managed to deal with it though. Why dont you take your medication?

I mean what were the first signs that alerted you.
I've many times feel rage I keep it inside though and never hurt anyone till now but I feel my brain like it's boiling. I've thought many times about killing but all I think about is the consequences and it keeps me away from doing it.
Many times I will sleep somewhat happy or neutral and when I wake up I will be a mess for the rest of the day. Like I am dull and empty.
I can't explain exactly my thoughts or feelings to compare with you, I do not handle thoughts very good.

Are you on medication? What do you do or think to make you peaceful?

In your opinion, what is the worst crime a man can commit? What is the most beautiful thing that exists in your opinion?

that would be eclectic. were you diagnosed? are you on medication? do you work or go to school?

What do you live for now?
Don't you feel sad and shit living like this?
Also, ever wanna have a wife/husband and kids?

>well said sir
It also doesn't help that the site is based on the concept of "chaos". When the chaos is rampant, it will peak. You know what happens when chaos peaks? Order follows.
When something that is rooted in chaos, loses that chaos you're left with nothing but "cancer" aka, order.
It's something I've noticed. The more "orderly" Sup Forums becomes the more "cancerous" it becomes. It needs chaos, but how does one restore chaos?
>If you had to work in a job, what would be the least worst work for you?
Some isolated desk job inputting data.
>Honestly the worst thing is the anxiety
I almost agree with that. But the worst thing is paranoia and anxiety. There's nothing worse than the loops that it can create.
>Why dont you take your medication?
It's difficult to put that into words. To put it simply, it violates my "morals"

What oping do you like most from the monogatari series?

I want some (you)

This thread is part of your psychosis. You're not sure which thoughts are even real. I'm a fragment of your reality. You're not safe.

>I mean what were the first signs that alerted you.
The first things that I noticed were extremely vivid hallucinations like seeing animals on me, spiders that didn't exist, etc.
>I've many times feel rage I keep it inside though
I've taken that approach, I use to be very outward with my rage in my youger days. I often lashed out at people and did a lot of harm.
>Are you on medication?
Negative.
>What do you do or think to make you peaceful?
I usually play vidya, or listen to music to keep my peace of mind.
I also enjoy thinking about "existental" things. the concept of "life" things like that.
>In your opinion, what is the worst crime a man can commit?
I don't really think there is a "worst crime". Crime is just a concept created by society to keep people "inline". So that society doesn't collapse.
>What is the most beautiful thing that exists in your opinion?
The universe.
>were you diagnosed?
Not a formal medical diagnosis. I was "diagnosed" by a psychologist and recommended to see a psychiatrist.

forgot this part
>are you on medication?
Negative.
>do you work or go to school?
Not currently. I was in college a few years back then completely lost interest in it. I've been half-assed looking for a job.
>What do you live for now?
Nothing, really.
>Don't you feel sad and shit living like this?
Sad..? If I'm quite honest I'm not 100% sure what that feels like. I don't like how things are, but then I don't put in any effort to change them.
>ever wanna have a wife/husband and kids?
I don't really know.
>What oping do you like most from the monogatari series?
Renai Circulation and Karen's are my two favorites.
>I want some (you)
Here (you) go.
>This thread is part of your psychosis
I would probably believe that if I wasn't lucid.

BumpBomp

thanks for the answer
how have you tortured someone physically?

Have you ever had a lucid dream?
Have you ever had a dream with your voices in it?

>It also doesn't help that the site is based on the concept of "chaos". When the chaos is rampant, it will peak. You know what happens when chaos peaks? Order follows.
When something that is rooted in chaos, loses that chaos you're left with nothing but "cancer" aka, order.
>It's something I've noticed. The more "orderly" Sup Forums becomes the more "cancerous" it becomes. It needs chaos, but how does one restore chaos?

i guess the only way to restore chaos is a clean start, but the chaos will appear at some point again

>thanks for the answer
You're welcome.
>how have you tortured someone physically?
I used to beat the shit out of my younger brother on nearly a daily basis. Came close to killing him on more than one occasion. Pinned him to the wall and strangled him until his face turned blue, or until my mother stopped me.
>Have you ever had a lucid dream?
I have had dreams where I was aware that I was dreaming, but they always fall apart very quickly.
>Have you ever had a dream with your voices in it?
I don't think so, but I also don't remember my dreams often.

>but the chaos will appear at some point again
It will, but who's to say how long that will take.
>i guess the only way to restore chaos is a clean start
Usually when that happens though it's a kind of "ordered chaos" see: lebbit. It's an artifical chaos. Chaos is natural, if you try to be chaotic, it's fake. Just a facade of chaos.

are you able to choose ?
or do you prefer believe in fate ?

Bompalomp

>are you able to choose ?
You are able to choose some things, but there are things outside of your control, obviously.
For instance, you can't choose who you're born as. But, you can choose who you "become".
>or do you prefer believe in fate ?
I don't subscribe to the notion of "fate".

chaos is not natural, the space is on mathematical order

Why torture people and animals?

What are your sexual preferences?

choose is freedom, not control

do you prefer the term determinism ?

Can you talk to your voices? Like have you ever debated with the voices in your head?

>chaos is not natural
Chaos is the most natural thing there is. Without it, order would not be able to exist.
>the space is on mathematical order
It is now. But it wasn't like that always. There was a time when it was nothing but chaos, and it will return to that state.
Planets start in a form of "chaos", then as the chaos subsides and order begins. Then life is able to start, which starts in chaos, then the chaos subsides, and societies are formed aka "order". Then the societies will fall, and chaos will reign again.
This premise is the fundamental fact of the universe.
>Why torture people and animals?
Because it felt good.
>What are your sexual preferences?
Uh, women? I guess?
I'm straight if that's what you're asking?
>choose is freedom, not control
choice is the freedom of control.
When you make a choice, you are taking control.
>do you prefer the term determinism ?
I don't believe in determinism either.

I mean i you have any strange sexual habit

>Can you talk to your voices?
Yes, I am able to talk to them. I had a conversation with a nonexistent nigger in the hood about buying weed from him the other night for about 45 minutes. He isn't one of my "normal" voices though.
>Like have you ever debated with the voices in your head?
Yes, I do use them as a second opinion on things to get a better understanding.
>I mean i you have any strange sexual habit
I don't really know?

>When you make a choice, you are taking control
You have the will to choose, but you have chosen to submit your control to your illness.
>Because it felt good.
You're ill. You are a sadist that harms for no reason, you need to get help before you hurt someone else.

Do we have freedom or is just an illusion?

>You have the will to choose, but you have chosen to submit your control to your illness.
In a nutshell, yes.
>You're ill.
Tell me something I don't know.
>You are a sadist that harms for no reason
I haven't done that in a very long time.
>you need to get help
You're probably right, but I'll pass on that.
>Do we have freedom or is just an illusion?
We do have freedom. But the freedom isn't 100% freedom.

"Had a conversation with a nonexistent nigger" you're a funny mengo, follow up; if you could stick your pig tail cock in a monster girl, what kind and why?

Do you think europe will collapse?

Schizo user you seem pretty chill may fortune and luck be reasonable le in your favor

>but I'll pass on that.
Why? Do you enjoy being crazy? or do the meds just fuck you up worse

faggot

No you

>This premise is the fundamental fact of the universe.
we don't know what was there before the big bang. so your fact is just a believe
>Because it felt good.
it feel good to be in power, to feel in charge ?
someone had treated your life when you were young ?
>choice is the freedom of control.
no, choice is just freedom, if you want to control, you force yourself to being supremacist

>But the freedom isn't 100% freedom.
what you call freedom is what i call supremacy

You think you're smart, but you sound like an absolute idiot. Fucking pseudointellectual piece of garbage.

>you're a funny mengo
Thanks, I guess.
>if you could stick your pig tail cock in a monster girl, what kind
Slime grill
>and why
Cus slime grill.
>Do you think europe will collapse?
Everything will collapse, so yes.
>Schizo user you seem pretty chill
I get that a lot.
>may fortune and luck be reasonable le in your favor Why?
Because there isn't much that can be done.
>Do you enjoy being crazy?
Enjoy is a strong word, but I don't hate it.
>or do the meds just fuck you up worse
Meds are worse than actually being psychotic.
>faggot
Yo das rude.

Slime huh? I can respect that

Ever played Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney?

>we don't know what was there before the big bang.
This is true. But it's fairly safe to assume there was an order, then that order fell into chaos and from that chaos the universe was born, as with everything.
>so your fact is just a believe
Well, everything is just a belief, so you're not wrong.
But, there is relation between your two statements. I'm speaking about the universe, and everything inside of it. What happened before the big bang is irrelevant.
>it feel good to be in power, to feel in charge ?
No, it felt good to see them suffer.
>someone had treated your life when you were young ?
What?
>you force yourself to being supremacist
You have a distorted view of control. I get the feeling that you're a "weak" individual who was taken advantage of for a majority of their life.
>Slime huh? I can respect that
Honestly I would fug any monstergrill. Slime is just the first thing that popped into my head.

>Ever played Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney?
Negative.

What is your ethic of life?
If you have one

Well an advantage to slime girls is all one pussy, only monstergrill id have my objections to are centaurs, they're g spot is a forearm deep and unfortunately I don't have a 2 for long cock.. oh right AMA....uh who do you think would win in a fight? A really big hamster or a set of sentient Tupperware?

>Well an advantage to slime girls is all one pussy
I don't think it's quite that simple. It'd be like trying to fuck a normal grill in the arm. I'd imagine if they had any nerve endings just sticking your dick in them would probably hurt.
>only monstergrill id have my objections to are centaurs
You could just stick your arm in there.

>A really big hamster or a set of sentient Tupperware?
If the hamster can fit in the Tupperware, the Tupperware hands down. Could just suffocate the hamster.
>What is your ethic of life?
I don't think I have one?

What are your thoughts on dying.

BLOOD ON THE WALL
BLOOD ON THE FLOOR.

>You believe i'm smart
>This is true
>everything is just a belief
pick one

>No, it felt good to see them suffer.
why it feel good ?

>You have a distorted view of control
>the crazy one tell me my vision of control is distorded
kek

you are a "big boy"

>What are your thoughts on dying.
It's the order to the chaos that is life.
The bodies are no more
>pick one
wat
They are both the same.
>why it feel good ?
I dunno.
>the crazy one tell me my vision of control is distorded
What, because I'm crazy I'm not allowed to be correct? Are you sure you're not the crazy one?
Seems like a struck a nerve, you got awfully defensive, really quick.

And if the voices you hear her only the thoughts of your unconscious

>it felt good to see them suffer.
I am alive because that one is dead I exist because I have the will to do so.
Boethiah