Mmm, best of luck. Really. Hope to see you around in the future maybe with news that things found a way to improve.
I will let her know!
Hmm, physical dependence is formed through long term exposure to high amounts causing withdrawal symptoms when stopping.
Psychological addiction is when a person can't/won't quit because they face something they'd rather run away from. I'd start by asking myself this.
>If I don't drink today, then [blank].
That inability to stop my stem from wanting to not feel something, not think about something.
Also, there doesn't sound like theres an incentive to stop. If no one notices how bad it is, then they can't help hold you accountable. So you may need to let others know you're seeing some behavior you want to stop.
Also... as with any drug, alcohol *can* destroy a persons life regardless of physiological dependence. I'm not gonna soap box and drugs are bad mmkay, but personal experience has shown me so many lives that have been destroyed it's hard to ignore.... take it seriously, for you, for me, for those who would have stopped if they could.
Well, honestly it's so hard because not only is every person different, every therapist is different.
Also, MD's do charge a lot, and medication is a bandaid... it won't solve underlying issues... it can help in the process by removing symptoms that prohibit recovery, but an actual therapist that sits and talks with you, understands you and accepts you as you are, but works -with- you to help you achieve what you want, that's what you need.
I'd say start by looking into group therapy ala a PHP, partial hospital program. I think it may fit your immediate needs, but for long term care I'd call your insurance and ask about specialists in trauma. They are just as required to be confidential as I would be.