Mental Illness thread:

Mental Illness thread:

What's wrong with your head?
What caused it?
How does this make you different?
Has this difference taught you anything?


>For me, I have bipolar disorder type 1
>It developed a couple years ago. Its genetic, but symptoms didn't develop until I was 18.
>I experience emotions more strongly/less strongly depending on where I am in the cycle. It also affects my functions. I think more/less. Do more/less.
>Its taught me about what it means to feel. Emotion is everything to humans. Without it, you quickly start running out of reasons to do things other than eat/sleep/shit.

Wait is this a YLYL thread? If so, that webm is top notch

no clue, not diagnosed... i suspect aspergers

socially awkward
don't have any serious interests besides gaming and even that is just a way to pass time
can't retain information all that well
don't respond normally in conversations and situations
only leave the house when i run out of food or when i have an appointment
go weeks without hearing from or talking to family
have no friends except a few online buddies

several of these could be clumped into a single symptom if i had a better grasp of my condition but i don't even know where to start, how do i convince a doctor i'm not right if i don't know

Epilepsy. Developed by 27. Makes me forget often.

Epilepsy. Developed when I was 27. I am forgetful.

>parents split up when i was a kid
>mum became a drunk and abusive
>used to scream at me every day and not leave me alone
>tried to kill myself age 16
>7 years later diagnosed with ptsd and ocd
>oh cool i have the meme disorders
>cant tell anyone because they think im a tumblr meme or "yeh im ocd too"
>mfw

>how do i convince a doctor i'm not right if i don't know

well firstly, I'd just start by telling the doctor that you suspect you have aspergers. That won't give him too much information, because who knows what you know, but he's going to immediately ask "Why do you think you have x?"

And you'll tell him your symptoms... and from then on, he'll just lead you. Its their job to pick our brains and get the info they need. They'll know what questions to ask, and if they don't... well, doctor shop until someone does.

did you forget you posted?

I had a hammer thrown at the back of my skull when I was 9.

A steel pipe and a brick were slammed into my head when I was 10.

A nigger killed my cat when I was 7 years old.

I suppress my urge to kill every black person I see.

I have RA and short term memory problems, also personality disorders.

Happened cause I got shot in the head accidentally. Cousin was shooting off a. 22 for 4th of July, shot a cinder block ricochet and entered my skull just above my eye lid. Doc said I was lucky it wasnt a direct hit.

>the meme disorders

No fucking kidding. I'd want to kill a bitch. That being said I doubt any sane person would actually think you're just a tumblr meme.

I usually don't say "I have x." I say "I have been diagnosed with x." Big difference.

so he's taught us that niggers are bad. Okay moving on.

Same here but with social anxiety.
Not diagnosed but it's pretty obvious i have it. My dad thinks i have autism because i avoid people and when i talk to strangers i tend to stutter. I never told anyone so let them think i'm retarded, i don't care.
I'm not sure about what caused it, i'm like this since i was 3.

what personality disorders?

"Not diagnosed"

if you can afford it, worth seeing someone and getting it officially diagnosed. I wasn't sure what was causing my anxiety in particular, and just by talking about it I realised that I had actually been abused. Then being diagnosed with something put a label on it and made it real, and I feel like I'm finally making progress in getting better/learning how to deal with it.

They might just say "you have anxiety" or it might be a fancy abbreviation. idk about you but it definitely helped me.

Where do I go to find good midget porn?

>What's wrong with your head?
I think my head looks normal
>What caused it?
Parents look normal
>How does this make you different?
I don't think it does
>Has this difference taught you anything?
People with normal looking heads make babies with normal looking heads

Bipolar disorder is just an excuse for people with emotions to act outrageous

sociopathy. I was very young when I got it. Everyone makes it out to be this really cool disorder where you don't care about anyone but yourself, but honestly I am terrified about my emotions.

I fly into blind rages and can't seem to find genuine empathy.

yeh I've told 2 close irl friends, and im sure others would understand that ptsd is a real thing, but I know too many people who throw around ocd like it just means meticulous, or think that they understand that it just means I need to wash my hands a lot (which I don't), and it's lost all weight. I'd hate to sound like a whiny snowflake, but I do get triggered when people when people say "I'm ocd too lol xd" when they aren't.

That, or the opposite happens and they take extra care to take the word "triggered" out of their vocabulary as if it would offend me or something. Sorta like using wrong gender pronouns to a trans person.

Schizophrenia; genetic; taught me life isn't supposed to be so hard, however knowing that doesn't make it any easier.

Are you saying Bipolar disorder is a myth?

I mean, some Bipolar people do use it as an excuse, but mental illness in general is not an excuse to act outrageous.

Never been diagnosed

But. Chronic panicattacks OCD and i'm controlling to the extent i have trust issues unless i make the rules.
No idea whats wrong with me hope i can find out

why do your emotions terrify you? I thought sociopaths don't experience emotions?

How does schizophrenia make life hard? I don't know much about the condition at all. Most people just know of it as "crazy"

Yeah it seems like the best thing to do is just not tell people. I'm dealing with an information breach about my disorder... because one of my friends told his chatty girlfriend, and they just broke up...

I'm gay, it's contagious, my daddy touched me when I was 3 and it was all down hill from there

Do you go to therapy, take pills or something like that?

Actually i have been told twice that i had anxiety, one time i was running out of breath constantly, the second time my head and neck hurt so much i couldn't sleep. But they were doctors, and they acted like it was general anxiety. Of course i didn't say anything. doctors scare the shit out of me.

This was what I got on the internet quiz which is probably exaggerated to make everyone think they're tumblrkin. But people I know say I have no empathy for others. Which is true, I find it very hard for something to move me and I'm not very emotional. I have bursts of overconfidence and high self worth. I also rarely see figures / faces in my room at night. I have been very depressed a few times but this is normally brought on by occurrences in my life, it's not a random down period. This is why I don't think I am bipolar, I just have many symptoms of it.

I've recently started going to counselling. About 3 months ago my gf of 6 years broke up with me, and I've come to realise it was because of my problems; as much as I tried not to, they bled into our relationship and became her problems too, and it became too much for her. So only now am I actually trying to get help, and counselling has been recommended to me. My stepmum has trouble with public speaking, as a lot of people do, so she takes betablockers whenever she feels anxious but needs to do a presentation as part of her job, so I might get myself some of those to take if I feel I'm about to have some grainy black and white edgy vietnam flashbacks like in the movies.

Yeah PTSD and ocd for me too. I try manage but it has taken over my life. Childhood of sexual and physical trauma. I can function, work, have friends. But I live in a world where I'm trapped by my thoughts. Feel compelled to document everything that happens. Every fucking thing. Takes hours out of each day.

Epilepsy. Made me aware to not be afraid of death. I could have a seizure and die so there's no need to stress over the what ifs

From various doctors in order: depression, bipolar, OCD, depression, bipolar, schizophrenic.

I no longer see any doctors, no meds, I don't leave my house, I don't talk to anyone including the people I live with. I gave up.

Sorry to hear that. I'm gonna suggest you do the meds again, just for the schizophrenia. That's important man, will help you feel better and make a big difference to your quality of life. And also that of those you're living with. Your illness will be having a massive negative impact on them.

Sounds like you have some anxiety issues. Let me just tell you as someone who used to have CRIPPLING social anxiety and now does presentations to sometimes hundreds of people without an issue, this is definitely fixible. I know it seems like a lost cause sometimes but trust me it's not. Don't lose hope.

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>What's wrong with your head?
I'm schizophrenic
>What caused it?
A very traumatic childhood and the death of the swine that caused it to be traumatic, my dad
>How does this make you different?
I see and hear things that aren't there, I suffer delusions and I have very strange thoughtpatterns
>Has this difference taught you anything?
Basically it's just taught me that life is harder for some than others, and the ability to think in more than one pattern or "track" has led me to have high abilities of accumulating information, I just caught things faster than others, but mostly in a way that was a little odd and required my teachers to understand my systems, luckily most of them took the time to do it

Thanks, but I think I'm beyond help. So I've been devising a plan to at least fulfill one task in my life before I go.

Cheers dude. The biggest problem for me was that there isn't, and hasn't ever been a specific cause each time. Sometimes I'm too scared to leave my room/the house, I can lose the ability to speak and think properly, but it's never consistent with an external stimulus. One day I can walk in a crowd of people and talk to strangers or whatever and completely disassociate with any stress I might have, other times I have panic attacks and there's no way to predict when or why. I guess the upside is, my problems aren't preventing me from doing anything in particular, like someone with a fear of heights could never go skydiving for example.

Still in the process of figuring it all out since the T R I G G E R S aren't apparent, but yeh I'm trying to stay positive since this is the first time I'm making a conscious effort to git gud.

The trick is to actually DO the things that make you nervous even If it means at least trying or taking baby steps. I used to have issues walking down the street in public so I started by keeping my walls short and close to home. Sure, you might have a panic attack and it sucks but there are ways to minimize them like breathing exercises. Even if you do have a panic attack or feel uncomfortable if you push through anyway you're taking one step toward getting rid of your anxiety by proving to your mind that your fears are not actually legit.

>What's wrong with your head?

OCD. its worse than most people think. for example i always have to drink exactly 3.5 liters of water a day and always out of the same bottle (because i know its exactly a liter) and one time i went on vacaction to mexico and i lost my bottle, i had a literal anxiety attack. i was crying on the hotel bed for an hour losing my shit. i also have tics, like what tourettes people have. yes, that can be a symtom of ocd. my tics are flaring my nostrils, wiggling my ears, clicking my tongue, whistling, and (embarassing...) whimpering. Im also the biggest fucking neat freak, control freak and germaphobe its crazy... but lets not get into that.

>What caused it?

no idea. ive always been like this, except my tics didnt start until 2 and a half years ago because i was really nervous for a 10minute presentation i had to do. i started flaring my nostrils and never stopped.

>How does this make you different?

Im always freaking out over stupid shit... sometimes people notice my tics too

>Has this difference taught you anything?

that im a freak lmfao

im so sorry dude... i love you

Asperger's, ptsd from the way I was treated because of the Asperger's. Schizoaffective which is partly genetic partly caused by high amount of stress. Symptoms started after a moderate TBI/THI in the army.Life sucks I can't stand be being around people.

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>What's wrong with your head?
Bipolar Disorder w/ Manic Depression

>What caused it?
Good ol' crazy fucking family.

>How does this make you different?
-I can't keep up relationships with people without at random points kirking tf out.
-I get supremely delusional and start believing that most of everyone I know hates me.
-I got meds that made me fucking SO SICK, but it was a thousand times better than the nihilistic fucking unfathomable depression.
-After I got out of the psych ward for suicidal tendencies, I cut off the meds.
-I'm right back where I started. Every fucking day of my life is going to be like this.
-I struggle to find reasons to survive, and am so fucking stupid I got a serious problem dog that I love so I can't blow my head off without leaving him unadoptable at the shelter.

>Has this difference taught you anything?
How to actively combat delusions.
That nothing actually matters (via nihilistic, reasonless manic depression).
That my life is going to be a fucking shitshow forever for no reason.
That I can be ridiculously sad for no apparent fucking reason even if they get rid of delusions.

I'm gonna put a gun in my mouth, it's gonna happen, I get so god damned insane sometimes it feel like i'll break, but not without a fight.

*hugs super tightly* i love you

I feel like all mentally fucked people reach the "your life is always going to be like this" conclusion.

You don't, they always look like cavetrolls unless you go on suicide girls but it's just nude pictures.

Yeah I think so, unless therapy sessions REALLY works wonders. I never could afford a good therapist though

Judaized

> high functioning Bipolar type 2

I pity you OP.. My highs have allowed me to harness my mania and focus it into career moves in short bursts.
My lows aren't so low as a result.
If I were type 1 I would've necked myself by now.

I was always an introvert with no friends. Even going for shoping made me feel uncomfortable but I was fine back then.
At age 20 I found girlfriend and she left after three years. I collapsed.
After two month after the breaking up I feel nothing to her. She is just nonexisting to me. She tried to get back to me cuz the guy she left me for kicked her after two weeks of living with her. I felt nothing and just said "No, I am better now.".
Even tho I feel nothing to her I locked myself up. I can't talk to anyone beside the family. I have to do the shopping with my mom because when I go to the shop alone I feel like everyone is looking at me and I panic and hurry up to the car without the goods. I can't go to the party, church, shop, work. I just can't stand more than 3 people around me.

Machiavellian.

I quietly analyze new people and a act totally different depending on social group
/each person. I get stressed when 2 different groups mix(work friends with family). This discludes my gf. She knows me and doesnt judge if I meld.

I could on my insurance- I got you: they fucking don't.

The therapist actually became a conduit for delusions for me.

The only thing that works is "toughing through it" and figuring out how to shift the weight of it.

Course, it'll get harder every single time you figure it out until it's basically unbearable and you have to get medicated again.

Then we repeat this dance till fucking death.

^That's just my experience tho.

shut the fuck up

Thanks I really appreciate that

wtf? This is literally everybody. You're not special or different.

>What's wrong with your head?
Bipolar Disorder 2

>What caused it?
It runs in the family i guess

>How does this make you different?
It was hard keeping up in class, and it was hard to keep a normal relationship with people. i have fucked over some people because of my up and down emotions. Really do not know why i still have freinds after all the mess i've made.

When i was depressed i was constantly feeling like shit, worthless, weird, ugly.

It also made me a fucking retard socially to.

When i had manic episodes, i would use a shit ton of money, work hard, talk really fast, become really angry fast. My sex drive was high. Basicly felt like i was a god.

I take meds for it now, and i feel like a different person. People say i've changed. Like i'm a new person. The old me is dead, and i think that is a good thing.

The old me was a really bad person.

Aspergers.
Genetics.

I find all random conversations with unfamiliar people creepy as fuck and every local girl in the neighbourhood who has ever tried hitting on me hates me because I either ignore them or just stare at them blanky and nervously laugh until they give up.

It's taught me that I'm destined to be forever alone. Now I just focus on hitting the gym and spending time with friends. Whenever I mess up with a girl it does't bother me as much as it used to. I don't have the depressing ""shit she could've been the one"" mindset anymore so I guess there's that.

Depression. Funny enough my wife well soon to be ex wife is having a manic affair. So yeah emotion fuck it.

Almost an heroed in June chickened out been wondering why I shouldn't do it since

What's wrong with me? I have a superiority complex.

I see myself as above almost everybody I know, both intellectually and socially.

I grew up in a poor abusive family and I dropped out of High School to get a GED but now I own 2 apartments in 2 different major cities in the US, I made $15,672 dollars last month after teaching myself about the stock market only 5 months ago and I'm in school for both Sound Engineering and Acoustic Architecture Engineering. I rarely have empathy for anybody and all I can think about other humans is "I did it so everybody else can do it. Grow the fuck up. You're all morons."

>depression
>guilt about accidentally pressuring my ex girlfriend into sex

Didn't know I was hurting her
Guess it triggered something and now I'm clinically depressed

Quiz on where?

>What's wrong with your head?
Depression.

>What caused it?
Caused by

>How does this make you different?
Extreme lack of motivation, no sex drive, not interested in money and don't care about people.

>Has this difference taught you anything?
It taught me I need to work out obsessively or i'll kill myself. I could easily become a personal trainer if I didn't hate interacting with other people so much. Dealing with dumb flirty girls who aren't actually interested in working out really fucking annoys me.

ptsd, depression (since i was super young), general anxiety, anorexia, bpd.
caused by rape (twice), abuse by parents as a child, and school
taught me pessimistic nihilism. that's it.

Years of antidepressive from a very young age hindered my brain from producing endorphins.

I have issues feeling genuine happiness and wonder, few things make me truly smile nowadays.

Its made me cynical, but its also made me logical, I don't depend on my emotions anymore, and it makes me seem like a trustworthy person that people can confide in.

sometimes i see people die. not imagine. not think about.... sometime i watch it. then i continue to have perfectly normal conversations with them because ive learned to deal with these delusions.
it only happens when i care about someone. its because i have seen several people i cared about die... as in really seen. 3 of these were my fault.
today i watched a good friend die. as we were talking i watched him choke, asphyxiate, die, rot and then we finished lunch and he went to his shift at work

>depression, phobias, few other shit
>I had a terrible accident when I was 20 and disfigured my face. I was movie star handsome. Also depression runs in the family.
>changed me completly. you can call these the foundations of my personality.
>yes. suffering makes you wise. I can read the motivations of people but I cant read body talk. It also tamed me. Taught me loyality and morals and some other similar useless shit.
I think about the accident every day. I am no quasimodo but Im shaking when people take photos of me. Also I look much much worse than I used to, Im not living my full potential. I had it all, looks, wits, charisma. 2 is a goner. I still had/have good looking girlfriends but I could fuck 10/10s every day. I had the potential to reach the sky. I wanna off myself but my gf loves me more than anything and she keeps me going.

i have watched my wife die far more times than i could even count. some days i think i wish it would happen. i dont watch the dead ones any more. i only have to watch the live ones die

i wont make it happen again

i dont like this thread now. im sorry. i shouldnt have posted. i wont speak more. just be glad you wont see it. its bad. i dont want to see it. i keep drinking but it keeps happening. im really sorry if i brought you down.

Calm down brah. Everything is coo.

Type 3 ADD aka combined add
Went undiagnosed for a majority of my life because my parents were unaware of any symptoms beyond hyperactivity and because i didnt always fit the cliche they thought i was merely eccentric.
It doesnt help that I had always been smart enough to succeed despite my hinderances... so it came as a shock that i had to actually 'focus to succeed' in college courses
It was also thanks to a professor that i went to get evaluated and diagnosed

>have urges to cross dress and pretend to be girl on Instagram
>I hate myself for it
>have a ton of followers who legit think I'm female
>trying to suppress my feelings in the hope it goes away and maybe I can handle a decent relationship

Sauce?

bipolar disorder type 2 , 16 y old when I was diagnosted

Major Depression, social anxiety, anxiety, probably bipolar

Known diagnosed and I hate to be that person or special snowflake which is why I never really say I have any real problems in real life, pretty much 95% of the time think about killing myself somehow atleast 15-30 times a day, since about age 7 or so. Dad heavily abused me and was a alcoholic and also probably schizophrenic, mom also ignored it and also has diagnosed ged or major, one of those. I always also have this feeling in my chest like of major impending doom, like something could kill me with in the next second. It's not fun and most people don't understand the amount of effort it takes to falsesify emotions and make a facade for yourself, I experience this "loss" of emotion awhile ago, and I don't really most of the time feel genuine emotion. since all I feel for the most part is pain and a deep sadness, i can it handle it more now since it's just been a part of me but doesn't mean it doesn't have its issues. I could have some other things I'm undiagnosed for at this point but I feel like nobody really cares and most will just look at this post as a special snowflake tumberlina post. It's whatever though, thought I would contribute. Idk what this other thing is called but if I get to void of any type of feeling I'll tear of the skin off my fingers and prod into it to cause pain, so I can feel something for a bit. It's nice, because it allows a sharp rush of adrenaline and then a release from the pain. A repeation of it always results the same.

Meant to put not* diagnosed.

4degreez mental health website

>What's wrong with your head?
Paranoid Schizophrenia
>What caused it?
Genetics probably, my grandmother had it and my mother is slowly getting worse as age goes on
>How does this make you different?
Cant sleep, cant trust anyone, everyone hates me, cant be unsupervised because ill either kill myself or burn down the care home because i was told to or stabbed someone cause i thought they were a dog (which is why im here)
>Has this difference taught you anything?
Im worthless, i know my hallucinations are fictitious but jesus christ its 100% real in the moment. AND THE NONSTOP TALK AND WHISPERS NEVER STOP

And another fetish is born inside me

Been struggling with alcohol abuse for the past few years. Fucking sucks because I think it initially developed due to my having high anxiety for as long as I can remember. I hate that I didn't do more to stop myself from getting as far deep into a hole as I did, because there were several points where I knew I had a problem but wasn't doing much to steer myself in a better direction. I'm a lot better with it now than I was a few years back, but I know that I will have to deal with it for the rest of my life pretty much. It helps to just write that out and say it

Borderline personality disorder struggle with handling my emotion in certain ways.

>internet crybabies: the thread
Depression and anxiety literally aren't even real, therye what special snowflakes like you fags make up to feel special, you're literally no different from the tumblr fags. "Mental illnesses" threads should just be renamed "give me attention for my falseifications" thread because that's all these threads are, a bunch of pseudo science bullshit accompanied by soft spineless crybabies who have nothing to do but sit in these threads all day crying to each other and jack off to traps. Neck yourselves, prolifigates.

How can you flashback to something you never experienced in the 1st place?

Cyclothymia, Depersonalization disorder, PTSD. Latter two caused by a combination of genetics and a rough childhood, former probably genetic or congenital. Sometimes I have highs, sometimes I have lows. Sometimes I feel like falling on my face and not waking up, sometimes I happily chunk information into my head, and bask in the estacy and wonder of the world I can't control. I get anxiety attacks in social situations often, but I've found ways to deal with them often on the spot. I'm still emotionally stunted in some areas, but slowly, I'm losing the near constant level of flight-or-fight I naturally exist on.

I've spent the good half of my life learning how to cut through mental fog, to reach the outside. To actually believe it. I've learned to love myself again, to re-evaluate and replenish my self-esteem. I take criticism easily, because I'd learned to desperately question, critique, and attack things from all kinds of angles. I also take criticism easily, because I have spent a good chunk of my life feeling like the backseat driver, consistently observing and taking apart all my actions in a truly dissociative way- sometimes, I or me still doesn't register like it should. I find reasons to smile when I want to float face down in a pool- I've learned to behave and act in spite of my emotions, but also to embrace them when appropriate. I'm painfully aware of my behaviors. I occasionally have to recite to myself in my head, more than once, that I am me, and no matter how I feel, I can be culpable for, and take credit for, any action I perceive. I'm me, I'm real, I'm here, these are my hands. I'm good at listening to, and reading people.

In short, I often feel like I'm floating in a temporally displaced abyss. That makes any moment of clear regularity a piece of cake. On the flip side, the unflinching consideration and regard I hold for just about everything puts off some people. I don't mind, life is short, and I feel like I've been in a timeless void forever.

Water seeks its own level - and here you are.

Bait, but just in case, when your missing a chunk of your brain
>frontal cortex
and you no longer emote, it tends to be very real.

>your
>you're

I’m a Vietnam veteran and I drifted into a small Washington town in search of an old friend. I was met with intolerance and brutality by the local sheriff, Will Teasle. When Teasle and his deputies restrained and shaved me, I flashed back to my time as a POW and I unleash his fury on the officers. After narrowly escaping the manhunt, it took my former commander to save the hunters from the hunted. Fucking wild man.

pic made me lol, post was tl;dr

It's frontal lobe, not frontal cortex you tard. Frontal lobe is responsible for decision making and common sense usage, and cereberal cortex is Associated with your thought and actions role process.

Undiagnosed Bipolarity (idgaf)

I really don't know the cause.

Some days I don't talk. Some days I'm a loud, irritable prick. Half the time I'm somewhere in the "normal" range, but still noticeably going through whatever phase.

It's taught me to cope with being sad, especially since I've got a lot of practice from random depression. It's taught me to care less, if I can forget about other people while I'm manic I can do it whenever I want. It's also allowed me to truly evaluate myself. Most people aren't able to judge themselves from a neutral standpoint, so what I did is I took my self assessments from my worst and best points and found the median. Turns out I fucking hate myself no matter how I feel, and for good reason too. I'm unattractive, unconfident, and I'm shitty. Maybe that's the depressive phase talking though.

Oh, look at that, I guess I meant to type Prefrontal Cortex too. Where, again, if you damage that, enjoy trying to make decisions on a whim without waffling. You know, decision making, common sense usage, personality, will to live, telling "good" from "bad".

Thanks for helping me clarify, user.

Top zoz

I’ve been spending my last year around an old friend of ten years who has gradually developed worse and worse symptoms of borderline personality disorder. I am not even the same person anymore. It’s killing me but I can’t let myself get away from her. I love her too much.

Have the same problem. I realized it when my dog of 14 years died and I felt nothing. I don't know who to talk to about this cause I live in a shithole of a country

>grew up with an abusive mother and a dad thats gone crazy and went to thailand to be converted to a born again Christian. Psychiatrist diagnosed me complex ptsd, due to this I have issues with relationships with other people, last week a close friend of mine dropped me due to a conflict. I kinda miss him :(

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You're a baby all 3 things happened to me except a sand nigger killed mine
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Loser.
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Bet watch dexter and think oooh I am the darknesss.
Pray. Was he a nigger? You may also have aids.
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Proof army is for spergy babies
Just do it already your mom is sick of being blamed for your problems.
Good on you you don't need her work out and work on your portfolio you could use this as your changing point instead of wallowing on Sup Forums
Stupid dopey baby takes drugs to feel better and blames mommy and daddy for imaginary diseases.
You'll be alright just sound like the typical goy.
Did you suck a gun while she sucked penis? Cuck.
Your young and not struggling to get by so you think your hot shit when you're nothing yet. It drives you mad when you're in school cause you think your esmarter than the authority. You'd make a great house pet like a bird.
Do you have a wicked sense of humor?
You've become a slave to the pharmaceutical jew. Only solution is intense sports.
Keep a diary
If I healed you today you'd dump her and forget everything you learned.
Link it here sissy boy.
>I hate to be
You even title your post like a snow flake does. Snowflake faggot.

I have bipolar disorder and it’s no joke. It didn’t really come to a head until I was 40 and had some things in my personal life and work that caused so much stress I became suicidal. I still struggle every day, but I’ve been on meds and therapy for about 4 years and I’m just now starting to feel better. I thought I was a sociopath most of my life because I didn’t feel things like “normal” people feel, but when things got really bad in my life it manifested in suicidal feelings and I tried to kill myself twice. If you find yourself having emotions that swing from euphoric to depressed on the regular I’d strongly recommend seeing a psychiatrist and therapist. I’m finally able to live my life without confusion, depression and psychological pain after a lifetime of not even knowing I wasn’t processing emotions in a healthy way. It’s important to know that you aren’t broken or different then “normal” people. You have a condition that with proper meds and therapy, and you HAVE to commit to therapy can be managed and even make you a better person if you get help.

> Whats wrong
Cant remember sht
> why
Because too much weed
> so what
Not smoking weed ever

Pedophillia, started having these feeling when I was 16

90% of ‚mental disorders’ are made up buddy. So is yours. Lemme guess - you have to pay for medications

90% of statistics are also made up on the spot.