ITT: We share a part of our anonymous lives with anonymous people. I'll start

ITT: We share a part of our anonymous lives with anonymous people. I'll start.
I have Asperger's Syndrome and it makes social skills something I'll never be able to fully grasp. I can't properly feel some emotions, like affection, which has severely affected my social life since forever. I have only a few friends and even though I've made great strides in the last year, it seems that my future is bleak, and I may never have a stable relationship. Even worse, AS has high intelligence as a symptom, which explains my gift for understanding the sciences, specifically those involving medicine and Technology. I know my brain is broken. I know why it's broken.
>And worst of all, I know I can't fix it.

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your fine.

I have so much mental shit that it's basic impossible to live a normal life and I wish for death every single day. By some complete miracle I managed to get a boyfriend that loves me and doesn't want me to die. He's fucked up mentally as well and would probably kill himself if I died.
Yay me.

Either share some details we can give a shit about or sulk back on tumblr, sull soul.

I'm an aspiring fag too. It fuckin sucks. I can barely talk to anybody outside of my friend group, I would like to but I just freeze up like a dumbass and reply with one word answers and laugh it off. It's the worst.

Aspie* the fuck is my phone

In 5 years I'm going to kill myself and it can not or stopped. I've been waiting for decades for this to come to an end.

I've dealt with a few aspires. All terrible and rude people. The ones I've met are supposedly smart but impossible to work with.

To be quite fucking honest with you, I wish I was born retarded. At least then I'd always be happy. But instead I've been granted the eternal knowledge that I am not, or ever will be normal.

It's ok. I'm not even autistic and I can't talk to other people. At least you have a good excuse. Also, my brother has ass burgers and he has a couple of friends, so it's definitely possible. You just gotta believe in yourself.

It's good to have long term goals

I am agoraphobic and on suicide watch

Try shock therapy at .67 hz to your brain

Hey im an aspie and thats what helped me? 220 vac at .67 hz and .1 micro amps

Hey some doctor charged me a million dollars to cure my HIV like that !

The easiest method is to use 2 stun guns at the same time. One at each lobe. Should fix u right up instantly. U can also buy a lower voltage instrument but it may take months

I'm a 50 year old who has developed a schizoid personality. I have no friends at this moment. Nor do I have any desire to make one. I believe my life is essentially over. At my age every major goal is either impossible, or already done. I'm just deliberately wasting time until my inevitable demise.

What country uses 67Hz?
USA is 60rHz.

Linecookfag here

>Work 60/hrs a week
>make meh money
>despite this, actually really fucking good at cooking and keep steady work
>have a fixation with drugs, drinking, gambling, strippers, lose women, etc..
>still make enough to have some personal time and pursue some irrational dreams like being a comedian and writer

All this shit makes me feel like I should have gave more of a shit in school and college. But it's also far more gratifying to crack a really stupid joke I wrote myself and make people laugh. I might be retarded.

I have it too bro, was a virgin til 22 (23 now) and I had to pay for sex, bought a girl I pretended to be rich to an xbox one and a few games and in return she sucked my cock and rode me in the back of her Prius.. I cannot even drive myself, I have panic attacks when I attempt to drive, I got addicted to pain meds because they help me become socialish and I have a fucked back.

I still live at home, no future for me, when my mother dies, and i'm left alone with my father who will probably end up leaving me alone, I will hang myself or blow my brains out.

Its horrible, I have Adhd, Bi polar Aspergers, and manic depression...

I live on disability and get just $750 yet some fat stupid nigger next door with 2 kids gets $1500 a month plus another $600 for each kid she shits out.

Life isn't fucking fair... I had a completely full favorability rating for disability and they said I will never be able to work. Just going into the court meeting in Duluth for the disability I started crying for no reason at all in front of the judge who was on TV from Minneapolis and I have no idea why.. Today I missed a consoling appointment because I paid my sister $20 to drive me, yet she was sleeping and I with three herniated discs tried to walk 1 and a half miles in 7 minutes until I collapsed in the park and bawled my eyes out until the police came and took me to the hospital and thought I was having a breakdown..

Well you're doing a hell of a lot better than I am.
Asked a girl if we could work together today. She got the teacher to make me go back to my desk under the guise of "needing access to her files on the school PC"

ahh sorry to hear that m8. How'd you approach the situation? Did you sperg out or something or is she just a cunt?

here's me:

>depression
>alcoholic
>ADHD
>childhood emotional abuse
>sex addict

yet I make $700k/year, have a wife and kid, own two homes, and generally I'm not super miserable all the time.

getting sober was the most important thing in my case, but basically it can get better if you just wait it out and keep trying things

hang in there, user

tits pls

I see what you did there, dick lol

My mom has had 3 heart attacks so far, and the next one will probably be the last... She has congestive heart failure as well... If it makes Sup Forums feel better, i'll livestream it when it happens and I finally end myself.

That last line tho.
too real

Didnt sperg out cause I'm a half nigger/half beaner and they'd think I'm just a retarded angry chimp. So I said "Oh okay" then got up and went back to my seat. Didn't do any work. Just listened to Kendrick Lamar and browsed Quora

Don't put so much emphasis on both your pitfalls.

I got advice from an old cat I worked with to find someone you can disclose 1 good thing about your day to, even if you had a train wreck of a shit day. It kinda forces you to see shit a bit more positive, even though you're both sorta stuck in some old habits.

That being said, at least you got someone. You have a leg up on 25% of Sup Forums. Go you.

>they'd think I'm just a retarded angry chimp.

Ok LOL. But seriously, it's all good man. You're black. You have that going for you. Not to be superficial or dismissive, but hang in there a bit. If you open up a bit and try new things, maybe take up a sport or some kind of social hobby like bowling, you'd be surprised how many slags are aching for a brother to get it on with them.

I highly suggest listening to some old O&A with Patrice O'Niel on youtube. Might not be an altruistic remedy, but I feel you might get a little motivation from that to help you step your game up a bit and rationally handle BS like that. Fuck her though. Thats a cunt move, you're better off without that shit my dude.

It sucks, I know. I'm definitely on the spectrum, but my autismo-gift is trying to fit in. The problem is that eventually I am found out. I know enough trivia that I don't NEED the internet except to back-up anything I say, but I still ask about shit I already know. I also play at being dumb so that people won't figure me out so quickly (seems being an aspie REALLY puts you in a BAD light.). I'm lucky enough to have a friend (since childhood) who I haven't run off, he has a wife who brings girls over often enough that I am socialized through no effort of my own. I get some tail, but I absolutely KNOW that none of it is long-term, I also know that if it weren't for my friend (and his wife) I wouldn't pursue anyone. I feel bad though sometimes, when I think that I'm scaring away her friends (but not bad enough to stop trying to fuck them.).

OP here
I pray to God, Allah, Bob Marley, Hitler, and whoever else is up there that if I should ever have children, that they do not have my curse of Autism and ADHD.

How do I get muh autism diagnosed when I'm 30?

Thanks man. I'll definitely think more about this

Pretty sure you can find out if you search online. But it's probably some sort of mental illness doctor or some shit.
I personally don't want to diagnose in fear of it lowering my chances of getting a job and if everyone knew about it

That's the problem, I keep needing to find jobs that I can't keep for more than 6 months.

Take LSD.

I want to but I'm scared. What is it like?

i live in a mil barracks with 4 roomates and cant find anywhere in my room to hang myself ama

Terrible if you don't like the thoughts in your head.

Shrooms will do the trick. Get like 1-2g and clear your sched and call someone to watch you so you don't flip a nut and end up dead or in jail. You're about to do some mental gymnastics, but on the other side you will have a sense of catharsis and clarity. It's like hitting 'degauss' on your brain, instead of your brain just slowly over analyzing shit for 12 hours with some mild trailing, then another 5 hours of trying to figure out if youre still tripping.

the best thing to do is look up guides for tripping online, but at the base of it all, set and setting are key. make sure you have at least a day or two of free time for when you do it, and it helps to have some weed for the comedown. make sure you're in a comfortable location like your house, and make sure someone you trust is there to watch you. other than that, just jam some mellow tunes and trip balls.

don't worry the army is meant to grind you down like that, if you can push through you will be warrior elite

>technoLOGy

>It's like hitting 'degauss' on your brain
That sounds fucking intense...I wanna try it now.
When you say mellow tunes, would that include the music from Fallout? Cause those 50s songs help me relax

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>i joined the navy
>wish i went marines or army feelsbadman

Get into MAPS research.

youtube.com/watch?v=PJgWKl_vss0

I had a friend aspie friend in highschool, pretty cool man. He told us to push him to practice his social skills on strangers, like at a restaurant, party, football game . It helped him alot, I'd suggest you do the same

>22 years old
>Father got braindamaged when I was 14
>Father can't talk. Can't turn on a TV, yet he can shower and dress himself.
>Can't really remember having a father
>Father hit me and was basically a shit father.
>Father got a multimillion dollar business in real estate, ran by my mother.
>Slowly starting to inherit my fathers business
>I'm Attending Business School,
>private school with full of snobs
>I live and dress like a poor student - total opposite of everyone else
>I probably manage a fortune bigger than what the snobs getting Cs and Ds earn in a lifetime
>Nobody knows about it
>No friends because snobs everywhere.

youre literally the biggest pussy i have ever listened to in my fucking life

I was homeless for 3 years with a herniated disc and all managed to get a job, acquire skills, and am currently making 70k a year after just a year in my field.

I also had drug problems and everything else. Your problem isnt adhd or autism. Its fucking you. You are weak and make excuses for everything. My brother has autism and plays sports and shit just fine. Youre a fucking pussy grow up and get a job retard.

Are you me user?
Holy fucking shit, everything you said is my life.

I'm holding onto the hope that in future i will get better at social interaction, but so far i have austracized myself in nearly every attempt to socially interact.

Feels bad man :^(

Oh i'm also a fur-fag, which is a huge problem since:
1. i'm morally opposed to that, since i'm a christian
and
2. see 1\

gif related is hot. That is how far down the rabbit hole i have been flung.
I'm also qite apt at psychology, Quantum Physics, general Physics, theoloyg, philosophy. For some reason i'm pretty shit at math (either because of a lack of practicing, or some other reason).

not everyone lives in a healthy community which doesn't have shitbags actively going out of their way to cockover everyone
this dudes own sister lied and stole from him while preventing him from getting the help he needs.

i'd love to see you somehow survive the deppression and state of paranoia/delirium living among faggots who actively go out of their way to destroy you everytime you try and better yourself.

its not that bad