Hi Sup Forums. Im a 20 year old male who is in love with his male best friend who's 23.
A year and a half ago I moved to study at the university and immediately made best friends with this dude. About 9-10 months later, I realised I am in love with him and this is the first time I've fallen for a man.
We spend A LOT of time together studying, gym three times a week, watching TV or hanging out (also doing a fair amount of weed, MDMA, mushrooms and LSD).
Overall, I have never had a psychological relationship like this one, and we have developed an almost immediate understanding of each other.
That being said, Im quite sure he knows that I love him more than just a best friend.
I can tell with certainty that he has a lot of love for me, as he has developed a few situations which were eerily romantic (especially when stoned), but I can't say with 100% (maybe 70%) that it's the same way.
Months ago, before this escalated to what it is, he moved in with his girlfriend of 4 years and they have a very healthy and stable relationship, and I can genuinely say Im happy for them.
I also know her quite well, and I honestly think their relationship is based on an agreement that none of them want to be alone. They do love each other, but I consider it a somewhat shallow relationship, although that doesn't matter now.
The problem here is: I can't really move on. I don't want to talk openly about this to him because, despite it being quite obvious to all of us, it would definitely damage our relationship and I dont want to do that.
This is making dating other people quite difficult because I simply dont have interest in others, male or female.
Im quite good-looking and confident, and could easily start dating 9/10s because I've had them contact me first, but I just don't care.
How can I move on from him?
Should I attempt to stay away? pic unrelated