>tfw never made any friends & 22 year old kissless virgin boy. Just came to realiziation that i'm going to be an old person one day & my brain is going to turn off one day & i'll die & i'll waste my life doing nothing but being a lonely person in my room all day
music for this feel pls
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your life is your life. Do with it what you want, and/or learn to want what you do. Meditate. Read. Socialize.
its hard to im too scared to do anything man ):
do you want to do anything?
can the mods ban these threads already.
the same albums get posted everytime.
can you kill yourself you degenerate tripfag
Is meditation recommendable and what can you achieve by doing it?
Depressed people usually dont make it to old age. They get heart disease or cancer and shit like that.
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It's never too late to learn the REAL reason why you are here
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Always the best when depressed for loneliness :)
>22
>Calling yourself a "boy"
Start by growing the fuck up. Jesus. Maybe that's why girls don't like you.
Thank god, too. Could you imagine growing to be a senile idiot withering away?
you first
no i'm just selectively mute & can't talk in social situations & never have. can't talk to boys or girls. Not sure why that of all things triggers you
>mfw a pretty hot girl who is into sonic youth asked me out on a date today
>mfw I'm a literal 3.5/10 and she's a 7/10
>mfw I turn her down because I know she's to pretty for me
Its not all that good user, it felt nice to be wanted but at the same time you know in the back of your mind she would never like the date, I share your pain.
somehow u have internet and access to a pc or smartphone. whoever is paying for those things. try talking to them to help you out
How do you get girls to ask you out?
t. 24 and never had that happen
>meditate. read.
2 useless things
i think i just need to get on anti-depressants man.. i cant talk to people other than my family just go to college & go back. so fucking scared.
>Not sure why that of all things triggers you
Imagine running across someone who claims to have nothing left. His spirit is broken, he lies limp on the sidewalk barely lifting a fist to shake at the world that has undone him so. Naturally you want to help the man up, and assure him that you can help him see a better day just behind the horizon. But when you get close he spits a pathetic mist at you and moans to leave him alone, all hope is lost. At first he does his every time you approach, but soon he continues to writhe and whine as long as he can see you. You've now spent hours trying to help this boneless figure find his humanity, yet he insists you are just trying to hurt him. At what point do you finally give up and leave them to their fate?
Either A) flirt with them until you can tell they like you and get them to admit it or B) they like your style of clothes/hair/musical tastes and they ask you outright.
It's really not that hard, I was just taken back by the fact that a attractive girl could be into me.
Yeah no shit
Friends and relationships can be shitty too, you're not really worse off than anyone else.
Jesus Christ is pot legal in your state, if it is just smoke tonnes of it, its the best thing for chilling the fuck out which it sounds like you need to do, calm down user.
>flirt with them
Welp. never mind. I can't even make eye contact with girls, especially cute ones.
>i think i just need to get on anti-depressants man..
no. you'll just become a zombie and end up worse when the withdrawal kicks in
try attending church
or join a music club
meds are the fucking worst.
Not necessarily, I have social anxiety problems and weed just gave me a panic episode. Being high was like living in a nightmare.
Now go and brag of thy present happiness, whosoever thou art, brag of thy temperature, of thy good parts, insult, triumph, and boast; thou seest in what a brittle state thou art, how soon thou mayst be dejected, how many several ways, by bad diet, bad air, a small loss, a little sorrow or discontent, an ague, &c.; how many sudden accidents may procure thy ruin, what a small tenure of happiness thou hast in this life, how weak and silly a creature thou art.
OP read this over and over until it makes sense.
>At what point do you finally give up and leave them to their fate?
probably not after suggesting to not call myself a "boy" as if it was perfect advice or if it even fucking matters dude
my only friend i have online suggested to smoke hookah or smoke weed too, but it's not legal here i'm on east coast & he's in california.. thing is is that i'm too scared to even go find out how to get weed or anything. i am not an ugly guy or not confident in my looks, i just don't know how to talk. I can only talk online outside of quick yes or no's. i just go to school & come home.
been thinking of depressing shit ever since i turned 22 a couple weeks ago & i just dont know what to do. Really really considering anti-depressants i'll try anything at this point instead of wasting my youth being sad
Read the Book of Job
>complaining about being a kissless virgin
>at 22
lmao casual
>. i am not an ugly guy or not confident in my looks, i just don't know how to talk.
nvm you don't have depression. you have egoism
you're too scared to acknowledge that you aren't shit
go watch mulholland drive lynch made it for people like you
and also. go date a fat chick or somebody you redeem "ugly" to lose your virginity
>inb4 no i don't wanna do it
So are you gonna sit their and wallow in your filth or are you gonna go out there and do something with yourself?
Don't victimize yourself, you lazy sack of shit. Do something. Google things to do. Download dating apps. Get some hobbies. Your life is ony as shitty as you let it become. Don't be the little bit h who makes excuses. There are no excuses. You let yourself become dominated by your shyness. Now its time to take back control. You're still young. Dont let yourself become that old man. Live fast, die young.
Hurt - Johnny Cash
>reading
>useless
Talk to people you suspect are potheads and ask them for a score, I've met three so far and I've only been on my course for a few weeks, the ones become my regular dealer, it feels good.
Well boo fucking hoo for you cunt, what are you gonna do, feel sorry for yourself every day the rest of your life? pathetic cunt.
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get a blow up doll. its like the real thing
Is this satire?
name one book thats still relevant
its truth
the bible
Nice trips brotherman
mein kampf
God tells them they will die if they eat the fruit. But they eat it and do not die. Is this a lie?
Able sacrifices to God and God is pleased. Yet he lets Cain murder Able. What purpose were Able's sacrifices? And that's just 6 pages in.
i know i'm not shit, i'm just saying that I'm not the typical ugly guy too scared to talk in social situations. I mean I used to be ugly & not be able to talk as well. & even after i grew up & started getting better looking & thinner & had better clothes it still doesn't help. I really don't have a fucking ego, i just have zero confidence & next to zero self-esteem.
i would love too go date anyone. Or just have one friend who i could connect with. I just can't calm down enough to fucking talk to people dude. It's more than just social acceptance from being a virgin or anything. I just cant calm down & talk to people. Look up selective mutism, it's a childhood disorder that I never got diagnosed with but it's absolutely what I have. Can't fucking talk.
I tried i'm going back to school in august & i'll try again. Guy who used to sit next to me smelled like what I probably thought was weed but never could ask him in a class or anything. Idk..
at this point i probably will. I dont want to though man. When i was a kid 15 & couldn't talk i thought everything would be better & i would be able to talk when i was older but shit never happened.
good book isn't it. god revealed how humans aren't loyal
also shoutouts to god for letting us know. women will always pick the bad boy aka the devil over betas like adam
>But they eat it and do not die. Is this a lie?
Really bro? I had no idea Adam and Eve were still around, do you still hang out with them?
I feel this, I hate when people just say to smoke weed to fix depression, if I'm around people I just get uncomfortable and weird
You should join Scientology, its given me my life back. And no, I dont give them any money.
Wow, thats sucks. Sorry i called you a cunt then.
t. Useless Idiot Human Waste
says the guy who convinced themselves theres anything valuable in literature
When does it mention they will have eternal life? It does not. And why is it good to have eternal life? Would I not be much more amused by a 60 year life riddled with worries and pains than eternal life as an animal?
How about you actually read the Bible, and then come to me with questions that aren't immediately answered in the text.
op here, side note i so wish i was a religious person. The older I get the worse I feel about my lack of belief in a god. Getting older makes me even more sad. I'd do anything to believe in a god, but I know I won't be able to truly believe it..
just listen to meme buddhism
saved this.. Not sure if serious or not, but man I'll try anything.
Has anti-depressants helped anyone here? Or any other previously depressed people? Because I just can't stop thinking bad thoughts & in public i'm just an anxious guy who would rather skip school to avoid group work than just sit there an introduce myself to someone.
Oh yeah? You can't answer that and neither did the Bible. It assumes everyone desires eternal life without pain. What a crock. Why would I want eternal life? Am I supposed to desire eternal life because... the Bible implies I should? I'm not well read in Buddhism, but I'm pretty sure the entire effort is to escape eternal life. And Buddhism long outlives Christianity. The Bible only seems mystical when you look at the world through cross tinted glasses.
someone told me that if I got a job I'd be a normie
I have a legit job and it's been three weeks and I am still a five star autist, fuck you user
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It's perfect
OP here I've also taken adderall since 2012 almost daily. Sometimes I skip it like today I'm not on it. Idk what to do man..
Seriously dude, in the Bible the Garden of Eden was a perfect place where there was no death, no evil, no shortcoming. It was like living in eternal perfection. They blatantly state that, it's your fault for being blinded by autistic rage.
you realize that the position you're holding is not a defensible one and that you're coming off like a total retard, right?
no death, no evil, no shortcoming
Sounds incredibly boring.
Why didn't god make existence for Adam and Eve a white 4 wall room with nothing inside? Isn't perfection the same in any environment?
>Existence was once perfect
>WOW SOUNDS BORING WHAT WOULD I BITCH ABOUT INCESSANTLY ON A CHINESE SEWING FORUM???
Lol my man idk what to tell you. I guess I'm glad you get so much happiness out of such a unnecessarily stressful life.
Unprescribed? Either way, stimulant addiction is not fun.
>22 year old kiss less virgin
I could take not having friends but I wouldn't be able to cope with this, Jesus. I guess all I can say is socialise more, Idk, maybe you'll meet someone. Fuck that seems rough. Most of the "depression" music I listen to relates to a relationship that actually happened in someway, so I'm not sure I'd be much of a help to you. Just know that life is all that you make it really and we're all going to die and anything that we achieve as humans isn't going to matter as whatever memory you leave behind will be destroyed when our planet collapses or civilization ends or whatever. Idk I find that somewhat comforting but I guess it could trigger an existential crisis. Get well soon user, mate.
perscribed of course.
that's the most depressing sad thought or "advice" that I try every day trying to stave off from dwelling on. God what a terrible thing to read.
existence was once perfect but god pulled an epic prank by creating a talking snake guy and places a booby trap in his garden of literal perfection forever.
i am now supposed to pretend this is real and become fulfilled by my pretending.
>Has anti-depressants helped anyone here?
my doctor gave me both xanax and ativan. first month it worked. then the tolerance kicked in and i had to up my dosage. then i had the worst withdrawals of my life that i was this close to necking myself
now i just exercise daily and force myself to talk to ppl.
Some classic Earl Sweatshirt. Depressive and creepy as hell.
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it's not addiction btw, it's from adhd or something. Idk but i take it think i should stop maybe it's not good.
sorry to hear that user. I ask because my mom & dad & everyone in my family really has a history of depression & takes anti-depressants. Mom says that if she misses taking them she just feels "off" or "weird". I'm definitely fearful of it getting worse like what you went through though. I usually hate taking pills & things.
Sorry I triggered you so hard. Jesus still loves you.
Don't come here, it will destroy whatever amount of spirit you have left.
Well neither of those are anti-depressants.
I was on zoloft a year, stopped cold turkey and didnt even notice.
>implication of rage which isn't there
Looks like I've unmasked the confidence trickster.
guessing it didnt help at all? Why didn't you try another anti-depressant then?
>tfw lonely and autistic
>tfw not even attractive enough to fill the hole with one night stands
thanks mom and dad for your shit tier life ruining genetics
nope just satan giving you false hope.
The newer supposedly better ones dont have generics yet and I dont have insurance. Paxil helped me but I just kept smoking weed which kind of negates the anti depressant. I kind of like being depressed to tell u the truth.
>I could take not having friends but I wouldn't be able to cope with this, Jesus.
Nigger please. I've talked to virgins in their thirties.
Protip: If you get into the right state of mind, all music is depression music
It's how I've lived my life for as long as I can remember
why what are the benefits? endless suffering?
:(
Yeah dog I had AVPD and depression for the past 4 years then about a month ago I just took back control of my life.
I had never spoken about this with anyone I know in real life and I literally couldn't connect with anyone despite having "friends". I know whats it's like, it's lonely and isolating even though you are surrounded by people. I couldn't smoke weed either it would just make my symptoms worse.
I can't give you any advice, but what happened to me was that I just completely stopped giving a shit what others said about me. Be honest with yourself and you know what needs to be done to fix your problem. Therapy barely does shit.
Okay, confidence trickster.
i think i'm in that mindstate, even the poppiest cheerful music has depressing undertones & things that come off sad to me. I just want something soothing to help me
how did you stop caring? I wish I could & I've been close to this but I still just can't stop caring about what other say or feel about me. I just come off as a no personality quiet guy
It's the one hope I still have in life, they managed to forcibly revive me through a full 24 hours of intensive care in an ICU but all I have to do is continue eating excessively and lying on the floor every day and I'll die soon enough, there's no cure for depression that has already lasted for over a decade.
Think about it like this.
Your brain is going to shut off and die one day no matter what you do, no matter how safe you play it, you'll get old and die. So why not go balls to the wall to turn your life into everything you've ever wanted? I know it's not very deep advice but if you fully commit yourself to it it could make you happy. Just food for thought
When I'm down I like the Alan Parson Project's Tales of Mystery and Imagination
Don't blame your parents for your lack of game. Anyone can get laid. Literally anyone.
i've thought of it like that but you know...easier said than done I guess. I've had my mindset on "lifes short who cares I'll just go out & I dont care about what these people see of me or think of my I'm just going to say what ever" & it just ends up with me silently panicking & too scared to say anything or make eyecontact or move or anything.
Thank you for your recommendation I'll listen to them after this.
the only trickster that exists is satan
Theres some kind of electronic device they can install in your brain I saw on 60 minutes. It supposedly works big time.