I want to kms, I lost my gf of 5 years 5 months ago, I've been on a downward spiral of depression, anxiety and paranoia...

I want to kms, I lost my gf of 5 years 5 months ago, I've been on a downward spiral of depression, anxiety and paranoia. I wake up everyday without doing a thing, I haven't showered in weeks and all I think about is my gf and how I should kill myself.

Fuck quit bitching and go get a new one.

Death does sound like the only solution.

It sounds like you just want attention

You seem to have two options:
Go and see a doctor and get an antidepressant
or
KYS now and no longer suffer.

go get a blowjob

Stop being a pussy.
People end relationships on a daily basis. Yours was nothing special.

Don't kill your self, it really will get better, but you have to do something about it for that to happen and I'm guessing that since you're posting then you're up for an alternative. Maybe start by cleaning your room? You can get over this and it is worth getting over, but you have to sort yourself out and that's not going to happen on Sup Forums.

Everything'll work out fine Shane.

I've seriously been in exactly the same position and now my life is better than it ever was before. Do you watch a lot of porn?

Don't be a bitch. Wake up. Go outside and live your fucking life. No matter how hard you feel your hardships are, you live better that 95% of worlds population.
And they aren't bitching around constantly about their problems.

should it matter?

You'd be surprised, there's some recent research coming out about how internet porn is driving a lot of social anxiety and depression. Not much research yet because on demand streaming porn is so relatively new but therapists have had patients previously diagnosed with mental disorders no longer require medication after altering their masturbation habits. Basically, in your situation it can create a feedback loop where you feel sexually isolated so you resort to porn, which (((allegedally))) inhibits your drive to be socially active, fuelling sexual isolation and repeat +depression gets worse.

Thanks mate. I didn't know whether you were saying it was good or bad. But I ended realizing that your point is to reduce it.

I know it may sound counter intuitive, but switch out porn for weight lifting, just ask /fit/. You can keep fapping, just try to limit the internet porn

I'm devoting right now +6 hours to porn daily... so yeah. Guess I'll have to sort it out somehow.

OP here, my dick is flaccid all the time now. I got no sex drive.

You need to start going out. After I broke with a few girlfriends I was devastated but then I started getting fit. Think of it this way
Now you both are in different directions, but in some time you probably see each other somewhere. Get fit. Unveal your self-steam. Start today going for a walk. Start building some muscle.
Most important. Don't leave it. Do it now. Say it. Say "I'm gonna get over it!". Close laptop and go for a walk. ;)

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dang bro
does smoking weed actually affect your depression?

Just because they want to die, doesn't mean they want to feel pain.

Suicide is often about finding a way to stop feeling pain and/or loss. Flying to Barcelona doesn't stop that.

im going to amsterdam to do a copious amount of things I will regret

beware of traps and STDs