So guys I've just about hit rock bottom

So guys I've just about hit rock bottom.
I started tindering like a week ago. I have had a few matches and only two of them were good. One was exceptional(18,hot, same major as i was in college,definitely real), but i blew it by saying too much. After that I decided to pay for tinder so I could just keep swiping and that's how I got the imagine attached. I am pretty picky as i swipe left on all whales, blacks, and asians. I even accidentally swiped left on decent chicks because there are so many fatties to sift through. My ex was really hot with a body of a 10 when we met, now shes about a 5 or 6. When I looked at a picture of us from almost five years ago i can see both of our beauty has warped and faded.
My gf of over five years living together broke up with me a couple months ago through text and it still hurts in the mornings. I was pretty mean to her verbally and I became less motivated to work and exercise in the last year. This was partly due to having found my neighbors corpse and had someone try to break into my apartment while we were together, neither of which was she of any consolation. She just wanted me to pretend like I was unaffected and continue to serve her food, sex, and cleaning with a smile. The break in attempt actually temporarily made me get in good shape, but i was kind of a psychopath and wanting a second chance to bag the motherfucker. Then after we moved i started to fall off and mostly vape cannabis as i kept tidey, prepared food, and fucked her all the time.(ya i got bitched). I'm a s.t.e.m degree btw.
Since we broke up I've been exercising lots by lifting, jogging outside, then doing elliptical before going to bed(a couple hours per exercise at least). I've also quit saturated carbs and eat over 170grams of protein a day. I quit consuming cannabis and coffee entirely as I associate them with my mistakes i made. I take xanax to not feel emotions.

Should i remove words from my profile? Give up until i can post better pictures?

Op again.
Also is this girl implying shes a prostitute? We matched, but I'm not really interested in a prostitute.

maybe you should seek therapy. your problems are insignificant

Just swipe right on all the whales and you will be drowning in San Diego

Op again
Then they could take away my rights to legally buy a firearm. I know where to get anything regardless of the laws, but i want to be allowed to get a concealed carry if i so desire.
They don't feel insignificant, i barely want to live despite the fact that i will have serious wealth within ten years.

The only overweight girls i considered were girls who are science majors that sound interesting.

nobody cares. go ahead and neck yourself

>hit rock bottom
>overly picky

Choose one.

Trap

Op again

Also it hurts that my ex already has a new bf who she says "i love you" to. He's a tool that dropped out of a community college to work at Lowes. I'm sure he's nicer to her and doesn't call her out for being a stupid bitch constantly or point out how white trashy her family is. I want her to be happy for some reason so I'm leaving her alone.
Shit hurts though. Should i just end it all? Can you give me a good idea for how to make my exit significant? I don't want to shotgun or just helium bag it, I'm too virulent and powerful to go out like that.

Many people would care. I have lots of close family and friends who would be devasted.
Can you give me a good idea other than something by myself? I'd like it to send a message.
I don't think fatties or blacks will get me hard. I used to be considered a "sex addict" according to psychology bullshit.

You really think so? Her other pictures made her definitely look like a real female.

Op again
I'm thinking of becoming a cop or join army to distract myself from this past of mine. i would be an effective cop for sure, but i don't think I'll be satisfied with either.

Op again
I guess i came to the wrong place. You all have achieved less and can't relate because you've never experienced love, let alone heartbreak.

>Her other pictures
>not posting them

if this really is op, jfc you're a faggot. if it's not, jfc you're a faggot

Coming from user that means nothing. I don't care if you think im a faggot. Ive never backed down to a fight irl. I've physically hurt people without remorse. You're just a fat pussy who has never been in love.

You talk too fucking much to be straight. Just suck dick.

read

I wish i were gay, believe me. 99% of women are hysterical and dumb.

You're an idiot. Everytime user offers you advice you counter it with an argument. Just kys.

If you don't care what user thinks how about you stop asking user for advice, you stupid fuck.

Op again
The only advice I got was "seek therapy". I'd rather hurt you than myself.
My takeaway is that I should spread the pain to the masses. Thanks guys.

Op again
I was saying being called a faggot for saying I'm heartbroken means nothing from user. Clearly none of you are lovable enough to experience this kind of pain. I almost envy that, but then again its probably because you're fat and ugly.

kill yourself you cringy piece of shit.

OP, you are nothing more than a crybaby and a sore loser. Go ahead and make idle threats about "spreading pain to the masses". We all know you and your problems are wholly insignificant. I mean look at you. cying out for help on 4 chan because your fat white trash girlfriend dumped you and loves someone else now. you are completely and utterly pathetic. its embarrassing just reading your posts.

Op again
Nah I've got too much virulence to do that just yet. I'll take it out on the masses first. thank you though.

you are clearly a mentally ill person user,
i say this with no trolling or malcontent - you need professional assistance.

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Ya they are probably insignificant. Idle though, not so sure. I've already emotionally hurt another woman since my ex and my physicality strrenfthens everyday. I'm strapped and capable of anything I want other than filling this void. Stay safe out there.

Op here
Haha classic.

Op again
So how can i seek help without feeling less liberated?

What the fuck is this faggot shit?

Stop projecting, faglord. The only person fat and ugly in this thread is you. Your attitude proves this.

How are you gonna "take it out on the masses" when you're too much of a pussy to even talk about your problems to others?

"mah virulence". You're on the spectrum. Take yourself a little less seriously, kid. "Waaa waa tinder isn't working for me, you're all fat neckbeards!" You'll meet somebody again at some point, stop asking strangers for advice you dont want, retard.

>stop asking strangers for advice you don't want

This guy is right. My lawyer once told me pretty much the same thing;
>never ask questions you don't want the answer to

Op here again.

So what should i do then guys?

you can't and with good reason

Op here

Ya I'm probably just being too impatient and picky. Oh well. I only date 8s or above unless they are highly intelligent. My ex was stupid, believed in god and liked country music. I'm avoiding all those factors as well as swiping left if they have the same name as my ex.

Take it easy guys. Thanks for emboldening me, especially you haters.

Op again
Well then it's a moot point. I'll have to fix myself.
I'm off, best regards all.

Fuckin kys.

Heartbreak sucks and its hard not to be a cringey pussy when dealing with it but just give it some time. You're on the path to making it by exercising and quitting weed. If you keep it up you'll make it to my level. I'm stem too. I go to work then come home and lift. The difference is that I ignore women and the urge to have relationships. That shit invariably leads to trouble. Yes I miss out on some life experience but ultimately everything is in my control and predictable. Its a good feeling. And if you feel horny and need release, porn is gods gift to mankind don't bother with people. Or just jerk of to your muscles in front of a mirror like I do. Cheers fgt.