Alright Sup Forums im considering of killing myself my life is getting shitty if nothing fixes im done...

alright Sup Forums im considering of killing myself my life is getting shitty if nothing fixes im done, but my method may fail im going to overdose on oxycodone its 400-500mg each in each pill it is pure its prescribed to someone in my family, but theres only 11 can i kill myself with 11 pills of 400-500mg pills.
>inb4 dont do it
im not gonna do it yet unless everything fails and i get fucked a couple more times, im not gonna tell anything because ill sound like a little bitch just tell me if i can kill myself with these pills or am i going to end up like a vegetable.

Just jump from the bridge.

Goodluck and goodbye

Don't use pills unless they're cyanide.
Pills are so flimsy and unreliable in suicide that you're going to fuck yourself into a mental hospital long before you actually kill yourself.

Just go sky diving without a parachute.

i live nowhere near bridges
will it work though

bump i guess

you know what your problem is op? you care too much about what other people think, and you dont love yourself. the first step towards finding out who you truly are is a set of phases. first is depression/anger, because you have all this shit thats going on and no real sane voice can tell anyone to stop what theyre doing to you. you feel like the way you feel now is the package that comes with life. but thats so not true man. do you think white suburban sally whos getting fucked by black dudes hates life? no. and guarantee she has an ENTIRELY different perspective on life. And to top it off, even if you told her what life is really about, she wouldnt understand. you are alone in your intelligence op. but are you intelligent enough to figure out what the true meaning of life is? i can tell you right now. nothing. absolutely nothing. and thats your problem right there. youre a drifter. you have no place where you truly feel like you belong or where you feel important. you have a shitty life surrounded by shitty people. you try looking to the earth for your answer but all you get is the true "ugliness" of scoiety. but what if i told you thats where youre wrong, op? the earth has no meaning, no one belongs anywhere in this universe, we're all going to die one day. the TRUE meaning, is the meaning you want to GIVE TO THE WORLD. and all this stuff about being social, fitting in, beign happy, none of it really matters. youve been living your life inside your head, worried about stuff that never really mattered to begin with. all that life asks out of you is that you get a job and pay your bills. other than that, you can pretty much fuck off and do whatever you want. fuck standards, fuck everything, just care about yourself more and other people less, and focus on yourself. and one more thing. everyone lied to you. the secret of life isnt about being happy. life is tough as fuck sometimes and we wont enjoy it. and you dont have to. life is about being strong.

Don’t do it you have a friend that will miss you

>can i kill myself with 11 pills of 400-500mg pills
no

i mean your always my friend user, but i dont have irl friends i was sheltered and kept safe out of the ghetto i lived in.

I can kill myself if nobody will miss me?

Just get a Prozac prescription and a mail order bride or something, don't an hero

Just kill yourself now. It's easier than you'd think. Do you have anything important worth living for? I doubt it. No one really does.

They dont make a "400-500mg" oxy you fucken swine

People place death upon a pedestal because they're so attached to the corporeal world and all their meagre possessions. Many of them have deluded themselves into thinking that death is the ultimate evil, or the worst fate imaginable. This is not true. Dying is natural.

Remove your body, remove the mind, and the only thing that will be left is true purity, a sense of peace and eternal contentment that makes the world seem like a rudimentary waste of time.

If you are seriously considering suicide, I'd recommend that you utilize a more painful method than overdosing. It's your last time to experience something carnal, and pain is superior to all other physical pleasures. It knows no limits, and can grant you the most intense feelings. A man who does not die in agony might as well just be sleeping.

"Better pass boldly into that other world, in the full glory of some passion, than fade and wither dismally with age."

Don't use pills. What are you? A girl?
Trying to overdose on pills isn't a secure way to die. Most likely you will just throw back up half of them and the other half will fuck you into a mental hospital.
If you really wanna do it use a more physical way.
Tho I recommend you since you've nothing to loose, start over somewhere new, take drugs, fuck hookers, experience life at its fullest, then you can still decide if it's worth to kill yourself.

Sound interesting. Can you recommend me most painful method?

Suicide is such a selfish thing to do and I have no sympathy towards those that do it (unless it’s stuff like assisted suicide where you are in fucking agony every second of every day .e.g. late stage cancer. Being depressed is not a valid reason)

You are only think about yourself and it’s disgusting.

Even if you think that no one will care about you as a person when you are gone (which I find hard to believe in most cases. Most people grow up around other people so you are going to be known by others) there are also the people who will have to clean up after you. Find your corpse (not a pleasant experience). ID it. Contact the parents/closest relative. Sort out/pay funeral costs. Bury your body. Sell off your belongings and clear your house/apartment.

Go fuck yourself dude.

Fuck you.
Nobody will give a fuck when I die.

>there are also the people who will have to clean up after you
I will commit suicide in some abandoned place or in the forest, hope nobody will ever find me.

>Sell off your belongings and clear your house/apartment.
I have not much.

>unless it’s stuff like assisted suicide where you are in fucking agony every second of every day .e.g. late stage cancer.

Let me go into this a bit more:

What I mean is if you are going to die soon anyway but are in constant pain then it’s okay to do so. So untreatable cancer is a good example. As well as muscular dystrophy and those with severe brain damage.

Generally, if you're searching for a relatively quicker death, electrocution and immolation are some of the most painful. Severe chemical burns can also be quite nasty. Very intense. Full-body stimulation.

Evisceration is also another good one, but there"s always the possibility that you'll succumb to blood loss or enter shock and that would be boring.

However, if you are looking for something more agonizing, more gradual, and more intimate, I'd suggest destroying your body piece by piece at a steady pace. The relentlessness of pain is one of its most notable characteristics, after all, but some people don't have a lot of spare time or just act a little bit too impulsively and don't mindfully enjoy suffering.

For example, you could start by breaking a bone. It doesn't have to be anything massive at first, maybe just a distal phalange. You don't need to pulverize it, just allow the bone pain to develop and linger for a while. Then fracture another, and another. Test your limits and endurance to their fullest. I wouldn't suggest performing any amputations though, since then you'll lose those nerves. Build up a symphony.

A prolonged period of mounting injury culminating in death would be ideal.

>I will commit suicide in some abandoned place or in the forest, hope nobody will ever find me.

Where do you live? Some apartment or a house? Someone will eventually realise you have gone missing and call in to the police. If you have missed rents/other payments then this is probably even more likely and again just causing problems for other people.

Suicide (other than euthanasia/assisted suicide) is always selfish, no matter what kind of bullshit logic you want to use to convince yourself otherwise.

I don't believe pills of this strength exist.
But yeah, if you took 5 grams of oxycodone at once you would die.

Nice pasta!

EXIT

BAG

I wish everyone on here would stop being fucking retards and killing themselves with literally any other method.

You can double your chances by getting some potassium chloride and having that by IV drip while you exit bag. no coming back from that at all.

If you want to talk message me on kik dude -
you can vent or whatever - genna4u

Also OP if you are going to be a selfish cunt and off yourself don't do any of the stupid shit what this guy is suggesting.

Just even more selfish than it already is. A dead corpse is one thing. A mutilated/charred corpse is another.

hurry the fuck up op we don't have all day

Thanks, user! I will try some of those methods when I'll be ready.
>Where do you live? Some apartment or a house?
Apartment. Of course someone will realise, cause I live with my mother (yeah-yeah, sound pitifully).
>If you have missed rents/other payments then this is probably even more likely and again just causing problems for other people.
I'm not the one who in charge of payments.
>Suicide (other than euthanasia/assisted suicide) is always selfish, no matter what kind of bullshit logic you want to use to convince yourself otherwise.
Selfish if I don't see any point in my life? The one who selfish here is you. You think that people should suffer just cause someone will get upset if they die.

Btw, sorry for my bad english.

>A dead corpse is one thing.
Not to mention those living corpses you always come across.

>The one who selfish here is you.
If I were being selfish I wouldn't be posting in this thread.

>You think that people should suffer just cause someone will get upset if they die.
How are you suffering? If it is literately just "I am depressed" then seriously fuck you (If this is not the case then by all means elaborate). You just said that you live with your mother. You don't think that you killing yourself will make your mother depressed? I can guarantee if you kill yourself your mother will feel worse than you are feeling now.

Why do you want to die? Let's talk about it user, I was in the same place as you a few years ago

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>If I were being selfish I wouldn't be posting in this thread.
Maybe you just want to laugh on suicidal people. Make them feel even worse.
>How are you suffering?
Nobody loves me, I have no friends and probably will never have. I'm so lonely, it will never be better. And my social skills on really bad level.
>You just said that you live with your mother. You don't think that you killing yourself will make your mother depressed? I can guarantee if you kill yourself your mother will feel worse than you are feeling now.
Yeah, you're right. This is the main reason why I can't commit suicide now, but one day I will live alone and nothing will stop me anymore.

>11 pills of 400-500mg pills.
If it's actually that much then yes, that will kill you... probably. I have never heard of any pill having anywhere near that much though. If it's actually 40--50mg then no, not even close.

Your attitude is fucking terrible dude.

>things are shitty now so they will always be shitty.

What kind of logic is that? That kind of attitude will only continue to make things worse for you.

>Maybe you just want to laugh on suicidal people. Make them feel even worse.

Not at all. I am going to give you a little background from where I am coming from.
I have had epilepsy my whole life and it still effects me to this day. So where I live is pretty far away from the school I went to and where all my friends from that school lived. I almost never hang out with my friends outside of school because of this. I felt left out of a lot of things.

After school I went to college whilst all my friends went to university because the university I went to required a foundation college degree. This meant that I was a year behind my school friends and made it more difficult for me to talk/hang out with them. I was terrible at college. By the time I made some friends, college was over. On the last day of college I had a seizure in class in front of everybody. I hated this. Made me feel weak and powerless (as do all my seizures) but its not something I want other people to see.

On to university I made quite a few friends during my first week there but after that I regressed and ended up only talking to one or two people throughout my entire time there. Near the end of my second year, my epilepsy was getting increasingly worse and got to the point where I was bedridden and was unable to do any work. I was away from home and very uncomfortable with the situation. I had to drop out from university. I was given a year break to sort things out with my epilepsy before returning.

After I dropped out me and my family discussed the possibility of surgery with various consultants. We did all the tests required and all that is left is for me to make the decision on whether or not I want it done. Two years later I still have yet to make that decision and my epilepsy is ...

Just take a couple bro, it wont kill you it's pretty fuckin amazing, you cant die without experiencing this first

... still fucked. In the two years since I left university I have barely talked to my friends from school or university. These people have jobs/university/travelling. Their own lives. I am stuck in my room doing fuck all every day.

I am depressed. I have thought about suicide. I think its pretty obvious to see why I would. I can't blame anyone else for it though. The only one that remains a constant in this is myself so if anything has to change its me. If I want to talk and see my friends, I have to make the effort. I can't rely on anyone else to do that for me.

Wouldn't getting a bullet through your skull be the best method?

*cough* Giving into bait here.

I hate to be wholesome on Sup Forums Sup Forums of all places, and you not giving any details isn't really much of a problem, but I don't think it'd be much of a great idea to just off yourself what with you having the opportunity to have lived so long. I'm not a fan of all the peeps that say "life is shitty, deal with it," but life *is* shitty, but that's just a beauty to it. Life is pointless, but so are most hobbies. We live life to well... live life in another sense. I've considered offing myself quite a few times, but eh..? Not like that'd help. You killing yourself won't help either, now will it? You might think it'll be like getting off a long ride before you hurt yourself, but you'll really just be hurting yourself in the process.

Also paracetamol (a painkiller) should help you off yourself, but really painfully

Your story really sad. I'm sorry. You're really strong, I would commit suicide long time ago if I were you.

>things are shitty now so they will always be shitty.
It seems right for me, if I can't change anything now, then why would something change in the future?
>What kind of logic is that? That kind of attitude will only continue to make things worse for you.
So, let it be. I don't know what to do with my life anyway, don't know how to fix it.

It's probably hard to talk with me, I'll understand if you want to stop the conversation.

Yes, I consider this is the best way too. But not everyone living in Murica.

Seconding on the exit bag suggestion.

>It seems right for me, if I can't change anything now, then why would something change in the future?

Because you can make your own decisions?
What would make you happy?
Friends? Partner? Money?
What steps would you have to take to get there?
Do you have the motivation to do it?
If not, how do you find the motivation to do it?

Get some Nembutal

>Because you can make your own decisions?
My decisions are not affect anything at all, they all lead to suffers.
>What would make you happy?
Death, I don't want to suffer anymore.

Not OP, but that's not very helpful.
>What would make you happy?
Thing
>What steps would you have to take to get there?
Hard work
>Do you have the motivation to do it?
No
>If not, how do you find the motivation to do it?
Find thing that makes me happy
>What steps would you have to take to get there?
Hard work
>Do you have the motivation to do it?
No