Ok Sup Forums let me tell you a little story. this is all factual and true

Ok Sup Forums let me tell you a little story. this is all factual and true.

I did bdsm porn as a submissive. I got the number of one of the girls. We started kicking it off, but I could tell she was using me for money. But since she was hot AF I stuck around.

I found out that she was addicted to heroin and tried to get her off it. She left the guy she was with and started living with me. I had to watch her inject herself with h and slowly kill herself. It was heart breaking. Since she was doing 100$ of heroin a day she had to escort. She was escorting before I met her.

So I started driving her around to her appointments and she would make money and get h. My family kicked us out so we were homeless. We continued escorting around socal and slept in my car, other times in motels. This was a first hand view into the life of an addict, its very crazy. Mind you I never did H or had any experience with it. If you dont get it, the withdrawals are terrible.

So I ended up getting mad one day because she made me wait 5 hours while she was off with her drug dealer. I abandoned her but we stayed in contact. She asked me for money again and I helped her under the pretense that we would get back together, but that never happened. She stole a lot of my stuff and I lost a lot of money after interacting with this girl.

Now I am somewhat depressed and think life is pointless after seeing such a sad story up front and personal. She is only 21 and hooked on H. What a sad life. Also rip to all the money I lost.

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what a shame, dont do drugs

naww

What a boring thread.

I hope you find something that you truly love in this world

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Thank you. I am really heart broken and have had some suicidal ideation but wont go through with it.

I am really a loving person and want a girlfriend to love fully. It's just sad that my emotions over rode my logic and I went for this one.

I take it back. What a shame, she seems like she has a genuine smile

It's all an act. She is one of the most vile users of people that I have ever met. She fucked and sucked for as little as 180$ just to get her next hit. She is literally evil but my captain save a hoe got triggered and now I am left mentally damaged and with lighter pockets.

Never trust a how who drinks "filtered milk" lmao

>I will save her!
But OP she is a drug addict and already used you just for money, literally, and also she is the reason you got kicked out
>ok yeah I will leave her

>hey op I need money

>here you go babe, omg I willl save her from drugs!


I bet you thought it was going to be like a movie tale, the hot girl with problems at the end realising you truly loved her for who she was.... lol just kill yourself fucking loser and stick to white knighting girls through Sup Forums unless you want to get robbed from all your money again dumbfuck


I am so glad this happened to a pussy like you

I fell in love with her. I'm not ashamed about that.

I'm a caring person and I did everything I could to get her off h and yes I got used and abused.

Again, stick to being a white knight online unless you want to ensnare up homeless and with debts just to lend money to the cute grils you think only need to realise how good of a guy you are to finally love you

not him but as a submissive i think you wanted what happened to you deep down but now that you know really what it feels like youre hurt. also it sounds like you gave up really quickly when one sentence she moves in and the next youre enabling her. you never HAD to do anything

You talk like you can't control your feelings and that's alright. It's not. We keep saying it, you are a faggot and got fucked cuz you are a faggot.

It will happen to you again, unless you stop being a faggot.

I just couldn't resist. I really wanted to help her get off heroin but she refused to go to rehab. In the end it was her manipulating me to enable her thats right. But what was I going to do? Just let her get sick?

Holy shit are you that cuck in the picture? I'm de ad

She looks a bit too healthy for a smack head
Was this taken before she got on the H ?

The problem is you are a dumb white knight who thinks "being there to her" is the way to get any girl... if you truly were a caring person you would be helping MALE drug addicts as well, which I doubt you are, so basically you just want a gentleman way to get girls

Fucking cuck

You deserve this punishment for letting the bitch rob your for heroin money and give nothing in return. Fucking retard

You can lead a camel OP...wise up, you deserve better.

yeh
No she was on h since before I met her
Not just any girl though. I was in love with her, not drug addicts in general.

It's not about her, it's about you. You couldn't control yourself. You have a primary responsibility with yourself..

You could've helped her by showing that someone she knows, can and does control himself.

You were not helping her, you were supporting her. When you have an underage kid, you support them. When they reach adulthood, you should only help. You can't keep providing as you did, or they will be worse off as time goes on.

I got a few blow jobs lol...

Never fucked her though cus I dont want any stds.

We don't choose whom to 'love', OP, but we certainly choose what we can do about it. It is often best to not chase those/what you love or linger on them. Life isn't Disney.

look we were homeless and living in my car. I had to take her to her appointments and wait for her so that took all my time. She would make the money then we would have to get h, then choose to sleep in the car or a hotel. thats 200 bucks a day down the drain. I literally was in the situation where I had no choice except keep doing what she wanted or leave. I don't expect anybody who does not have first hand experience with an h addict to understand. They have to get black or ELSE.

I'm trying to accept that we are over. I still dwell on the past and how I could have done things differently. This has just left me in a deep depression. I still want her, but logically I know it will only continue a downward spiral. Why would I live the life of a junkie if I'm not one? All I know is that I was happy when I was around her, but now that shes gone I have no existential meaning especially after seeing the depths of human deprivation. Imagine watching her stab herself with a needle repeatedly for an hour in a panic because blood is going into the syringe and ruining the shot before she can find a vein. That will mentally scar you.

You talk as if it was your 10 year old wife who got a drug problem, or you you sister... it was just some random slut who you "fell in love with"
Which I highly doubt you had any valid reason to since she just used you for money and drugs so I doubt you had loving moments together

Basically you just got a crush on a girl and decided to be a white knight would make her realise you were different than the guys she likes

>getting PTSD from someone else's addiction

lol, OP, you are some piece of work. how about you try to not be such a faggot all the time? like get a job and stop being fucked up the ass and live on your own. then maybe you can actually have a real relationship

I am living on my own. I moved to las vegas after we broke up. I have 12 bitcoins so I am not broke. but my only income now is uber. the issue is I am heart broken and just depressed and low energy all the time.

Whats wrong with being fucked in the ass and doing porn? U know all the porn you guys fap to, those are real people. I'm one of them. I cam sometimes too.

What you are not understanding is that we are not talking about her, we are talking about you.

You put yourself at risk because of your lack of self control.

You made her situation worse, because you supported her then out of the sudden just quit. Had you done this earlier, and offered to HELP, maybe the situation would'be been different.

the problem is you are a degenerate faggot

im a fucking heroin addict and i posted
yes you do let her go sick. The other guy said you cant control your emotions. hes right. But you CAN control your actions

any questions for a fuckin black tar degenerate?

she said she loved me too.

different than the guys she likes? I was the only one there for her while we were together. It wasn't a like or dislike thing, it was a survival thing. We did have loving moments. I loved her more than anything. the idea that she just used me for drugs and money while I was feeling some transcendental sense of true love is crushing. I her head game was just that good I suppose. I have a video but don't know if I should post it because people will save it and it might effect her.

and yes that is raven bay in the pic lol.

Hey dude, you lived a movie-type drama, fucked a good looking gal, have money to blow on this sort of bulllshit.
And you're probably from a first world country, if not America.

So fuck you.

If you have all this time, money and energy to spend on a worthless whore, then why don't you hit me up and we can do something actually worthy of your effort.

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>I am living on my own. I moved to las vegas after we broke up. I have 12 bitcoins so I am not broke. but my only income now is uber. the issue is I am heart broken and just depressed and low energy all the time.
>Whats wrong with being fucked in the ass and doing porn? U know all the porn you guys fap to, those are real people. I'm one of them. I cam sometimes too.
You sound pretty beta but you seem solid enough to get yourself back on your feet if you need to.

Just keep going and if you keep trying good things will come of it. You won't see any open doors if you're not looking for them.

We often get stuck to want something we couldn't get because our ego cannot handle the failure. You 'need' it more than you 'want' it. Especially if you say you only got bj. You gave so much and got so little, if by some mysterious reason I could snap my fingers and you got the same right now... you would be over her 100%.

I know it seems impossible to believe but that is how it works. In many ways, you are equally an addict.

I laughed so fucking hard, my sides

>We often get stuck to want something we couldn't get because our ego cannot handle the failure.

The reason my life is shit right now.

Post it

look if I didn't help her get black she would get it some other way. I was playing the long game, hoping we would make money and get by until she decided she wanted to quit. I can't forcefully drag her into rehab. If I didnt take her to her appointments and to get black, then she would rage at me and even hit me. She would get it one way or the other. addicts dont quit until THEY want to.
I did offer to help. I offered to get her into rehab which she made every effort into avoiding. I was put in very risky situations, dealing with drug dealers with guns and literally being a pimp I guess. Though I was losing money. I do lack self control I own that. I left her because I was really mad, but guess what, she survived and is still surviving...somewhere.

It is not the same for every human, but it is what happened with me. I wanted this girl so bad, she wasn't an h addict but had problems. I was literally useful idiot, family had money too.

Eventually I was lucky enough to fuck her a few times.
All the things I thought I felt, love and longing and desire and shit. Vanished in thin air, man. Like learning there's no Santa. You can help yourself somehow, if you are anywhere near 30% me just make sure you understand the problem is superficial. And go from there.

dude, any interaction with a human beign its a gamble, this time you loss, dont let a bitch fuck up your entire future, also, you will never be able to control other person actions

i just told you im a fuckin addict so maybe you should listen to someone who has ACTUAL first hand experience trying to help you with their fucked up knowledge. And you answered everything right there. they wont change UNLESS THEY WANT TO. Theyre not going to change if they have some deer eyed guy driving them to their fuck spots and providing every route of enabling. Youve proven right here how thick you are though, so why are you posting? Is it because youre so submissive you just wanted people to ridicule you for how used you are? I not those dicks harping you with insults because i think youre just extremely fuckin confused deep down and as a junkie i can sympathize. But your vice doesnt fucking own you physically and every other facet you can imagine so for the love of god just stop

mate, you seem like a decent guy but this shit is done. dont date where you work. dont date fuck ups no matter how hot they are. you had a sometime and thats done now. go find another girl and move on.

such as?
I know I am smart and can come up, but I see no point now after experiencing the bottom tier of society and life.
I can though, I know the escort industry from the inside, I can fuck for 140$ but I choose not to. I was addicted to her, I'll admit that easily.
I'm glad one of us is getting some sort of fulfillment I suppose.
I though I was wise to the ways of women seeing how my life has been filled with them, but this junkie really threw me for a loop.
I feel like everything is pointless now, why look to the future even.

youtube.com/watch?v=IbYviLfKVjo

Why did you not watch her shoot a heroine needle up her buttcrack and then violently fuck her while screaming in her ears after? You're a faggot op, she deserved someone better

There are some researches that indicate most drug addictions are not due to the drug itself as a substance, but due to the impact it has on a person's life. The druggies don't want to quit or go to rehab because their life feels great. It is like asking someone happy in a family to break up. They will laugh at you.

No addict ever quits unless they find a healthy replacement to the feelings provided by H. I assume you were hoping to be this repladement and you just weren't, so it stings. I am honestly sorry but you must gather your losses and move on and not fall in the same trap yourself.

Could you fuck her for 140$?

I think my case boils down to some key factors:

>Pride
>Shame
>Time Invested
>Need (Kinda can't let go of the bone, or else I won't have anything to eat)

There are numerous business ideas we could work on together.
I've walked my share of paths and acquired my current set of skills, and you must've too.

I don't really care to discuss things openly for all too see though..

ok think about this, you are depressed....NOW
Its okay to think that everything its pointless, but its childish to not gorw your pain away, dude, stop listening to that thougths, look inside and you will find that you still have a place for all that its good in this world, you will recover, you have to force yourself to believe, not in a higher power, but in the fact that you will be better than now

>druggie spic gf
Wow new low even for Sup Forums

stds..I was driving her around to get fucked and she did bbfs (bareback full service)

so yeah.

Time invested is a bad argument. Imagine having a successful dvd renting business that's starting to go down. Are you going to hold on to it and lose because you invested years of time before that? No. Cut your losses.

Shame is also relatively bad. Shame is more or less yourself making fun of you. You generally need to make sure you are not ashamed of mistakes, they are what help us grow.

Need is understandable, but then again I'm pretty sure once you snap out of wanting to eat the femur bone you will realize the humerus is just as good. Or like I said eat the damn thing to realize it is nothing special.

I think if I post a video of me getting a bj you guys will understand better why I was so entranced.

Well lets see

Even without vid I can imagine, I've put myself in the dick of crazy blowjobs and I know I would want it forever. But 'love'? I doubt I'll ever love a blowjob master.

But yea post it.

I feel you.
Fretting over wasted time is worthless.
Shame is also me against me, but it's not about being feeling ashamed...

What I was trying to say was another word.

It's wanting not to fail, in order to ease someone else's heart. Make things easier on other people.

But then again. Maybe they don't mind it too much. Maybe it's just me caring this much about other people and disregarding my own well-being.

I would much rather see her tits n ass since it seems to be the only worthwhile thing about her.

But post away. Beggars cant be choosers.

watch it while you can
youtu.be/HaSiqeUCOQ4

Well fuck.... She sucks a dick like a champ, I'll give you that. And a banging little body.

Plz share more of her naked?

yeah just walk away bro, destructive people can't always change. imagine sucking this many dick daily wtf of course you hate life and do drug and enjoy making people miserable.

run man, you deserve better, but don't be an idiot, this is life teaching you a lesson right there and a clear one.

mess it up again and pay the price man, you do you

Noice! More?

Damnit. Has OP left us hangin now?

Thanks for the advice. The thing that crushes me is that she could be rich and have the world. instead she chooses to be addicted to h and an escort. It hurts that she chose the drug life over me.

how can someone so beautiful be so evil? Literally my trust for humanity has been destroyed.

I want to learn the lesson. but I feel life is pointless now shes gone after everything that I went through and experienced with her.

Lately I've just been isolating with almost no social contact except driving uber/clubs/gym when I want to. Im literally spiraling into insanity/depression. My degree in philosophy definitely is not helping my existential crisis at all lol.

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no more comments? kk its on private now lol.

sauce op?

Wait!

>I got involved in a business in which all parties are sleazy pieces of shit that lack any morals
>I thought it would be a good idea to try and date some girl that has no problem being naked in front of millions of people
>I realized she was a train wreck of an addict
>so I decided to give her money and let her move in
>I fell deeply in love with this addict even though I knew she saw me as nothing more than a piggy bank
>I sacrificed my own life, the relationship with all of my friends and family, and wound up homeless to help a random addict whore
>I left all of my things alone with an addict and now all of my stuff, my money, and everything I gave her are gone because she steals and abuses people but I thought shed treat me different
>I know I fucked up in every way imaginable
>because I fucked up my life by getting used by an addict whore life is obviously meaningless and I should end it all
wow dude.. its like you are incapable of learning a lesson.

>hurr and even though she robbed me blind and used me in every imaginable way Im still going to defend her honor
lol yea dude, you are right where you belong.
you are not a man, youre not even a boy. You are just an object for trash to use and throw to the side.

How much you get paid per scene op?

nawww

I posted a video of her blowing me and 50 people saw it so thats not really defending her honor.

Every single point that you wrote is true and thats exactly how it went down. fuck my life tbh.

I want to learn the lesson, which is what exactly? I literally feel like theres no point in life anymore.

I'm going to save this post in a txt file. Thats literally the most clear way of putting what happened to me. like how can somebody do that to me? I'm the nicest most caring empathic person, like I did everything I could to make her happy and she still stole my stuff and constantly lied, ect.

beauty fades

look for the inner, she was. mathematicly (sp?) speaking, one human out of every other human in the history of ever.

I promise you will encounter many other beautiful people, both in and out. She was not that much unique and I'm sure hornyness got in the way of some red flag.

Take care of yourself for a while. Learn to love yourself not as a narcissist, but as if you were responsible now to provide for a son, be your own dad or mom you'd like to be toward yourself.

Of course it's not easy, but think of yourself first. You are young, don't go to waste because of a single person.

how did you know I am a narcissist...

Wow. I kinda feel bad for being an ass now.
Well thats how this world works.

there is one thing you absolutely need to know

>NEVER TRUST A JUNKIE

YOU CANNOT HELP THESE PEOPLE.

now cut your losses and get the fuck over it. that pretty princess you saw is actually just a vial piece of shit inside. most women are.
move on and get your shit together. Start by going back to your family and explaining you're a dumbass for trying to help a junkie and you're sorry that you got them involved in it.

then get a real job, go back to school or whatever, and put your life back together.

so yeah I learned that there are legit bad hot girls out there that will come off as nice and loving just to use me. thats life though

just post some nudity. maybe dick blowing video.
thats the only way for you too feel a bit better of yourself beacause you will bring a bit of joy for us

Cus you be trappin like a sissy sometimes yo

>I learned that there are legit bad hot girls out there that will come off as nice and loving just to use me

look at it this way.
Some bitch that was cute ever since she was a baby, someone who had daddy wrapped around her finger or no father figure, someone who has been handed literally everything in life, has never had to take responsibility for their actions, or even suffer the repercussions of their actions is NOT EVER GOING TO BE A GOOD PERSON

no I need that tough love

the thing is that I didn't know that she was a junkie for a while. I fell for her before I found out the full story. she hid it very well.

I just feel like theres no point in trying to improve where I am at the moment. I will not reconnect with my family because even though she was a junkie they still left me on the street.

I am 27, theres no point in going to school. I have no debt, own my car, and have a decent amount of savings. I just fucked up and set myself back 1 or 2 years with this girl. I have many talents such as music and martial arts but it's all pointless. she crushed my will to live and enjoyment of life.

wait, is this actually you in these pictures?
are you op the one, the one Ive been talking too?

I already did, 50 people saw it then I put it on private. Maybe they should speak up if it was any good...
I got bills to pay lmao jk
If she wasn't on H I could have handled her craziness. however she was and reality punched me in the face. beauty is my weakness and unfortunately it's not mutually exclusive with evil.

you seem to have been hurt by women too, care to elaborate?

Makes me smile when women end up selling their pussy for drugs.

yes, im the one in all of the pictures. I posted this already, it's me and her. did you see the blowjob video?

whys that?

it's not funny when you fall in love with them lol.

We all get taken for a ride sooner or later.

and you cant blame them, you brought a junkie around. You learned first hand the kind of life these people live.
Turn your back on them for 2 seconds and half the room will be gone, trust me I know.

they are all psycho cunts with no morals. I made the mistake of trusting the ones that arnt junkies and still got burned.
had a bitch sit there and say "i never cheated on you" AS I was reading the fucking chat log of her and the guy she cheated with.
dont even get me started on foreign girls..

im the one that asked if thats you in the pics btw.. is it?

oh, no I didnt.
god damn that is hot. legit jelly

Dont save her, she dont want to be saved dont save her.

"i love her, do anything for her but i wont fuck her"

you fucking complete tool. this is unreal.

Bro, how did you not fuck that ass goddamn.

dude she was escorting bare back and I was driving her. I don't like condoms. Not gonna fuck her unless she got tested and she didnt want to do that.

ok heres the bj video. I put it on unlisted again
youtube.com/watch?v=HaSiqeUCOQ4

>ok heres the bj video.
nice, thanks for the link

so did she like doing the femdom stuff in real life too or was it just for the porn videos

Boundaries... You need them.

I enjoy that it makes otherwise unobtainable pussy easy to purchase.

i thought that was a pretty decent vid. got any of her femdom stuff?

That's how you suck dick, now teach all of your next gf's how to do that, thanks for the original contribution

Fucking pathetic. You could have fucked both of her holes for hours..YOU FOOL!