Ok guys get it off your chest and feel 200% better

Ok guys get it off your chest and feel 200% better

No judging edition

>25
>recently got dumped, no idea how to get a new girl
>feeling like a worthless loser who can't even kill him self

I have 0 game and have no idea on how to get a girl, I'm a newfag and watch youtube videos on how to convert my beta brain to an alpha one

You just pull the trigger boy.
Trust me, I've done it a thousand times

my gf always likes/adds hot guy models on her facebook. makes me insecure as fuck cos my body is a 3/10 (if i'm lucky) and theirs is like 11/10

I don't love my girlfriend. I've cheated on her several times with different girls. Don't have the courage to break up tho

if you're not happy man you gotta let her go

My beautiful, loving girlfriend doesn't want to love me anymore because she thinks that she's hurting me. She isn't. Telling me to stop loving her hurts me. If she leaves me I'll probably kill myself. She helped me through so much now she's turning all that upside down. Idk if I'll be able to carry on lads.

hit the gym

i've been working out from home for a while now but little to no results

>only removes shoes

?

what you remove clothes when you bathe?

I don't fear my death
I fear her death

I want to fuck the one called Spamgranny , can't explain it she gets me diamonds.

I'm on nofap for past week after beating my dick senseless daily for 30 years, and I only just now noticed that Sup Forums is primarily a porn site with a couple of non-porn threads.

I feel that intolerance and nationalistic sentiment is exactly what our Civilization needs right now to break the civ cycle of degeneracy.

Interesting article for those who read.
>In the Absence of Fathers: A Story of Elephants and Men.

Been single for 2 years now, no fucking idea how to get a girlfriend anymore as most girls I interact with just have no interest in actually making conversation or hanging out as well as this not really having the same interests as most like to go out clubbing and getting fucked up on ket and MDMA

27 years old
Well educated
Good career
Great friends, who I live with
Excellent social life
Beautiful girlfriend of 5 years, who loves me.

Live apart at present because of separate work commitments. See eachother about every 8 weeks

Suffer from crippling depression and contemplate suicide regularly. Feel guilty for feeling depressed due to having no external reason to be depressed.

Don't discuss with family as mother is of the mindset that depression and suicide are selfish thoughts and behaviours

>make tv for the government
>have an MSc
>stuck in foreign country
>GS jobs, cronyism, status bound
>have to deliver pizza to make ends meet
>hell of a way to treat a two war vet

If you have no reason to be depressed, which it sounds like. Then you're fucked in the head. Get meds

>i act like a bitch
>she wants to get away from me

You put yourself here fag.

Just buy a rwd and start drifting.
It helps you get your mind off things and alot of buff guys treat their cars as their wives.

Just leave her.
And deal with it.

You're fucked in the head.
Just get some meds and move on

I have had girlfriend for two years, half of it we've been living in the same apartment. I do exterior paintings far away from home. We hit the bar with my co-worker one night. I end up banging some not-so-good-looking nurse without a condom. A few days pass by and we have party with old classmates. I end up kissing and fondling intensely with a former crush of mine. We went to sleep in the same bed but no sex, because she's in a relationship too.

Now I'm back home and i can barely look my gf in the eyes.
What do?

Man up.
You did what you did.
Shes gonna realize soon enough so just cut the fucking bullshit and tell her.
Its either you waste her and your time or just do it and see where it takes you.

This

Me and a dude I grew up with have been have been cheating on our girlfriends with each other for the past 7 or so years. I don't know exactly what's going on between him and I.

That's hot and sad hope things work out user.

If my STD results come clean she will never know because i can hide these things. This has happened to me before and it took two years before my girlfriend at that time found out. And it was because somebody had told her.

This time it's different because these people have no links what so ever.

>15 yo girl
>parents divorced
>my father is kinda psycho
>owned guns and killed animals for fun
>narcisisst
>for him, the only reason my older brother and I were born is to keep my mother
>married her to gain the french's nationality
>he stole her money
>ruined her life
>doesn't pay the alimony eventhough he has enough money
>before the divorce, we took a look at his PC
>soft childporn with a girl spreading her legs so you can see her panty
>that pic still haunt me although it was 5 years ago
>there were mails about him planing to bring an african woman to Paris so he would fuck her and then send her back to her country
>hopefully never happened, or at least it doesn't seem so
>there were certainly more fucked up things on his computer
>I feel guilty af in front of my mom bc I kinda look like my father
>depressed
>more guilty bc I know I shouldn't
>my mom is paid minimum wage and her work as a cashier is pretty exhausting
>our house is for sale
>bc my father is a cunt, he lowered the price so it's almost half of its real value
>I live with a constant fear of the future
>won't complain to my friends bc I'm the one who is always smiling
>first time I'm telling this

I cried like a fag when writing this

>been out of work for months
>no motivation and no purpose
>try to keep up with news but it's all so tiring
>don't even want to eat or get out of bed
>the world is devolving into shit around me
>feel lost in a sea of confusion, doubt, and unhappiness
>literally crippling depression
>typing this from my phone because I'm too depressed to go to my desk
>typing this is painful
>scrolling through the catalog is painful
>keeping my eyes open is painful
I'm just waiting for death. I lack any and all motivation to do something about my current situation so I've just stopped eating and I'll let nature do its thing.

Want to an hero but too pussy

>i cant even look at her

I still love you. But a part of me has emotionally checked out. You betrayed my trust. Not once but twice and I still forgave you. Now I'm doing shit or trying to do shit- like I've told you about- but even then I don't go through with anything cause I can't fuck you over. One side just wants an open relationship that way it doesn't matter who we fuck cause I know who I love. The other says just end it.
I hate that I caught herpes. It sucks that we were both there and only I got it. No I'm not saying I wish you caught it too I'm just saying I wish the bullet would have missed me as well. Sex was a big part of our relationship. And now it's like we're both locked out of my body because I'm afraid of you catching anything.
Having this in me sucks. It's like no matter how much I work out. How smart I get. However I work on myself. I'll still have this. And yes I have the daily suppression pills. But still. How can I be the fuck boy I wanna be when this shit happens. Haha funny I care about losing the sex that I wasn't having.
I still want to love you I'm just kind of like why put the effort if it didn't seem to matter when the shit hit the fan.

26,
Highest IQ at my university.
Great GF.
Great Social Life

My problem is that I have been living a lie. I am practically dead inside and all of my interactions in my life are aspects of a mask that I wear to hide the fact that I am empty.

I have been suffering with depression (issues with apathy and suicidal thoughts mainly) for the last 10 years.

I think about suicide every morning and evening. I have taken medication, but it makes things worse.

I am stuck in a dead end job, that I care not for. But need it to pay the bills.

I know that my potential in the world is being wasted away, it makes me feel worse.

The worse thing is that even though I feel like I am wasting my life, I am not bothered by it and will never change my life. Because I am extremely apathetic.

>27 years old
25 here
>Well educated
Same
>Good career
Two different IT degrees
>Great friends, who I live with
>Excellent social life
>Beautiful girlfriend of 5 years, who loves me.
Zero social skills, Zero friends, Family doesn't give a fuck about me.
>Suffer from crippling depression and contemplate suicide regularly. Feel guilty for feeling depressed due to having no external reason to be depressed.
Welp, I've been having this thoughts ever since I finished enrolement in the army which was a year ago.
Get fucking meds, you are a moron who has everything I'd like to have(friendships and shit) and still wanna hero? Pathetic.

Call her out, that's rude as fuck of her.

Thanks, mate. He and I actually had a falling out over the same girl a few years back and I feel like it made us even more distant, yet closer in some ways. I feel like we still make each other happy despite the rough patch. It's a hard thing to talk about sometimes

God I hate niggers.

Wtf. How's that rude of her. She's looking at models with accounts. If hes so Insecure then he should work out. Plus if youre a 3 then I doubt she's hot enough to hook the hot dudes. It's like softcore porn for chicks and guys who like dicks

everything is my fault

It was more of a figure of speech about the guilt i feel now.

had sex with chick last night
had sex with dude this morning

You can't help it, it's a chemical imbalance. Talk to your family and a psychologist.

Same, desperate to die. Weed is nice though.

she is with you for a reason, and i'm sure its for the personality, not your looks

here.
Possibly that's the only thing that actually is doing something to not hero myself.

I stole 150 euros from my brother. When he was 10 years old

I mean, stop being a piece of shit and leave her tbh. She doesn't deserve to be with someone that would do that to her. Stop wasting her time.

Are you me?
You also have the feeling of a bystander? Everything that´s happening, happening like in a movie and you jus´t sit somewhere out and watch the scene? See the cameraangle spin, the others, yourself, and kinda excited what your reaction is going to be, since you really don´t know! Everything just a TV show you watch though you don´t want to.
And above, everything could just burn away, your friends, your family, your favourite game, book, computer game and you wouldn´t give a flying fuck, not even if it never existed?

Stop being whores and just date each other

That's the Truman's Show Syndrome

Report your dad and see a therapist

21yrs old
Bff is a girl, we kinda hooked up while she was in a relationship
Her (now ex) was kinda beta, was acting all childish, no sex.
She wasnt hapy with him so i kinda charmed her over without any cheating on another.
Things happen after breakup, she says best time of her past 3 yrs.
I am like fuck yeah this gonna be gud.
Now she thinks about getting back with her ex.
I didnt do.any uncomfy/bad things
Fuck.me.jpeg

get help

I wish I could talk to people properly, I can only think of fully autistic questions to talk about

Not quite the same... but similar.

I do feel like I over analyse every situation that I am in.

My friends think that I am dumb because I do not do a lot with my life. And they don't realise how brainy I am.

I thought the Truman´s Show Syndrome is if you think you are actually in a TV show.
What I meant was a feeling of being passive, as if you had no controll about anything. Everything just sorta flows, everything´s behind a screen you can´t reach. Your actions, your emotions, all locked away and all that´s happening is underlined in a way as if you are looking through this screen, seeing the camera driving around, scenes with a specific shot and angle and all that.

At least you think about speaking with people.
I'm seriously unable to speak with anyone I don't know.
Hell, I left my job because they were changing the whole staff and was (and am) depressed af.
Worst of all... I feel like my psychiatrist has lost hope with me, the poor woman...
Apologies, I read it again and yeah, not Truman's

youve betrayed her several times --> she doesnt mean shit to you

My girlfriend thinks this is gonna last forever and that's just not realistic.

Glad you've taken the time and effort to call someone pathetic in a non-judging thread

No I was gonna ask you questions but I sound retarded. I talk to only 2 people in real life.
I been here for something like 10 years and maybe posted 12 times, I hate doing it, talking to people.
God I sound like a fag

I've been alone for 2 years now, still can't figure out what happened, but since my girlfriend had "fun" with 4 other guys, I feel that I have no purpose, I feel the world around me, my friends, my family, the people I love, won't give a damn if I die, I constantly spend time thinking about killing myself, I cant enjoy living anymore...):

I've been seeing counsellors for +7 years. I was treated long-term in the past (Lithobid and Seroquel) which drained me so much I didn't have the capacity to do half of the stuff I do now, physically and mentally numbed me and prevented me from concentrating on my studies. Came off it after much deliberation and consultation, life picked up dramatically for a couple of months. Finished off Masters, moved away got a good job, live with good friends and life is starting to fall to shit again

Being triggered makes me do mistakes alright? Sorry.
Well... apparently you have spoken more to me than to other anons in your 10 years.
Who cares how do you sound? I just see a concerned user in your words. But sadly I'm beyond the point of no-return, I'm just unable to hero myself.

Now, this may sound retarded, but I can really relate to your situation. Try to read the book "American Psycho" by Breat Eston Ellis. The first time in my life I saw the situtation written down I feel I am in regarding my life, my thinking and everything else.
It´s kinda fucked up though and you need to stomach some sick shit

27
have a relationship with my woman for 7 years now, she's been my wife now for two years.
i cheaated on her last year, without any consequences... one night stand.

i cheated again, last week. and i feel im in love with this one...

don't know what to do

>15
>Parents were out of town.
>Managed to score a cheap escort. (40$ hour)
>Decide to go unprotected (Said she was on birth control and she looked clean)
>Nut.mp4
>Shit was cash, never spoke to or saw her again
>FF 4 years, get STI check (new gf is scared)
>Hiv positive
>Mfw

Will take that on board. I also have a strong stomach.

>Also.... Checked

What's an easy way to Hero having just 5 euros?
I fucking hate Spain.
I fucking hate my wasted youth.
I fucking hate how much I was bullied because I was(yes, was) smart.
I fucking hate how I became idiotic and joined the army just because "muh durr I wanna drive a tank"
I fucking hate how much I wanted to learn about computers when I was in there.
I hate how I left Army(enrolement ended) to end in a shitty normie IT job.
I hate that I ended up leaving it because staff was being replaced and didn't want to say shit so I just renounced to my job.
I hate that I've been seeing a psychiatrist ever since I left the army and she has lost hope with me.
I hate that I fucking know it's worthless to keep living because Zero friends, family or Social skills.
Idk, maybe I'll do it the easy way, stabbing myself in the neck (I honestly don't care about pain at this point of life)
And b4 you ask, no, I don't have guns. The mere fact of me seeing a psychiatrist made me lose my Automatic gun license(Being in the army you get one of those)

Nice!
The strong stomach is especially needed to be able to look beyond all the obvious violence and gore that is just meant to try and hide the very delicate psychological process or better deterioation of Patrick Bateman.
Just in advance and without spoiling: He is not the American Psycho.

I have so many years left for the same reason. As autistic as I am, I have the skills to create music and things like that, things they tell you are needed for progress. But as you know, the limit is very real, recovery is not always an option.
Thanks btw, talking is weird and shit

Well here is a post from someone who cares, why not get to a docs and get some drugs to help you out.

I bet you feel like things couldn't be much worse right now, but what if things COULD be better? That would be nice right? So you might as well give it a shot

Chatting on somewhere like reddit depression might help too, people going through shit all help each other out

What are you afraid of?
You're dicking yourself and her over by staying.

Misery loves company they say
You are very much welcome user, hope you get better.

i fuckin feel you

He's your polyamorous boyfriend user.
Accept that and let your girlfriends know if you want to be an honest person.

I don't like dogs. There I said it.

You're not your dad, report him for the content of his computer.
Get therapy.

It´s kinda funny. Mostly men post here, talking about how devastated they are after their gf s left them. About how they can´t talk to anyone about it, but only here in the anonimity of the internet.
This is so sick. They, we, apparently don´t have anyway to cope with our feelings, since it is supposed to be "manly" to not show them, considered weakness, "girlish" if we do so.
And that is the the reason why men kill themselves so often. The pain just builds up, we just keep it inside, keep it inside, one day we just take a gun and put a bullet through our head, the only way we know how to deal with things.
It´s sad, actually

I have a lot of pent up feelings for my friend who is my best friends girlfriend and it tears me up inside everyday

You know, it's always SOMETHING with you. Always. You might think I'm 'being negative' or 'having a moment' again, but in fact, it's YOU constantly putting the carriage before the horse and not-so-subtly judging me yet again. What's more, is that you've just *got* to get the rest of the 'family' feeling some kind of way about me as well, even this uncle whom I've never met before yesterday already seeing me in the way you do. Well fine. Fuck it. At least now that I've got a job, I can start exercising a bit more freedom, earn my own shit, and eventually move out to do my own thing. Granted, it has nothing to do with what I went to uni for six years for, and it may not be as 'glamorous' as your 20 years in the military, but I don't give a fuck; it's something I'm doing because I know I have to.

And stop telling everyone I'm vegan, and that I'm fluent in Japanese. I'm a vegetarian and I've stopped studying Japanese for a number of political and personal reasons, the likes of which none of you would understand or even care to try understanding.

Also, stop talking shit about North Korea. You don't know what's going on there outside of what talk radio, mainstream news media, and your Cold War-era propaganda/mentality is telling you.

Finally, if you're so sure that I'm *such* a let-down and won't be there to help take care of you when you get old, then fine, I'll leave and NEVER come back until it's time for your funerals. If you feel a home (retirement) would be better for you, just say the word and I'll be sure to leave you to it when we get older.

It's part of living in a society that genders all problems, instead of considering them human issues.

>I've stopped studying Japanese for a number of political and personal reasons
What political reasons are there for not learning a new language if it interests you?

I was in the same situation as you, what was wrong was my self esteem, really work hard on building that up, left the relationship and life is looking up, good luck user

Rules are rules.

Don't feel guilty about being depressed it's not you fault, your trying. If you have a good career get help for depression, cognitive behavioural therapy does work

Japan, as wonderful a country as it is, has a number of unresolved political, economic, and social problems plaguing the society and its people. For example, there's a housing bubble going on with the cost of living going up, but the workers' wages not being able to keep up. Couple that with a demographic time-bomb, and it doesn't seem like a great idea to live and work there. I still love Japan though...the only way I would be able to pass the JLPT N2 would be to live there for at least a year, and that's not happening.

What are you passionate about? I've always loved music and recently began learning to use Fl studio. Yesterday I made my first song, it's absolutely terrible but despite that I noticed that I had a large shit eating grin on my face when I was listening back to it, when I saved the song I called it "pieceofshit#1" because I knew that it would be the first of many. It felt amazing to finally accomplish something I've been dreaming of most of my life. So what do you do in your spare time? That might give you a hint as to what you should pursue

That's more practical reasons though, you can still learn japanese to consume their media, books and other stuff.
Also about the north korea stuff, look into people who actually managed to escape to get an account of how it is there.

here

I have no idea why this thread meant something to me when the 1000's of others haven't.
Thank you for it.
I will likely lurk for another year or so and consider posting, but decide against it.

>Couple that with a demographic time-bomb, and it doesn't seem like a great idea to live and work there.

Working there would suck, because they have the whole "face time" requirement for salarymen so you're stuck at the office 80 hours a week even though you may be working only 40.

But living expenses? Sure, Tokyo's expensive as hell, but you can get a cheap apartment in a smaller city for like $400/month, better than most U.S. states.

That's kind of the plan: just use it for media consumption.

Also about North Korean accounts: defectors are paid an equivalent of $60,000 to criticize the North, and some who did defect have become homeless if not jailed in the South. A few even re-defected back.

that bitch took your manhood. go get some pussy you fucking faggot

>got first real paycheck from soft-dev job recently
>"oh boy i can buy lotsa cool shit now and don't have to look over every cent and count cash for meals"
>buy some furniture and clothes because it's been a long time coming
>back to "having barely enough to get through month" level

and now i know i'm terrible with money

I'd like that, but they aren't hiring *me,* even for the most mundane of jobs like working at an Eikaiwa.
>rejected even from NOVA

>pump yourself full of drugs to block out how horrible the world is
>use plebbit xd the site that doesn't hash their fucking passwords
I'd rather just die.

>21 y/o f
>i started dating a guy I've known since I was 14
>hopelessly in love
>find out his ex gf killed herself
>spend a year with him and see him cut himself up (literally) over her
>he gets put into CBT with psychosis
>break up with him bc it's too much
>find out his ex wasn't real and he made it all up
>have to keep it a secret because his mental health will get worse if everyone knows he's a liar

Im stealing that picture