When I was little (about 6) my family moved across the state and needed a place to stay while we got set up...

When I was little (about 6) my family moved across the state and needed a place to stay while we got set up. My uncle let us stay at his apartment. Somehow I ended up sleeping alone with my brother and uncle in the living room for 2 years

Wake up in the middle of the night... Some nights, if I was lucky, he was just touching me. Other nights, I would have his dick in my mouth.. Other nights it was much worse.

I never told anyone about it because I felt like it was my fault. Now looking back I'm not sure I was even a victim. A part of me thinks I liked it. Do i need help?

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You probably seduced him, you little whore.

you got raped and i think it’s fine you enjoyed it but you still got raped and if you want to ruin your uncles life over his urge to nut you can.

your pretty fucked tbh

"A part of me thinks I liked it."

That is completely normal. When control is taken away from us, the mind stretches to compartmentalize it and take that control back. To survive the situation. Most girls into the extreme rape fetishes are survivors. They seek to relive the experience in a safe environment where they are in control (safe word, they can stop it, it is with someone they trust and love).

"Do i need help?"

Yes, you do. Seek a therapist with experience in dealing with early childhood trauma. Be careful, there are a ton of therapists that suck and will fuck you up more. Do lots of research.

if this is true, you were raped.
victims often feel guilty and are confused they might have "deserved" the abuse they received.
>seek professional help

I know how you feel OP my mom used to rub my back and I would fall asleep. One night, she played with my cock and balls, I was 12 at the time. It felt really good, she sucked me off until I came in her mouth. I was confused but I liked it. She made me eat her pussy whenever we were alone.

(not OP)
Holy fuck, that sounds awful.
If you don't mind me asking, how long did that go on for and did you seek professional help?

Op here

How old are you now? How did you deal with it

I haven't. I do any and all drugs I can get my hands on. I'm a hermit, don't work a job and will most likely kill myself before the year is over. I've never had a girlfriend because I can't trust anyone. I hate myself so much.

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Seek professional help. Probably should talk to a male therapist

Tf is the source to this?

Don't know bro lol found it on tmblr it's gone to shit these days but decent porn

Fucking hell, is this pathetic display of Reddit faggotry because Sup Forums really is dead, or is it just because of fucking summerfags?

What a disgrace this thread is.

>Seek a therapist
don't

Shut your fucking face, uncle fucker.

I had it saved until yesterday when I deleted a shit load of porn.

It's really, really common here and on /gif/, newfag. Go check there.

Fucking hell. That's horrendous.

I can imagine being made to suck your own dad's cock would be weird af and pretty gross, but I imagine it wouldn't be /that/ gross. But eating your own mom out...that's fucking horrid.

You poor soul. I experienced some super fucked up physical abuse that has messed me up pretty fucking bad, but nothing compared to that. I've done my best to overcome it, made huge progress. Never give up.

>things that happened

its been dead since day one fam

see Sup Forums hasn't really changed that much at all

OP here

Sup Forums was dead before summer and this post lol

his uncle ruined his own life

or maybe more sympathetically his uncles genes/environment/history ruined his life

It's not just this incident that set my death in motion. Several times now, I find my gun safe keys. Take out my .38 magnum and I swear I'm going to do it. Forwhatever reason I don't pull the trigger, maybe I'm a coward, maybe it's divine intervention. All I want to do is to be able to be happy, to finally get a good nights sleep. My past haunts me like a cancer, during the day I get flashbacks to all the bad times in my life. Sometimes these flashbacks feel more real than the moment I'm currently in. I relive these moments over and over. Ive refrained from alcohol for all this time, but I know that when I finally decide to really drink, that day I'm going to blow my brains out. All that and being perpetually alone has put the nails in the coffin.

Those were both me, so I don't think it really counts.

Are you a guy or a girl?

Guy

You're a bonafide bastard.

OP here
Your situation sounds horrible tbh especially with a parent. Do you keep in contact with her?

Of course he is in contact still. He's broken, no doubt a homo, and probably still wants her at his wedding to his faggot boyfriend some day.

unqualified unsolicited advice time

1. CBT or meditation can help you control your thoughts, you probably identify with your thoughts (that is to say you *are* what you are thinking) but that isnt really true. We arent slaves to what our brains choose to think, we can (with practice) learn how to control our thoughts (we cant get full control however). for instance if you think of a bad experience you can learn how to quickly change your thought pattern to something else. Breathing Meditation is the practice of focusing your attention solely on your own breathing, attention/focus is like a muscle than can be trained.
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2. context and activity keep our mind focused externally. Context means existing within something, a social group, a family, a workplace, a team. Finding a context and then deriving goals and meaning from that context is how humans can be happy long term. Drugs, sex, etc can give dopamine rushes and make us feel good but they arent what lead to long term satisfaction.


tl;dr
create a meaningful life through context and learn to minimize the harm done by negative thoughts

She overdrafted my dads bank account by over $3500, sold most of my toys. Gave the debit card to her dealers and let them buy groceries and take out money for themselves. Forged checks. My father was deathly sick, she would steal his painkillers and told us kids he wasn't feeling well. During this time she let the house go into preforclosure and she split. Never seen/talked to her since. I'm 24 now.

I've never gotten why people put so much negative attention on things of

this nature. I mean, sure, it's not an ideal living condition, and maybe you undersold the severity of the situation but was it really that bad that you fuck up your whole life over it?

When you look at all of the truly terrible things that happen in the world, this sort of pales in comparison. And yes, you're in a bad spot what with the drugs, and that'll be a tough spot to get out of considering the world we are in, but if some other asshole on the other side of the world can pull his life together to continue on, don't you think you can too?

First world problems, and first world attitudes.

Spoilt fucking babies who don't know how to pull their fucking socks up and soldier on.

Easy to speak about something that has never happened to you. You would be singing a whole different tune, I promise you.

What makes you think I wasn't abused, faggot? Don't presume, it's embarrassing.

It's easier for some people to subconsciously stay a victim. It gives them an excuse for anything that goes wrong in their life, when they fuck up they can blame it on their abuse. It's not always something they're aware of, but the victim complex can be deeply entrenched.

>It's easier for some people to subconsciously stay a victim
i totally agree and i think 'learned helplessness' is huge factor in depression

but
saying
>Spoilt fucking babies who don't know how to pull their fucking socks up and soldier on.
does zero to help anyone or change this situation

I lived with guilt and shame for 33 years never saying a word
Im old enough to be a grandfather now and my life is in shambles

Do something to resolve most of this soon ... time isnt your friend here

I can't blame the nigga, you were probably pretty tight

why is that picture like pseudo 3d

You don't have a degree in psychology, so everything you say is utter bullshit. The way you speak is that of a teenager who has something to prove, but really doesn't know much about anything. You're a liar, everyone can see this. Like I said, you can't speak about something you've never been through. Go to sleep, kid.

>does zero to help anyone

I'm not a therapist, I'm a guy on the internet telling you how I see it based on quite a lot of experience and common sense. If you want information to actually help, don't ask on fucking Sup Forums.

"Get over it and man the fuck up" is my advice, and if that's not good enough, then seek professional help and stop whining on the internet.

Experience with what, exactly? You said you're not a psychologist, so how did you require this knowledge? You don't know a fucking thing, go back to lurking. You're wasting everyone's time spouting something that a 5 year old could muster.

Sex hurts children, period. I mean, imagine having a white hot slab of meat sliding into your rectum, filling you up from the bottom, a penis so big around that its girth presses out into your insides so hard that you can feel the contour of every throbbing vein. It's so enormous you can't help but grip it like you're hanging on for your very life. There are giant strong hands squeezing on your hips that almost wrap all the way around, like when you were held as a baby, kneading you. Behind you low grunts from lungs four times as big as yours, belonging to a powerful protective loving man, needing you. Soft sweaty hair against your behind as the penis gently, at first, pushes your organs out of its way. Your heart beats in your throat, as if the penis is pushing it all the way up there. Your skin seems to burn hotter and hotter as the pushes into you get faster. Eventually there's an even greater swelling inside you, so much that you think you're going to burst open, moaning somewhere, and then the penis shrinks, slides out of you, and you're left feeling empty but tingling all over with a warm spot in your center. Later there is a sadness because you know that you're growing so fast that you'll never be filled up quite as much as you just have been. But you can't wait for the next time.

I don't owe you any sort of explanation, and you will simply disregard me anyway, but if you must know I've dealt with abuse both first hand, growing up with 2 little brothers and an abusive step dad, and my wife was abused as a child by her father and his friends, including numerous rapes when she was aged 8 - 12.

For years, she was just like the idiots on this thread, blaming everything on her abuse, all her failures and fucked up ways. I saw her snap out of it and realise she was being a selfish idiot, and now she's not that way anymore. She manned the fuck up.

The same applied for both me and one of my brothers. My mother laid down with depression and died because of my step dad's abuse, and my other brother is still in the self-pitying whining stage. I think I know what I'm talking about.

And it's "acquire" faggot, not "require".

I'm married now, have a full-time job, just had my first kid and life is looking alright for my future.

Having a kid of my own now has just made me look back at my own thinking as a child. At the time I didn't know it was wrong, no one had really talked to me about it, so I didn't feel threatened. It became a want to please an elder so to speak

I (m) was molested my uncle, and my experience was a lot more like this pasta than OP's pasta.

Actually mine was like this too, I was just having trouble expressing it so eloquently

Why do I have a boner?

Because you're easily manipulated.

Because you have a fetish for things that happened to you.

Remember that time in the middle school hallway? Yeah, you like that, don't you?

That really sucks OP, and you should seek some mental help

However, i was molested by my friends dad from 13-18 and i got some mental help though i didnt really take advantage of it - but im basically a fine and normal human

Youre life isnt over. Youll be fine. God helped me a lot. (Inb4 how can you believe in God after he let that happen to you? ; it wasnt God that did it to me, it was my friends dad.)

God helped me though a lot of hard times in my life. Hes been by my side as i walk throufh the valley of the shadow of death, and i fear no evil because his presence comforts me.

I hardly ever think of the abuse anymore, and when i do it doesnt really bother me. Its just like "yeah, okay, that happened - but i got over it just fine".

Try not to play to victim card on yourself, it will only make it worse. You're strong and youll make it through this. This experiance doesnt define who you are as a person.

Make good decisions in life OP - pray to Christ for help - dont repeat this vicious cycle - youll be just fine

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>believes in God

Your opinions is automatically invalid. Retards are not to be listened to.

What does that have to do with anything?

>Tfw you're only 8 once

glad someone said it

>inb4 edgelord athiests: "god isn't real"

Have you checked Jordan Peterson, user? That could help. Check him on YouTube

Well the God parts of it should be ignored, but the "don't think about the bad. That way it can't affect you (assuming we are only talking about things that you perceive as harmful, not like "there's a hurricane, ah well, back to work.")" is solid.

>applying your fetishes to others online
You can stop projecting now

I already know that there is no point in arguing with athiest retards because they wont listen and they automatically ignore any points that you make just to point out the fact that you believe in God and they don't for no reason.

Have a good life user.

is it crusade time?

Whats your point user? We aren't arguing for/against pedo anything here. We're helping an user out because they were raped... ????

After OP is secured. Athiests die before muzzies

>WTF

Watches at 0$??

I'd like to hear some of these valid reasons. Trust me, I'm not a retard (well, I'm on Sup Forums but I mean I'm less of a retard than the ones you are talking about), I'll hear what you have to say. Hell, my belief on the whole "God" thing is that there may be one out there, but due to some inconsistencies in the books out there right now, I can't make myself think that any of the highly worshipped gods exist.

So in short, there may be some god, but it seems that the ones worshipped right now are out there to make money.

how much time did you spend to make that joke

OP here
It's not something that I have let hold back my life. I am happily married and have a child of my own.
No disrespect to you, but I don't see religion in my near future. I am just trying to come to terms with it now.

take it easy, L Ron

OP are you a guy or a grill?

It's not about the atheist being an atheist, that's not important here. The issue is the religiousfag.

There's a very valid reason for not listening to people who believe in God.

They're mentally broken retards automatically, so how the fuck could they be trusted on any other matter? It's not complicated.

Are you me?

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I am a grill
I am tripping on acid right now, and the more I look at this the trippier it gets

amazing, i am thoroughly impressed

>was it really that bad that you fuck up your whole life over it?

In my case, I think it was a trauma that completely fucked up my worldview happened at such a young age and was so constant for so long, it was NORMAL and all I really knew. I don't really think I've intentionally fucked up my life, but I don't blame anyone. I'm very fatalistic. The worlds gonna keep spinnin til the sun expands to a red giant and consumes it. By that time I, and every last trace of us, will likely long be dust.

I kinda got "Total Perspective Vortexed" at about ages 5 if anyone knows the reference. I haven't been to Nam or nuthin, but I've seen some shit.

I dont speak for catholics or protestants or anything because a lot of them seem to be up to some sort of financial scam - but i pay tithing to my orthodox church because it helps my church stay afloat and provide nice things for the laity in my community. My priest is by no means a rich man, nor is anybody in our church.

The orthodox church doesnt have any sort of financial-higher-ups that they need to pay atrocious amounts of money to. Thats how Christ intended it.

Even still, i dont go to church to give them money. I go to church because i love going and i always feel happiness and kindness there. I feel like all the problems in my life are just washed away. Same with when i pray.

I use to have an alcohol problem, and once i quit, i just couldnt get myself to stop craving for it. All i did is say 1 little dinky heartfelt prayer and i didnt crave a drink anymore.

Same with my molestation story. No more worries user. God is with me now and always has been, i just had to ask for His help.

I'm not trying to preach here, but you asked, and i feel that its at least a little bit of my duty to give you the chance to acceot Christ. I usually dont talk about it unless people ask - i dont think forcing religion down peoples throats is right.

But He helped me with everything i ever needed, and comforted me in dark times and brought me back to the light. I dont worry about my molester anymore, or my passed father, or anything like that. I feel saved now user, and i hope you are someday too.

Religiousfag here. You proved my point

(op)
this is what happened to me. It happened when I was so young that it was just normal to me and didn't see it as wrong at the time. Now I haven't really let it hold my life back I just think I have a fucked up way of looking at things

couldn't have said it better myself

Thanks anonbro

Oh yeah? Well you still didn't even grasp mine.
>just to point out the fact that you believe in God and they don't for no reason.

Atheists don't point out the fact you believe in God and they don't for no reason, unless they're being a fucking pointless spastic.

What they will do, however, is point out that you have a mental illness you admit to. You believe in God, you're admitting you're fucking broken. So why the hell would your opinion matter?

No rational, sensible, logical person, or even a person with the slightest semblance of intelligence, would listen to anything an admitted mentally ill person has to say. That's why atheists ridicule you. Because you're retarded, and too fucking dumb to realise it.

Why do you think so many abused people find religion?

It's no fucking surprise. Religions are the most abusive thing going. Replacing one abusive father with another, all powerful, King of Abusive fathers.

God is the most fucked up abuser you could possible imagine.

so if I believe that niggers are mentally ill, i can uppercut their entire culture with genocide?

Nice.

First thing, isn't it weird how everything comes down to religion

Second, if you don't believe in God, it sucks to suck, but that's your choice. I'd rather believe in something with an upbeat life because of hope of an afterlife than a bitter, hateful life based on the "inevitability of death"

Further proving my point. GJ

First you have to prove they're mentally ill. Niggers don't all believe in a magical man, like religioustards do. There's plenty of evidence that religious faith is a mental illness, but of course you wouldn't pay any attention to it. There's a serious issue with the double standards of society, you believe the voices in your head, your schitzo and they lock you up in a secure facility. Unless the voices tell you they're God, in which case you're a religiousfag like all the other fucking mental cases who believe such nonsensical garbage.

And what the fuck does genocide have to do with anything you fucking sociopath?

What was it like the first time your uncle did more than just touching you or putting his dick your mouth?

Who is having a hateful, bitter life?

Atheists have fucking amazing lives because we realise this is the only one we have. Better make the most of it and not waste it on invisible, make believe deities who clearly don't exist to anyone with half a brain cell.

Why do religious people always think atheists are scumbags? It's really ironic.

The reason I don't like religions based on a concept of heaven and hell is because (from what I've seen/ the people I've talked to) the events of this world are temporary. So they go on saying love each other, do good, etc., but ultimately, they have no motivation to fix issues in this world, because it is only temporary.

I think of it as when I'm playing a game. While I'm in the game, the choices I make affect what I'm experiencing, but I know that once I turn it off, it all goes away and has no bearing. Sure, I could spend the small effort to rebuild that part of town, but ultimately, why, when I can move on to this next great title?

Why do athiests always get so aggressive? Christ helped me when i needed it and i shared my story. All of a sudden a wild athiest appears to further prove my point that God brings people to the light while athiests live in anger, hate, and darkness.

Theres no point in arguing with them. I'm not a psychologist, I can't help them.

You don't think that everyone born on this earth isn't mentally ill do you? Who are you to judge someone based on their beliefs? If it doesn't matter, then why do you care so much about religionfags? Why not just let them believe their "lies" and go on with something that makes them happy?

Mentally, at the time I didn't really feel any different. I just thought my uncle had stepped it up a little bit and I needed to tough it out

Physically, it was painful and cold. I was a 6 year old lol

Atheists have yet to prove me wrong

What do you guys think created the universe?

Because we are tired of you spreading your hypocrisy and bullshit. And most importantly, we're SICK AND TIRED OF YOU HOLDING US BACK.

You've been doing your damage long enough. If it weren't for religions, there's absolutely no telling how advanced our society could be by now.

And if you think I'm being aggressive... seriously, you must be new to the internet. I really am just amazed that such a lack of basic intelligence can still exist on this planet. We went through the enlightenment and you're still spouting your medieval, dark-aged garbage, it's incredible.
And then you have the nerve to suggest it's us who are living in anger, hate and darkness, when that's your ENTIRE ETHOS.

We fight you because you're holding us back, retard.
Get the fuck out of our way and let humanity move forward for a change.

It was cold?

You have PTSD, get medicinal cannabis, it will help with the sleep