>be me
>be 18
>be going back to highschool because fuck it I'm a leaf and my parents want me to learn shit
>I've got amazing grades and the new highschool is famous for it's drug problem, acceptance was guaranteed
>my path was paved gold for another year
>be doing literally nothing for months but sit on my ass at my craptop all day
>right now I'm glancing between discord and browsing foghorn sound effects for a deep ass song I wanna make
>maybe I'll get some whale sounds too
>the sunset sure is nice
>craptop can't run 10% of the games in my steam library
>whatever
>not like I can be assed to get a new mobo and CPU for the monster machine I bought off my uncle a while ago for about 300 pesos
>he was a mildly rich guy, inherited shares in an oilfield company
>he's really into computers, so he does CAD stuff like mapping out the pipes in big facilities
>obviously he likes vidya too, he upgraded his computer for VR and work, then sold me dual graphics cards, CPU, mobo, and PSU
>after buying a new case and HDD, I got it all together and it wasn't working
>it wouldn't even show the BIOS
>ffs (In retrospect, I didn't check RAM configuration)
>whatever, I don't need to fuck around with fluid simulations or play battlefield, I'm enlightened with dorf and hotlime mami
>tl;dr I'm forced into using my craptop even though I own a beast of a PC
>whatever, the toaster doesn't lag for most practical stuff and has 8GB RAM
>I end up not even liking games for the later half of summer anyways
>Start learning japanese and fill the hours that aren't crammed with learning with surfing around online searching through old forums and blogs
>I'm collecting information from the most desolate expanses of the web
>My mind was becoming yet another useless info repository that impresses normies
>japanese not important, but relevant
>Throughout all my browsing, the only thing that consistently bothered me was the goog adsnes
Be me
>get a great idea
>got to a vaporwave clothing site
>it was pretty nice actually
>I even bought a shirt because I haven't bought anything for a while
>and my wardrobe is shit, I have two pairs of pants
>>by now I should probably get a job again instead of siphoning off small amounts of my savings every month or so
>>I don't care for now, I have no dues
>now all my goog ads are aesthetic clothes and accessories
>feelsgood.jpeg
>japanese is coming along great
>I haven't showered in a while
>I wonder how much longer my spotify subscription will last
>/shrug
>these days are nice, I wonder if this is what 90's kids always brag about feeling
>online friends have some pretty good lives too
>we've made some pretty good relationships between each other
>basically internet brothers
>i should get a non-shit mic sometime soon
>I should actually spend some time playing piano
>I've got nothing to do tomorrow, I guess I can do it then
>I still have jap flashcards to do tonight anyways
>whatever
>my friends online are much easier to talk to
>I wonder if I can make some friends this year in highschool, it's literally a second chance
>I just need the extra academic classes, gf can wait until I have a job
>I should get a bf instead, that'd be cool too
>meh
>2:30 AM
>I should do something, bed can wait
>I open youtube
>video about boogie being a fat cuck
>good thing I'm not fat, or a cuck
>130 lbs almost 6 feet tall
>borderline underweight but I've got some muscle
>not like it matters online
>it makes me less vulnerable, I guess
>friends are nice though
>we ironically coax each other out of suicide
>we send each other goodnight heart emojis that I wish weren't ironic
>the purple sky looks beautiful
>I should go outside and take a picture of it
>I haven't been outside for a while
>a while
>I need to sleep
>I'm tired
>my friends grow closer to me, my meme folder grows as well
>every now and then I make some OC too
>cave story is a great game, shame I haven't played it in a while
>I still need to beat hotlime 2 on hard mode
>hm 2 ending was great as-is imo
>acceptance is nice
>no this isn't a libcuck dialogue
>fuck politics online, I'd rather be doing something useful, like learning
>or making friends, rather than one-sided debates
>that bed is looking cozy
>my eyes are heavy
>no, I'm not writing an eminem meme you fucker
>that would be some shitty buildup
>to an even shittier meme
>fuck memes, I just want to be happy
>the amount of happiness I get from putting in the least amount of effort is great though
>fuck effort, if people are satisfied, then I can relax
>I wonder what the fam is up to
>I haven't talked to my bro for a while
>I wonder how he's doing with his gf
>they're both nice people, good taste in music, fashion, and food
>being a classy senior citizen is pretty much mainstream in my town right now
>I tell my friends about it and they say it's utopia
>I tell them a utopia is nothing without people to enjoy it with
>I tell myself that I will wake up from this lukewarm dream
>the stagnant, embryonic bathwater will get cold eventually
>embryonic
>I lowered my blinds, they covered the window pretty nicely, leaving only orange hairlines at the sides
>so much to do
>so much time to do it
>I'm tired
>tired of waiting
>I should sleep
>sleep can wait
>I can wait
>All these people complaining online about trump
>all these people complaining about people complaining
>they should just stop complaining and waste their time more wisely
>i could even go full martyr mode and kms in the name of wasted time
>that's no fun though, I should something less edgy
>I'm running out of cookies, there might be another box in the pantry
>idc about milk tbh, cant be bothered to get a glass for the cookies
>or even get more cookies in the first place
>I should start a cult sometime
>writing mountains of bullshit is easy
>being consistent isn't hard either, I've got good memory
>heck, I even have access to some free hosting
>hurricane incoming in florida
>one friend is evacing later
>the other is staying and saying he'll livestream it on youtube
>realhumanbean.png
>I always wish I had some problems so I could get more attention
>But then I remember that's fucking retarded
>I was never comfortable when I had problems
>I was never comfortable when I was paid attention either
>meh
>It's almost breakfast time
>I should sleep before I'm hungry and my family starts moving around causing a big racket
>no sounds for now
>I'll just put on some music
>shitty instrumental beat tapes
>occasional choir or hazy muffled speech at the fringes, I still count it as instrumental
>opinions don't matter in beat tapes, it's just emotion
>I always imagine warm days where I'm comfortable and happy with being alone
>I cry as the mental warmth seeps into me
>I don't care how much of a tryhard I am, I hope this is a high point in life
>>I didn't get around to learning any japanese today
>>all I've done in a while was get goog ads to be less shite
>I drift off to sleep
>be me
>be 18
>be alone within yourself
>alone is fine
>my friends keep me happy
>im not alone if i have friends
>my eyes are shut, but my mind is a fireworks display or regret and sweet memories
>there wasn't much reason for the regret, but served as wounds for the memories to salt
>more tears trickled down my cheeks, soaking into my pillow
>who needs friends
>the house was empty
>I'm a smart kid, I can use a computer and I don't waste my time on facebook
>questioning myself is pointless
>I already know why I do what I do
>I'm fine
>I wake up to the sunset lining up perfectly with the razor thin opening in my blinds
>my room is filled with a warm orange glow
>I drift off to sleep again
>It's 4:30am
>I look at my door, faced away from desk
>my screensaver masked the defrag progress
>I should get some cereal
>I wonder what my friends are doing
>I would check, but I disabled most programs from running to hopefully ease along the defrag
>this is great, nothing to worry about
>I should keep my internet turned off
>I can't even afford a ticket to Japan, why the fuck am I studying
>I get back into bed and sleep
>I'm tired
pastebin B3hjmcdF
saved
paranoid it'll go 404 before I finish
wtf
This is fine.
are you ok OP?
no
The fuck is this, a blog? Learn how to cut out the unnecessary detail if you want people to read this shit OP.
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>RAM configurations
huh? What RAM configs?
If you *have* RAM in the slots then it should boot up, and if not (or if you have lazily put in the ram without all contacts in place) then before POST ends (iirc) you should get beep codes from your mobo that you just look up.
Never have I ever heard of a machine with RAM not booting because "RAM configurations".. since all interfacing with RAM is through the BIOS (most if not all mobos).
So if I'm just retarded correct me.. I'm just confused and unsure if you know what you're talking about (with proper terms) or not.
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Sometimes I worry about you fucking retards.
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Holy fuck, OP.
Verbose, pedantic, pointless, droning, boring.
The adjectives for this stupid rant of yours are endless. I could be here all night, but I'd rather dip my cock in molten glass than spend another minute in this thread.
That's the only reason I can think of.
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Here, have the original.
...i actually liked it...
is it done?
"A fool always finds a greater fool to admire him."