Misc notes from a guy who's been awake non-stop since Wednesday on Crystal Meth.
> I'm not tired.
They're not kidding when they say it works forever. You do need to re-dose though, it's not literally one hit equals one day worth of high. But $10 worth I'd say is a full 24 hours of being high to me.
> It's not exactly like adderral.
It's not so great for mundane tasks and work you don't like. You DO focus harder on it, but you seem to zero in on your actual interests with meth, not misc school tasks.
> You can go from post-sex depression to horny as fuck in like 5 seconds.
And you can do this after like 90 hours awake.
> You fap forever and ruin your dick.
I'm getting shooting pains in my dick, they feel like they're coming from the urethra and while they're not really that intense, its a cringey nails-on-chalkboard type of pain that you think about for a while afterward.
> It's a really good antidepressant and this effect lasts for ages.
The intense cocaine-like euphoria of the rush is short-lived, even shorter than cocaine itself perhaps. But it has this lingering antidepressant thing going on where it's literally impossiblle to worry, criticize yourself, feel any-self-pity, or just anything ego-oriented in general. You just kind of do what you want and you don't really factor other peoples' into it at all.
> I get really warm feelings toward women while I'm on it.
Usually after a fap session I'll think about the chick I fapped to and get these warm, broad-smiling, "lovey" feelings. It's a bit like the 'love' feelings on MDMA but not as over-the-top.
Man you can just keep going and going and going with this shit. It's been what, like 100 hours without sleep now, and my mind's still going 1000 miles a minute,. It's kinda ridiculous but I don't mind because, well, you don't mind anything on this stuff. The ultimate 'wha'eva, I do what I want!" drug.