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if you love shinobu so much why don't you marry her

>if you love shinobu so much why don't you marry her
Because she isn't real.. ;-;

Would you call your symptoms hallucinations, also do they tend to reoccur. Or are they always different?

How long do you wait to get a girl before you swap teams.
Cute trap been flirting at me at work.
Passable but has to dress like a guy at work.
They meet me out of work, I thought they were a girl at first.
Been flirting a lot in and out of work with me.
Not disgusted, lonely and know I more then likely won't find a girl.

So how long should I keep telling myself I am not gay before breaking down and fucking them

that didn't stop this user from coding and modeling a wedding ceremony in vr and livestreaming it

>Would you call your symptoms hallucinations
I would call some of them hallucinations, yes.
>also do they tend to reoccur.
Yes, the primary ones do reoccur quite frequently.
>Or are they always different?
Not always, but there are usually some that are different.

>How long do you wait to get a girl before you swap teams.
Well, I myself will never swap teams.
>Cute trap been flirting at me at work.
I mean if you're into that, go for it.
>So how long should I keep telling myself I am not gay before breaking down and fucking them
I can't tell you how you should live your life, user. Do you want to fuck him? If yes, then fuck him, if no, then don't.
>that didn't stop this user from coding and modeling a wedding ceremony in vr and livestreaming it
What a lucky bastard.

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hello hello friend! I hope today's okay

>hello hello friend!
Heyo
>I hope today's okay

How do you cope with your hallucinations and delusions? Do you ignore them or actively engage them? Which do you find works better?

had an ex that was schizo claimed they were pagan to coup with everything you do that too? or do you accept its not real and just deal with it?

I think this man in the wedding technically cucked OP

Do you take medication? If yes, which ones?

Expired link.

>How do you cope with your hallucinations and delusions?
Well, I don't necessarily "cope" with them. I just kind of let them be.
>Do you ignore them or actively engage them?
It all depends on how I feel. I usually engage with them though.
>Which do you find works better?
Well, they're both pretty ineffective, honestly.
>you do that too?
No, I don't.
>or do you accept its not real and just deal with it?
I know it's not real, but I don't really accept it..

who is that behind you?

why are you claming such a faggot "disease" when you were only touched by your uncle?

I've seen so many of your threads, even talked to you in a few. But to this day I wonder as to what your purpose is here, and what questions you're trying to answer. Because doing the same thing and expecting a different result is the textbook definition of insanity- which may be redundant to point out, but I'll do it anyway because you cold sit here for the next decade and not get anywhere new

>I think this man in the wedding technically cucked OP
Why is that?
>Do you take medication?
Nope.
>Expired link.
It's not expired. You need to make it the full link. Sup Forums doesn't like the full link.
>who is that behind you?
Oh shit, it's my dog.

are you the same person making these threads now and then or are there a few schizos doing this

what's the dogs name user?

I'm doing pretty okay today! I've had some hard things to deal with but I'm managing just fine

>Why is that?
Because he married your waifu first

lol knew you were a faggot, please kys.

you one of those over sexual types i hear some schizophrenic are or am i thinking of bi polors

How do you engage with them?

Personally, I put in a lot of effort to create scenes for them to occupy in my imagination. For example, I have a voice that likes to talk philosophy. He hangs out in a living room with some comfy chairs and a fire. Made him calm down a lot and now I can summon him whenever I'd like a chat about philosophy.

I'm not sure if this would work for other people but I've found a lot of relief from the negative aspects of my own schizophrenia doing this.

>why are you claming such a faggot "disease" when you were only touched by your uncle?
Why not?
>But to this day I wonder as to what your purpose is here
The purpose is to just pass the time, talk to some anons.
>and what questions you're trying to answer.
I can't straight up answer that.
>Because doing the same thing and expecting a different result is the textbook definition of insanity
But the outcome is never the same. So is it insanity?
>not get anywhere new
If it ever got to the point where new stuff wasn't happening, I wouldn't be here.
>are you the same person making these threads now and then or are there a few schizos doing this
It's probably primarily me.
>I'm doing pretty okay today!
That's good to hear.
> I've had some hard things to deal with but I'm managing just fine Because he married your waifu first
Oh shit. you're right.
>lol knew you were a faggot, please kys.
Maybe later.

Luna is a cool name. cheers you tweaky bastard

What symptoms do you have?

>Oh shit. you're right.
Rip my guy

i used to see and hear a knight named lord wickenshirer he would always sit around the house and read the same newspaper from oct 18 1987 i miss him

What I meant by get anywhere, is getting closer to your answers. I suppose if it's working, keep on keepin on bro

that's not how waifus work, though.

>you one of those over sexual types
Sometimes.
>i hear some schizophrenic are or am i thinking of bi polors
It applies to pretty much any mental issue.
>How do you engage with them?
It's primarily the voices I engage with, so I talk to them.
>I'm not sure if this would work for other people but I've found a lot of relief from the negative aspects of my own schizophrenia doing this.
I can sort of do this, but it's not a surefire way. they can still come around on their own.
>Luna is a cool name.
I agree.
>cheers you tweaky bastard
You too, my britbong.>What symptoms do you have?
Hallucinations, delusions, anxiety, paranoia and catatonia
>Rip my guy
How will I ever recover?

I bet you pick the shit tier ones then, cause it is

>How will I ever recover?
I believe drinking copious amounts of alcohol or simply choosing to forget about the horror that is life works well

What are your voices like?

Mine seem very distinct based on subject and obsession, e.g. some voices are preoccupied with religion while others are obsessed with things I'm working on. Would you be able to let your voices type out answers to questions?

>i used to see and hear a knight named lord wickenshirer
I gotta admit, that's pretty badass. Did he wear armor?
>What I meant by get anywhere, is getting closer to your answers.
I'm always moving toward the answer, but sometimes progress is slow. It's less about what's happening here in the physical world, but rather the limitations I place on myself.
>I suppose if it's working
Working is a bit of a strong word. But, it hasn't failed.
>that's not how waifus work, though.
Hmm, I have to disagree with that.
>I bet you pick the shit tier ones then, cause it is
btfo
>I believe drinking copious amounts of alcohol
Maybe, if alcohol wasn't shit.
>or simply choosing to forget about the horror that is life works well
I'll just have to purge it from my mind and pretend nothing ever happened.

>you too my britbong
but I'm an American user:

Yea he did wear armor and stuff even had a sword and a horse
this is as close as i can get

>What are your voices like?
A lot of them are manifestations of the aspects of my personality I do not like. But, that's a given.
Mine are often tangled in odd things, things I myself would not normally think of. Such as subjectivity, emotions (primarily my own).
They're also focused a lot on the existential questions of "life".
>Would you be able to let your voices type out answers to questions?
They themselves do not have access to motor functions. I can type what they say (if they say anything) sometimes.
>but I'm an American user:
Oh fug, I'm usually not wrong about that.

>I'm always moving toward the answer, but sometimes progress is slow. It's less about what's happening here in the physical world, but rather the limitations I place on myself.
Well that's an interesting thing to say, because limitations you put on yourself can be helpful, hindering or hurtful. I hope your strange journey goes well my guy. I'd like to see how/if it ends, cause it looks like you've got a pretty unique experience
>Working is a bit of a strong word. But, it hasn't failed.
At least it hasn't failed as of yet

>Maybe, if alcohol wasn't shit.
I mean, fair enough

Hi op!
Nice to see you again!

What aspects of your personality do you not like, if you don't mind me asking?

At first my voices were very negative, but I starting acting as my own therapist for the voices and that seemed to help them be more positive, or at least they became manageable. What sorts of things do they say?

My voices are usually tangled up in childhood memories which can make for some weird associations.

What are your personal opinions on the existential questions of life?

hello hello mister mantis

delete this. how dare you post my waifu

>this is as close as i can get
Damn, where can I find my own knight? I want one.
>because limitations you put on yourself can be helpful, hindering or hurtful.
The original intent was to be helpful, but now that has passed. They've grown out of their use and are more hindering than helpful. But, they've been so far ingrained in who I am there isn't a lot to do about it.
>I'd like to see how/if it ends
It will likely end in one of these threads. So, there's a high probability you'll be able to see it.
>At least it hasn't failed as of yet
Let's just hope it doesn't fail.
>Hi op!
Hello!
>Nice to see you again!
How have you been?

wanna fug?

no idea where to find your own knight mine just showed up one day i ws on these meds called lexapro i think and thats all he is gone tho sadly since i switched meds

You're not schizophrenic, Your mom and/or dad delved into the occult and mingled with other humans in orgies or cult practices while they were i college, or your mom swallowes lots of dudes, and you are experiencing hightened awareness, witnessing other's sights and sounds.

>The original intent was to be helpful, but now that has passed. They've grown out of their use and are more hindering than helpful. But, they've been so far ingrained in who I am there isn't a lot to do about it.
Well, habits are broken the same way they're formed; over time. You can do it my guy
>It will likely end in one of these threads. So, there's a high probability you'll be able to see it.
Well I hope I'll see it, lol Idk if that means I have to browse Sup Forums regularly or hope someone screen-caps if I miss it
>Let's just hope it doesn't fail.
I'm hoping for the same my friend

>What aspects of your personality do you not like
The parts of myself I tried to lock away many years ago.
All the negative stuff. Anxiety, self-doubt, fear, self-loathing, etc.
>if you don't mind me asking?
I don't mind at all, that is the point of an AMA.
>What sorts of things do they say?
A lot of the time it's word salad. If they find a tangible thing to focus on though, they will focus on the negatives about it. Especially, if it's something I myself have been focused on.
They're not always negative though, I often talk to them about fairly enjoyable things. Like the universe, how life may have come into existence, etc.
>My voices are usually tangled up in childhood memories which can make for some weird associations.
I can somewhat relate to that.
>What are your personal opinions on the existential questions of life?
What do you mean?

that fucking diner gets around.

henlo passing by before faiting out, my body is giving up tonigt too tired to do anything

>wanna fug?
Not today.
>no idea where to find your own knight
Damn.
>on these meds called lexapro
Ooh, just a bad med reaction?
>he is gone tho sadly since i switched meds
You could always try to re-conjure him yourself.
>and you are experiencing hightened awareness, witnessing other's sights and sounds.
That's an interesting way of looking at it.
>You can do it my guy
I tend to disagree.
>Well I hope I'll see it
Me too, friend.
>henlo
Heya.
>passing by before faiting out
Don't stay up too long, Sleep well.

not bad reaction to meds just the rare 1 outta 20 people that see shit i thought about re-conjure myself but meh people already think im fucked in the head don't need more thinking that

Hi OP, do you drink or do drugs?

>The parts of myself I tried to lock away many years ago.

Yeah I know what you mean. Those parts always seem to find a way to break out of their prison and assert themselves. What led you to try and lock those parts away? For me the process is sometimes difficult, but I've found a way to just accept those parts of myself for what they are. Finding a way to validate the negative emotions e.g. saying to them "It makes sense you would feel that way" always seems to make them feel better.

Could I ask a question to your voices and have them answer?

>What do you mean?

Like what's your worldview? For example, I would say I believe in something like reincarnation, so the perspective my voices take about things aligns with that. My guilt voice will say things like "If you don't try your best you'll have to deal with the consequences in your next life." Sometimes when these negative aspects get overwhelming I become catatonic because I'm afraid the next thing I do will make things not just bad, but eternally bad. Sometimes it's a lot to deal with.

>not bad reaction to meds just the rare 1 outta 20 people that see shit
That's what I would classify as a bad reaction.
>people already think im fucked in the head don't need more thinking that
Who cares what they think?
You also don't have to tell them.
>Hi OP
Hello
>do you drink
Very, very rarely. I don't like alcohol.
>or do drugs?
I smoke weed on occasion, but primarily just socially.

Are you virgin?

eh i know i should not care what people think but idk just how i am even tho i don't go out much cant stand meeting people

>I tend to disagree.
That might be part of your problem then my guy- you've got to let yourself believe it's possible too

>What led you to try and lock those parts away?
You know, I don't know exactly. This is something I was roughly thinking about a few nights ago. The only thing I could even come close to as an answer was "to gain some control".
>Could I ask a question to your voices and have them answer?
You can try, there's no guarantee they'll answer though. It's been pretty much silent today.

>Like what's your worldview?
Hmm, I identify as "pantheist", it's the closest thing to my religious belief but doesn't nail it exactly.
I believe in a similar idea to "reincarnation" but not exactly.
I don't believe that your actions in this life influence your "next life". But, the knowledge you gain can be "transferred". Though not in its entirety.
>Are you virgin?
Yes.
>but idk just how i am
Some things can't be helped.
>That might be part of your problem then my guy
It definitely is.
>you've got to let yourself believe it's possible too
Believing is a surefire way to expose your stomach, metaphorically speaking.

what do you see most im a schizo and i get spiders alot like humaniod spiders and shit also voices telling me to let it in and shit

>"to gain some control".
And it doesn't work, right?

What are you afraid you might do, if you let go of the control you think you're asserting?

Here's a question I pose to my own voices: what do you want?

Sometimes it takes a while for their answers to make much sense, but it seems to make them more focused in a constructive way.

Hi OP, not schizo, but it runs in my mom's side really hard and i have a bunch of early warning signs for it developing later in life (or maybe it's just masked rn? Idk.)

Anyway, prepare for an unfair onslaught of questions.

>when were you first diagnosed?

>you already answered this partially, but how do you cope?

>why not take meds? Im curious if its just the typical not trusting doctors thing or if it's something deeper

>how do you wish others would treat you as a schizophrenic?

>how do you feel about life today?

>Believing is a surefire way to expose your stomach
this is definitely a fair point, but risk is involved in most things in life- especially things that're worth while

Do you care if you are virgin or not?

>are you a virgin
You've not only answered this question a thousand times, but women are probably the least of your got damn worries

>what do you see most
Disembodied faces and heads
A huge lumbering black shadow figure that wears a black trenchcoat, and has no eyes. He stands in doorways and just stares at me.
I also see things like little spiders, bugs, flickering lights, orbs streaks of lights, etc.
>And it doesn't work, right?
It does.
>What are you afraid you might do, if you let go of the control you think you're asserting?
BAD things.
I have no shadow of a doubt that I am asserting control.
>what do you want?
To make things as clear, to illuminate what cannot be seen through standard knowledge and viewing of the world.
An outside opinion from one's subjective self, completely objective.
>Hi OP
Hello.
>when were you first diagnosed?
Age 20~
>you already answered this partially, but how do you cope?
I just... do. I don't have a method, or any specific thing I do. I'm just.. used to it.
>why not take meds?
I don't take any medications for anything, including simple things like headaches. It violates my core beliefs.
>how do you wish others would treat you as a schizophrenic?
I have no opinion on this matter.
>how do you feel about life today?
Meh.

How many licks does it take to reach the center of a tootsie pop? I MUST KNOW SO I CAN DIE HAPPY

what's it like to be such a narcissist

>but risk is involved in most things in life
Risks are something to be calculated for. Sometimes the gain is not worth the risk.
>Do you care if you are virgin or not?
Yes, but not because of standard reasons like "wah I wanna get laid". Sex is of little importance to me.
>but women are probably the least of your got damn worries
Not strictly the least, but you're not far off.
>How many licks does it take to reach the center of a tootsie pop?
211,139
>what's it like to be such a narcissist
It's pretty fucking great.

>It does.
If you say so.

>BAD things.
>To make things as clear, to illuminate what cannot be seen through standard knowledge and viewing of the world.
>An outside opinion from one's subjective self, completely objective.

That doesn't sound bad. It sounds good to me. Maybe the "bad" things are a way to get there? I've done some "bad" things in my time and, while I wouldn't repeat them, I do feel I've learned some very valuable things from them. A lot of what we think of as "bad" is just in our head anyway, things that society says but which are complete bullshit.

What bad things are you afraid of doing, specifically?

sage goes in all fields

If you truly don’t think take any medicine then you are amazing OP. I’ve seen and read some of the shit schizos go through and it’s like living in nothing short of a horror movie. Often times I’ll get really nervous or sesnsitive to people tailing me in their care, or notice how dark it is in a room, or imagine I feel a presence, but it fades when I wake up. I have no doubt in my mind I would an hero if I was a schizo.

My question: if you see these things then At least part of you must see them as “real” - right? How do you function normally when you see horrific unexplainable shit like faceless men in trechcoats every day? If you can discern them from reality how/why are you still seeing them?

Do the world a favor and kys

What's on your bucket list?

I want to skydive at least once.

>Maybe the "bad" things are a way to get there?
No, the bad things are just bad strictly for the sake of being bad.
>I've done some "bad" things in my time and, while I wouldn't repeat them
I would repeat them, and I have.
>What bad things are you afraid of doing, specifically?
Oh, you know, things like torturing people, willfully manipulating people for one's own self-gain. Causing as much chaos as possible.
Those sorts of things.
>sage goes in all fields
Thanks, friend.

>Not strictly the least, but you're not far off.
Yeah, I was thinking from the angle of having to deal with voices day to day, not implying you weren't interested at all

>Risks are something to be calculated for. Sometimes the gain is not worth the risk.
Yeah, it's really up to you my guy, gotta decide if it's worth it somehow

Tell us about one of your hallucinations

>then you are amazing OP
I'm not that amazing. There are plenty of Schizos like me.
>if you see these things then At least part of you must see them as “real” - right?
Yes, I see them as real, I even feel as if they are real. But, I know they're not. I often wind up arguing with myself whether or not it's real.
>How do you function normally when you see horrific unexplainable shit like faceless men in trechcoats every day?
I don't see it every day. It's only really when I'm psychotic that I have visual hallucinations.
>If you can discern them from reality how/why are you still seeing them?
My opinion of them has no influence on whether or not they appear. I don't know how else to explain it other than that.
>Do the world a favor and kys
Maybe some other time.
>What's on your bucket list?
Visit Japan
Murder at least one person
Skydive
Hmm, I can't remember anything else from it. I know there's more though.
>not implying you weren't interested at all
I figured as much. But, clarification is a habit of mine.
>Yeah, it's really up to you my guy, gotta decide if it's worth it somehow
Sometimes it's not possible to tell if it's worth it.
>Tell us about one of your hallucinations
Can you be more specific?

>Causing as much chaos as possible.
I used to worry about this same thing. I would say this to you, like I've said to myself: the things you've done make sense for what you've gone through. Others judge only because they have been fortunate enough to not be exposed to the shit we have, the kind of shit that's made us what we are.

In a sense, people like us are blessed. We see so much more of the world than others see. I don't think you're a bad person, user - you are only conscientious of yourself. Others don't even notice their abuse and neglect, and I promise you others are more abusive and neglectful than you are without even being aware what they're doing.

I think you're doing a good job, user. The fact you even worry about these things shows that.

I must be off to bed, perhaps we will meet in another thread.

>Murder one person

An innocent or a criminal?

>Sometimes it's not possible to tell if it's worth it.
Then take a risk and decide what's more important to you, I'm sure it'll turn out alright

>I must be off to bed
Good night. I hope to see you around again.
>An innocent or a criminal?
Preferably an innocent.

Bruh. That guy dindu muffin. Why'd you stab him?

How vivid are your hallucinations? Have you had this condition all your life or was it gradual, or was there a specific event? What kind of auditory hallucinations do you experience if any? Why don’t you take any medications or therapy when it would enable you to live a happier live (probably)?

>Then take a risk and decide what's more important to you
How am I supposed to decide what's important, if I'm unable to even decide on what I want?
>Bruh. That guy dindu muffin. Why'd you stab him?
For funsies.
>How vivid are your hallucinations?
The visuals are like 8/10
The auditory are usually like 5/10
>Have you had this condition all your life or was it gradual,
I believe I've had it all my life.
>What kind of auditory hallucinations do you experience if any?
Voices primarily. I also hear ambient sounds like birds chirping, music and static.
>Why don’t you take any medications
I dislike the idea of medication.
>therapy when it would enable you to live a happier live (probably)?
I don't think I have much to gain from therapy.

>How am I supposed to decide what's important, if I'm unable to even decide on what I want?
I don't know friend, just tryin to help
Figuring out what you want involves searching for what you care about and how certain things make you feel, general soul searching and all that. I think that doing a variety of things and thinking about it actively could help

If you see figures or full-bodied persons, if you have tried staring at them what happens? Do they talk? Do the disappear/reappear randomly?

Sorry for so many questions, I just think your condition is really neat, even if it is horrific. Hope you feel and stay better OP.

Jeez. You are giving off a vibe of a cute, yandere type person. Is it worth my dick? Probably.

>I don't know friend, just tryin to help
I know.
>Figuring out what you want involves searching for what you care about
That's exactly what I intend to do.
>if you have tried staring at them what happens?
They usually just disappear.
>Do they talk?
Nope
>Do the disappear/reappear randomly?
Yes, all the time.
>Sorry for so many questions
No worries.
>Hope you feel and stay better OP.
Thanks friend.
>You are giving off a vibe of a cute, yandere type person.
You aren't the first person to say that.
>Is it worth my dick?
I'm not gay.

Damn. I thought I had a chance.